weekend.

Welcome Jasmine back from Australia for the pretty long holiday! :)

Spent sat afternoon at home, Jueying and Kylie came over to my house since we got nothing to do before evening. 

Met Anna and Huishan over at terminal 1 to fetch Jasmine. We could only hug her and welcome her back from airport and she off to her house. 

We went to have dinner at kfc and I felt so damn sinful, and I totally dislike fried food then. Camwhore in the toilet till all the other ladies kept looking at us like we are some people worth stomping. 

Spent sun afternoon at home again till went to find mom after her work. Brought her to the new part of plaza sing and there's nothing much to walk around. Brought her to have xinwang at plaza sing and then Philson came over to paya lebar to fetch my mom home and brought me out for supper! :) 

Yes, felt damn appreciated and touched, jiang serious no joke. :) He sent mom back then brought me to 126 for dimsum 'cause I promised dad to buy for him. Dessert at sweet dynasty and went to buy supper for bro again. But he just can't stop laughing at me throughout the night, just because of one incident. Sigh.

Alright, I wanna take up kickboxing/aerobics class eh, zen mo ban leh?

neutral feeling

Life's been normal now, no ups and no downs, still quite alright. Just that exam is in a week time and I think I should start revising already. I can't afford to fail, and can't afford to pay another $1.8k for a stupid module. As usual, I've been complaining that I'm very tired during work but I just have no idea why am I so tired. Lunched with Fongtai ytd and he's like my closest colleague at nea already.

Farid ordered muffin for us and I don't know why my muffin looks so upset like that. :( But it's freaking nice!

Managed to find my pic on the pub website which I took on last fri, for the event at gardens by the bay. 

It's been two days alr and my blueblack seems worsen but I guess it's recovering soon. This Philson doesn't even show any concern and still like my pic. That's what best friends are for ah? 

Alright, can't wait for sat and Jasmine will be back! :) There are so many things to catch up with the four girls, hehe! 

bad bad day

It's an extremely bad day today, don't know how to describe how terrible it turns out, but it's bad!

Woke up and realized I was late, so rushed and bang, knocked my leg onto the table edge, ached like mad. This starts the bad day. The worse was at the back.

Watched ah boys to men with Jueying and it was great!!!! The main actor, real name as Joshua Tan, was kinda good looking though. Had great time laughing throughout the movie and can't wait for the part II to air in cinema!

Had dinner at Kim Gary and only had french toast and seaweed fries since I ain't that hungry. 

And the happy thing of the day is I bought the schedule book for 2013 and it's so freaking cute! 

Alright, off day pass so fast! Time to get back to study again. 

Hatched day

 Gonna blog about the hatched day with two fucking funny friends.

Don't know who suggested to have dinner at Hatched @ Holland V. I was complaining about the distance but after that, thinking that I can make use of this opportunity to be a filial granddaughter and visit them, I was like alright, can. 

Walked pass the old railway track at Ghim Moh just made me reminisce about the past, the place where I grew up. Remembering I always go to the playground at ghim moh and have breakfast at when I was young. 

It's kinda depressing when I see my grandparents look older and weaker from the last time I visited them. But as usual, my grandma is still so talkative and kept on talking and my grandpa will be sitting at the side staring at the blank. I just can't imagine how will I be if they will to leave me one day. I swear I'll be fucking upset, for sure.

Walked down to holland v and everything just flashed back. Went pass the block that I lived when I was young and seeing it being slowly demolishing it, the feeling just sucks. Called my mom and told her how upset I was when I walked pass there. Holland v just changed so much. I miss there so much, really. :(

Reached hatched and the bad thing is I don't eat egg so basically, there's nothing much for me to order. Had 'kid meal', the french toast w turkey bacon and banana. It's totally not filling at all. Thaijin laughed like mad when she recalled how often I eat kid meals when I was with them. And the coffee was so yuckkkkz.

Slacked at the yakun at holland v shopping centre.

And definitely must take pic with the windmill over at holland v. :)

It's finally sat. Helped out at the PS21 excelling event convention at Gardens by the bay yesterday and it was great! Not referring to the job scope over there but the people to look at. It was all the government sectors exhibiting their stuffs so basically, mindef was besides me and mha was in front of me. The navy officers are just so good looking in their uniform attire, gosh. :) It's the first time I think undergoing ns guys are good looking, hehehe. Whatsapp with Jueying and Kylie about it and I was like smiling away and looking at them!

