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I know that I complaining a lot of things here and is blaming everyone except myself.... But.... I just want to let it all out...

TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY!!!!!

MONEY

I'm so sick and tired of facing the same old problems everyday. Everybody is complaining to me that they have no money, as if I have a lot of money like that. And who can I complain to? NOBODY!!! I know that I'm trying to escape from this. Since I cant go out after evening, I'll hide in my room after I got home... Hoping that all these problems will go away...

I feel so helpess and useless... I know that I should get a job.... But the other side of me keep telling me that why should I? They are my parents, they should be the ones that go out there and earn the money. Furthermore, I really cant cope, I'm already struggling with my reports and stuffs in school.... I know that dad do not have the qualifications but mum has... But she just dont want to! She rather stay at home and be a housewife, everyday complaining the same old things to me. I"M SICK AND TIRED OF THAT!!!! I know she is scared to return to the working environment but... Haiz...

Same thing goes to grandpa, why would you want to make life so difficult for your children by keep asking them for money so that you can go buy 4D and TOTO? I mean I dont mind if you go and buy a few dollars of 4D and TOTO but $100 over each time? That is too stupid! And to make matters worse, he go out there telling people that he got a lot of money and he want to sell his house. This make our life misereable because there is so much stupid calls saying that he/she is an agent and can help us get a good price. Oh gosh!!! And now recently we got a lot of unknown calls which the caller will keep quiet when it is us answering the calls..... Dont know what he is up to now... Everyday sitting downstairs, talking to those who are willing to listen to him and also to all those maids... Haiz.......

You're Hotaru. You are single. Not for lack of
beauty, inner and outer, but you are just too
scared of relationships. You're afraid of
rejection and cannot stand humiliation. You
need to overcome you self conscience feelings
and just tell your crush, "Hey! I like
you? You wanna get with me?" It's not so
hard. YOu may be reected, but that's life, and
just another bump on the road. If you don't
learn to open up emotionally, you may become
depressed because in your heart, you ache for
love.


What Sailor Moon love type are you?
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Meditating and dreaming, is ok if you don't get it
confused with real life. When getting involved
with things such as this, you tend to stray to
yourself, not really letting anybody in. You're
not a bad person, with a bad personality, you
just want alone time!


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International Student Symposium

Hmmm.... A boring yet interesting symposium..... It is interesting for those who are interested in politics.... Because the topics discussed are like: ' Same old politics in a new world', 'Riding on the global ecomical order', 'US asian foreign policy in the bush administration' etc....

It is very boring for me and my friends who are not at all interested in politics. We even 'run away' from the symposium on the first day to shop.... Somemore I'm under-dressed, those from the NUS were all wearing formal wear.... Haiz, but those from Poly were wearing rather casually, some even in only a T-shirt and jeans plus slippers!!! At least I'm not that bad har?

Well then the next day only me and one of my poly friend turn up for the symposium. I was sort of prepared, I try to dress in the most formal way I could and this time, I'm quite OVER-DRESSED!!! Haiz... Now this time the majority dont really bother to dress up. But at least I fit in there.... Those the topics on that day dont interest me at all but the speakers made it interesting.... At leastm, they suceeded to grab my attention..... Then followed by the closing lunch. As we skipped that the previous day, we did not know what to expect. I was shocked to find that we were to be served like in a high class hotel, just like in wedding dinner in restaurants..... And what worse is that we were sitting with a group of Philippines university graduates and 1 from Shanghai, now currently studying in NUS, medical science. He is currently taking his 2nd masters. Oh man, and the others were presidents of their various courses and we two were just nobodies. Feel so awkward and small and out of place there. But they were very social able and very friendly. We took photos(i hate that) and we exchanged emails addresses... Hope we can still keep in contact after they return to philppiness on monday.

You're a Dolphin!
You're everyone's favourite animal, you're cute,
cuddly and have your own tv-show.


Which Underwater Creature are You?
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MISSES....

Suddenly, I miss NTUC..... Haiz..... Was doing a tutorial that request me to talk about Singapore icons..... And guess what was the first thought that come to my mind? Yes, NTUC - FAIRPRICE.... So I did some research on Fairprice and found out a lot more about it... And guess what i see on one of the articles? Kwan Ang and Gek Eng!!!! They were smiling so sweetly..... Haiz.... Miss them. Kwan Ang was like a mummy to me... In fact, sometimes, i wish she is.... Suddenly I realised how much I miss that place... Feel like crying... Miss them.... Dont understand why I dread going to work then.... The people there are very good and nice (of course, there are some black sheeps) but the manager is like YUCKS!!! Some of the customers are no better.... And all those new staffs.. Oh gosh.. Cant 'tahan' them!!! But... But I just LOVE that place!!!!! Hope to get back to the big family again...

