LIFE IS FULL OF CONTRADICTIONS

Seeking for a job...

Typed my resume and have just sent it to Huiling as she said she will helped me edit it. Have browse through the joblist from NCSS and none of them are what i want. I hope i can see more job opportunities in these few days. I wish my next job will be a good one!!!

Have been starting my freedom life....woke up and exercsie at home every morning. I still have some errands to run but are still not done yet. ANd that, includes, sending the letter to update my passport!! Aim to go out of my house tommorrow to run my errands.

I hope i will not rot till i very sianz. heheheheheh~

Year 2009 is ending and year 2010 is coming!!! What have i acheived in year 2009?
- A husband-to-be
- A diploma in counselling
- A more mature mind
- A more stressful life to be.... :(

In year 2010, it sounds scary as i have new expectations....
- To get my wedding shots PRETTYILY done
- To have my wedding happily held
- To be a good wife
- To get along well with my in-laws
- To maintain good r/s with my own family
- To be able to visit my hougang home twice a month
- To get a good job
- To continue my degree
- To save $ for my new house

Wow....it is the first time in my whole life that i have so many resolutions!!! Woooo!!! Pressurized sia...really...i am feeling the pressure of getting married...the pressure to be a good wife, a good daughter-in-law, a good student...Why must i be an angel all the time??? Sometimes i feel like being the demon and breaking the rules. When this mood came, i LOVE to look out for my secondary school pals. They are the craziest friends i have!!!

Beware....the demon is going to be back......

Obviously, i am a 50 50 person. Not an angel and not a demon. I need freedom and an interesting lifestyle. I am living in a VERY peaceful,mature, blessed and GUAI lifestyle ever since i meet Nick. I haven't been clubbing!!!! Ok, i should not move backwards. This is what Peiling remind me. Damn it, i am 30 years old already!!! God....I contradicts every statement i said....

cool cool cool.....what will come will come.....

Last day of work
On my last day of work, my supervisor actually bought my chinese teacher and me both a christmas gift and treat us to lunch. Well, forgetting all the bully acts she did to me, i tried to talk to her as per normal. After the lunch, we bid goodbye and the chinese teacher is so upset to part with me as she feel that we would not meetup that often anymore. I told her that we can always meetup anytime. We have a goodbye hug and i could see her sadness in her eyes.

Although there are a lot of unplesant moments, but there are a lot of enjoyable times too when three of us worked together. We used to joke,discuss about our shopping items, exchange comments on how we dressed, exchange a lot of life stories that happened around us. But due to insensitivity, our relationship with our supervisor drifted apart. I used to treat her as a friend but not now.

Here are my last few pics of Joyhouse.


Chinese teacher and me.


Us with chinese teacher's favourite student.


My faourite student.

Christmas Day
On Christmas day, Darling and me head to Siloso beach. He has told me before that he loves to build sandcastles and i wanted to do it with him. But the thing is that he hated Sentosa. He don't like Singapore's beach as his hobby is diving and he visited so many pretty beaches before. Well, seems we are stuck in Singapore, Sentosa is the only choice right? Whenever he is unhappy, he will go grumpy. So there he is at Sentosa, being grumpy. Complaining about this and that. At first, i tolerated. Soon, i burst out and told him right at his face about his attitude. Seeing how unhappy i am, he soften down and decided to close his mouth too. This darling ahh...sometimes really very buay tahan one lei.....


We built this sunmonster!!! Darling dug a big hole from the beach.


Grumpy darling and me


Me with monster!!


darling pretending to shit in monster.


Evidence of flabby meat hanging on me.


Gosh....my large pores plus red cheeks looked like strawberries!!


Darling loved my look in this leather jacket!! Say i look very cool!!! What do you think?

