Miss Yeo will be having her further studies at NTU and will not be teaching us anymore. Take care!

School was seriously busy these few days and nearly could not have a time to take a breathe. I think will most likely getting back English and Social Studies common test tomorrow. Hope my English can at least can a pass, I will be seriously happy enough. Got back the maths common test, was quite well done, got an A1 for it. But I still hope that this year Olevel maths will not kill me in somewhere or another.



Okay, I'm sorry for the randomness. I prefer the one that has vegetable one, it's much nicer.





Exercise later! YOGA. Hahaha.

I seriously don't know why Stephanie Lim's face is such thick.



School was still all right today. English banding was to write your last speech before you passed away. Luckily I managed to finish my essay despite being disturbed by that Stephanie Lim Hui Ting. I don't know what's wrong with her to sing the mid autumn song at 4pm. I think she must be seriously suffered from a huge blow. Okay, I shall give in to her today because she was quite unhappy with something that had provoked her in the ACE lesson. Check out her blog for more information!

Nothing much to post up today. Tomorrow PE will be 2.4km run, outside school.

Till now, I still could not forget about the incident of Jasmine's father. Thinking that going out with friends or as time flies, I will slowly forget about it but it seems so difficult. Losing someone, regardless of your friends, family members or your loves one is the hardest thing to overcome. Especially your family members. The ones that have goes through all hurdles with you, be there for you and lead you to the right direction.

Last night, my Mother seems strange. I went over to chat with her but she seemed tired and restless. Knowing that it is due to her work, I did not ask further as I might not help her at all. Seeing her restless and depressed, my heart aches. At around 1.30am, my father came into my room searching for things. I was not realise till he woke me up, asking for oilment impatiently. I asked my father why he needs the oilment urgently, then he told me that my mother had fainted.

I do not know my mother was ignoring my father thats why when my father called her, she had no respond. My father helped her to apply the oilment on her forehead, massaging for her, calling her name. No respond had been made. I was totally petrified. I kept on calling her and she showed no respond to me. At the point of time, the incident on Friday kept on flashing through my mind. I was worried for my mother because I do not know what had made her to faint. I had never see her faint before in this 17 years.

Last night, seeing her fainted, my mind was totally blanked and did not know how to react. Maybe in other people's reaction, they will just think that it is a faint. However, it does not apply to me. I had thought of many possibilities of the effects of the faint. I was so afraid that I might not get to see her again. The feeling was beyond description. Seeing her hand had some reactions after my father had applied the oilment, I was much relieved. I went back to my room but I still could not sleep. I could not describe how petrified I was at the time. I called Zuanzhe and cried on the phone, telling him about it.

After some consolation from him, he asked me to go back to sleep. I stared at the ceiling, thinking of my mother, praying that nothing would happens to her. I guessed that the incident had made me think a lot and deeper in. Losing someone who you have seriously love isn't easy. After last night, I realised that I had been utterly rude to my parent, especially my father. I promise that I will be filial to them and talk to them in a polite tone. I can't afford to lose anyone of them in my life. They are just so precious to me.

I could not blog the essay today as I'm rushing for time now.

Time flies real fast today. We had a normal study group at 201 every Saturday and we were supposed to meet at 9am today but I had late again. I'm sorry everyone, I reached there around 11.30am. I am seriously sorry. Zuan zhe and Benjamin both called me at 8 and kept on give me discount to sleep longer. From 8am to 8.15am, then to 8.30am, then to 9am and lastly, 9.30am, I finally woke up!

Althought I was quite unwilling to do so, but no choice. I had kueh-lapis for my breakfast and there goes my diet planning.

Okay, I seriously running out of time. Goodnight!

I have not been blogging for two days already. Maybe it is because of the upcoming O level and have seriously no time to even take a rest to blog. Life has been the same for now, study and sleep.

Today wasn't a nice day at all. Firstly, I was nearly late for school. I don't know what's happening to the bus system. It's making every passengers to feel irritated to wait for more than 20 minutes whereby you are rushing for time. Can you imagine I reached the bus stop at 6.40am and I waited for the poor system of bus 293 till 7am. Because of the lateness of the bus, I had to alight at 419 and ran to school.

But I think this is nothing compared to Jasmine's family incident.