Your anime hair color is green.


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Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.

Made by
Sara


What color do you see the world in?
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You are Beast!

You are brilliant and extremely clever. You can
handle almost any problem swiftly and
efficiently. You are devoted to philosophy and
are always up for a good discussion.
Sometimes, though, your anger gets the best of
you and you upset those whom you care about.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Nokia 6100 is the phone for you. You always do what
you are told. You never make mistakes - or
atleast you try not to. You get upset easily
when what you have plan need to be changed,
especially at the last minute.


Which Nokia Cellphone is Most Suitable for You?
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Nice, great day... Even after I realised that I got a LOT of things to complete by this week..... Well, better start doing the reports by tomorrow..... Hee.. Still pushing to tomorrow. Ok, I better go sleep now.... Or else, I'll be a tarapanda.... ;p

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!

And in your dream though impossible things may seems,
Someday, somehow you will get through
to the goal you have in view.

Mountains fall and seas divide,
Before the one,
who in his strides takes a hard road day by day,
sweeping obstacles away.

Believe in yourself and in your plans.
Say not-I-cannot but I can.
The prizes of life we fail to WIN,
Is because we doubt the power within.


It is really amazing that how encouragements and supports come when you need it most. I just received a letter from my primary school teacher. He just send a short letter to say that he change his address. In his letter there is this small bookmark that looks simple yet beautiful. The 'poem' above is taken from the bookmark. 'The prizes of life we fail to win is because we doubt the power within' So true...

MONEY
What is money? Is it there to destroy family, friends, relationships? Woke up by their quarrelling and shoutings. Haiz.... Is money that important? The answer is both yes and no. Such a ambiguous answer... Yes, money is important, you cant do without it. You work hard because you need it, you gamble beacuse you need more of it. You need the money for your basic needs. Hence, you cant do without it. But NO! Money is not everything!!! Money cant buy you happiness, cant buy you family and friends!!! There is so much that money cant do.... But why cant they understand? I think they never will and I, will never understand why.....

Sick again... 2nd week in school and I am sick. Luckily my temperature is down.. Haiz.... Better get well soon and get back to work... Too much things pilling up..... Sleep too much....

Which era in time are you?

Hmmm.... Burner spoilt, problems at home, losing a friend, too much work pilling up..... That's life....But.... I'll get over it!!!! ;p

NEW ME!!!!

Hmmm... I am trying 2 change... Trying 2 look from a positive view.... Suddenly feel that life is really short and I shouldnt waste it just like that... Feel 'enlighten' suddenly feel this way... Maybe been feeling low and moody for too long, so...

Cut my hair... Though it is still long but I feel fresh... Or you can say re-born.... Want to cast away all the unhappiness.... Who cares my ex leaves 4 Syndey without saying anything beforehand or not even a good bye? Who cares many months later, he email saying that he got a new girlfriend and even brought her back to Singapore and let me meet her? Who cares till now this day, he still thought that we can be friends when it is impossible? Who cares he keep emailing me telling me how happy he is and even ask for my advices when he quarrels with his girlfriend? Who cares I still love him? Who cares my parents are now treating like prisoner after that incident? Who cares I lost all my freedom? Who cares now I everyday have to go home listening to them complaining how pityful they are, how poor they are? Who cares what silly things I did before? Who cares how many things there are in my mind now? I'm going to throw them all away and just leave it there!!!!

After this very day, a new me is born.... A more cheerful, positive me is born...... Take things as they come, have a brand new life!!!!! Applause!!! Haha. This calls for a celebration right? Hmmmm... Maybe I'll have something good for dinner. ;p okie... Buai....

A bit irritated by this thing... It simply cant refresh no matter how many times i clicked on 'refresh'.

I am an overly happy A.D.D kitten


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Haha... I had so much fun chatting online with LY, YY and WL.... We are like a bunch of young kids..... So childish but it's so much fun... Never like this before.... I always have to be the sensible, mature daughter and student... Only when online I can be so childish, so silly....

Weekends!!!!

