Randomness

 

Met up with my fierce and annoying friend, Thaijin, on Thurs after my work! She came back for two days just to collect the graduation robe and went back, I guess she's really either crazy or she's really rich. Lol. So happy to see her after so long! ;) And thanks for much for the hello kitty bling bling ring, the roll-on ointment as well as the sunglasses!

Was packing my wardrobe and saw this photo, totally shocked 'cause of my hairstyle, like wtf, when was I so hip? Lol.










Working at ewiim was still alright but trying to adapt and finding another job at the same time. Sigh, gonna continue working for the next week and I'm gonna discuss it w Syahmina. Alright, off to cheeleng's birthday! Ciaos.

Dilemma

When I finally can stop searching for jobs every night and making it like a daily routine, when I finally can stop going for interview for jobs, I started grumbling again. It's all because of one reason; I dislike my current job. Yeah, although its only the first day of work but I could feel the feeling of non-achievement made. I'd rather say I love my attachment job better with it's low salary. I wouldn't want my boss that is so bossy and shout as she thinks she has the authority. Well, human beings are realistic.

I'll give it a try till next week and within these time frame, I'll try to be as brave as my mom to do the thing that one thinks it's right. Alright shall head to bed, it's gonna be another torturing day again. Goodnight lovely world!

Nihon Chalet

Had nihon chalet on Monday and I bet everyone was very surprise to see me there. Made new friends, but all were so much younger than me. In fact, I'm the oldest girl among them. Didn't pay a cent for the chalet and feeling really guilty.

And this man over here stayed over at my house and he's snoring away like some cold play concert. Alright, night everyone!

Feverish

It's a bad weekend 'cause I'm having fever and sore throat right now. Woke up on a Saturday morning, throat was hurting like it's tearing and my whole body was aching like mad. I thought it was just a mere sore throat so I couldn't give a damn 'bout it. Went to meet Jiale and his family for steamboat, then slowly, I felt really restless and weak. Then I touched my forehead, knowing that I'm really sick. I didn't care so much and ended up, even forgetting that I shouldn't share my drinks with Jiale. Now, I'm really afraid that I'll spread my virus to him.

And tell me, how am I suppose to go for interview tomorrow?

Maybe?

It was a bad day 'cause I'm still jobless and my aim is to get a job before Thaijin comes back from Thailand! Hahahaha.

Met Chuanhui and accompanied her to shop at Bugis and it tempted me so much to buy dresses, shoes, bags and many. If not I'm rich, I will do it without any hesitation. Dinner with the rest at Aston's and rushed down to buy 51! Yay, got it! ;) It makes everything worthwhile! Hehehe.

It's all the old memories

Today post will be back to the old memories, 'cause I saw all these when I was packing my cupboard! This card is given by Yihui on my birthday, hahaha.

And this is my fierce friend, Thaijin jie. It's only given to me when I constantly remind her to do a hand-made card for me! Glad she did it! ;)

 

And this is from Jiale, wrote it on birthday! ;) Hahaha, so cute!

Found this and it was fucking memorable. Mr Leong and Ms Ng find our primary school photo and did for everyone. And try spotting me, with the hint of *the cutest inside*.

This is the period when we had SSM, where we woke up at 5am to prepare...our hair with plenty of gel, hoping that it won't drop down during inspection and damn, I ALWAYS FAIL MY GROOMING, thanks to my hair. I think out of 10 ssm, I passed 2 times only.

And this card was done by Zhiyu! *Shocking isn't it?* Hahahah! It was so sweet but I couldn't stop laughing 'cause it's more like a chinese new year card than a birthday card, but effort was being appreciated! ;)

And when I packed my cupboard and saw this, I was damn touched. Yes, it was done by a guy who used to talk to me everything and post :) on my facebook wall everyday, and increase the :) face as day passed. However, it was stopped in less than twenty :) faces. He did this christmas card for me with many cotton wool inside. And I think Thaijin will be shocked 'cause it was done by jx. Hahaha. Thanks alot, ;)

And lastly, valentine day card from love one. :)

Severely

Severely, I guess I loved you too severely.
I don't breathe and I looked around for you.

Feeling lost?

I have many problem in mind but I kept it to myself and don't wanna share with anyone. I accompanied my mom to visit grandparents today and I swear I was stunt and fucking upset when I see my grandma tears 'cause quarreling with grandpa. I never seen her tears when she took care of me when I was young. I stayed with 'em throughout my childhood, till I was K1, then I moved back to stay with my own family. Both of my parents were working very hard in raising up me and my brother. Grandpa always prepare milo in my milk bottle and I will drink it while watching Hi-5. Whenever my friends talk about childhood and cartoon characters, I don't know anything because I seldom watch cartoon. In fact, the only one I know is Tom and Jerry. There was time when I was being took care by a nanny, an evil nanny, who brings me lot of misery and upset memories. And, it was etched in my heart and mind, till now... 