New Zealand
Darling and me went to meetup his friend and family for a gathering as they just returned from New Zealand. They are already PR there.The wife, Madeline, chatted with me while Nick and her hubby chatted away. Madeline and I have a long chat about New Zealand. I have always wanted to go there since I am young! She told me about her house, her self-planted vegetables and fruits, her self-made meals with the veges and her ever-friendly-and-helpful neighbours. She told me that kiwis (citizens of New Zealands) love to chat!! They can just greet strangers and shared their day with them. When they are paying at the cashier, it is normal to spend 5 minutes talking to the cashier and the rest have to wait patiently! There is no hurry for the Kiwis! Their lives are filled with activities.They go for cycling, sight seeing and skiiing. If you are down with flu, the GP will not give you medication, you will just have to heal yourself! She love the people and lifrstyle there! But the downside is that they have to contribute 34% of their pay for taxes. Although hospitalisation is free, the taxes are to pay for hotlines, to support the elderies,sick or the ones that are not working. In New Zealand, you are either the richest or the poorest.Having said so, their income can only made ends meet. Although they love the lifestyle there,they decided to venture back to Singapore for about 4 years to earn enough money and secure a higher position back in New Zealand so that they can have a better life there. Ohh...i really wish to visit New Zealand!!!

Yesterday is the most unlucky day in year 2009!!!!

Early in the morning, i got biten by a 1 year old plus boy when i try to stop him from running. During my second class,I punished this 3 years old girl and she got so agitated and she kicked me. I warned her by saying "Can you kick a teacher?" and she stopped. These are just SMALL cases!!

In my afternoon class,i have this cute little boy who is smart by nature. He is very sleepy and actually fell asleep during my class. I allowed him to play with a puzzle and called him back to do his work. Soon, he fell asleep again. I asked him to work with the puzzle again to wake him up. Seeing that whenever i asked him to work with puzzle, he will became awake, i decided to do work with him when he is playing with the puzzle. I walked to him,sat down and told him that he need to do this first before he played. Suddenly,he grab my NEW FRAMELESS SPECTACLES that cost me 200+ and crench it in his fist and shouted "I want to sleep!!!" and he started crying. I am so shocked to see my specs twisted in his hands and i calm him down and called him to return my specs to me. He let go and when i took my specs back, he started to hit and punch me. Wow...I am totally in shock. Who knows that just a 4 years old boy can get so violent. He even started to throw his toys. As it is time for the lesson to end and i need to rush to my assignment, i got to hand him to another teacher.The teacher try to calm him down but he beat her too. i told her to leave him alone.

Feeling very angry,upset and shocked, i rushed to my nearest optical shop, hoping to get my specs fixed. The staff says that my frame is very fragile and it might broke.She told me to take my specs back to my original optical shop. So being a blind cat, i took a bus from my work place and reached my optical shop near Junction 8. The staff there say that my specs is GONE CASE!! Needs to top up 69 to get a new frame!!!! And i just bought it less than a month ago. I am so angry that i feel like crying. And i need to rush to my attachment place. How could i possibly know where to stop??? Teh staff there told me to claim the money from the parent.

I told my darling everything and he is so sweet. He went all the way down after his work to accompany me to take a bus down to marine parade for my attachment. And when i reached my attachment place,my client is not IN!!! It is the first time!!! Luckily i went to submit my assignment too. Else it would be really a waste trip!!

Today morning,the little boy's mother actually called my centre and looked for me. She got to know the incident from the chinese teacher and she apologized to me. And she offered to pay me back for my specs. I am so glad that she offered!! And when it is time for me to go home, she reached my centre with freshly self-baked muffins to apologise to me.

I am so lucky to meet such a good parent. And am so lucky to have such a good boyfriend too. :)

Another new item added

Went to compasspoint the other day and came across this counter, Laneige. Was attracted by Song Hui Qiao face so i just went in and asked if they sell any items that can help us sculpt our face. The promoter tells me that they don't have but they have product that can even out our skintone, moisturize and highlight it. So she show me this little item. It has two products in one bottle.The one on top is a highlighter balm and the liquid in the bottle is its makeup base.


