Shall do a little updating here since I'm quite free at work now and needa keep myself entertained.

Been working at Cerebral Palsy Alliance S'pore for three weeks, everything seems pretty good! Nice colleagues, nice boss, nice environment and nice experience that I will gain. Feeling really good when I managed to make friends with the clients who are slightly intellectual disabled. No doubt that initially when I see them, I was wondering if I will be able to communicate with them well but to my surprise, I can actually laugh and joke around with them easily. It's really a great achievement made though.

Feeling really tired at work now because of the sea games. Has been catching badminton closely and even went down for two sessions. However, got a little upset that Singapore Slingers did not make it to the finals but it's okay, they still look pretty awesome! Hahaha.

Can't wait for the firework tomorrow for the closing ceremony!

Renewwww

It's been almost two months since I've update here. I just wonder how long more will blogger be closing down, especially when there are so many new platforms and social media coming up like Dayre. Will my blog closed down just like msn messenger?

This two months were kind of both hectic and relaxing for me!

Well, I believe all my close friends would have know by now that I have left nEbO. Honestly, I feel really relieved and relax after leaving the organisation. Though I have made quite a few good friends here but I believe other grasslands are better for me. Ended my last day without getting paid but at the same time, working like a cow. But seeing my youths getting awards for the night, I guess it's kind of worthwhile. No doubt that it seems like drifted apart between the girls and me, but I guess it takes quite a lot of effort to keep up with each other. 

So after quitting nEbO, finally I do have more times for myself and friends. Realised that it has been six months since we last met, so we decided to catch up a little with each other life. And guess what? Rachel is going to get married! Couldn't stop feeling excited when I heard the news that her rom is just a week away and her wedding lunch gonna be just less than a year! Both Denise and I were so excited upon hearing it but I guess Rachel must be really busy with all the preparation. Knowing that I will have to be the sister, I shall start my diet plan for now onnnnn. 

During these period of relaxation and hunting for jobs, did went out a few times with CH. 

And also, exercise to keep myself fit. 

And, catching up with my lovely girls who finished their exams too!

Sad to say, it was a short period of relaxation. Facing the reality, I'm gonna start my new company on Tuesday. Feeling really lucky, I managed to get into social service industry! So guys, please wish me luck and hope everything will be fine there. 

Cheers all! 

White

It was quite an upsetting week to go, with the sudden news of our founding father passed on. I admit that I never know how great he was or what it really happened to make what Singapore it is now. Even during the National Day, I did not even fully understand the joy of celebrating this meaningful day. 

But sadly, it was only after he passed on, and all the television has been playing his documentary, that was when I fully understand what had happened more than 50 years back and what he had exactly done to make what it is now. It was really a lesson and knowledge gain, unfortunately, in such a way. I couldn't help but to tears when I watched the documentary. He is really a great man. 

I am never a person who will queue hours for something, but he makes me feel that queuing for hours seems worthwhile. Comparing to what he had done for us to have such a good environment to live in, I believe queuing for merely few hours to pay respects to him is really nothing, nothing compared to all those. Tomorrow is Sunday, national mourning day. It's gonna be a day where thousands will be wiping their tears and bid goodbye to him. I really can't imagine how upsetting the situation will be. 

After the tiring day in the morning, managed to go home and have a good nap before meeting C for dinner. It was really nice to receive the lozenges, especially after I asked for sweet cause my throat was feeling really uncomfortable. What funniest was when he kept his promises and sang in the  public. But no doubt that he really sings pretty nice, kind of impressed now though. 

Dream came true

It's really good to know that some of my friends are still reading my blog at times. And it's also because of this, this J suddenly came and text me to concern about my health, assuming that I am facing some health issues. 

I'm really feeling lucky because I finally got into the industry that I've been long wanting to get in. And yes, I'm leaving this very-hard-to-engage-youths job in around one month time. I did not tell anyone when I went for interview for my new company, not even my parents. Lesson was learnt when I went to cdac for interview and I was being offered, but I rejected. Parents was kind of questioning me why did I rejected. So, I learnt to keep things to myself. From going to interview, to being offered and letting my boss know about it, it was only when everything was settled, then I decided to share with them. 