Now, I've grown up yet I don't know how to console my grandparents. I don't even know how tomorrow gonna be when the entire house left with two of them and my uncle goes to work. I can't imagine how am I gonna accept the fact if they have to leave this world one day. I guess I'll be real depressed and upset. No one has ever leave my life, and I guess I really can't accept the fact. Alright, shall talk 'bout other stuffs.

So, went back to Tampines to meet

And this is the pathetic fried rice that I've cooked last week when I was real hungry yet don't wanna spend any money. Guess what? I ended up throwing it away 'cause it was way too awful to be eaten. But I'll still try hard next time!












With the additional luncheon meat added to my mee goreng, it is even tastier! ;)











Alright, the kitchen has a damn cockroach and I'm really feeling helpless now. I need a man to catch it, but definitely not my bro 'cause I'll never forget how we both stared at the cockroach running around for half an hour. Bro, you gotta try to catch it one day!

Screwed, you caused it.

It's a brand new week again, it's Monday again. I don't feel the Monday blue anymore and I miss it. Yes, I seriously don't want to waste any of my time slacking my life away. I want to do something productive. I really want to earn some income to support my own expenses and not always, always, and always relying on  my mom. I believe she has really works very hard for this family and our future. I'm 21 years old yet, I ain't helping anything in this family. Ain't I an adult now? I received the interview for xxx and went down to Crown Plaza Hotel for interview and yes, it was my first time felt so pissed off with an interview and fought back indirectly.

I know you are trying your best to pin on me just because my parent perform better than you, and you ended up dislike my bro. But this isn't gonna make you judge me and pin point on me. You wanted to interview me instead of another interviewer is because of this relationship. You don't interview in the sense of a professional interview and yet, all you did were merely telling me about how my brother performed at there. You even gave the comment of not wearing such a short skirt during work, but hello, isn't xxx provides uniform for their employee? This has seriously shows that that you are trying to pin point me at every single thing. And I told you right at your face, "Yes, I do not have much retail experience but if you gonna based on the relationship with my mom and let me enter to this company, then sorry, I don't need this job anymore." You screwed up my day, seriously.

Leave the unpleasant incident aside. After the interview, went to meet Shirlene at Orchard and went down to find my mom to talk 'bout this matter. And damn, I realized I didn't take any photo with Shirlene today. Walked around and laughed at stupid things, like kopi-o. Accompanied her to trim her eyebrow at browhaus, mandarin gallery. Walked to taka and wanted to find Winston and surprised him, but ended up bumped into Jus there! Hahaha, and he's bastard enough to start the conversation by saying, "heading to eat again ah?" Hahaha, he's forever so bastard. Shirlene brought me to have nihon mura and bumped into tall chef over there and he gave me big portion of teriyaki chicken don! That was great! ;) Walked around plaza sing and brought the stuffs I needed to give my grandparents on wed! 

And, I changed my idol again. From Suju (Ryeowook, Sungmin, Donghae, Kyuhyun), to Shinee (Jonghyun), then to CN Blue (Yonghwa), then to 2AM(JoKwon) and now, it's 2PM(Junho, Chansung, Nickhun). Because of them, I started my shuffling journey. So far, only Shirlene seen my shuffling before and she laughed out loud. :(

Alright, another thing that made me rather stressed right now is 'bout my uni stuffs. Kaplan's deputy manager said that he will calls me to confirm with me about the intake and the bridging course but I received an email saying that 24th April will be the assignment due date as well as an exams. I was like what the fuck? I ain't prepare all these at all. However, thanks to some friends who willing to listen to it! ;) Thanks lot, though you all not gonna read this post! Hahahaha.

Hamster, my love

Yes, finally got to see my hamsters after a week.

Had lunch with Thaijin, Keith and Ivan at Cowboyz at amk. And this Thaijin made me rushed like mad, and even run for train at Bishan. The lunch wasn't that bad and I guess it's quite worth the value though. Met Jiale after that at amk and we were caught in the rain. Bought the hamsters' bedding and off to his house to play with hamsters!

And fatty is really damn fat, like can feel the huge differences in both of them. But still, I love 'em so much.

