My scholarship application was unsucessful... I'm so disappointed... Dont understand why it's unsucessful... Perhaps due to my results??? Speaking of results, yesterday was the prize-giving ceremony... Due to my poor results, I cant even squeeze into list... Anyway, there will not be any director list so think my name will never appear in the prize-giving ceremony list... Cant help being disappointed though I said that results are no longer that important to me... Am I just lying to myself??? Felt a bit uneasy when they went for the prize-giving ceremony...

What I wish now is to have a life... Joining the Metropolitan, a voluntary club... Hope I can squeeze some time for some community work... The feeling of doing voluntary work is indescribable... I'm actually more interested in helping out at Deyi's Leo Club... After all, that was where all my secondary school memories are... Cant bear to see it like that.... Trying to set aside a few hours on sat and sun for the 'Help Family Centre' but it's difficult due to the crashing of time...

Perhaps I'm going for the blood donation next week... But I'm still a bit scared... Perhaps I can drag somebody to accompany me... Hee... Just in case I faint upon seeing blood... Haha... The only consolation I got today was that my blood pressure had gone down. But I still need to be conscious of my weight and diet... No more junk food or rather less junk food... Hee... The chips are simply too tempting. Keen to learn a couple of things but find that there's so little time... Think I ought to read up on time management and of course, to practise it... My time management is so poor... I always dump everything together hence that's explains the panda eyes... I cant do things depending on my mood, I need to organise myself!!!!

Enjoyment...

Went out shopping alone today... Enjoyed time with myself... Dont know why but I suddenly got this mood to go shopping today. Initally planned to do my proposal and tutorials today. But well, I really enjoyed myself and after weeks and weeks of sleepless and stressed up life, I need a break... Only till today, I found out that it's such a pleasure to just sit down, relax with a cup of drink looking at people walking pass, all looking stressed and busy. It's good to really slow down your pace and really look what's going on around you... I swear it'll make you treasure and love this world more...

Got a dress and some tops... Kind of regreted buying that dress as it's been donkey years since I've worn dresses... It make me felt as though I'm pregnant or rather, a round ball.. But, I kind of like this dress and the sale persons and a auntie(customer) said I look nice in this... Haha... Being complimented by auntie... Dont know I should trust her taste or not... Anyway, I just feel that I looked mature in that...

Perhaps I'm being vain recently... I'm interested in make-ups and clothes... Speaking of make-up, I really shouldnt give up my place for the make-up session to catherine. The responses for the session was good and I'm really interested... Perhaps I should be more selfish??? Anyway, I'm sick and tired of t-shirt and jeans everyday and I desperately need something to spice up my life... Wish to change my dressing style but shopping for clothes are usually an unpleasant mission... It's hard to find clothes which I can squeeze in, unless they are 'aunties' clothes... Haha... Ought to end here, time to go back to work and hopefully I can get to sleep soon...

Friends-To-Be??