Got my results yesterday... Was rather disappointed with my QD results... Thought I could get a AD or A+. Perhaps I pin my hopes too high? Well, was happy for my RPS results. Didnt do too badly for a killer subject though. But still, I couldnt escape from my classmates' usual 'after-release-of-results' symptoms... Got sms from them asking how many ADs I got... Even from MSN... Here's my reply: "Hello!! I got no ADs at all!!! Z-E-R-O!! Cant you all stop asking me that? Got me all stressed up! So what you got 7ADs??? Stop complaining that you ONLY got 1 or 2 ADs, I got N-O-N-E!! But i'm ok with that. I may never win you all in terms of academic but at least I've tried my very best!!"

Anyway, at least I could use this result to apply for scholarship or bursary in the next sememster. And I really got to tighten my belt for the next few months. I'm broke. Got only $2 in my wallet now... Haha... How can I survive??? Dad is no better than me as uncle still owe him his pay. As for mum, she's not working and she still got to trouble over the family expenses and my brother's results... Well, look on the bright side! At least we still got a roof over our head, at least we are not starved...

Mrs Tan is asking me to go back and tutor Jeremy. Well, I love to, given the pay and flexible time-slot, but i'm worried... How can I manage to teach him when I cant even teach my brother??? What if he did badly after I had tutored him? He's primary 3 this year... After all, Mrs Tan is my mum's friend and I love Jeremy. He's really a sweet boy... Hope he's not too stressed up by his mum... Think one of the reasons that he did badly his exam was that he was too stressed up... No matter how hard I tried to get this inside Mrs Tan head, it just wont get in. She just dont understand... She kept thinking that he's just plain lazy... Well, as far as I know, Jeremy is a really smart boy and he's not lazy... Playful, yes, but definitely not lazy... Compared to my brother, he's so much hardworking.... Well, at his young age, he got to learn so many things.... Violin, abacus, CCA, drawing classes, etc... Poor thing... What was I doing when I was in primary three? Playing, playing and playing....

Ought to stop now, I still got to wake up early later... Today's all packed and I promised Iris to work later. Just pray hard that I can make it in time for work...

Friday's gathering is gone... It's so difficult for us to meet and have a meal... Got all worked-up... Perhaps I'm short temper? Or I used anger to hide my disappointment? Friends meant a lot to me... Want to spend more time with them... But...

It's 3.18am in the morning... Yet I'm still wide awake... I just simply cant get to sleep... Both my heart and mind are in a whirl.... Everything is in a mess... I need time to sort them all out... Just give me more time, and I'll be back to normal....

Didnt really celebrate mum's birthday... Well, we never really care about birthdays... Got a pair of earings at Goldheart for her and I'm now broke... Anyway, I dont mind, since it's for mum... But as usual, she didnt say anything... Not even a word of thanks... But I'm used to it... This is my family... What my family lacks most is communication.... We can never sit down and have a nice chat... Well, we dont even talk to each other at times...

Went out with Qi today... Had lunch at Nooch.. Got a wallet at wallet shop for Charlie, at a reasonable price... Well, though we are not on close terms, he's afterall, my cousin and it's his 21st birthday... Watch TROY with Qi at Lido... It was not bad... Definitely a treat for the eyes with ORLANDO BLOOM, BRAD PITT and ERIC BANA in that movie.... *grins Initially, I was not that interested in that movie but well, it proved to be a great movie... The storyline was fine but it's a great show in general... Some of the scenes were grand and some heart-wrenching... Worth the ticket price...

It's always so enjoyable and fun to go out with Qi. She said that there's a lot of change in me since those secondary school days... Well, I admit that there's a lot changes in me... Both bad and good... But people change all the time... Every day, every minutes, every seconds... Perhaps that what people do to keep going... You change to suit the environment, the environment wont change to suit you... That's so true... At least for me...

I'm now confused and lost... I kept running away... But now, I'm going to face it.... But how? What am I going to do??? How can I go about doing it?

Aquarius and AB blood type Women

Personality: You're a calm and controlled person. You may come off as a mild-mannered woman but there's something you hide from others. People will follow you as a leader. Friends, on the other hand, will change all the time and people might criticize you for it.

Love Tendency: There are quite a few times when men don't see you as a woman because you don't play with their affections. You don't like to be pampered and you act as if you're just one of the buddies. Then you wonder why men don't find you attractive. It would work if you show off your femininity.

Life: Your first impressions to others are positive and your social skills are usually impeccable. This will benefit you as you're pursuing your goals. You will put in all your dedication to get to the top but take your time. Work will destroy your health if you're not taking care of yourself.

Match

Good Match: A-type Gemini and Leos and B-type Libras will make you a very happy person. They respect your life style and don't try to change that either. You're automatically attracted to intellectual people because you're bright in your own right. AB-type Gemini and A-type Sagittarius encourage your intellectual nature to come forward.

Bad Match: You don't enjoy associating with irrational people. Another pet peeve is to be pretentious to gain something in return. O-type Leos and Scorpios may be this way and the reason why you should stay away from them.

