jermie

MERRY CHRISTMAS My fave time of the year! too bad there's still school to attend... damn! but nth gg to stop me frm enjoying it all the way! MERRY CHRISTMAS

hmm.. interesting. i told someone else abt someone.. haha. vague but i understand can already.. haha.. we seem to connect in some weird way but its cool. cos i fiNally haf someone to tok to and can jus say anythign i want. i feel like i haf been carrying a burden for a while.. cos i cant tell many ppl and they jus cant seem to understand why... i tried but i wished i din oh.. and also.. its almost like a trade off.. i feeL like if he can relate to me abt his personal life then maybe i can relate to him somethg abt my personal life as well.. and somehow it jus seems ok to let him. i dun usually jus tell my secrets to pple. they are ppl tht i can talk and trust wid. i find it out the hard way. so pple out there if u knw a secret of mine.. then you shld be honoured cos i chose u to be my bearer. and also T H A N K Y O U for being my fren and putting up wid all my crap... i am always and will be on the search for good frens and pple tt i can treasure and cherish evry moment wid. one ...

school starts the same wk as Youth Conference, my church camp. how disheartening! imagine, u spend the whole yr waiting for this one time when after listening to the msgs get encouraged and lifted up. and alas sch has to start the same wk as it. so irritating! sometimes i wonder why do i hate school so much. jus why? it seems like such a horrible place to be in esp during the holidays. theres even a xmas tree in school. for the first time, i would think. can u believe it? a XMAS tree in sch? who has sch during xmas? ME!!! thats who... sigh. it gets more and more depressing evry passing day. oh and something else, it doesnt help tht the lecturers are mean too. they complain to us tht tis sch term has so many holidays like xmas, hari raya and CNY and so they must give us all our wrk before we go for them. otherwise, they would die marking theM. so tis sem would probably be rush rush and more rush. even the lecturers say so. and sadly, or shld it be happily, tis is my last sem...

isnt it sad? that my semester is already screwed even before it has started. amazingly, i got almost all the classes i want but nt the days.. and i was planning to do great things wid my time if onli i had gotten the timetable and classes i want... i was hoping for a shot at a very slack final sem.. looks like my wish will not be granted. these are the dream classes i wanted.... PHOTOJOURN>>> DOCPRO>>> and SCRIPT>>> well considering i got the last 2 it wasnt tt bad.but i wanted them to fit nicely into my wk so tt i mite haf a shot at a very very long wkend. and NOT like this. i was planning for a three day wk wid thurs and fri free.. but now looks like i will be having a five day wk... and sch on fri starts at 3 n ends at 5.. talk abt bad timing. so since i cant get photojourn.. i had no choice but to take TVJOURN>>> and lets jus put it tis way.. there wont much choices left on NPAL... sigh ... tis sucks.. why cant my last sem be a beautiful ...

im working tmr. its been a while of jus slacking and doing nth this few days. thks Juz.. realli sure wad u did but nonetheless at least i have somethg to do and some more money to earn. wonder hows tis kim person like? hope she's nice. man alive if she turns out to be another sharifa person.. tink i will jus scream! nt tt it helps much but at least i wouldnt be guilty of murder. as the days go by, i realise hw close i am getting to the start of school. yeeks! and becos sch starting in DEC.. i wouldnt be able to go for youth conference.. tho i knw ppl who are gg to skip sch so tt they can go. hw naughty... then again, it is my last sem.. maybe i can also afford to be naughty. haha so far, tis hols has been an interesting one. busy as well. wonder how i will make it to the rehearsals for xmas concert when sch starts. mite haf to end up skipping sch. darn i hope not. wont be able to live it thru man. and plus tis is my final and last semester..cant afford to screw it up. hopeful...

see the blogggy.. so nice ah.. haha. my sis help me change the template.. shld be learning how to do it myself but nah toooo lazy.. HTML can wait. interestingly, i seem to haf lose my interest in jotting things down in my journal.. i jus discovered a new way of doin tht. blog la.. i used to not like bloggin cos its so nt personal and evryone can read wad u are writing. i guess i am one of those pple who treasure their personal space alot. i need my own space too. freedom is how i define it. jus feel like rambling on and on today. today seems to be a nice day to ramble. din do much rambling today. was bz packing the house. huge mess the place is in now. wonder where we gonna slp tonite? bt for nw.. me jus wan some time to ramble. so lalala ramble ramble. haha hungry .. stomach growling...

who wants to be frens? i haf enuff frens to last me a lifetime.. do i realli need another one? well.. maybe the more the merrier .. but its been a while tt i have been serious abt someone.. so serious tht i allow him to get away with so many tings. and to touch me in places tht make me feel so good. my heart la.. c'mon wad were u guys thinking? but to touch me there, i will need to open it up. and nw i am hurt again. tht stupid ting has been broKen so many times, i always wonder how come its still functioning? amazing. or otherwise i am a fool... well.. sigh. and i tot tis time would be different.. lets jus be frens he says.. and tts way the cookie crumbles. i like cookies. sigh. questions questions.. i dun realli need them. so if u guys wanna ask abt wads gg on.. DONT! at least not for nw. cos i probbly wont say much either..

