My life is just like rainbow now. (o:
I love him. He will always be by my side, giving me support and giving me opinion when I asked him. He never fails to make me happy when I'm down and always give in to me when I'm making a fuss over small matter. I appreciate his care for me. Just now, when he ''provokes'' me, I was angry and kept quiet for 2 minutes and he knows I was angry. Spending 22 months with him is really nice and we didn't quarrel for at least 2 months! :) Hah.
At first, I was bothered about the work and it's solved. Sharon has finally helped me to persuade the manager over at Revenue House to allow me to work for 2 weeks till my school starts. :) I'm seriously have to thanks Sharon alot! Gonna buy her donuts on my first day to thanks her. Haha. Then, I'll have more savings in my bank and no longer $27.
Days with boyf was great! Love him ttm! <3
Went to Far east to have our dessert then walked around to buy his belt. Off to Taka to buy my dango!(: Then, shopped around. Settled dinner at Just Acia, regretted 'coz don't have my doryfish. Walked around the empty Cathay and home!
You sucks to the core, I swear.
当你的时间都花在很没有意义的事情上，你总会觉得为什么当你在做很有意义的事情时，你的时间总是不够， 总是会要求多一点。
五个小时前， 我根本在浪费我的时间。不是看电视，就是找东西吃，不然就是睡觉，毫无意义。 五个小时后，我的生活还是一样。以前的我，每个星期六一定会做工。 可是，他们现在都没有给我时间做。别人一个星期起码有三四天做工，可是我只是一天。你们不觉得非常不公平吗！ 我不管你是不是怀疑我， 讨厌我，还是什么，可是当你因为个人原因而不给我工的话，我就觉得你非常没种！ 如果是真的，你不应该因为个人原因而‘报复’在工作上。别的outlets 都把每个人的工作排得公平，你呢？
以前我问你为什么我会有那么少天做工，你说因为我给的少。好，那么是我的错，我承认。 那么现在我把我的schedule 都放每天了，可是我的schedule 还是跟以前一样。那么还是我的错吗！！！快不得以前有人投诉你， 就是因为你不是公事公办。
以前的我， 傻傻笨笨的，所以你们叫我做什么， 我就做什么。我从来不敢防抗或拒绝。以前的我，你们爱怎么趣笑我，我只会笑嘻嘻的回复，不会凶回。可是这不代表我不难过，不代表我不生气而是我把自己的情绪压抑在心里， 不让你们知道。
现在的我，只希望能够赚多一点钱， 读好书，和找时间陪他<3。
It's pissin' me off! It's seriously pissing me off.
At first, I asked how come I have so little schedule then it said that 'coz I didn't give much schedule so, all right, maybe it's my fault. So now, I gave everyday for my schedule but end up, my schedule is still only one day. What the hell? Is that biased? Kns, I just want to make some savings what.
Worst still, kind of fooled by that stupid recruit express. Called me during my afternoon nap whether am I interested in a job and I accepted and asked me to prepare to make a trip down to fill the form 'coz needa start work on Monday. So I get ready, and they called me again saying that I'm not short listed. SINCE THAT'S THE CASE, IN THE FIRST PLACE, CALLED ME FOR WHAT? It made me having high expectation of it and made me felt so happy when I was preparing. Seriously, day just sucks to the core.
Waited for Zuanzhe outside his work place then he cycled me till nihon and we had mac! :D
I'm so sorry again for making him perspire and ran out of breathe :/
YAY! The last day of givin' out flyers around Pasir Ris and getting myself tired. Well, today was a better day as compared to yesterday. I called no one and I finished it with my own ability :) I walked from e!hub to block 230 that area to block-to-block distributing then the remaining one-third, I took bus back to interchange to give out 'coz I'll feel bad for not doin' the job properly, hah. Bought old chang kee and back to restaurant and everything was so bored!
I want to say goodbye to all these flyers, please don't ever come back to my hand!