I was surprised when my class had to sit outside the AO early in the morning. I was thinking that Mr Leong might wanted to scold us althought I could not think of any. The moment when Mr Leong told everyone of us that Jasmine's father had passed away this morning, my heart totally sinks. I don't know why but my heart just sinks. I can feel the aches for Jasmine.
Having the major exams this year, which is just 2 months away and yet, she has to face the reality. If I am the one, I might not even able to take it.

So, Mr Leong asked whether anyone of us want to follow them and make a visit to her father's wake. Half of the classmates met up opposite the school's voiddeck and we made the trip to her block. Seeing her emotion was still all right, I felt more relieved.

Well, I shall stop here because I'm meeting Yiheng, Benjamin, KL and Zuan Zhe early in the morning to revise for our Chemistry common test and complete our POA ten yrs series.

Ya, I just remember that I have to blog essay. I will blog it when I'm free after my revision.

Take care, everyone.

Hello friends! I'm back to blogging again after being away from computer for so many days. I have been struggling and revise for common test these past few days. Well, I guessed I'm gonna fail my Social Studies badly because whatever I was revising, did not come out at all. What a waste.

Okay, shall post up some pictures which was taken few days back. :D

Saturday

Jueying, Yiheng, Ben and I met early in the morning at 201 mac and we were actually planning to do our revision for Social Studies but obviously, we were spending three hours chatting nonsense. Haha. Actually we were more like gossipping then normal chatting.

After that, I went over to meet Zuanzhe and waited for him to change before headed to Bugis to meet up with Steph, KL, Ben, KH and HW. Because, bugis square had a outdoor concert of Lin You Jia. I was seriously felt wasted for not buying his album, if not, I will able to go up the stage to get his signature and shake his hands! Then, Stephanie Lim will not be telling me how hard Yoga Lin had shook!

She has been telling me since Monday, during the IS lesson till today! She has still telling me and singing Yoga's song to me in class. Haha.













He's handsome right? Please don't fall in love with him. Hahaha.

After the concert, zz and I went to Pasir Ris library to revise my Social. S. I called up Yiheng and Junwei to join us for dinner at E!Hub Nihon Mura because of the discount. Yiheng and Junwei kept on looking at the girl working at there. I seriously can't stand the both of them.





I realised I had spoilt the picture. D!

Monday

Something stupid yet funny happened during Geography lesson. The boys were playing with the visualiser then they were freezing it on and off. Cindy quickly took a picture when Afiq was been freezed and he was cleaning his teeth. It's totally disgusting. The whole class laughed like hell. Well, it's a good thing. It enlighten the whole class.



Wednesday

E-maths common test today. It was still all right, except 1 question doesn not know how to do. Hope I can score A's for it because my POA common test had already caused me to get a B4.
On the way back for common test, took pictures with girls.





Oh god, forget to upload the picture of Jueying and Huishan. Sorry!

Finally the next common test is on next Thursday. Hopefully I will be well-prepared for it.

Yan, study la study la. Go and complete your POA ten years series. Go!

It's finally FRIDAY! But there's nothing much to be happy about because common test is just next week and I have not start my revision yet. So, will be starting tomorrow with Benjamin, Yiheng and Jueying tomorrow at 9 in the morning. I doubt I can wake up on time so please bear with me all right?

I felt real awkward stepping into Temasek Poly ground with my school uniform on. You are the limelight. Haha. I had a badminton session with Hongjun, his friend and Zuanzhe at the sport complex. We had a competition among each other and Zuanzhe and I lost. After that, rushed home to bath and met my friend out for revision for common test. But we turned out to be busy walking around looking for bag. On the way back to Simei, had a traffic jam along Pasir Ris. So, out of boredom, I've took a picture of it and I think I'm quite professional in photo-taking.



I also bought 3 chicken sausage pies at the Cottage Pie. Because of this, I was being called fat by my brother.



Also, this is the picture which I took yesterday.



That's all for today. Sweet dream, everyone.

I have difficulties walking down the stairs but I have no difficulties in climbing up the stairs. I guessed I had likely injured my muscle after my jog on Monday night.

Banding programme today was all right and I think I had slowly used to the stressness already. Though at times, I seriously feel tired but there's nothing I can do right now. I had regretted for yesterday's listening comprehension. Right now, focus and aim for my Maths and POA for at least a B3.

Well for my English, a C6 will be enough to lighten my worries.