FReeodddooom is so sweet. at last i dun haf to wrk anymore. well tis is great news but me now down with the flu... theres also somethg else tts eating me inside. i feel as if i am dying inside. sigh. went to sentosa the other day. it was fun.. the sun was good. the company was great and i was exhuasted at the end of the day. juli .. told u we needed to tok and we did. and we agreed on somethg.. will tell u when i see ya. but tts the prob u see, somehw i agreed to somethg onli becos it was rite the thing to do. confused and vexed i said hmmm. but inside i wanted to scream and cry.. cry which i did when i went to slp the same nite, i was so upset tht it jus turned out and happened tis way. i tot tis time there would be a happy ending but maybe tings jus wasnt meant to be. abt the crying bit, i told myself i wouldnt unless its somethg impt but in the end, the tears jus came.. i guess it was impt aft all ... sigh. i am just so sunk now.. i want to get away frm reality . i jus...

i haf been doing nth but tht.. working tis few days. i am realli lookin forward to the date i stop wrk so that i can do my other stuff like clearing my awfully messy table. but i had an interesting time aft wrk. if u wanna knw wad happen then u will haf to ask me. not gg to say cos its quite sweet. haha. anyway.. been thinking abt graduating and all.. and theres half of me tht cant wait to gradute and get out of school but the other half is actually afraid of whats gg to happen aft tt? shld i work? study or jus slack? haha. kidding.. slacking isnt an option.. i will get so bored tht i will end up looking for somethg to do soon anyway.. so ya.. been praying and thinking abt it .. but who knws wads gg to happen? tts wad i like abt life.. the uncertainty of it all. amazing thing life is .. realli amazing.. lala. me gg off.. watchhign CSI miami.. hot hot show.. haha.. bye bye ..

it has been a verry long semester. and at last its the last day of sch at last but.... there's jus so many thigns to do. it suddenly feels like the week will nvr end. i am tired. i need rest and i need help. but i am nt sure wad kinda help i need. maybe jus someone or somethign to listen to me. but at last one burden is done and over with. oh i got good news! i got a Job! yAY! comes the sad part i mite have to wrk during wkends as well.. no good at all. but look on the bright side, at least i will be able to earn some pocket money for myself. haha.. but wait til i get my pay chk before asking me to treat u guys la. have some mercy ok.. oh i will neeed someone to remind me to ask EUG out soon for dinner or wadever.. looks like i will be book during the hols. a damn short one so lemme jus enjoy it. while i will prolly moan abt the fact tt i will need to be in sch during dec.. moan and whine and moan and whine.. oh jus dun get me started.. maybe durin the hols i will be able t...

i am so tired tis few days. so many projects and so many things to do. but tts the life of a mass commer i guess. no big deal i guess, i haf been in it for 3 yrs soon. haha. me gg to graduate soon. yay! so exciting! wonder what i should do when i finally graduate . i got a rough plan but i need time to carry it out. wonder if time will actually be on my side? maybe.. aft all i am still young. lala. me happy nw. a bit too tired to care actually. things are starting to heat up so lets just get a move on. will keep u updated. there's a reason why i dun blog and i cant seem to remember wad.. nvm.. i will u p d a t e again. hahah -jermie -

damn it. i still dunno how to use this stoopid thing called a blog. pple! do me a favour! STOP telling ME to do something to my blog. otherwise one day, i will come after all of you with a very GOOD one if only i can wrk it. hahah.. but nvm, my trusty not so 'little' sis will help me with it. so to juli. i did do it myself. the writing part but the html part er, lets jus say i got help. haha. and juz. i will need ur help in updating this thing called a blog so ya. HELP!? otherwise juli say i dunno how to use agaiN! argh! -jermie-

maybe i shld start calling myself ms COnfUsion ... every little thing starts to confuse me. no way man, i was toking to a fren the other day and i jus kept rambling. eventaully makin myself so confused that i stop toking for a while.. throughout the whole time my fren was laughing his head off... man i seem to be the bigggest joke ard!!! @#$%! haha   after there was silence, my fren asked if i am tongue tied .. haha i was.. considering that i dun normally get my tongue tied .. haha.. sigh.......  wads wrong wit me man? haha  

the damn com craShed.. now how i am gg to get my work done??? sian man   -jermie-

this is so tiring! i need my sleep.