I'm going to get hold of myself... Things had already happened and I'm left with no choice but to carry on. Hit by waves and waves of setbacks... At times, I wonder, why those things are happening to me? Perhaps it's my life and I'm fated to face all those. Or rather, perhaps I'm too negative. It's damn tough facing all those and carry on and I reckon that nobody will really understand. So, stop telling me that you understand when you know nothing... Stop bothering me. When I'm ready, I'll open up.

When the times ripes, please just open up your ears and stop pouring your troubles to me instead. I only need support and ears... Yes, I'm there when you need me, but please... I'm human too.

I may sound ungrateful and cold but it's what I really feel. I've learnt how to protect myself in my own ways... I've changed, for the better or for the worse, I'm not sure... If you find me lost or going for the worse, please guide me back. Thanks.

For You...
Been ages since I've step in here. Guess it's a good thing? Since, I'm only here when I need a relief....

There's something that I need to tell you. Since I cant bring myself to face and tell you, here it goes....

I'm done with the crying. I know crying isnt going to help but I simply cant control myself. I'm letting it all out... Cry till the tears had dried. I'm done by now... I'm sure... It's just a part and parcel of life. I can just let it past. What's the point of saying things when you cant do it yourself? Am I asking too much? Perhaps... For you... Need not avoid, need not escape... I used to think that you are wise, but now I understand, you are just like me, a pampered child... I dont need another in my life. So, I'm saying goodbye. I've tried previously, but failed... I was just kidding myself then. Thanks for giving me the stab. I'm wide awake now with the after effects. But anyway, thanks.

Guess there's a small or zero probability of you reading this, but well, this is not meant for you anyway... Contradicting myself here... *haha.