Okay, I'm getting smelly. (But Stephanie Lim is much more smelly than me.) :D

It's not a good day afterall. O level listening comprehension had simply killed me straight down today. I can only now hope that my overall will still get at least an A2.

All right? :(

Have to continue my English, Physic and POA homework already.

I'm finally back home from school. I paid full attention during all lessons today including the banding programme. Yan, it's a good progress. We took the last year class photo today and I tried my best to smile sweetly. Haha. But I think it will still turned out not that sweet.

Teacher distributed the prom night consent form to us today. Everyone of us was discussing whether to turn up for the prom night. As for me, I'm still deciding because I'm afraid I won't be pretty if I go for the prom night. As you know, every girls wish to be the prettiest down there. But I think I will still turn up because most of the girls will be turning up because it's once in a life time. However, heard that some of those boys in our class won't be turning up because of a girl.

I seriously can't imagine me going to prom night. It must be funny. Worst still, the theme for this year is Princes and Princesses. Haha.

All right, shall post up those pictures which was taken at Victoria Concert Hall with Jueying.







Thats all for today, going to have my dinner( ham w bread ).

It's a magical moment, to many things. For like finally, everything is back to normal.

School band had their public concert at Victoria Concert Hall last night. It was seriously amazing and I was being amazed by the FengShan Primary's band. Zsq and I had dinner at Nihon last night before heading down to MRT station to meet up with Yiheng, Bingkun, Huishan, Huili and Joanna. I was busy asking Zsq and Yh about my outfit and I guessed they were quite frustrated with me. Haha.

As for today, as per normal study group with last week. Yiheng, Benjamin, Jueying, KianLoon, Hongwei, Cindy and Estee. I think I made a great improvement by doing and focusing on more homework before I started talking and gossipping about others. I realised something. More than 4 people had said that I had changed through out this year. I think it's a good sign. So keep it up, Yan.

We will be still having the study group tomorrow, with zsq too in the morning. Hopefully will complete my POA and EMATHS by tomorrow.

Time to bath and time to chat!
:)

I went to polyclinic after school to see the doctor. My mom was so worried about my leg which I posted up in the previous post. The doctor examined and said that it was some poisonous bugs which had injected poison into my leg when they aimed me. Oh damn, why aim me? (1st unlucky) I was chatting on the phone with zsq at that time, had some small arguement again. When the number appeared, I went over to the counter to collect my medicine and guessed what? No one will guess it right. My school bag which I carry one side, broke off. (2nd unlucky) I guessed hundred of people must be laughing at me. Seriously, nothing just goes right for me. For right now, I'm sitting for my major exams. I just need motivation and full support from my friend, which I guessed I will never had. I'll face the future myself, independently.


It looks more and more disgusting right? Hope the bugs will inject more poison and make me stop thinking wild.

Arguements one after another. Shed tears time and again. Apologising after each and everyone. It's becoming more and more tired.

Beloved Zsq, maybe you said those words out of anger, maybe you were serious about those words. It had already left a deep mark into my heart. It's the first time that my friend will said that I'm stressing him up and made him felt like jumping down. Thanks, you had successfully made it by hurting me with your words. When I am trying so hard to re-mend this relationship, your harsh words had directly made me felt that I can't. I seriously can't. How many times had we quarrel over small matters? I know it's always started from me but we can simply lost counts. Because, it's too many times. I told you before, I feel that this few days, I've been very unlucky, sad and nothing just goes right for me. But what you did was just being annoyed. Okay, I will not make you feel stressed up and feel like jumping down anymore. Never, ever, will I.

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,no more,
it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music at the moment people dance and sing
Were just one big family
And its our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
but my breath fogged up the glassand so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

but I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
there's no need to complicate
our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours
I'm yours - Jason Mraz

Tears rolled down my cheek and dropped on my pillow, full of sorrow.

Everything doesn't go on the right way as it is. I don't know how to appreciate the thing I have. I missed a chance. The feeling was so terrible. School is making us feel more and more pressurize. I promised myself to stay wide awake during english lesson but I failed to do so. I kept on falling asleep when Mr Said was talking. No matter how noisy Cheeleng and Desmond was, I was not being disturbed at all. Seriously, just what happened to me.

I no longer have the motivation to move on, no longer have the stamina to carry on. I'm lacked behind. No one seems to notice my existence. It's all over, isn't it?

Some disgusting picture below. And I don't know how I get all these. Damn!