She told me that Koreans emphasis on this a lot as they like natural and very well polished look. It is applied after our usual skincare routine and before our makeup. So she tried this product on one half of my face.The texture is light. It really evens out my skin tones as i have some redness at the side of my cheeks. It covers up my dark eye outer corner too! And it's highlighter balm on top helps me highlight my face so that my features can looked more define. Am very pleased with the result and so, i am owning this now. :)


Snow Crystal Dual Base with SPF22/PA+ in PINK from LANEIGE
If you are interested to know more, click here

Am also finishing up my last assignment on my course now. I felt glad, contented and looked back at my times in ECU. I really enjoy my class and my companions there. I have a wonderful class who gave treats all the time. Our snacks would always be some bread bought by our caring course mates. The classroom is always filled with giggles from our classmates and lecturers when we held a discussion. I could say that this is the most wonderful course i have studied. One of my course mates shared that this course saves her marriage. I have never regretted studying this. And i hope i can bring what i learn to help the unfortunates out there...mainly children...or families of children who are in need. This will be my next goal. My resolution for year 2010.

Have been getting my new collection of makeup after my "makeup-house-cleaning". I have eyeshadows, concealer, mascara and lipsticks that have been with me for YEARS. Recently, have a conversation with my pals about maintenance of our skin. One of my friends actually said that makeup can only last for two years!! I went home and took a look at my drawer of makeup. Wow, i really need to do a cleanup!!!

Noticed that i have been using slightly more expensive makeup now. Some of them are proudly sponsored by my darling.

Jessie, Joyce and Guizhen bought me a foundation powder from Kose for my birthday. It is from the new range and is called Esprique Precious. The powder coverage is good but it feels quite light on the skin. The girls actually bought the special edition cover for me so it is much more pretty than this! The cover has pink diamonds at the bottom. :)


This product name is called Dramatic stay Pact UV EX from Esprique Precious.

As for eyeshadow, i have been loving this product from Kose too.I bought Black and purple. I am not suitable for the purple series and am loving its black series! :)


It is Fasio Gradation Deep eyes series.

As for mascara, i got this from recommendation from Lao Shi at my work place.


It is more natural and does not cause lumpy eyelashes even when you apply a few more layers.

As for blusher, i just bought this from shu umera this weekend. It is actually the same color from my usual rosy cheek color!! The salesgirl actually helped me to apply powder on my face first and with this cheek color again and it looked very natural. No more fake looking cheeks when i have my makeup on. :)


This is blusher in the shade of peach 47.

I just bought a brown eyeliner from Red Earth too. Will not flaunt about it as i have not tried the results yet. I have all along been very scared to apply eyeliner but i am going for my bridal shoots very soon!! Therefore, i went home and try to apply eyeliner myself and it is not as scary as it seems. Hope i will "behave well" when others apply makeup for me!

God, do i sounds like a promoter? OK, end of my vanity post!! :)

Change my blog outlook. Nothing special and nice but at least more space for my viewer's eyes. Soothing,plain and sweet. Well, sometimes simple is the best. Hee Hee.

Attended a marriage counselling course this Saturday with darling. It has one group session with 5 other pairs of couples. There will be two other individual sessions for each couple some time later. Our group session lasts from 9.30am - 5pm. It was a really rewarding session. We played games, shared opinions, hold discussions, learnt some new knowledge and wrote lots of "tiny love letters" to each other. *sweet smile*. The counsellor shares with us a lot of tiny clips from movies that has touching meanings behind it. One movie called "A story of us" features this couple's marriage life from passionate courtship to pathetic divorce. But still, they got back together. There is this meaningful statement that the counsellor in this show spoke.

"When you get married, there are six of you sharing a bed, not two."

Naturally, you know who are the other four, right? Marriage isn't always a bed of roses. We should get along well with our in-laws but still, draw boundaries with them.

We also did a tiny test on what kind of love language do we use to express our love to our partner. By knowing this, we can know our partners better. Nick's love language is "physical touch" while mine is "quality time". I overheard several guys have the same love language as him too.I never thought my love language is this until i did the test. I really love interactive sessions like these. Through these, i know myself better and i can see my darling really cares for me a lot.

