The decision in life.

We just gotta make some decision by our own in life, be it a right or wrong one. A mistake can just shoot you dead right away, just like mine. Life hasn't been easy on me now. I tried to be good to myself but I failed. This decision is gonna be a tough one, I believe.

Worked for extra half an hour and I doubt there will be any additional pay. Well, this sucks! Tmr gonna be my last day at front office and I'll be changing to housekeeping dept. I'm pretty sure the front office will make fun of me and mobil talk me to release the bloody system. Shah has been giving me lots of riddles but I solved none.

I think my leg has some problem 'cause it has been hurting for damn lot. I think it's injured. I'm feeling real lethargic now but trying to stay awake to install all the programmes into my new acer lappy. Hope this will performs a good job and not let me down. Goodnight friends.

Just stop saying I'm spoilt, it irritates me extremely lots.

For every little thing I do, you'll definitely say I'm spoilt. Yes, for all the things I do, I'm spoilt. Spoilt for being feeling disappointed that you will never heed my advice or listen to me. Spoilt for this and that. Yes, for the whole life of mine, I'm spoilt. Since that's the case, what's the point of having a spoilt partner? Think twice, dude.

My life seems better without your guailan face around.
And this shows how disgusting you are to spoil my day away.

Yihui and Joyce came to wait for me at front office and thanks to some idiotic people that love to curse people all day long, I had to end my shift slightly later. Settled our dinne at Just Acia and I rushed my dinner like I haven't been eating for days. Shopped around at Tampines and bought the braclet.

Met Jiale and bought him koi. Accompanied him for dinner before went home. I deprived of sleep every single day! And they actually said I should put thicker make up, real sian shit. :( I think I should ask those opera performers for make up technique -_-

Alright, meeting Shirlene for dinner tmr! ;) And will be working with Zie for the last time tgt. :(

Happy four months, baby! ♥

As usual, what I wanna say is thank you. I know I'm not a good girlfriend at times and unreasonable but you will always give in and try to make me happy. I'm sure you have a hard time giving in to me.



Gotta a halfway through surprise from him and he made me spaghetti for lunch. He came all the way to downtown to have lunch w me. ♥

In the mid shift, something happened real sucky. I've never been so fed up before, you this unreasonable shit. Stop cursing people because I believe karma will strikes you soon.



Because of one arrogant guy, ended up baby has to wait for me for nearly four hours. Feeling real guilty plz. He made a reservation at porn's, a thai restaurant that was opened by pornsak. The green curry made my throat worsen now, 'm eating the chinese pill that he bought for me.



Had ice cream at Udder's with his friends. Sent me home and slack at fitness corner. I'm glad that mom seems like liking him, that's a good good thing. Hope his interview will success tmr! ;) You've all my support, go for it!

Anw, thanks for today and all the giving in.
I love you, boy! ♥

I'm lovin' this weekend! ♥

Good friday is definitely a good holiday for us! Spent this weekend together with Jiale and I would say that it was such a rare opportunity. Hehehehe! Went over to find him after his work and had dinner over at his house. Midnight movie of Source code with him and his sister at amk hub.

Had dinner with him and his sis and boyf at Fatboy the next day at upper thomson! ;)



Wanted to go home alr but suddenly feel like staying with baby for one more night so yay! So made an impromptu decision to go prawning at Bishan with him, Songjie and Daryl. My virgin prawning experience was great! Caught my first prawn in five mins time, then the rest took quite long alr. I'm so gonna go prawning next time again. Hehehe!

The weather is freaking warm lately, till I can't stop perspiring these few days.



Kianloon like finally upload the photos during estee birthday, which is like four months ago.

Okay, tmr will be the last week at front office before heading to housekeeping. Hope that I'll enjoy this five days over there. I love my boy! And he makes me think that I'm really not a good girlfriend 'cause I ain't understanding enough. And tmr will be our four months together, it seems so slow 'cause we're like so close as though we are together for years. Whatever it is, I love you!

I love good friday! Because this means I don't have to work! I can finally take a breathe of fresh air and don't have to face the sickening ass who I really hate now. He's definitely an arrogant and hopeless ass I've ever seen.

Working has kind of settled down and manageable now. Everything was alright, except that special case of human being that I hate now. Went to baby's house for dinner after work just now and went to catch my last bus home. Time flies fast when you are relaxing. ;) I can't believe that I'll be staying overnight outside tmr! Hehehehe. Jaslyn called me earlier on and realised that I didn't meet them for real long. Msg'd with Shirlene and will be catching up with her next wed since it's her off day! ;)

As for rls, I really hope that things will be better, and less quarrels from now on. I'm trying my best to be slightly more understanding and be a better girlfriend and I hope I can do it. Goodnight, gonna watch youtube and head to bed! ;)

Lastly, happy good friday to those christian! Thanks for having this day and making me rest at home! ;)

Assumption kills relationship straight down. I don't know what's wrong with our relationship lately but it seems like it's going downhill for a moment. I believe we will still work things out and thing will definitely get better in the future. Like what I've mention in facebook, in relationship, everyone is like a loser because we get so soft hearted easily and easily forgive about the argue and just thought of giving in. This is love.

