Motherhood

The day when Caitlyn is born, joy filled Nick and me up. She is normal and healthy as she cried loudly. My first question to my gynae was "Is she normal?" Nick was very surprised at how fast Caitlyn appeared before us as I am unable to push her out although she was crowning. My gynae used forceps to assist her out within seconds! I remembered Nick's happy face when he saw Caitlyn. Caitlyn was placed on my chest soon after birth and she has her first suck at my breast. "A very good sucker" is what came to my mind. A gush of love filled me up and from that moment, our whole life is about her, Xie Qing Ru, Caitlyn. :)

It wasn't easy taking care of her from the start as she is premature and I am tested GBS positive so there are a lot of things to look out while taking care of her. And she choke on my breast on the 3rd day after we took her home and she turned blue. This incident left me a great amount of phobia and it took me about 3 weeks to breastfeed her again. My one whole month of confinement are HELL to me as it was filled with episodes of Caitlyn being hospitalized and my engorgement.

 Day after day passed and my family supported me a lot and Caitlyn put on a lot of weight after I latch her on. She is a proud fully breast feed baby now with a weight percentile of 90!! That is a lot right? I have decided to train her on 3 hours feed instead to cut down her percentile. Mummy's and Daddy's hands and fingers are aching! My dear little girl is 2 months and 3 weeks old now. Not exactly cause she is born at 36 weeks and I am glad to say she has meet most of her milestones. She is a very drowsy baby still. :) Her weight increase is my report card to my breastfeeding.

A baby change our life completely. We have no more ME or WE time we cannot sleep peacefully throughout the night anymore, no more late mornings to wake up, no more slow and easy meals, no more facial masks and manicure time. It is tough but I am grinding my teeth holding on, all for the sake of my only girl. No one can replace the amount of love I have for her.

  -This new found love. Mothers. They are noble.-

Entering third trimester

Getting happier and happier everyday and definitely very looking forward to the arrival of my baby girl! I am feeling more of her kicks, movements, hiccups, rounded ankles and it is so cute!!! Imagine your tummy to wobble like a jelly but is because you are having a new life in your tum tum. This feeling is so sweet, happy, blessed and hard to explain and everyday you just love this new being more and more. No wonder mother's love is so noble!

Only a mother knows another mother! I am listening to her cot mobile's music now while blogging and pleasant images are in my head now with she sleeping soundly in her cotbed. I could't want to be frightened by news of endless crying of a baby yet. Yet? Well, I have been in childcare line myself for years and has mastered a certain level of tolearance towards crying so I hope it will not be a problem! Reaching 32 weeks of pregancy, I am starting to organise her stuffs and hubby and I are so busy washing her stuffs. We are blessed to have lots of handdowns clothes from friends.

Still deciding if to confirm her christian name as "Caitlyn". Named this and it starts with "C" (Carole) and ends with "N" (Nick). The meaning of her name is PURE. Hmm, mama Carole needs more time to think. Seriously, I think the hardest part is to give my precious a name!!!!

  -I wish you health and happiness,my sweet daughter- -Mummy and Daddy loves you very much-

Year 2013 first post

Yes! Back! And with an extra member in my tummy. My little baby girl! Life is really so interesting after marriage! First, I got a house and out of joy and pleasure, my husband and I received a gift from heaven, just when I am asking myself what is my next goal.Everything just falls into place by itself. This is life. My next step will be motherhood. Motherhood starts the moment when I am pregnat. Although it is a rough start as I have all the "NoNo" syptoms of first trimester,I am enjoying my pregancy now as I feel my little girl's movements in my tummy. The more I feel her, the more I loved her!At first, I could only feel her at one place of my tummy. Now I could feel my top and bottom of tummy moved together when she moves! Sometimes my whole tummy wobbles! I tried putting a soft toy on my tummy and in 5 seconds time, my little girl moved and the toy dropped. Keke! So cute! I have started to buy my little girl's barang barang and Daddy Nick has to move his butt to clear our study room and built racks for our storeroom. Mummy Carole has to quickly go shopping to use up the vouchers for baby's shopping before third trimester hit. I am walking more slowly now as breathless is catching up. Little baby is growing well in tummy! :)