Our counsellor also asked us what issues we like to solve. Nick say "differences" and another guy wants to know if he is compatible with his girlfriend. Yes, i think one big issue about Nick and me is tackling our differences and i actually wonder if we are compatible too. Our counsellor told us that if we want to be a better person after being with our partner, that is compability. Surprisingly, my darling told me this same statement before! With that, it struck me as i realise how much effort he has put in to make our relationship works, and how taken for granted i am. :(

We also did a girls only and boys only discussion on "how we communicate". I guess if Phyllis is here with me, she will get all the answers correct!! All the answers written is what Phyllis told me before. No wonder my darling always have headaches when talking to me. Because i did not know how to give him time to focus and process my forever-going-questions. :P


At the end of the whole session,our counsellor called each of us to choose a card for memorial. I choose a card which is about willing to change and darling choose one which is to let go of his past. This will be our goals. Now, we discussed our future with more hopes. I am really glad this session open us up. :)

I am definitely looking forward for my other two individual sessions.

I think he has spoilt me...he always gave in to me....always accomodate to my schedule....and now, he starts to insist on his own ways and we started to quarrel. He do everything for us i know. But i really don't like it when he says how miserable he is and the difficulties he met and always like me to do it with him. Am i a heartless freak? Am i bullying him? Am i too strong-headed when i don't like him to rely on me that much? Or is he too sticky to me?

God...i really don't know...i argued with him a lot these days...
He thinks that i care for friends more than him...
I told him i need freedom and i need to always hang out with friends...

I don't know..Is he holding on to me too tight?? Sometimes, i think i am so inconsiderate and will give in to him when a third party reminded me. Am i a spoilt brat now???

It's time

It's time to change my career path. Have been having disappointments in my working place and decided more that I should move on. Has been focusing more on my assignment now and soon, i will focus on searching my new opportunity out there.

Things happened around me. I felt that life is really in our hands. It's true that we will get ourselves into situations that may burnt us at times. Friends are often there to warn you and try to pull out of the situation. But at times, you may choose to let go of your friend and still buldge in for a try. For a try as there may be a new world out there? As there may be a change to our life? Soon, we may either get ourselves burnt or escaped and became stronger. Friends that are truly yours will stay at the other end of the fire to support you. Encouragment and love will be showered on you. But first, you need to admit that you are down with fire. You have to admit that you are hurt. You have to trust your friend to hold your hand and her advice will helps you heal. if you don't, you may apply the wrong medicine on your wounds and it may hurt you more.

My beloved friends, you know who you are, i hope you have the courage to come to the light of truth. Self-denial and self-reassurance in the wrong way can blind us.

Love is the next big SIN besides being the slave for money.

My mum's checkup results was more checkups. DOctor say she heard some heart murmurs in my mum's heartbeat so she need to do more test to check if it is harmless or abnormal murmurs. Her infection on her chest has cleared but there are still some shadow so the doctor gave her 4 more days of antibiotics. On 5th nov, she need to go back to do a thorough body checkup as age is catching up too. I hope everything will be fine after the checkup.

"Buddha, please protect and bless my mum."

Went to cut my messy hair today at Kimage in Funan. Went to Sonny,the hairtsylist who cut my stylo hairstyles when i am younger. He did a good job in cutting as my hair do not curl out like a total madness! And shockingly, he cut those dolly short fringe for me. Gooosh....still getting used to it.

Do i look nerdy??



Bought shampoo and conditioner too at Kimage and cost me 116 for all. Have been very focused on facial care too so went to Faceshop to get an eye serum. The first time in my whole damn life, i am getting EYE SERUM!!!! I do not want to have wrinkles so i think i better take some precaution fisrt.



Love the whitening serum from faceshop so decided to get the eye serum from there too. I am a Faceshop FAN!!! Almost every facial product of mine is from Faceshop.Today is my big spending day on "Maintainence" to welcome the big THREE on my birthday. Sob sob~

A lot of things happened in the past two weeks.

1. My mum got hospitalised 2 weeks ago. For the first time of my life, i am committed to taking care of her. Guess i have finally start to be more responsible of the family. I could say this course that i am undertaking now do helps me a lot. It helps me to treasure what I have now, to have more sense of urgency of what is happening to the society and to be responsible for myself. My mum will be going for her checkup again tommorrow. I hope everything will be fine. The fact that she is ageing really breaks my heart.

2. Darling has became very supportive and consoling till these down times. It makes me loves him more. But on the bad side, it makes me rely on him more too. oopsss...

