Tog i'll be cleared today... But haiz.... Came home with another round of antibiotics n other medications for cough n fever....

Was happy when I took my temperature this morning before I left the house for the follow up. Took 3 times n my temperature measurement was at 36.8, 36.5 and 36.6 lor!!!! Tog I'll be cleared and free of medication already. Sianz to the max when doc told me that I'm having a fever again at 38.9... I was like what!!!? Told him about the temperature I took previously and he reluctantly took the temperature from the other ear.... 38.8.... Well... Ok, nothing to argue, so I'm having fever again... Listened to my breathing and heartbeat and told me the bad news... The virus is not fully cleared. So i ended up with another round of antibiotics (2 types this time lor!!!).....

Time for medicine n rest again... Super seh... I hate u!!!

Haha... I should not forget that daddy used to be in the police force. He got all suspicious coz I'm at home for so many days already. I'll be happily going out even when i'm down with flu or slight fever. But these few days I'm just copping at home. Hmmm.... I doubt he believed what I say. Anyway, it's nothing serious lar, don want them to get all ganjiong n worried de.... Will be well soon~~~

Just now mummy suddenly say.... "Girl ar, good lor, u got free sliming program... U slim down during cny leh. Need eat more fruits lar, or buy vitamin, u always flu de..." -.-"

Eh..... I also don't wan b sick de leh........... I haven got to eat the cny goodies leh. Only a few pineapple tarts which Nat brought to the chalet.... This lost of appetite thingy is disgusting. Hate the bitter taste in my mouth~~~~ Hate that tight feeling in the chest and hate that struggling to breathe mode..... Make me feel so damn old lor. For goodness sake, I onli pass my 28 bday nia. Faster recover Ba!!!!

Gonna change n head down TTS for follow up. May the virus be gone!!!! At least the fever is gone now. Good job!!! (n.n)v

Blur.... Now then realized that my Mc include weekends..... Y did I miss that? Haha..... Blur.....

Do you believe that every cloud has a silver lining, and even the darkest cloud have a silver lining hidden inside? Yes I do now......

 

Imagine going alone to the doctor, thinking that you just have a persistence cough and fever for a flu then it turns for the worst (for a flu)... The doctor refers to the hospital, saying that you have pneumonia and you need to go to the hospital straight now and do a X-ray and maybe blood test... Afraid to let your parents know, so you lied that you are going for work after the visit to the clinic then go to the hospital alone... Imagine when you are alone and scared.... The feeling while waiting alone to have a X-ray scan and sitting there waiting for seemed-like hours and hours, using games on phone for distraction, preventing your imagination from running wild.... Then you are told that yes, you have pneumonia but it's a walking pneumonia (dono why he told mi that... might be I heard wrongly.....) and dont worry, it's not those that you need to be hospitalise but you need ample rest, antibiotics, stay away from crowd, drink more water and keep warm. It can become a problem in someone with asthma like you, so you need to ensure that you rest enough and the virus should be cleared in  around  1-2 weeks. Come back immediately if you are having asthma attacks or you still having the fever in the next few days.  

 

That's the silver lining I found yesterday.....

 

Now is only February and I truly learnt how to count my blessings. After 2 severe asthma attacks which landed me in hospital and a few mild attacks, and the recent pneumonia thingy.... I've learnt that every breath of fresh air is precious.. I'm happy coz I felt alive. Yes, alive!!! Another round of antibiotics and I'll be all good.. Hate antibiotics coz the pill itself is big, leaves a horrible bitter taste in the mouth and gives me the runs…. But I’ll be good and finish the medicines, rest lots and recover asap.. And to be quite frank, I am scared of death and I’m scared that my lungs will refuse to take in the fresh air, also I hate the feeling of struggling to breathe, being all lethargy, weak and wooby…..  

