Not ended yet

I'm finally done with the two big projects already, and before I thought I can take a step slower, I realized that I have an event that is still in the midst of planning and gonna execute in two weeks time. Nothing was even done yet. But whatever it is, this event that was initially started with lots of problems have ended it successfully.

Working here have made me develop that kind of colleague feeling with a few close ones. Wendy and Liangyi are the two good examples that I'm happy to know at work. They definitely make my work life easier. 

Been meeting poly cliques quite recently, probably once a month for birthday celebration and all. Feel so comfortable hanging out with them and they just seem like my brothers and sisters, someone that I can go through my life with. It's not easy to be so comfortable with someone but they make me feel that way. I can't wait for our hotel stay next month, I'll go and be a good organizer, don't you worry. 

After the long talk with him last week, and I guess things are taking its slow step to see how it goes. No doubt that I was feeling really disappointed with him previously but I guess I'm just being too softhearted that everything seems alright to me. But I'm thankful that he actually wanted me to join his friends for dinner and to let us know each other. Though we aren't together now, it's still quite relieved to know that he's putting that little effort. Well, everything is too soon to make assumption now so, shall slowly see how is it.

Goodnight all! :)

Disappointment

It's quite 'amazing' how things can just turn out like that now, definitely not in a good way I mean. It just got me wondering, how sincere can someone be or how human can tend to make use of one another? This question really got me wondering for days, and till now, I still couldn't find the exact answer.

Well, things just happened and turned out this way unknowingly. I don't know what to say and I don't know how to really react to this but one thing I know for sure, is the disappointment I felt throughout this whole thing. How things exactly happened, I couldn't share much. But honestly, I've never feel so disappointed with someone in my entire life, not to such extent. All I can say is, action really speaks louder than words.  Without action, words are just meaningless.

I hope you understand that.

Finally met up with my two dearest uni friends for a short catch up during dinner. Was so happy that Khayling going to get married next year and she has already invited us down for the wedding lunch! :) And not to forget about Smith, that little boy finally found that someone special that he wants to work hard for! It was really funny when he was so nervous and busy buying things for her when he knows she was  sick. I hope he's sincere in treating the girl well. 

Well, I guess it's pretty obvious to see if someone is since is treating you well. Perhaps, that's not what I feel from him. 

Third month

I've been so tired and busy with work that I could hardly catch a breathe now. It's really way too hectic that I no longer feel and experience work-life balance here. It's really way too taxing for me. It comes to a point where sometimes, I just feel like breaking down 'cause it's really just so tough.

But I can't be like a raw egg like what Liangyi says. I wanna be at least...a half-boiled egg; might be a little weak, but still a little solid. I always thought that everyone should be responsible on their work but slowly, I realized that it might not be and not everyone is.

I just wish that things can be a little simpler now. I miss my friends, I miss going out with them, without having any thoughts on my mind. Just relax, just chill and just laugh at any slight things. 

Been in my company for three months and this is my first time attended a dinner and dance as a full-time employee. With the theme of 'around the world', we are the unique little ones where we represented ourselves as air marshal. This is awesome cool shit! And not to forget, Wendy and Liangyi have always be the one that share my problem at work and guided me throughout. :)

Thankful

It's been really long since I had drinking with my friends. But I'm glad that we actually came up with this and didn't expect us to share out so many secrets. It seems like when you grow older, birthday just doesn't seem that interesting anymore and it seems like I ain't that looking forward about it.

I'm thankful to have Thaijin to celebrate my actual birthday with me, after knowing that S has last minutes thing and didn't celebrate with me. Being such a nice jiemei of mine, she doesn't want to see me being alone on this day, so she actually bought me out for dinner! Love her so much! :)

Friends have been asking about us and I can say is that, things are good and normal now. No doubt that we had some misunderstanding previously but it was somehow solved. Sometimes, really thankful that he made the effort to give me morning calls, making sure that I won't doze off and be late for work. I'm thankful to have met you too.