3. Consistent attachment = Consistent housevisits to a family. Real made me see lots more in this reality world. in fact, it makes me feel more like going into social work. Because by having this exposure makes me a better person and i hope i can empower them.

- Carole Yeo...Keep this drive up!!!!-

Big sotong at the crossroad

Gooshh....with Jasmine's indirect more "pushing" on to my career path, i am trying hard to think of my next plan. I am lagging a bit now to complete my assignments and to find out more about the next plan of my studies. I am a pig now. OINK OINK.

Has been trying to close deals of tuition assignments for nursery students but met stingy parents who frowned at the slightest increase of price. Is not that i am money-minded but is the long distance that i need to travel to tuition their children that made me increased their fees. I will be teaching my twin sister's daughter phonics who lives at Yew Tee.

Job
a) Should i continue to tuition and focus on early childhood education?
b) Or Should i move on to be a human service worker?

Studies
a) Should i move on to master in counselling?
b) Or should i move on to study a cert in diagonistic therapy for special needs?

Ultimately, my goal is to work with children, BUT those who needs help. That will be when my counselling skills come in when i deals with their parents. God, I am at a crossroad now. I need to do my research before i turned into a real sotong!!!!

Give me a break!

And yes!!! I am enjoying it now!!! Hehehhehhe!!! Finally left with exams and a few hours of attachment to clock in. With that, i will be on my way to do my final attachment report and graduate!!! I am now at the criscross road of my career path.

CHOICE A: I can only be a social worker assistant with my dip in counselling. I am planning to take up my degree in counselling. If i changed my career to what i mentioned earlier, i will be loaded with pressure from work and studies. But the experience gained will be good.

CHOICE B: I can continue with my part time job and take on more tuition jobs but money still not enough! One of my friends actually wanna pass some of her assignments to me and the charges are good. Maybe i will take on her students and went on free lance. Money is better but travelling will be very tired. But i can manage my own time.

Oh no...so A or B???????

I am a SurvivOr!!!

Wow wow wow....tell me about it!!!!A social worker's life is really tough!!! Got to go knocking on doors to do surveys, got to run programs, got to work on weekends to and most importantly, I am impressed with their love and passion to help others!! Three cheers to them!!!

Am reaching the end of my diploma in counselling with my attachment.Have spent the whole of my holiday week at Marine Parade Family service centre for my attachment. Create a program for primary one to primary five kids. The objective is to build up their self awareness. Do it with 5 of my coursemates. There are late lunches, tired minds who burned the midnight oil, sweaty heads while holding the program, drained out bodies, arguments and hiccups all in one group. But i can really say, we came up with a good program. The supervisor of the centre rated excellent for most sections of our evaluation too. I felt most glad to see how the children who were initially closed up, angry and rebellious melted down...and started to participate in most of our programs. And at the end, they did brought back something with them. That are the morals of each lesson we taught them for one whole week through games, activities and craftwork. I could never have done it with the teamwork of my group. Although i may be too frank to express my dislikes to one of my groupmates, but i am glad she soften down and explains her situation to me.

Went to house visits in this week with one of my teammembers too. We faced a lot of funny situations together and also teared at some housevisits. Together, we support each other and she corrected my mistakes. We do feedbacks for every case and concluded which is the better way to do so. I did learnt that i am very blessed through this one week's journey.

Am reflecting if i want to be in the line of social worker before proceeding to the path of counselling. Isn't it the best to know someone's pain by standing beside her and experienced what they experienced? In that way, we can definitely helped better. But am reflecting if i can manage the stress of this job and studies at the same time.

Virgin experiences

Have my first two house visits this Tuesday. Objectives are to find out what problem the seniors are having and helping them to cope. It belongs to part of my attachment too. I selected two friendly seniors which i mentioned in my previous entry. Select the most friendly senior, let's called her "Madam A" as my first target. Went up to her house and she was very friendly. Offered me drinks and food and gave me some fruits too. I accepted them as i had a hard time rejecting. Hahaha!!

She tell me her stuffs, showed me her photos. I noticed how she aged over the years and feel for her. She is still very in shape when she was in her fourties! But once she got married, she aged quite rapidly. I shared this with the person who is in charge of my attachment and he looked into my eyes and asked me one question.

