Farewell... 永别了。。。 Took me a couple of days to calm my emotions down. I'm fine, I'm strong. I've accepted the facts. Life still goes on... 10.06.2008. On that very same day I got to know about two very shocking news.... Couldnt accept it at all... I cant find the words to describe. Used to think that having flash-backs of memories only happens in dramas or perhaps moments when you are facing danger or death. Memories kept flashing... Heart in pain, mind in a twirl that day...
Farewell Wey Ming and baby Lucus...
I was shocked when I received news that you are gone. It's hard to accept the fact that you had left at such young age. Thought it was a bad joke when I first received the sms. But... The fact is... Fact. Complications during childbirth... Till now, I could still remember your smile when you told us during our last gathering that you are pregnant again. Not an accident this time, you said. You are the first to get married in our IS group. We were all surprised how much you've changed since you are married. Fashionable, modern mummy who's always so gentle and motherly to baby Jasmine, different from the Wey Ming we once knew. Ya... Jasmine... I remember asking you why name your baby Jasmine? It's a common name.... It's nice and sweet. You always wanted to name your baby girl after a flower and Jasmine is nice and sweet, common is also good.. People can remember your girl girl's name easily. Perhaps.... Being a mother, you cant bear Baby Lucus to leave alone to the other world.. You know Jasmine will be in good hands with your caring husband. Ya... He said he find strength and comfort thinking that way, that's what he told us. So... Dont worry. Wey Ming, we're all praying for you, baby Lucus and your family. Farewell. Rest in peace.
Congrates and farewell Erick
Happen to tumble upon the news that you are getting married. Congrates. Finding your soulmate and partner who can travel this life with you is a happy occassion. Knowing that you belong to someone and that someone belongs to you too. A joint of hearts... I dont know why I was affected by this news as well. Ought to be happy for you... Like what Ah Liang said, why should I be affected? You're no longer in my circle of friends. I really dont know... Really... Feeling the ache and pain in my heart, time and time again and it felt worse that day. Literally pain in the heart. Confused... Dont know if that's because of my health is in red light, or for Wey Ming and her family or for you. Thinking back... Think the pain is not cause by you. You dont have such power in my heart. I do admit I was affected by the fact of your marriage. I cant seems to keep the images of your wedding photos out that day. The things you once said to me... Well, should I say lies? Anyway... I was mad at myself. For remembering you, for letting your marriage messing up my emotions. I'm logical, I'm practical... How could I let my emotions rule my life? Even if I were to, you will be not be the reason or the factor. I'm happy for you and your wife. Happy marriage. Congrates. Like I said, finding your soulmate and partner who can travel this life with you is a happy occassion and treasure this 幸福. Best wishes from the bottom of my heart.
My thinking and how my brain works is strange enough normally but how my brain work that day was worse... Far too many flash-backs and images in my head for the rest of the day... Something I never experienced before. Cant explain... But... Thanks a lot, Liang. I dont have many close friends who I can open 20-30% of my heart to. Not many can get me to talk... How to say? Anyway, thanks for agreeing to meet me, thanks for the KTV and thanks for agreeing to share cab though you can simply just take the train home. I really appreciate it. Thanks for all the 'scoldings'. Though I do felt a bit 委屈that day. Some comforting is much better than 'scolding' ba... I did listened to the recording for my singing after that. I know how I sound.. It's still horrible. But at that time, thanks a lot, I really felt that I can sing well at that moment. Though shivering all over, but it does feel good to sing your heart out. Well. hope to keep it up... It's a struggle for me to sing. Not confident you said, but it's really hard to have confident in your own voice when you know you sound horrible and when the mic is there to amplify that same horrible voice... It's a wonder how people can stand my singing when I cant stand it myself. Anyway... Really thank you. It would be nice if I really have a brother like you. Though we'll be quarrelling most of the time? Hmm.. On second thought... As buddy will be better than brother...
