jermie

so i get out of sch... and realise that i have another problem what am i going to do with my life? shld i work, study or just slack it away? i have been waiting and wanting to get out of sch. and now i got that wish but... whats the next move? issit just me or something but i dun wanna face reality. i dun want to face the future. i dun evn want to knw if i do haf one... sigh... i am getting so tired of it all. i jus move on... but where do i evn begin? wad if the beginning is the end? sheesh... sometimes i wonder where is the eternal optimist that i knw or knew? bleah!

I am sick of guys and their nonsense. Argh! Why cant they be nice and straightforward? Why do they have play games that dont make sense and end up hurting me? AM I SUCH A HORRIBLE FRIEND? it seems like evry frenship i have with a guy just falls apart!? I just wanna scream! ARGH! ENOUGH! I dont want to have anything, anymore to do wid guys and being their frens. DISCLAIMER : this is not meant for every guy i knw but just specially for the idiots who hopefully know who they are though i dont think they will, considering they are idiots themselves.

freeeedomm! shant elaborate more. its fine. i will get over it in time to come. no sweat! cos i am JERM the pro.... but whatever that happened will probably stick in my memory for many years to come. it really has taught me a lesson. a lesson i will probably never forget. maybe it is a good thing that it happened. cos it really open my eyes to everything and everyone else. i sometimes get so irritated with myself. cos i am such an persismistic optimist or issit an optimistic perssimist? haha i have no idea. though i guess it is just me. i cant stay mad at someone for too long. i cant stay pisssed at someone for long. i cant stay sad for too long. i cant stay upset for too long. i cant be negative for too long. i guess its jus me...... so i revert back to being happy and joyful which is the old me. haha. well this time it is a lesson and probably a lesson i will never forget. haha bleah!