"So you symphatise her?"

Oopss....i know my mindset is wrong already. I try to twist and turn my information, afraid to admit this feeling. He added...

"You should emphatise and not symphatise...in this way, you can help her cope with her life as you must believe that she can cope with it."

Today,it's my turn to share my learning experience in the class. I managed to overcome my nervous genes by smiling and being funny and 38! I shared this story with my class and my lecturer wanted each classmates to list the differences between empahthy and sympathy. After all my classmates' sharing, although i disagree with some, i agree with these.

"Emphathy is by putting ourselves in others shoes and be empowering. Symphathy is to feel for the person too but not believing that they can cope."

"Although emphathy has to be taught,young children has hidden potential to be empathatic as they are not judgemental."

"The older we are, the harder for us to be emphathatic as we are not clean sheets of papers anymore. We went through a lot of life experiences."

Guilty as i am, i did wrote about these in my essays, learnt about these in class. But when it comes to real life experience, i am still lost. Virgin experience as it is, i definitely learnt a lot from my "counselling" sessions.

Cranes of love

Spent my thursday and friday at my attachment place. It is at QUEENSTOWN!! It is so far and the estate is full of staircases! Did not work these two days so no income at all. Sad sad!! On thursday, i went to help out with the "Songhe cranes" which is advertised by fm 958. Students from various primary schools folded up to 5000 cranes. Each crane represent 1kg of rice. If we can chained them all up and packed the cranes nicely, they can get 5000 kg of free rice to distribute to the needy.





It is a meaningful community project and the seniors are very committed in doing up the cranes. I spent my thursday getting to know the seniors. One of them even invited me up to her place! She keep smiling to me and was very happy when i am at her place. After that, went off with my 3 other classmates to discuss about the activities we need to organise for the seniors. Lots of Oct and Nov weekends are "sacrificed" for this attachment.Although so, i do not mind as i want to learnt the most from this attachment. I do not want to clock my hours just for the sake of clocking.

On Friday, Jessie joined me and she mixed around well with the seniors too. The auntie there who looked after the place cooked very yummy bohboh charchar with another senior-volunteer. They offered us this yummy dessert for our "high tea" break. It was nice to get up from my seat and stretch my aching bones which i get from sitting like a statue and repeating monotonous steps of tying knots. Sad to say, some of the cranes are badly done. One student even made a crane with FIVE pieces of paper and i need to fold them again. The poor seniors have a hard time "filtering" the cranes.I felt that if we want to help, we should do our best and not, obliged to. If one is obliged to, that makes more work for those who are really willing to help! Seeing packets of cranes still laying there to be thread up made me wanted to help more.



The seniors concentrate and put in so much effort to thread them up. They will arrive punctually at 10am just to do this mission. I guess it is something for them to look forward to too.


I have requested to have a few home visits to the seniors tommorrow. After which, i will continue to help out with the cranes and go for lesson after that. I bet i will be DEAD BEAT tommorrow.

Try and U will Know...

Went PRAWNING with my poly girls...a new and virigin experience but a nice one although not even one prawn loves me. :( By the way, i noticed Phyllis look so demure when she is with her boyfriend.


YEAH!!! Cool weather!!


Darling and me


All the poly gers, 2 married. Hee Hee!


Concentrating by the rod, except me.


Yummy looking prawns.

After that, we went to have our dinner at AJISEN and started to roll out our enthusitic plans to gather for more EXCITING events. Phyllis came up with a GREAT idea of having a adventure walk at Bedok area!! I did take a look at the webpage and thought it must be very thrilling and fun! Thought it was nice and something to spice up life! My darling doesn't have much response to this when i mention it to him. A sudden thought suddenly strike me. I think he is afraid of heights. Well, i will confirm with him again. And can you imagine, even my dream is related to this upcoming adventure event!! I dreamt i need to walk across something when i am high high up. Forget the details of the dream already. I don't know if i am too scared, too happy or too nervous about this. Ha ha ha!! But i am definitely looking forward to it! And and and although Nick is frustrated when he gave me a "bicycle renewal course" and we have a heat up argument again BUT i still insist hi teaching me. I have bad habits of

- Braking with my legs
- Reckless cycling
- Ignorance about brake
- Mount and alight bicycle with constant contact of banging on the NODNOD..Hahahah!!