Bought subway at downtown and was served by the same guy yesterday, felt a lil awkward but at least I bought a different meal today. Went home and shower then overslept! Suddenly woke up and I got nervous 'coz I'm running late to meet Zuanzhe. Then my mom also shocked when she saw me shocked, haha! Went to meet him at Safra and once again, he got tired and ran out of breathe when he cycled me from safra to nihon. :/ hehe. K, I'll promise to slim down though I always said that and it never came true but I'll TRY.
:D
I'm so sorry, Jueying. I actually forgotten about our outing tomorrow but I can't make it 'coz I promised mom that I'll stay at home and take care of her 'coz she's sick. 'll meet up on Friday at mindcafe! :)
Now, I finally realised it's really not an easy task to give out flyers. Worst still is when people will deliberately looked away or not even shake their head. When you see their *u**in' face of dao, the heat is even worse. But when you see their ah ma will come forward and take from me and smiled with a nice ''thank you'', my heart melts.
In between of what happened, I shall not mention much 'coz it makin' me sian.
Jueying called me and accompanied me to chat while I walked all the way till Pasir Ris block 474 to give out the flyers into their mailbox. My last destination was block 404 or whatever I guessed. Tomorrow will be giving out thay bloody flyers again. I don't get it, I applied for waitress and not flyer distributors. Tampines nihon has 2 people to give out and ehub has only one.
Well, thanks alot for my darling Jueying! Without her accompany, I don't know how I would spend my time for that four hours. I might not have the courage to go over to blocks to give out. She just kept on messaging for that four hours! I love her! :)
Yes, my heart really sink deep down when I saw it. You will find it scary or even disgusting but it's what all I saw and made my heart sank. I regretted for quarrelling with beloved dad. I saw his finger was bleeding, then I took his hand and had a closer look. One finger has at least ten cuts and some was bleeding or dried blood. Imagine all ten fingers was like that, at least hundred cuts there were. I controlled my tears in front of him. I can see that he's very tired yet I'm still not filial to him.
I went to my room, locked my door, called Zuanzhe and started crying like ten minutes. One packet of tissue papers was used and it wasn't enough for me. My tears just flow whenever I close my eye and my imagine was the cuts. His hand was so rough. My heart sank.
Nihon flyer distributing tomorrow from 11am till 3pm. I think I will faster finish and go back to restaurant to have nice aircon!
Tired. I was really very tired today. I do not know why, but I know I'm restless. Had a scary nightmare last night, didn't cry but I was kicking my legs till I woke up. Haha. Shall not say the story about because everyone would definitely say I'm lame. Haha. But it made me pissed okay, yeah.
Watched teevee when I woke up and I made oreo milkshake, then stomach ache after drinking it. Haha, I know it's dumb. Met Zuanzhe at Pasir ris interchange and bus to Changi Village for dinner. Sorry to him, 'cause I attitude him just now for the reason that I forgot. HEHE :D
YEAH, this is my summer fling, I think it called this lah (:
(:
Sometimes, I really do not know what am I doing but I know it might be wrong. I do not know what I want, I just can't describe the feeling, I guess no one will understands. Sometimes, I wish I am mature enough to handle every little thing. Sometimes, I just wish to sit near the sea, feel the breeze, and think. I know I can't. I can't.
'll be working on mon, tues and wed.
Hah, kind of wonderful night spent msn-ing with them.
[c=47]EVELYNN[/c] says:
meiyan~
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meiyan
If you judge people, you have no time to love them. says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAH HOR! :)
waddsup!
omg, my name like so nice sial, everyone busy calling my sweet name
waddsup everyone.