Wanted to watch titanic on funshion but it isn't loading but it's alright, Jiale downloaded it from another website and gonna catch it tmr. Having interview with DFS on Monday, really hope that thing will turn out well and they will accept part time, please please please. I need money money money. I wanna buy bags, dresses and shoes! Alright, just done watching running man w snsd, k, I don't like Jessica. I can't wait for teukso couple tmr, yay! Goodnight everyone! ;)

*And Jiale recorded my shuffling down, totally horrible.

Do you know?

Do you know that I don't even know who am I exactly now. I don't even know if I'm behaving as myself or another me. I've tried to let myself go and be more free, not to tied up to you so tightly. Been hanging out with Yihui and Daryl these few days and it did made me stop thinking so much. But I know this isn't gonna help forever. Alright, interview for DFS on next monday and I'm still waiting for Murdoch uni about my bridging course.

And Thaijin went to sleep already, like omfg, so early!!!!! I miss laughing with her, though it's only a day. Hahahaha, good to have such entertaining friend.

I'll be back

Yes, this is the mini shuffling that I wanna learn, fucking cool man. I'm still pretty amazed by their shuffling, ahhahhhahhhahhh!

Went to Kaplan to meet the deputy manager to talk about the university, hopefully it's good. Email Sam Chern about the bridging course and have a feeling that she doesn't like me. Met up with Jiale awhile before meeting Yihui and Daryl for dinner. And tadah, home after that and can't stop laughing when talking with Thaijin, totally a joker sia.

Put your hands up

Put your hands up, put your hands up. I wanna learn their dance step man, it's freaking nice and attractive! As their shuffling for I'll be back. Woah, can't imagine if I shuffle like them, I'll be like damn happy and amazed by myself. Shall ask Jiale to teach me shuffling when he's free, hehehe!

Went to recruit express to look for jobs, it was totally a waste of time. Was kind of being interviewed by a girl who seems to be like the same age as me. After that, I rushed to kaplan to ask more details regards to the bachelor of commerce, and ended up, I enrolled straight away. Got a weird feeling and screwed up mindset after that, like I don't know where to head next. Am I enrolled in the right course, the right place, the right time? I don't know; all I know is that I'm lost, really lost. Have to call the manager tomorrow to discuss on the exemptions and stuffs. I don't know should I apply for may or september intake now, everything was way too rush.

Ended early after my payment for the enrollment, then went to Tanjong Pagar to wait for Jiale to end work. I'm very happy that he's happy working with rc now, at least I can see that he's truly happy now. ;) Waited for him for an hour and sat alone at the Han's located at the spring leaf tower, a very weird building, and enjoyed my iced lemon tea and reading on my brochure. And I was so happy when he arrived. Headed to iluma for Astons and he understands me so well that he said just order double up chicken 'cause I definitely can't finish. And tadah, I really cant finish one whole chicken by myself. Walked around with him and we part 'cause he's very tired. Nvm, at least we gonna meet again on Friday and support my friends at design school at vivocity for their roadshow!

Alright, need to remember to call up the manager of kaplan and museum part time job! Jiayou, to myself.

Everybody put your hands up, let's put your hands up!

April 3.

I'm trying my best to make it a habit to blog every night before sleep now. And I guess I have water retention in my body 'coz I keep on peeing non-stop. Woke up extremely late again (as usual) and called up Kaplan to check on the programme enquiry. I swear they sucks 'cause they didn't pick up the damn phone, so what's the customer service/reception all about? Called up for the airport service ambassador job and got the interview at 10am at toa payoh tomorrow. This sucks 'cause it has the suckiest pay ever. What to do now?

Dinner with Yihui and Daryl. Daryl was fucking funny and we both totally have communication breakdown. I totally don't understand what he's talking and he doesn't understand mine too. He even heard "coins" when I said I wanna drink koi. And guess what he replied? There are cheers outside, if you need coins to buy your drinks. I was totally lost at his words. And back home to receive Jiale's call, hehehe! Gonna meet him for dinner tomorrow after his work. Praying hard that rc job will be good.

Alright, shall conquer kaplan tomorrow at their counter. Bye, pray hard that accredit hr increase my pay lah, please.

Hi, April!

Hi, April. It's finally April, I'm hoping that this month will be a better month. March was totally a fucked up month for me, never cried for so many days straight in a month. So please, gotta be better this month. Hope will be able to get a job soon. I don't wanna like some useless daughter that keep spending mom's hard-earned money and not getting any jobs.

Next, I need to remind myself to call up to Kaplan to check if I'm able to appeal for the application by this month but I doubt so. So, is Murdoch university good? Alright, shall call them up tomorrow! And I just ate 10+ rice cracker. Gonna be fucking fat tmr, night!