Just viewed my past results... Been hoping to be a COM holder. But well... What can 3 ADs, 8 A+, 14 As, 5 B+, 2 Bs and 3 C+ do??? I'm out of the list... Filled with regrets which is not of any use at all. I just have to make do with those... My grades may be better than others, but it's not enough... I know I can do better. I'm just letting myself down.

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All in a week...
Ok, I'm here to complain again... Well, just wish to get everything out and make me feel better.

Monday:
Wasted 45mins of my youth waiting for a testimonial with my name and surname all wrong. Waited another 30 mins for the correction... NB: Worked 5 months in that company and my supervisor still got my name and surname wrong??? What's with that???

Tuesday:
Went for KTV and was "molested" by that gal... Yucks!!! I know she's just playing around but I simply hate being touched... Somemore, I'm being touched all over... Felt violated man... Cant stop her somemore... Luckliy she went for work after that. Watched Robots with the sisters for some laughs before rushing back home to prepare for my presentation.

Wednesday:
Presentation day... Extra nervous with unknown people around and also a photographter who keep taking photos while I was presenting... Making me much nervous and uneasy... Lots of stammering... Haiz... Just pray hard that all my hard work will be seen...

Thursday
Had a crazy KTV session with Catherine, Kim, King, Chi and Jas before rushing down to NP. Made a waste trip to NP only to find that my LO is not around... Went back to my second home in NP and chatted with Mr. John and Mrs. serence. Learnt that the lab is closing at the end of this month... There goes my second home..

Haiz. I'm disappointed with certain things and people... Keeping mum about it. I dont wish to hurt others... Not going to talk about it... Changes... Guess that is the only thing that is constant in life... Things will no longer be the same.

Which Route to Take??
"What I want after this?" Asked myself this question ample times.... Since I already gave U a miss (for the time being), there's only 1 route for me... Work... Or even a career. But this route is branched out to many different routes. Exactly which route do I want to take? I'm lost... Hmmm... There isnt many QA related jobs around unless I want to be a technician or inspector... As for Assistant Engineer, most of them are looking for ME or ECE graduates... Well, I can still give it a try but hopes arent high since I'm weak in those areas....

Another question is when do I want to start taking the route? Now?? No... But my parents are pushing me... Rushing me to get a job. I wish to give myself a break first... Am I being rebelious? Maybe... Mum wanted me to take the JC route, I took the Poly route, they wanted me to stay at home, I would always run about. I just want to do the things I want to. Am I wrong to do that???

After Thoughts...
Finally... Attachment is over. Happy and relieved to leave yet I cant bear to leave... Having mixed feelings but no point... I need to move on... Moving on to meet new challenges. Though these few months I'm struggling and moving at great difficulites but I'm glad that I had survived all these and I able to take-on the challenges...

Opened the sealed envelop that contained my grades.. I'm not supposed to do that. Haha... But I just couldnt resist the temptation... It was so tempting to open it; to know exactly what are the grades that my supervisor had given me... Hmmm... I'm happy with the grading... After some jumping and cheering at home, I started to ask myself whether I deserved a A or even a A+ grade... Somehow or another, I feel that I'm not worthy of the grade given. Yes, I did put in my very best but the grades are more than I deserved. Hmm... Was I wrong about him?? Or did I really proved myself??? Honestly, I got to thank him for the generous grades. He even gave comments that he was impressed by my reports (not to me, but in my assesment).... I preferred to have some feedbacks be it good or bad. So that I can know exactly how I fare. But he's too busy for that, or rather, he simply dont see any need for that. I'm now pressing him for a testimonial... I know that he's real busy but... Well, a testimonial will do me good in my job-searching... Wonder what he's going to write... Hmmm.... Will get the answer on Monday, I'm going down to get my testimonial...

Now, it all lies on this wednesday's presentation. Going to give my best shot!!! I'm going in there well-prepared and feeling confident... Praying hard that there isnt too many lecturers there...

Hectic Week...
Oh well, what a week... Rushing through all those reports, my final report and of course the 6 sigma project... Been much much much busier at work.. Been helping patrick and busy working like a slave for that engineer. At least that was before I him told off... Who he think he is??? He's just someone who climbs up the ladder by curry-flavouring those on top, while kicking and trampling those besides or below him.(Perhaps I should really tell him that on my last day??) I just couldnt control my temper... I'm just like a volcano... Haha... I simply couldnt control the lava from blasting out... Well, at least for now, he's not treating me like a slave, a push-over... I may be on the loosing end but I feel so much better...

As for my final report, I had finally completed it... I was on the verge of breaking down as everything went wrong for my final report... Caught my supervisor at the wrong time last friday. Received his stupid stares and humiliation... Guess I'm just not good at predicting the "weather". Left my report with him for his approval and hopefully he'll be happy with it. I'm scared. Had this feeling that I'm on trial. The next session will be on Thurs and the verdict will be passed by mid march. Speaking of him, guess he's really prejudice against females... The only female staff under him was retrenched... No hopes of working there.

I'm praying hard, for my exams, attachment, presentation, job-seeking, basically everything. Presentation will be held the week after. Heard that besides all the LOs, other lecturers are invited too, not only our course lecturers, the whole school of MDE is invited(should be happy that it's not all the lecturers in NP?). Oh my... I'm feeling the nerves already...