 

I’m always thinking and imagining too much, always thinking of the worst… But I guess I cant help it….. I should be thankful for every single thing in my life, either good or bad… It really doesn’t take a lot for me to be happy, I’ve realised….. I find that as I get older, I crave for the simple things in life…… I am Blessed.....  

On the way home from dinner and I think I'm running a fever again... Well... Will take a temp later ba... Seldom had the chance to sit, so better sit down and post... haha...  Had a small celebration in office today, and I never never like those celebration in my department. Everyone been 'forced' to contribute $10/- each, act happy and in actual fact, i wonder who will like it coz it's a waste of money and the food is never enough. Feel so fake... It's always a occassion meant for bootlicking.

This time round, I'm actually surprised that it's for me and Simon.... Ya, we are feb babies but we never get to have a 'celebration' coz of our position....... Small fry like us are to be ignored and forgo.... Haha.... I seriously wanna burst out laughing when 1 of them asked in front of me... Eh, who's birthday is it? Haha.... Seriously!? They are so good in acting that they actually forgot who they had just clapped and sang the birthday song for??? haha....

In the end, when I got to know that it's actually planned by Ju-ma, i'm touched. She made the efforts to get my fav food, top up the balance so that I can get to have my fav Holland V XO bee hoon.... Wake up super early to make Ginkgo Barley Dessert for me (she kept telling me that it's good for me). Despite having no appedite, I managed to have the Ginkgo Barley Dessert and drink the XO bee hoon soup with some slices of fish as lunch. Told her that we can always have a small celebration ourselves and why bother to include the whole department.... Guess what she says? She said... "No, we can have our small celebration and I know you dont like this, but it's about fairness. It's because it's for your birthday, so I dont mind to top up and do all these for you. So, now, dont say you dont have appedite and dont eat. Faster eat and dont waste my efforts." This seriously touched my heart...... Awww....... Ju-ma....... Love ya~ She the one who i always turn to when i faced problems, she's my mama who will always love me, care for me and help me... Always on the look-out for me.....  

Ju-ma, Ju-ba, Chris, James Bond, Alicia, BBQ and mi had dinner at Aaron's restaurant and it was homely... Haha... Lo Hei again~~~~~ Haha... Feels kinda weird to be sitting beside Ju-ba again after what had happened but guess it's still ok. A little weird but guess I'll make things worse if I suddenly say want to change seats. Fun to have them around coz our laughters keep filling the small restaurant.... The food is really delicious coz Aaron specially cooked for us and mind you, he used to be a big chef hor! Love the coffee the most and oh the asparagus is simply delicious!!! haha.... Wanna go on 2nd round with BBQ but guess I better listen to my body and go home rest...
Like what he and the doctor say, don stress my body.... Yup yup, i'm going to rest soon and may the virus go away... The headache, the chest pain, the never-ending fever, persistance cough and difficulty in breathing is taking a troll on me.... Might pay a visit to the doctor again if the fever is still on tomorrow.....
    

Sweet pressies received today also~~ Oh My!!!! Loving all my pressies!!!! THANKOO~~~~~  (n.n)

I'm on the way to Gu Gu house and just thought that I'll do a short post on the go.. This year celebrated my birthday early with Glad and Qi... Ming's still in Mymmar.... Perhaps it's not a good thing to break our traditions of celebrating belated birthday. haha... Had a nice chat over dinner with them at Lenas despite the horrible services there. But still, it gives me a unforgettable birthday celebration. By the way, i boycott Lenas outlet at Nex. Hahaha....

Just ended the 3D2N stay at Changi Aloha with Nat, Ber and Liang. Touched and i seriously think i'm living among clouds now.... Dont wish the event to be over but i doubt i can tahan a few more days. Feeling all drained.. Must be the age sia....

And just like that, my birthday is over....I never been excited over my birthdays and for mi, it's just a ordinary day (think the only difference is that i feel the urge to be on leave and away from work.) Getting older means more responsibilty, more things to settle and worry about i guess... I feel so old yet still young at heart though..... Haha... The usual contradictive mi......