It was kinda impromptu to meet up with Shirlene. Headed down to far east for manicure and also haircut. I know it was a little random but just have the sudden urge to cut it short 'cause I feel that most of the girls are having long hair and it's kinda boringgg.

Was hungry and remembering Philson was about to end work so texted him for supper and he can make it! :) I was so honest and told him don't give in to me so much at times if not he will spoilt me. Can't believe that I'm so sensible at times, haha. It's good to have him as my friend, hehe. He even brought me to loyang temple for praying, thanks :) 

And please don't forget to wish me luck on tues, thanks :)

Alright, just end this post with my grandparents pic, hehe! Loves all, :)

study bom pi pi

Hi all, happy deepavali to the indians! But it doesn't really seem like the public hols to me at all, just feel so numb with any hols already. All I know is I'm done with my projects for this sem! Studied with Philson and Jueying this afternoon at airport. It was so damn crowded and I only managed to study one chapter. I'm just too talkative and keep wanting to talk and talk.

So, ended up camwhore with Jueying with our iphone apps. 

Studied till around 6.30pm and off to tamp to meet Yihui, his girlfriend and Christine! :) Haha, totally love to meet them 'cause it always bound to have so much laughter and Christine will always protect me. But the fact is I'm the oldest among them, god. 

And shall end my blog post with my pic with Philson, an annoying friend of mine who has a friend that has a great taste for watches! :)

Uni girls

Finally done with the marketing plan and the presentation! Now left with two more weeks to main exam and then start on the new sem again, seems so fast. Still having dilemma on which modules to take next. Two law modules or one law module and one hr module?

Saw my bro's fb post and it was so damn sweet! :) Received 18 likes, hehe.

Went to 126 for dimsum with groupmates after presentation. Had so much laughter, especially the part when they laughed at me after I said "char sao" instead of "char ta". Can't stop laughing at all, and felt so damn embarrassing. 

Went to have durian after that and I seriously think we got scammed. Haha, Rachel totally cannot go and buy durian next time, she will get scam easily. Haha, just so much laughter with the girls. :)

Alright, gonna sleep now and gonna wake up earlier to study with Philson tmr! Night all.

no, no, no

This whole week was a hell week for me. Been sleeping really little hours and kept dozed off during work and in class. It was damn torturous, especially in class. I tried my very best to listen attentively and opened my eyes but somehow, I'll just end up dozing off time and again. 

Had my first time working on a Sat at nea. It was damn shiok but definitely not referring to the part where I had to wake up so fucking early on a sat morning. We ordered mcbreakfast and it was so damn yummy, and fattening. Worked till 1pm and went to Novena to meet my groupmates for project discussion. Not really that efficient but still alright, better than nothing done. Went off to meet Thaijin at fep for manicure and pedicure. And as usual, I dozed off during the pedicure session. I slept throughout till Thaijin called me 'cause we were separated during the session. 

Met Chuanhui and Jaslyn after that. Had pastamania for dinner and it was damn ex. Alright, I think it's cause of the thing that I ate. Spent so much on that day, on food. $7 on mcbreakfast, $10.20 on stupid damn burger king, and $14 on pastamania. And not to forget, $7 on starbucks. What? :(

Slacked awhile and catch up with the girls before catching the last bus. And as usual, yes, I fell asleep throughout the journey till Tampines. Back home and all I ever did, was to continue editing the report and waiting for the others to send me their part. 

Just done with printing the appendices and please make sure that I'll score well for marketing 'cause I really put in lots of effort for this bloody project. Alright, left with less than three hours of sleep again. Torturing month, upset month, fucked up month. 

hi, ted?

Work seems to be boring now, after half of the team left to hdb hub. The whole area seems to be so quiet, except when those customer came to pay fines, appeals and do all sort of things. Since the whole place gonna renovate soon, Farid and Foongtai were clearing up the store room and they found lots of goodies left over. So supervisor gave me the teddy bear since I didn't want to take any of their goodies. 

So I carried this teddy bear to school and everyone was like looking at me. And not to forget, the bear stinks like hell. So decided to leave it at the void deck under my block. See who's the lucky one who bring back the bear that I had hugged for hours. 