Andy Mertesacker says:
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meiyan
[c=47]EVELYNN[/c] says:
meiyan~
Andy Mertesacker says:
meiyan
meiyan
[c=47]EVELYNN[/c] says:
meiyan~
sharonchan3105@hotmail.com says:
meiyan
[c=47]EVELYNN[/c] says:
meiyan~
sharonchan3105@hotmail.com says:
meiyan
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meiyan
[c=47]EVELYNN[/c] says:
meiyan
sharonchan3105@hotmail.com says:
meiyan
They have simply told everyone that how nice my name is. :)
Nights! :)
Finally met up with Rachel and Denise after so long! It was indeed last minute decision that I tagged along with them to Orchard 'cause Denise meeting her friend. Trained till Cineleisure and had LJS for lunch. Yes, I felt guilty after my meal, should have ate Subway!
First to Taka, then to Far East. Settled down at dessert shop and chit chat with them. I totally enjoyed the time spent. :)
Look damn nice and I don't know what it called. :) && I lost my summer fling pic.
And we stayed in the toilet for quite long to snap shot! <3
Denise, the joker and noisiest of all.
Rachel, shared the summer fling with me and we ate 2 bowls.
With Denise's friend.
Bus-ed to TampSafra to meet Zuanzhe for dinner. I'm seriously pissed off with myself for not going toilet before going to take bus. The bus journey was like 1hour long and jammed at the expressway. Worst still, I was urgent at that freaking point of time, totally couldn't bear with it anymore. I kept on shaking my leg to cool myself down. Then, I realised I was not even reaching Eunos. Wanted to alight at the next stop then I looked around the surrounding, NO KOPITIAM AT ALL, still expressway. Nevermind, I bear with it till the next stop, no sight of any place with toilet. And yes, I just kept on countinuing bearing with it and then, when I reached Safra, not as urgent as earlier on, then I wondering is it dried up? :/ Rushed to Safra toilet and came out, just nice met Zuanzhe! :)
HOME SWEET HOME then.
I hate this feeling, when I have nothing to do and just rotting at home. No nice tv shows, nothing nice to do. I really hate it ttm. Damn! I slept till 12pm today, then went for my afternoon nap at 1pm till 5pm again, 'cause I'm really too bored ttm! Totally feel like an useless person.
He wasn't free for me. I should try to be understanding and because of his attachment schedule, we did not have dinner together for four days. Haha, actually many people might think it's nothing and maybe it is indeed nothing. I know I shouldn't keep on complaining about not meeting me but I can say that I did not complain to him at all. Something seems wrong. :( I think he's currently busy accompanying his friend and forgot to reply my message because the last message was about 45minutes ago.
Okay, Meiyan should not get upset about it, it's just nothing.
Next sem gonna do well and go for all lectures already, this sem result sucks ttm.
Finished the Up Your Service workshop already, supposed to get back the certificate but I'm the special one that not getting back today because they spelt my name wrong, like what the hell. Today was all right, played game and kept me awake thru'out then. :)
I was drenched. Accompanied Zuanzhe for dinner during his breaktime. Once we reached the coffeeshop, it was kind of storm like that, the wind was so strong that I can't talk 'cause I'm afraid that I will drink those rain :/ Haha, then Zuanzhe kept on busy complaining and I busying nodding my head only. Then, half body was seriously wet. :(
Omg, my dad finally knows about it but I dare not face him now. I don't know why.
Attended Up Your Service workshop today with Chuanhui and Weiting irritating. Initially, it was great but till the end, it seemed so bored and tiring. My eyes kept on wanna closed and I can see how tired Chuanhui and Weiting are. After lunchbreak, back and we shuffled our group arrangement and Chuanhui was left alone at the other group then I wasn't communicate much in my group though they seem hyper active but I'm just tired of participating. Haha. Had one last lesson tomorrow at 9am and will get the certificate! :)
I missing him.
275th post of my eredlight.blogspot
Dear friend, I'm confused and afraid right now. I actually told them the truth and I just can't believe it. Save me, I'm getting hard to breathe.
Happy 17th belated Birthday to chio bu Chuanhui. :D
Had a small party over at Timothy's house to celebrate Chuanhui's birthday. I left early, so sorry! Hahah but hope you do enjoyed everything that we planned.
