Alarming Message

A post pop up from Facebook which makes me reflect on my life all of a sudden. Yes, I have only 4 months of 2016 before another new year arrives. 2016 has been good to me but I have a new goal in mind. And for this, I need a healthy body. And of course, having a healthy body is always my goal for my whole family. What is more important than health?

Sad to say, I fail in that area. I did not really take good care of myself. I did start to eat simple and I have reduced my intake of processed food. I have been sharing food with CaitLyn as her diet is super healthy. When I need titbits, I munch on white and black sesame seeds. I cut down on chocolate intake and restrict Nick to buy any ice cream back home. Yes, I am an ice cream monster! I can snack on one bar per day till I kill the whole box!

But well, I did all these just for slimming down! I need to exercise! I need to! But I am lazy and tired to start! In order to exercise, the ideal plan is to get up at 7am to eat, exercise and cook. After that, I will need to vacuum the whole house and wake up my toddler. When my toddler is up, my super busy day begins. I need to sleep early to make my plans happen!

If I sleep early, that would mean a cut-down on my ME time and I need it to keep myself sane. I would surf the net and whatsapp my friends till 1am. 

I know is a mess. A luxury mess. When can I get the determination to sleep early? And I thought this "2017 is coming" message is alarming enough. Well, bet it just reminds me to get my motherhood life more organized. 

Duh. Jia you Mummy Carole! 

YearninG

Somehow I know it may not be possible. But I am 6 days late. But I still wanna have a false hope that it is true. Although deep inside me, I think is only a 50% chance. 

I have been wanting to have, but not him. We are not on the same page on this. Reason being financial difficulties. Well, to me is just an excuse. I can feel that his possible fear of not having the yearn for it.

We might not manage if I really get what I wish. But life is always full of challenges. But he is not in good shape himself.

Meanwhile, just to blog this as a memorable joyful feeling. The possibility of having it.

But the truth might be.....