Love the little surprises that they prepared for mi.... The sweet and unexpected decors, getting my fav food, cooking for me, the sparklers, the much much MUCH LOVED pressies presented by Elmo, Panda and Mickey (too bad the softies arnt for me.... haha... but I guess I'm seriously getting too old for 1 liao ba.....) and they even bring the Wii and boardgames all the way to the chalet (hence, still feel happy despite losing) etc.....  Nat even bring a luggage so that all those games and softtoys will fit!!!!!

First time ever, I had such a fusion over these days for my birthday... Hahaha.... Imagine: Mid-autumn Fest decor + pooh series decor + Italian (pizza) + CNY (pineapple tarts + Lo Hei with lots and LOTS of Salmon!!!) + chicken chop + deliciously-cooked-with-love soba/ramen with my fav raw salmon + German susages + sweet, tempting chocolate strawberry desserts + pandan chiffon cake +My fav red velvet from 12 cupcakes + Wei Xiang Yuan's Gui Ling Gao (I only like Gui Ling Gao from there) + bulgogi + homemade mushroom soup with lots and lots and LOTS of mushrooms (seriously amazed that it's not cooked from those canned soup) + homebaked cinnamon swirl + other different variety of swirls + homebaked cookies + lunch out at Table Manners (love it here and also the company with my loved ones) + french toast & scrambled eggs + brunch at Chock Full of Beans.  See, now you know how loved I am right!!!!  Haha....

Table Manners at Expo is nice. The food is nice and so is the service. Love the ambiance there too.... Thankful that I have my loved ones..... Jiahui and Bel joined us there and hmmm.... I cant say that the atmosphere around this time is good but i guess i can still considered it to be passable this time round....  Better than the used-to weird weird awkward atmosphere which makes everyone uneasy.... Really really blessed to have them with me on my birthday..... I can never truly 100% understand the things going on between and I'll unconsciously get all stressed up and guilty with them meeting, but well... It all turns out still ok and I guess it's not as bad as i thought it would turn out to be and it seriously does makes a difference to me....     

Playing with sparklers is never my thing, I'm afrad of them coz they set off my attacks with all those smoke and particles and they smell really bad. Fire is not my thingy.... I'm afraid of them yet loving the sparklers coz they are so beautiful... It's plain scary when you have to light it up and they suddenly come to live, sparkes and shine and before you know it, the fire seems so close to your hand and seem threatening to burn me!!!! Haha... I know deep inside that it shouldnt be able to burn my hands, but my reflects and imagination win over the logical thinking.......  Honestly, I'm attracted to them and I dazzled in their brilliance.... I'm drowned and drawn to the simplicity  of light, heat, and sparks. I did got rid of my fear and played with them for a while... Till the smokes hit mi... haha... Ended up watching Nat and Ber played with them... But still, they are beautiful from afar!!! But sad thing is that sparklers life is so short.... Their beauty die off so fast..... That night I kept hoping for a little more permanent sparkles in my life.

So much love and warmth which makes me feel so so so better after that big asthma attack the day before and the stoopie flu that's been bothering me.... Best medicine I ever had!!! Even the mild attack there and the giddyness dont seem to bring me down much...  Hmmmm.... On the bad side, I'm never been good with expressing myself, so I think they feel that I'm not happy over the chalet? I'm trying hard not to show all the discomfort and tiredness..... Seriously I fail in this area......  No matter what i say now seems fake to me, and i feel will never help ba..... Coz the first impression get the most hit....  How to make it up to them? I wonder.......

Haven thought about my blog way before my lappie was spoilt. Hence no posts for a super duper long time.bBut it is not that important thou coz i don think got anybody will visit here. Haha.. Well, anyway, I'm happily relaxing n browsing thru the apps while doing my mask so just downloaded the blogger app in my IPhone. Hopefully I'll post more often given the conveniences now. ;)