No New Post Indefinitely

I finished my exam yesterday. During the past few weeks, I totally have no desires to write post at all. Not that there was no stuff to write about, it is just that I no longer feel like writing it down. I guess blogging is not in my blood, it is just a popular trend that I was indulged in.

My philosophy on people is that people change everyday. They changed due to events they have encountered on that day. The change can vary depending on the impact of the event. People you see daily may change little by little day by day without you or himself/herself noticing. People you have not seen for 6 months might change to a totally different person.

Have you ever thought of when and how that person start to change? Could it be a day by day change that stretched for 6 months? Or could it be a huge impact of an event that happened the following day you have seen him 6 months ago and that person has been like this with insignificant day by day change for 6 months?

Whatever the truth is, I believe this philosophy of mine can be the basis against becoming a judgemental person. How often people start to judge others based on who they are or what they have done? When they looked back at themselves and noticed they have changed or matured, they would expect other people to notice it too and treat them with new found respect but they do not return the same gesture.

Looking back at myself 6 months ago, I changed my 'diary in austraila' blog to 'life diary' blog, stating how I was unable to stop blogging and now, I am going to stop blogging! I actually wanted to end it but decided not to as what if I changed and feel like blogging again tomorrow or after 6 months? Time will tell.
posted by Estan @ 3:09:00 PM (GMT+08:00). 2 comments

Reunited with my Soul + Conspiracy

How long was my last post? 17 days, the longest interval I had. I did see a counselor after my previous post. The counselor did not come up with any solution for me at all. However, the counselor did analyze my situation and expressed views which I had originally, based on my philosophy but got lost during the past few months.

It brought back the feeling when I started my Uni studies. The drive, the aim, the enthusiasm...etc. There was so much negative emotion built up inside me that all I could think of was 'nothing'. That will be a chapter in my virtual diary where the title will be 'The Void'.

After re-analyzing my situation with my regained philosophy. I manage to rejuvenate to my original self day after day(still processing). I hope the process will complete before the start of next semester so I can open a new chapter in 100%. I also hope that next semester will be a smoother ride instead of a repeated slice of history.

This is the last week of semester. Next week will be the start of examination period. There is no study week. How strange is that? For the past few weeks, students from all divisions were rushing laboratories, assignments and projects like the Road Runner being chased by The Coyote.

Having my 1st exam on the 1st day of the examination period, which is next Monday, does not help me or my fellow students in the same major. Tough Luck! I can honestly state that 90% of the students are still struggling with projects instead of preparing for that exam.

Something odd happened last week. Our tutor of 1 of the subjects told us that we could do our final laboratory after the exam and submit during the holidays! WHAT!!! My classmates and I were thrilled to hear that. The news lessen our burden a lot.

This is where the conspiracy begins. The coordinator and 1 of the 3 tutors send out an email to all students stating that all laboratories are to be completed by this week! We went to speak with our tutor again and she repeated with the same answer that we could finish our last laboratory after exams.

A group of students, including me, under that tutor decided not to consult the coordinator and do the final laboratory after exams. TOO MUCH STRESS!!! The most befitting scenario would be that those who submit their final laboratories after exams will have their marks deducted, so to be fair to students that are able to complete within the deadline.

The bureau that plans the academic dates must really re-evaluate their organisation. A lot of students has complained that this is their worst semester and not even the lecture nor coordinator...etc can do anything about it!
posted by Estan @ 9:44:00 PM (GMT+08:00). 2 comments

Liverpool, FA CUP Winner

What a great match it was! Liverpool's never say die attitude is admirable. I kind of felt sad for West Ham as they were playing really well. It was another coaster ride compared to Liverpool's Champion League final last year.

It was also a good refreshment for me as I am kind of 'not myself' lately. It is like I am 'in the void'. I am losing interest in whatever I do. Studying, exercising, socialising, blogging, just to name a few.

I am seriously considering going for counselling. That is how bleak I am now. Well, that is probably the last resort. I am going to give another shot at picking myself up the next few days. If it does not work, perhaps I should go for counselling.
posted by Estan @ 2:32:00 PM (GMT+08:00). 2 comments

Freaky Weather

My housemate and I went to buy groceries earlier today. On our way back, rain started to fall from the sky. We hasten our pace when suddenly, the rain became ice! Tiny drops of ice rained upon the city. My housemate and I ran as fast as we could. The anomaly (to us 'tropical lads') lasted for about 15mins.

The weather lately has been freaky compared to last winter. It can switch between sunny and rainy a couple of times during the afternoon. The night is usually cold nowadays, ranging from 5 - 15 degrees celsius. Below are 2 pictures taken from my apartment's window around 8pm. See how cold it was!!!



posted by Estan @ 9:24:00 PM (GMT+08:00). 3 comments