Top news top news!
I finally decided to tell my mommy and brother that I have boyf already 'cause I think my dad suspecting already. I don't know how to describe my actual feeling now but I know I'm not really happy that I said the truth. There are so many things for me to be worrying about. 've been feeling guilty since last night when I told my mom. I believed that she must be disappoined with me 'cause she believed me entirely yet I lied to her for 2 years. The moment I thought of how much she had trust me and always treat me as the most obedient daughter, yet I lied to her for so long. Some people would be happy that they told the truth to their parents but I cried after that. Thinking how disappointed my mom was, I cried.
Everything was like a dream. Thats it. An apology letter was written and she forgiven.
I finally made up my decision to give nihon my full-time schedule but I just doubt that they would give me all right. Okay, I gave Monday, Wed and Fri - full, Tues and Thurs - lunch and Sat - dinner, just wait and see what my next week schedule would be like.
with Cindy.
Sorry for the vulgar, but I'm fcuking bored now. Damn
Shopping with friends at Bugis today.
Chatted with Zuanzhe when he having his lunch time. He had so much complaint about it. Well, just work hard all right.
Singing at Teoheng with Besties tomorrow :)
He will be going for his attachment tomorrow already. Will only be able to meet him like once a week, on Sunday but think will be finding him after work at night sometimes. As for me, I'm searching around for job too! Why the packer job is from 7pm to 7am, like overnight! :(
Hais.
Yay, Chuanhui is going for the up your service program with me. :D
Saw it on TP email last night and remember that Zuanzhe took it before and said it benefit us so decided to sign up. Thought of going alone already since many of my friends do not want to go. Suddenly, Chuanhui said she wants to go. Ahhhh, lunch won't be alone anymore! [:
Kind Zuanzhe helped me to pay for the fee this morning since he needs to go school too. He received his attachment venue and was glad that it was at Tampines area but the timing wasn't a good thing at all. I can't even meet him for dinner at all 'cause he will ends at 9pm but I'll be sweet enough to go down find him long long one time. [:
Ohmygod, sweet me.
K, tomorrow going dimsum buffet with him, Irwin, Irwin's friend, Jianwei and maybe Yongqiang.
Gonna try all the dimsum! [: [:
Loves all!
Kinda feeling sian about my schedule in nihon. It's getting lesser and lesser and lesser. Wanted to find a new job but it seems so hard. Working full yesterday and had fun at night with Huiping, Sharon and Alvin. Haha.
Went to Taka with Zuanzhe cause he wanted to buy something then rushed back home. Enjoyed(:
2nd September 2009, Wednesday
Celebrated Melo's birthday around the town. First, surprised her at her boyf's house doorstep. She looked shocked and plan success :D Next, bought her to town walk walk while accompanying Chuanhui for interview at Centrepoint. Dinner at Revenue House Nihon Mura, her boyf surprise her by walking in with a oreocheesecake and we sang happy birthday to her. Hahah, plan success! :D
Loves Melodie! Didn't know she bent till so much, will be obvious that I'm short loh! :(
My boyfriend for the night! :D Loves her!
The three sweet couples and Chuanhui walked different direction as me then we parted outside revenue house. I always thought that bus 518 passed by novena but I don't know which bus stop, so I assumed it myself, till I realised I was wrong when I walked till an ulu ulu condo estate. Haha, I continued to walk and find a bus stop then luckily there's a bus to Tampines :/ Haha.
Took 1hour plus to reach home and sleep.
3rd September 2009, Thursday
Went to grandparents' house with mommy today.
My cool ah gong.
My kawaii ah ma.
Loves Jiarong boy.
Saw this tree with the mushroom growing inside, cool.
Stoned and slept throughout at grandparents' house. :/ Cause someone just simply enjoying his chalet till he forgets about me, so like whatever lah. :(