Helped out at my cousin's new house in Punggol.... Very tired... Helped her clean the house... However, it is fun as we chatted and joked when cleaning up. Nice environment as it is quiet(now) and rather windy.... BUT..... BUT..... As it is 'recently' built, there are a lot of millipedes, centipedes.... HELP ar!!!!! I had to siam them as I walked... Horrible, horrible....

As i am a 'lu chi' i almost lost my way.... Haiz... My cousin kept calling and asking me where I was... It was so good to have her, otherwise i'll take the bus in the wrong direction and how knows where i'll ended up in!!! Hee... She was so worried that I will lose my way... ;p

After cleaning and tiring ourself out, we went back to Compass Point to shop a bit. She bought a tie pin and a tie for her brother... It was nice but expensive though... We had our lunch cum dinner and we went straight home as we were too tired.

One very 'funny' thing... My mum was standing behind me at the same bus-stop that i had alighted and she couldnt recognise me!!!!! Haiz... This shows how close we are ar???? Really wonder.... She could recognise my bag but not me... She just feel that it was me but she was not certain at all... She said that she only thought that 'this girl' resemble her daughter.... But she was sure that I had the same bag that 'this girl' was carrying... Oh mine... Either she is so blur that she could not recognise me or..... Cant understand how can a mother dont recognise her daughter but recognise her bag!!!! It is not as if we dont see each other everyday????? Haiz.......

You are in a Happy Mood


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Haha... Finally, it's friday!!!! Weekends!!!! Hmmm... Dont know how I am going to spend my weekend.... Go out? Hmmm.... The possibility of getting a grant is not high.... Stay at home and slack? Maybe.... Still have not start reading that Harry Potter book yet.... Dont understand why i go and buy that book.... So thick.... Haiz.....

Piano


What Musical Instrument Are You?
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BEE LING....

Horrible, horrible... Just saw bee ling just now... Tried to avoid her, but in vain.... She just stood there waiting for me while i was looking down with my ear piece on(my discman was not on.... low batt...), trying not to see her.

Haiz... You know what she did when she saw me? She screamed out AH YIIIIIIIIII with her well-known high pitch and loud voice... I could feel all eyes on me... HELP!!!! The worst come when she as usual, pinched my cheeks!!!! She cant change that habit har??? Since I known her in primary school....

She looks the same, bubbly, very fair and very cheerful.... We only exchanged a few greetings... I was in a hurry to get away... Haha.... I was so terrified of her last time... She is the well-known gossiper + rumors-maker.... All thanks to her that I had so many rumors last time in my primary school. Haiz... Ya, i still cant forget the first(and last) time when we went to watch the movie, Jussasic Park, i got all blue black... ALL THANKS TO HER!!! I really dont understand what's so horrible and scary about dinasaurs since they are extinct....

But suddenly, i realised that she is not so bad after all... At least she added some 'colours' to my life... Should have ask her for her handphone number.... But since she's staying in the block behind me.... I think we'll meet sooner or later... And hopefully she had change her habits so that my ears and cheeks wont suffer.... ;p But... If she really can change, her name WONT be BEE LING anymore....

Haha... My eyes show intellect??? Really wonder.... My eyes so small that I dont even know that they show anything....

your eyes show intellect


which eye are you?
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I STILL DO NOT HAVE UR ACCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Break again.... This week is really boring... No lab, tutorial n some lectures... Wasting my time and youth???? Haha.. Think too much liao....

Yesterday night chatted with LY, ML, WL... Though I cant see the, heard them, but it is still a form of communication... Miss those days when we chatted... So carefree, so much fun.... Really hope this friendship last forever... Hope it will not end.... Friendship is a very beautiful thing...

True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it is lost....

Rather excited that Ly, WL, mi n maybe ML meeting on fri.... Since I've already told d wardens that I'm meeting those aunties so... Why not make full use of this chance??? In fact, it's a rare chance. Time for me to take a breather... Too many things happened recently... i need a rest, need to get away, even if it is only for a few hours....

ICE is your chinese symbol!


What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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Only leave one and a half hour to go.... So glad that I've almost survived the 5 hrs break.... Well, one of the main reasons that I wanted to start this blog is that I realised that I cant bottle up my feelings anymore.... I'll go crazy soon if I keep bottling up feelings. Haiz.... So here's is the place where I'll put all my thoughts... Where I hope no one will ever know.