Was so shag this morning and was late in meeting Philson. Could barely open my eyes when I was preparing, totally feel like I was about to faint. He brought me to pray for my studies at bugis area. It was my first time praying at the 'shop'. K, it was kinda a new experience? Went to look for his watch nearby there and got the adidas watch, quite nice looking though. 

Then, trained down to raffles city to look at the birkenstock sandal. Wanted to try the three black stripes so we went down to wheelock to try. But I ended up buying the red stripes which raffles city has it. Alright, sorry Philson! Hehehe. Shopped around at the town and went home to rush my project.

Supposed to be rushing the project but the drama was totally a distraction to me. So basically, the laptop was placed on my lap and my eyes were totally on the tv for that 1.5 hours, before I met the girls for dinner. So when the drama ends, I closed my laptop and went to prepare to meet Jueying and Kylie at tamp. 

Had ahloy thai for dinner and shopped around tamp. 

Bought a bracelet at accessorize but it's kinda loose. But it's alright, since I can't find the type I like other than this. Walked around and I realized it's time to buy 2013 schedule book! Shall go and look for it one day. Home sweet home after that since Kylie's mom called her and it was about the time to go home and rushed my stupid tourism project.

Thinking of work and school tomorrow, it just makes me feel so upset. :( And I need to start studying after all the project submission. I've no time to slack anymore. Kkk, I need motivation! :(

cui day

Weekend just passed so fast, always hate the feeling of approaching Monday, the damn Monday blues. Well, this week was really like hell, too much things to handle. The depressed feeling was really like hell shit but thanks friends who were there for me. It was great to have these friends, :')

Was super late for project meeting today, but too tired to really care. But I still did rushed like mad down to school, what a responsible kid I am. It was raining hell heavily when we ended our discussion. Thanks god I brought umbrella and I walked from wilkie edge to purvis street in that heavy god damn rain. Thanks I survived through. Did facial at eden spa and hate it when she extracted the blackheads on my face and it turns out so cui, like whole face got rashes. 

Went to meet Kylie in the national lib and was so cold down there! Had dinner w her at olive vine at marina square link and settled down at cold stone for dessert, totally sinful night. And thanks god, she bought the birkenstock sandal from me! :') 

Alright, as usual, project time again! But I think I'll watch one episode of running man first, hehehe.

Speechless night

First day of November, a bad start of the month. Doubt things will go smoothly for the rest of the year anymore. I'm just too depressed, so depressed that I no longer have any motivation to fight this bloody god damn battle. I'm already slowly having the mindset of let-me-die-in-the-battlefield or just-shot-me-dead.

Well, there's no one to blame other than myself for this outcome. I could have study even harder for my exam but I just didn't put in much effort so I should have expect this outcome. Yes, it's supposed to be, "no point getting upset over things that had happened/fixed" but it's not easy to get cheer up just like that. I'm upset about the time and again failures I faced, but what made it worse is the anger I had in me, the anger of blaming myself for not putting much effort in my uni life. I've been treating it as though I'm studying poly now. I just ain't good at handling stress.

Working is tired though I know I'm just a part time employee. I just hate myself for having such life, and all I can ever do is probably blame myself for not having self discipline. No point telling myself to change when I don't have the motivation to change. Now, it's all gonna depends on myself.

Well, done ranting my bloody upset problem. Would really love to thanks jueying for her listening ear tonight and not to forget, my lovely bro Philson for being so steady and willing to bring me out for dessert to cheer me up when it was already 10plus. But now, I'm having toothache, just another issue to add up to my emo night.

G'night. :(

oh fuck this shit

Oh fuck this shit, on the very last day of October. I think 2012 just isn't a right year for me at all, all the months have been so screwed. I wanted to withdraw sustainable tourism mod so badly weeks back but there are too many consequences that held me back. Now, I think I really have no confident in passing this damn mod. Got back our individual essay and I failed by one mark. Felt like shit, so damn upset so decided to argue w tutor. But his reply really made me speechless.

Just one more month to final exam.

After today, it makes me feel that my group mates are doubting my ability for project 'cause I failed my individual essay. But the fact is that I failed 'cause of referencing. I just wanna quickly get over with this semester and I doubt I do well for my cb test. So, gonna mentally prepared to get even more upset on fri when I receive the result.

Alright, battlefield tmr, nights.