I guess my passion and interests in wanting to get into social service started when I was with X. Though I did not volunteer in care events, but I remember I dragged him once to volunteer in one of the elderly centre. I tried sending resumes to social service but was rejected. I went once to my new company for interview before I even worked in my current one, but was being rejected. That is why I kept saying that I am really lucky because I was being shortlisted for interview again, and finally, being offered as volunteer executive there. I swear I was god damn happy when they called me after my interview, and it makes me can't wait to leave this company! 

Just one more month. At least I get to see TSS get up the stage to receive their award on my last day of work. I've been trying my best to memorize the speech for the video filming on Monday. I hope I won't be that emotional when I work in the new company, and that is what my friends are worried about. Psss, can't wait can't wait! :)

Opportunity

It wasn't a tough choice to make, in fact it was easy and lucky I could say. All I could say is I have to be honest during my appraisal review that if opportunities come, I will take and I will leave. Like I said, I was lucky, real lucky enough to be facing these now. Opportunities have come knocking to me twice. 

I'm glad I took the courage to take this opportunity. I know it is time to let my youths know, perhaps not those that I ain't comfortable working with, but those who have been appreciating me all my hard work. No doubt that Douglas came into my mind first when I thought that I should at least share with the youth. It was hard because emotion connects during the tough period last year when we were preparing for the presentation for their awards. 

They are a bunch of youth who are so young yet received Young Achiever Award last year. It was really touching when I saw both D and Y went up stage to receive their awards. This year, I prepared them for their presentation during the judging sessions and that was when we got to know each other more. I still vividly remember when judges were stucked between 6 nominees for the excel awards and I had to go in to speak up for them. I was so damn nervous, not because I have stage fright but because I don't really understand them well to be even fighting for them. I tried my best as their advisor to speak up for them and I am really glad to say that, next month I'll be seeing them again during the awards night. 

Broke the news to D earlier on and it was really upset to be sharing such information with him. But at least, I will be ending this on a teary night where I will be so proud of them. I'm glad that I've met them and been showing appreciation to me. 

Gonna go for another new round of medical check up again! 

At some point of time, I still wish that I can at least talk to someone; to share my thoughts and problems. 

But it's just so hard to find that someone who I can really let go of and be myself. 

Happiness or money?

Finally got the chance to catch some breathe again, especially after the hectic month of January for both Elle and me. It was really crazy and never easy to be planning such a big event, involving so many people and locations. Many things have to take into consideration, this is definitely something I have take away from here. 

Though it was a busy month for me, we still managed to take part in the union badminton tournament. I was really glad that we played for women's doubles and managed to emerged into quarter final, especially when we were totally laughing away in the court. I guess we were probably like the jokers in the entire sport hall. Whatever it is, it was a pretty good experience! 

Because of the hectic work I had at work, I could hardly meet up with my friends to catch up. Even if I do, I will be so tired to be listening what they are saying. Through these few months, the people that I've met were just that few close friends of mine. It totally seems like I've got no life. 

There are times when I feel that it was totally not worth it to be sacrificing my friends because of work, and especially when my "customers" weren't even appreciative of what I have done. Perhaps, it's only this group of youths who really do appreciate. There were times when I was so harsh with them during the execution of the event that I raised my voice a little on them. But I'm still glad that they still continue to invite us for Christmas party and even did a shirt for us during their judging session. What more could I ask for?

But this still doesn't stop me from having the thought of leaving here. I just can't force myself to do what I am doing now anymore. I'm exhausted. Perhaps the only thing that make me hesitated to leave are this group of colleagues where they always stand by me and be there for me when I needed help or a listening ears. 

These girls really mean a lot to me. 

So after the entire month of January has end, I finally have the time to meet up with Yi Hui and catch more breathe. 

There are many times where I ask myself; is happiness more important or earning more money more important? I choose happiness, what about you?