Working at front office is getting more and more boring. It seems like the occupancy is full yet there aren't much people checking in. I always linger around the front desk like a moron. The only happy time I got is to look forward to meet baby. He gave me some sort of motivation to push me forward. Though we have been quarrelling, but it doesn't make me stop loving him. I am feeling real dead beat now, shall go and have a shower and chat with him for awhile before heading off to bed.

Goodbye people, shall look forward to friday because it's good friday! ;)

Karma strikes me and I fell sick this time round, had slight fever and throat inflammation. Baby is really sucha caring boyfriend. He insisted to bring me to visit the doctor and from this visit, I realised not all doctors are professional. The first doctor I visited gave me a medicine that is equivalent to panadol whereby I already said I am allergy to panadol. Well done, want I die early is it?

Didn't go to work and resting at home now. Watched love jk and realised I have already lost track with my super junior, especially my ryeowook. But it's okay, I still support him like how I do in the past!



He's still as cute as before, and he can actually speak quite fluent chinese. Zai!

Baby went to work so couldn't meet him today. Regretted much for not going to work, if not I can go and surprise him today after his work. Ah real shit now! :(

Life is crashing down badly on me. Assumption kills me down.

When I thought that life is getting badly, it tore me down again. This time round, it's deeper. I kept all of these depress into my mind, and hug onto my pillow to cry it out loud. No one to turn to, no one to console from. I love the thrill of having pain to numb your heart. I really stop feeling aching in my heart. When the life goes up, then it comes down.

Hey god, you gave me too much problems and I'm dead now. My heart is dead for now because you gave me so much emotion and being hurting me again and again.

Dead shot

If the world and time and everything little thing can be just a little bit more flexible, life will definitely be great. Everything seems like going against me. For a moment, I feel like taking a puff because it seems like everything will be so great. There are times when I really feel like ranting out my feeling and anger but I can't. There are times when I hope I can be breakfree from the comfort zone and be freedom with my own life. Getting drunk and forget 'bout the troubles I am facing. If life's this good, I won't be even thought of doing foolish stuffs. Because, life is so miserable now.

Lovin' weekend like I'll never do.

Weekend passed like lightning, weekday passed like long heavy downpour. Spending my Saturday with my lovely boyfriend. Though we have been quarrelling almost everyday now but we are still as good, I think? Went over to his house and took a nap before heading to USS to find karyaow and shirlene and importantly, to enjoy the fireworks. But I doubt I was enjoying b'coz the firework was too loud alr. For a moment, I can understand the feeling when Japanese occupation period and they bombed S'pore. It was that loud!

Had an impromptu decision to join Jiale's friend for drinking 'coz I don't wanna go home early and he doesn't allow me to wait for shirlene alone. It was kind of awkward 'coz I don't really talk much. And again, I felt kind of shit. I felt okay, just that I feel like vomiting. I guess after last night, Jiale won't allow me to go drinking alone with friends without him around. Gosh, I feel like a burden to him. :(

My eyes swollen and it's feeling real uncomfortable now. But not like I can go and get a MC. :( I really dislike working! Okay I ciao off, shall go surprise him at amk now? :D

" What are words, if you don't really mean them when you said them. What are words, if they are only for good times then they don't?"

Never did I ever feel happy once internship started. It seems like the sunshine is gone, and everyday all I see is only darkness. The feeling of losing something. It slips off from my hand.

You're my motivation to me, especially when I am facing the stress in work. Just your presence is enough to brighten up my day. I've been always waiting for the time to clock out and meet you for dinner. You've never fail to make me smile, boy.



I know there are many things that is falling for you but always know that I'll be here for you. Yes, it may be the down period for you but the outsiders won't understand how you feel. I know it's definitely hard for you now, but I'll be here for you, always.



Work is still tiring but things are getting better. I hope we will be happy always, just like now!

It's finally my off day again because it's weekend! The happiest time of my life.

Woke up at 630 in the morning and prepared to rush to airport to send Chuanhui off to mauritius. I felt so weak that I cried when I see her depart off. She's my best friend who will always be there when I need her most. She knows literally every single thing that I am facing and my problems. It's heartbroken to see her left but I know we will meet up again in five months time! ;)

Sending one off and gonna fetch one back tmr.

Went to flea market at home club and shop around town with Shirlene! ;) We have so many similarities that we couldn't believe! Hahahaha, real cool!



Thanks Emma for helping me to edit this photo! She actually went to search my photo and edit for me like vintage style. It's freaking nice of her! ;) Gonna treat her sugarcane when I work! :D

Okay, I'm freaking tired! One off day just ended like this! :(