*Extracted from e-mail

Been trying to make some keychains with 'paper clay'... Making the mould was tough... Initially, I gave up and instead made a few roses... These turn out so much better than the mould... Planning to wrap them up into a bouquet of clay flowers(since they only have a small slot to put the fresh flowers) and bring it to grandma the next time I go there... It's had been a long time since I went there... Miss her... It had been years since she's gone... She's so much better than my grandfather... Still got the scar on my shoulders when she canned me when I was young... Used to dislike her as she was so biased... But behind her fierce and strict front, there's a caring and loving side of her... She was the first to gave me my freedom... It meant so much to me!!!

Well, now finally I'm almost done with the keychains.... still need to do some touch-up... It may not look nice, but I already give in my best... It's a challenge for me. Haha... Hope they will treasure it...

I've signed up for 2 courses(1 leadership tranning and the other is MSA), planning to take up intermediate japanese langauge and 1 of the modules in the advance diploma course in the next semester. It all sum up to a rather large sum of money but it's no harm learning new things right? I'm keen of taking up piano lessons too... But, it's far too expensive and it's something that people took up when they are kids... It's rather embarrassing to take them only now... Perhaps I can ask Qi to teach me when she's free... Haha... Perhaps I can even ask her to teach me for free. (^_^)

Just learnt how to put midi into this blog... *grins* It's not easy for a 'computer idiot' like me, ok! Well, didnt really do anything today. Stopped tidying up my room as I'm still suffering from the rashes... The medicine only stop the swelling but not the itchiness. Felt like I'm becoming an monkey who keep scratching... I dont understand why Dr Teo took my blood pressure when I'm seeing him for my allergy. Perhaps it's my medical record??? My blood pressure had increased and I really need to control my diet and lose some weight otherwise I need to take medicication to control my blood pressure... I'm worried... I know I cant escape as it's all in my family history but I didnt expect it will be so soon... I'm given two months to try and lowers my blood pressure...

Did some sketches this morning. I really got no talent in drawings/sketchings... Think I drew really horribily... Cant seems to get the proportions right.

Borrowed some books and planning to do some reading on thursday... Seems that everyone is busy with his/her own things ... Currently, kind of like this... Relax, carefree lifestyle... But there's no way I can stay this way... I cant stand doing nothing... Mum's complaining that I'm rotting at home and dad kept asking me when I'm going back to work... I know I got to work but cant they just let me relax for a while??? Hate being controlled by them... Been trying to fight for my freedom and rights but it's a tough a long road...

Earth


The Force of Nature Quiz
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this is my way to live

What about yours?

made by rav-chan

Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

What kind of dark person are you?
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Oh my, Blogger had changed a new outlook... Got to figure it out... Was a bit lost just now. Got a virus on my computer and it's now running really slow... Tried repairing but there's still two areas infected... Think it got the virus from an online game and only Wei plays online game... To think that he push all the blame on me. Perhaps I need to call shawn to come down and help me when he's free...

Ok, finally holidays are here, finally now I can relax... Planning to do some craft works, learn some basic cooking, basic web page designing and to improve my japanese language this holiday.

Went out with Qi, Glad and Ming on saturday and as usual, it's just a short gathering as Ming got to work, Qi was meeting her friends and Glad wasnt feeling well. But neverless, we enjoyed ourselves at K-Box. The songs there are rather new, the system is great, the ambience and service was fine but one thing that prevented us from enjoying was the extreme low temperature in the room... We were all freezing in there... Luckily, I brought my sweater along as my paper that day was in the EE function room. We were all passing the sweater around and glad was basically 'stoned' and we called her the 'jay-look-alike'(she covered her head with the hood) *grins*

Qi baked a cake for Glad's belated birthday. Though it was too dry and a bit hard, I can feel her efforts and love. It taste good... After all, it's only her second trial.

Spent basically the whole day tidying my pig sly today and at least now it look tidy at a glance. I bet nobody could image how messy my room was... There's still a lot to tidy but stopped as I'm having rashes all over as I'm allergic to dust... I need to get the vcds out by thurs and I need to clear some space for the next semester. Ok, that's it... This computer is real SLOW!!!! I CANT STAND IT!!!

Ichi -


What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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NEVER SURRENDER
Corey Hart

Just a little more time is all we're asking for
Cause just a little more time could open closing doors
Just a little uncertainty can bring you down

And nobody wants to know you now
And nobody wants to show you how

So if you're lost and on your own
You can never surrender
And if your path won't lead you home
You can never surrender
And when the night is cold and dark
You can see, you can see light
Cause no one can take away your right
To fight and never surrender

With a little perseverance you can get things done
Without the blind adherence that has conquered some

And nobody wants to know you now
And nobody wants to show you how

So if you're lost and on your own
You can never surrender
And if your path won't lead you home
You can never surrender
And when the night is cold and dark
You can see, you can see light
Cause no one can take away your right
To fight and never surrender
To never surrender


It's one of my favourite song... Use it to motivate, encourage myself. Never Surrender... Love the lyrics... How true it is: You can see, you can see light
Cause no one can take away your right To fight and never surrender.
Keep the fighting spirit going!!!