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i am happy. have been happy. haha :D I realised how light i have been since the talk. its amazing. and the way the talk went, it was something special and sweet. i have never felt so stressed and yet so comforted. thank you for understanding and being honest with me when i wanted you to be. hehe it was difficult but well worth it rite? and now whenever i study and i pause and think. that nite would come to mind, how you gave me your fullest attention, with your eyes locked onto mine. with you, i cldnt help but be real honest too. think i was too honest but i cldnt help it. haha :D but i knew u were happy too, cos u had a silly grin on your face. which you had problems wiping it off. oh well. i hope u werent too disappointed but the answers you gave strike me to the very core. they touched my heart and i am thankful for someone like you. ok whether as to we are meant to be, we will give it more time ok. wadever i told u that nite, came from the heart and i meant every single word said. ...
Lies vs truth
u know what keeps this family together? Lies... its when we start to tell the truth, the family starts to disintegrate, dissolves and becomes no more. strange huh? so who says telling lies are wrong? how can it be wrong when it keeps this family together? but the qn i ask myself is - would i rather live the lies or the truth...
Thank you!
Here's a little thank you to all you nice beings who somehow manages to make life a little easier for me to handle. for being you, for being my friend and for just letting me be me. for this i thank you and for this i salute you :D to my little gus thank you for being that sensible and matured bundle of joy and hope. keep growing stinky! I love you too my other half of my heart. to mumsie thank you for freedom and control. to daaaaad thank you for your love not expressed to moo thank you for dinner talks and weird emo-icon conversations. to siao thank you for listening and understanding. did i tell you how much i love you? well i love you! to my life analyser thank you for listening and understanding. did i tell you how much i love you? Well i love you! to twiggy twig thank you for being my twin (not like you had a choice). i heart you gal topenguin thankyou forjustbeingyou to Ediot thank you for rememebering to call to mr.choy thank you for listening ears and the word nar...
moosaid
moo told me i haf a few more days to come up with better reasons and to support my reasons. haha told her i will try and she asked for how long will i resolve to keep my resolves. i told her i will try, its nt my own strength but HIs . she says good at least u are learning to rely on HIm so much more. so for now i am just going to focus on HIM so much more. MrP, when you get back, its time for catch ups. i am tired of talking to myself. haha :D 5daysand2days
hmm
strange huh how u wait so eagerly for something to happen and when something does happen, it doesnt feel that exciting anymore. i guess that happens when u overly anticipate something and all the energy goes into the anticipating that when the actual thing happens u have no energy left what i find strange is also after feeling this way, i feel an intense amount of guilt. and i dunno why? it's somehow just there and it doesnt go away no matter what i say or do. so i try to stifle this sense of guilt by keeping myself busy. and maybe i will try to forget. ok this works but only for a while til the naggin sense of guilt returns. then after going thru periods of busyness and guilt, i start to ponder over why i felt like what i felt in the first paragraph. then it scares me sometimes how i think i am ready to take something on and the more i think about it. i freak out and then i get scared. so conclusion - stop thinking abt what i haf or am going to take on and just focus my mind on ot...
where are u my precious day brighterner? the days are getting really long and tiring. some days everything seems to go well and fine and its jus lalala. but other days everything just blows up in ur face. today is jus one of those days where its a good one slowing morphing into a bad one. imissusomuch . plsgetsurselfbcksoon. nonecheerssmeuplikeudooos. uknwicanbesodammnupsetannoyedwithsome1, anducomesalongbeingurself, makesme4gettiwaspissed. hahahaa. maybireallymseekinsolaceinearmsofanangel. maybttsyiduntelluabtmyotherhappeningsinmylife, lestucarrydem2 andtheyburdensu2much. denitwilbmyfault. imsrybutitwilb2sellfishofme2askttofu. iwilltelluabdemsoon. anducndecideifuwantotakethemon. ifudunidunblameueither. itakesome1strong2handlenonsenseliktis. itinkimbreakindwnsoon. plsprayidunstrtkillinpplewhoannoyme. justgeturselfbackherefast! okmy dear life analyser, i succumb even before his plane leaves. how horrible am i ? terrible terrible. 10daysand7days
happy and sad
Bossy has left for the day. something about not feeling too good. but me i am great, grand, fantastic! finally i feel a spark of joy in me. thank you. my life analyser say i am like spirit wings - free as a bird,light as a feather. i am happy. finally! A Happy entry i haf a new colleage and she is really cute. small like me and the same age as my other colleague. and she is a good cook or so she says. haha can bake, can cook, can make the house, has two children and a husband whose name rhymes with Den. haha see i am happy. i am even rhyming. though its just a pity i wont be stayin long in this company, i wont be able to try her chiffon cakes, her muah chee, her muffins and whatever delectable delights she can conjure up. see i am happy. i am using alliterations and big fat words. haha :D *yes i can hear you say: u make a very good lit student.. my Response: darrrrrrlinngg, i am, always have been and always will be one... words are a part of my life. what will i be without them? haha :...
shrrooomss!
Dinner last nite was at a very interesting place somewhere in Kallang. hmm i think we were near the Indoor Stadium. ok, oops! not Near we were at the Indoor stadium. the menu for the night was Mushrooms. of all sorts. the place is called mushroom pot. the ambience is nice. u cld have steamboat or just ala carte. i got confused wid the menu cos more than half of it was in chinese and so could only ooogle at the pictures. but the pictures caption did not help much either, there was also in chinese. oh well, anw, i tot it was a good chat. realise that it was different this time cos it was wid a fren worth chatting wid. OK DISCLAIMER: i am NOT sayin that the other frens i have gone out wid are not worth chatting wid but just that this fren is a close one and because of some misunderstanding, the friendship almost sunk. we managed to clear the air and just had a good time. so the cable got rolling and the kinks were smoothed over. guess i could say i appreciate honesty so much more. someti...
In the arms of an angel
My life analyser thinks i am trying to seek solace in the arms of an angel. oh my mum likes this song so i shall just use the title for tis entry. not that there is any particular angel in my life. well there are, many, not just one. so she suggested that i seek for a sense of renewal and love in the Lord not in the arms of an angel on this earth. (Why do i keep typing angle?) haha. better clarify but my life analyser did not say angel, i just decided to call it a random song title. since if u din know, sometimes my life is made up of many songs and their very interesting titles. when she said that via sms - two songs came to mind. one was the In the arms of An Angel (My mum's fave song) and the other all time fave which made more sense because i could sing the entire song and not just one line. hehe Deeper in Love i love this song cos of its really meaningful lyrics and its wonderful tune. i started humming it and everytime this song comes to mind, i get really thankful. cos it wa...