SUPRISE
Got a suprise today.... Got a parcel by post from Qi and Glad.... What a way to give me my birthday present... Both of them forgotten my birthday, trust them to be my buddies... But anyway, it's all over.... Cant possibily forsake this precious firendship just because of this small thing right??? Really looking forward to meeting them after my common test... Hope Ming is back by then... Miss her so so much.... No way of contacting her at all.... *sob sob*Got a wallet and a sling bag (which is also green....) and a live insect!!! Oh my!!! Got a shock when I took out the bag as the stupid insect flew out(in my direction)!!! Haha...

Common Test...
Common test is on next week yet I'm not prepared at all... I'm not in the mood to study... Lots of quarreling at home and how could I study??? Went out to study and did manage to do some studying... But now, I'm starting to panic... "HOW CAN I FINISH STUDYING WITH SUCH LITTLE TIME?????" Feeling real stressed up... ZY, HY and WL are now studying harder than usual as they were out of the director list in the last sememster... And because of that, they refused to help me with the questions.... Now, really I got no one to turn to except for the lecturers.... They were willing to help me out as I did not posses any threats to them... My results are just slightly above average. Another thing is that I cant stop eating!!! I'm already fat enough yet my that stupid mouth of mine cant stop eating.... Cant control... Really got to resist the temptation...

I had a real busy yet enjoyable day on friday. The "Journey To The West" project was a success. This time it was so much better than the Mooncake festival thingy. It really make me feel that the the effort was worth it. But I think I should be quitting the society after this as I really had a hard time trying to cope with the projects in the society, studies, work and club thingy. Planning to focus my attention on my studies and club, since the common test is coming up.

Well, come to think about it, suddenly I had this feeling that they are not so bad after all...I mean my classmates... After putting off studies aside, they are a bunch of nice people. Perhaps it's just the close competition in my module group that makes them this way. Like people says, it's the "survival of the fittest".... It's just due to the environment...

Birthday
19th birthday.... As usual, had a sumptuous dinner with my family... The only difference is that I celebrated my birthday a day earlier. We had home delivery from Pizza Hut, so that we could have our pizzas at ease, without having to think about etiquette... Hmmm.... Never had a usual so-called celebration with birthday cake since I was like 6 or 9??? Maybe I can have 1 on my 21st birthday.... On the same day, had breakfast cum lunch at Swensen's with Jiahui, Wee Liang, Belfred and an ex-Fairprice staff (can't remember his name...). Got a necklace and bracelet from Jiahui, Wee Liang, Wei Liang, Belfred, Liyan, Mei Ling and Yuyan. Dad, Mum and ah Wei got me a necklace and a phone for my room...

However, this very day was not that smooth going for me... Started off by making a mess out of my Japanese speaking test.... Luckily the IPF test was not that bad.... Thought of meeting friends to celebrate this special day with me but it seems that everyone is busy... Went home to find that it's empty.. So I spent the afternoon alone... Had a nap but was disturbed by the quarreling in my family.... But the worst thing is that it seems that Qi and Glad had forgotten that it's my brithday today.... It hurts... But perhaps they are too busy??? But I really wish that my friends, buddies and family will always be there for me, especially on my birthday. Hope that's not too much....

Been trying to change the background of this blog, but I dont know how.... Very poor in computer stuffs... Hence, I ask Wee Liang for help... But think he almost vomited out all his blood.... *Grins* Anyway, I'll figure it somehow, someday... Perhaps, I'll ask ah wei tomorrow provided he's back before I go out... Ought to make him vomit blood, it's time for revenge!!! Ok, ought to go back to my stuffs...

Got lots of things pilling up... Endless tutorials, assignments, reports and projects... Real tired... Hate myself for being such a lazy pig.... Kept sleeping and sleeping.... Planned to wake up after a nap but in the end, I slept till morning. Set 2 alarms yet of no use... Common test is coming, better buck up. I'm not going to lose out to them!!! So what if you all dont teach me how to do??? I'll figure it out myself...

Valentine day coming but as usual, will be spending the day without a valentine. Used to envy couples spending this special day together and I, all alone... *sob* But now, I like the idea of being single... Love the freedom!!! Ok ok, enough of craps here, Better go back to my stuffs....

Envy and Dilemma....
Yesterday we went to Belfred's birthday dinner cum our reunion dinner. Though his house is small, it's cosy and you can clearly see that they have a very strong family bond... Something that I really really envy of.... Though from what I heard that his mother is gone, he still experience the love from his father and sisters....

Another thing is that, I only realised that Belfred is talented in music yesterday. He can played the piano, er hu and even the flute!! Though he claimed that he's only in grade 1, he plays pretty well... I had a sudden urge to learn piano right away!!! Well, maybe I cant say sudden urge as I wanted to learn piano when I was small but that desire sort of disappear as the years past. But now, I found it back.... But due to the money, I put it off....


Still in a dilemma... Still cant decide whether to take the elective module or not. I believe that I cant cope if I were to continue working. Though I had stop tuitioning, I'm now involve in the QME society... Helping out there... Glad also approach me to help out in the secondary school club. Personally, I love to help out there as it's basically becoming a dead club and this club is our hard work.... We built up this club, making it recognised but now, it's back to square one...

Another thing is the signing of bond with Fairprice. Asked Miss Lim and Iris to help me find out more regarding that... But I still coundn't decide whether to or not to sign the bond.... Like Miss Koe said, is this what I really want?? Though if I sign the bond I'll be in a higher position but I'll be facing pressure from four factors namely, the superior, subordinate, customers and suppliers... Am I ready for this? Can I face the pressure??

But I was thinking that if I sign this bond, I need not worry about the school fees... I can concentrate on my studies and dong what I want to.... Tried to discuss this with my parents... But in vain... They were saying that if want to contine studying, go ahead, they have the money, even if they don't, they'll find the money for me... But that's not what I want... How is it possibile that they have the money when mum is not working and dad is even borrowing money from mum???? Wish to go to a local university but... Thinking of choosing another option which is taking the advanced diploma and then further study masters... This way, I can study and work at the same time as this is a part-time course... And for masters, either I can study full time in overseas or part-time locally....

REALLY IN A DILEMMA.... Don't know what to do....