So he taught me real hard to erase my habits but i am too timid to try.hahah!!

By the way, Nick and me went to catch the movie "Up" at Cathay at AMK hub.



It is a 3D show. God! I love this movie!! I love its colours!!! I love the colourful balloons, the colourful bird, the loyal boy and the silly willy dog. This cartoon is although a bit sad but is very meaningful! I wonder what is my dream and adventure i want with Nick. Hmmm....

~Hot CookIeS~

Went for another community project (part of my attachment) on National Day itself. It was actually the one year anniversary for being engaged but studies are more important!! So off i went to sell cookies to raise fund for camp rainbow. At first, i thought the volunteer co-ordinator, Alex would be there to help me endorse my documents. But no, only the campaign leader Vanessa will be there. I met them at the taxi stand of Raffles City and was shocked to find out that they were YOUNG students! Did not find out of they are promary or secondary school students. They were a bit YAYA when they brief us about the programme.

Me and my female classmate went to sell a few cookies outside the MRT station then we decided to head to esplanade. That is a wrong choice. There were many foreign workers there and don't want to buy at all. The weather is hot and we could not sell our cookies in MRT station and shopping centres. Very beneficial for us right? (angry look) So we have only hot sunny and mostly unsheltered places to go.It was soon lunch time and we managed to sell about 20 cookies only.

Met up with the rest of the volunteers to have lunch together and three of them have sold all their cookies!!!! So embrassing for us. After lunch, we spilt the cookies among ourselves and start to sell. The weather is very warm as it is about 3pm already. We can only approac them under the hot sun. They are impatient to stop and buy as the weather is very warm. My legs were tired, my face was sunburnt and my throat was very dry from the talking. At about 4pm, i left the place and went to meet Annie and Huiling.

Well, i think it was real hard to sell cookies for charity. Some merely walked away when you talked till halfway! It was a tough experience and i would never do this kind of community project again. No Street Sales for me!!!! NO NO!!!

-OuR BIg Fat JuiCy KiSSes-

Woo Hoo!!! Is JESSIE's birthday!!! Guizhen, Joyce, Jessie and I went to Kallang KBox to sing and eat. This place is not as crowded as the usual Kbox outlets and our room is real big!! We went gaga inside. Took pics, strike pose to look skinny, went into a kissing mess when we wish Jessie "HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~"

BiRthDay GiRL


Of course, it is not a mess of kissing on lips, just a mess of kissing on cheeks. And we snap the pictures as we took with her individually. Do we look obsence? :P

Joyce's bdaY kiss


Guizhen's bday Kiss


This is damn funny lo. Both of us so embrassed!!! hahahha!!! Both of us look so funny!!


Finally a proper take.


The best part is after our dinner feast, we played all Jolin Tsai's fast songs and started dancing away. Well, i could say that I am the more GILA and thick-skinned one, just dance away. Jessie and Joyce also joined in and dance. And it is real funny and fun to learn Jolin's dance steps. very difficult lo!! At times, the Kbox staffs will looked in but we just giggle and stop...and start again!!! Wow...this is call "Healthy Lifestyle", exercise just after you makan!!! Perhaps, age is catching up, we did not maintain our stamina for long.Hee hee!

Last of all, am real happy to know these buddies of mine. All married only me. And we sort of form the DESPARATE HOUSEWIVES team!!! We play, gossip and learnt good stuffs from one another. :)

Jia Lat

How la.....How????
No mood to do projecT!!!!!
Is the final module yet another damn boring module...
Gonna learn to evaulate if a program works...and not applicable at all in Singapore context!!

Just doing for the sake of doing...
Yet i only type two words...and that is "The program"...which is the title of the assignment. And the next moment i know, i am blogging!!!! ShuckS!!!

And bad news...H1N1 has mutated!!! Worse case in Hong Kong now...dunno H3 or whant N3... and my er jie, who is a nurse in TTS says if one get both virus, confirm die. God...i am weak...i better start exercising and watch my diet now... I still wanna get married, stay in my new flat and live with my darling...

Ok Carole Yeo....please scram and do your assignment NOW!!!!

My very first encounter

with................LIONS BEFRIENDERS of course!!! There were 4 of us involved in this same attachment. They are Umi, Aishal, Nadia and me. Typically, 3 malays, 1 indian and me, the only chinese!The centre supervisor, Eric is very friendly to us. Today is our orientation day. He asked us why we chose to work with the seniors and we told him frankly that it is not our first choice and we are posted here due to the random assigning of our lecturer. He let out a sad look. But we tell him that we are not afraid to try and are keen to try new experiences. That made him somehow, feel more at ease. Hee Hee.

After that, he took us around the centre. It is located at Queenstown blk 150. The blk opposite is blk 151, a blk of rented one-room hdb flat. And this flat is very special. A security system is attached to selected residents of this flat. Somethe seniors who stay there are in critical health conditions so this alarm serves as a security for them. Once they pull the alarm, it will be connected to Eric's office and he will rushed up to check if they are fine. If they are not, he will need to call the ambulance. After that, he took us to another service centre at blk 151. Coincidentally, the befrienders are holding an event for the seniors and so we can check out how things go. I noticed that the response of seniors are slower so the pace of the activity cannot be too fast. And very funny, they actually pull 4 of us to take pictures with the group. They are really a group of friendly people!!! That is why i always like to go volunteer, the people there are always there to make others happy and are nice people! :)

Went on to clock my community project hours so we stick along with Eric to proceed to another place near Bouna Vista to help with ushering. It is a befrienders and management meeting. Surprisingly, the befrienders are all above 40 years old!!! Same as old as 60 years old!!! And they commit every weekend to befriend the seniors.

So much for my first day experience as i am really damn sleepy now. hehhee... mUst faster blog this down as my memories are still fresh. Am definitely looking forward more to this attachment!!!! :)

Not enough money!!!

I am now reaching the end of my diploma in counselling. Going to struggle through one more module with attachment and lots of hours to clock for clinical hours, community project (eg. participating in campaigns, flag days....) and group work. I have started to find information on continuing my degree or all the way till master for counselling. I realised something. My current job can't hold the new fees that i am going to pay!!!! That brings me totally no mood to strive on the job i have now.
I do not want to stress my darling on this issue as he has enough worries of financial issues for our wedding and housing. So i decided that i cannot go on part time for so long. Although i can study with a piece of mind, but it is really not enough!

I am thinking of two alternatives. One, is to find a part time job with good pay, no matter what jobscope also can, for a few months. Second alternative is to keep a lookout for social workers job opportunities while i am doing my attachment. It is time i move on to this line after persuing my studies. I am only afraid the struggling of juggling this new job will crash with my attachment. I am still thinking.

I have came a long way....from IT....to student care...to montessori childcare...which gets me into interest for persuing therapist jobs for the young or helpless...that led me into counselling job....but to start with...i need to be a social worker first. Guess it will take me a LONG time before my career reach my ideal stage BUT this is a career for life that requires your heart and soul and passion.

Taking 3 days MC to recover from my cough is definitely killing all my mood to work..

Looking back

Yoo Hoo!!! Back with a revamp! Revame of colour...ReVamp of Picture....Was looking at my old blogs and SO MISSED the pretty things you can do!!! When i am at wordpress.com, I can only stick to its ugly outlook. The only pretty thing is the privacy.

Looking at my previous two blogs, i have noticed how busy i am with my career change!! Although i am still busy now, but i realised i have matured a lot. I am no longer so jumpy, 38, mad,gila as i am years ago. With the agreeing of wearing a diamond ring, and signing the contract of a property, i can feel the burden on my shoulder now.

And as the flu virus spread, many people are knocked down by it, needless to say, ME!Doctor has prescriped a very "effective" course of antibodtics to me and am on MC for two days. Am real tired of getting sick. Ever since i am with my darling, my weight increases and i seldom get sick. But after the damn stupid fever virus that struck me,my immune went low and i felt sick twice within a month.

Going for my orientation of my attachment this saturday. Hope everything goes well! :)