That's the fact that I had to face. That's it. End it.



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Was it all being washed down the drain? :'(

I just simply screwed up my O level Chinese oral this afternoon. The atmosphere was so tensed. It has seriously stressed me up. I can't even open my mouth and spoke out properly, my normal talking tone just changed. I guessed my aim of distinction just ended like this. (Shake head) Meiyan, vulgarities can't solve anything for the moment. Bear with it.

My bag has make me short. I seemed like carrying a person to school everyday. Is this how O level student should behave? Whatever I brought for today's lesson, it was not been touched at all. My mind is all about my hatred to someone. Hatred has again make me fall sick.

Is everyone being so realistic? I helped my mom and bro to buy dinner home. With a heavy bag contains of heavy books and heavy dinner, I boarded the bus 293 home. While waiting for the passengers to board, I saw an aunty was seriously so 'kiasu'. She tapped her card and squeezed people who were walking to the back of the bus and she quickly squeezed just to take the empty seat. Worst still, it was an elderly in front of her. Goodness, is this how Singaporean are?

The 'kiasu' name will forever sticks to Singaporean if they still continue like this. (Shake head)

I'm seriously stress up and I guessed no one understands me! (Shake head)

3x (Shake head) = Gone case, I'm tired.

I'm still currently stuck with piles piles piles of homework. I'm seriously suffocating already. I went to have night study with Benjamin, Yiheng, Stephanie, Desmond, Jueying, Huishan and Zsq yesterday and today. However, we still could not complete the homework because the teacher in our school are somehow nuts. It's seriously stressing us up but maybe, that is how O level supposed to be.

06.07.08
Rachel and I spend the whole afternoon shopping and searching for clothes at Bugis Street. Before heading to the crowded street and squeezed with people, we had a lunch at the Tea Shake Hut in the Bugis Junction. The fried rice was not bad but the bubble tea which cost $4 was seriously disgusting.



I bought a shirt and two waist belts. We went back to Tampines Mall at around 5 because I was meeting Stephanie to search for her red tee-shirt for her performance. We were gossipping around, totally looked like an aunty. After that, we went to join BYD for night studying at 201 Mcdonald. Stephanie joined us at around 8 and we were laughing more than doing homework. That's one of the reasons why we still could not complete our homework.









This is some of the pictures that we took yesterday and today.



And you guys saw this? It's jumbo chicken wings with lot of fattening oil. This shows that my body contains a lot of fattening oil too. Oh, FAT!

It's not Saturday, it's piles of homework day.
However, still could not complete the three set of Maths paper today. Hopefully will complete all by tomorrow by morning because will be going out with Rachel in the afternoon.

Well today, I met up with zsq and had lunch at Long John Silver. Obviously I was grumbling and complaining after that. Hey, I am dieting all right. Haha.



Look at the salsa cheese(fattening), then take a look at those crunchy chicken(fattening) and I'm obviously gonna turn out to be fat too.

Then we went to Bedok library to search for zsq's books and I think that I am capable in finding those books. He wanted to find something related to team building and I found about 6 books in five minutes. So what does that means? Haha.
Afterwards, we stayed in the LJS to continue my weekend homework.

Met Estee and Cindy around 9 to have dinner at Changi Village. Zsq was so being gentleman to treat us the dinner, even they said so. Haha. Thanks Zsq. I could not manage to stay up longer with Estee and Cindy because my adorable mom was waiting for me at home.

And I meowed at a cat just now. :(


Found this picture at zsq's friend's blog which was taken yesterday.

Okay, back to homework. We got no life.

Today was totally a shit day. Badminton at Temasek Poly after school and some disgusting things happened. Obviously, there was a 'fion'(words taught by Rachel which also means b***h) down there who had totally spoilt my appetite, mood, and day.



Sweet Rachel gave me a star to console me and she said that only happy girl will take that but I was somehow refused to take because it's obvious that I'm not at all. But I still took it because I appreciated it. Rachel understands me a lot. She knows that why I dislike that 'fion' too because I guessed people with proper eyesight will know the reason. She kept asking me to cool down but I just simply can't. But I did cooled down when I was totally can't be bothered to care. So, I cooled down.

Oh my god, I was seriously felt so disgusted by it. You will understand if you see the whole incident. Trust me, my friend.

After the sucky badminton session, I went home with Rachel and we saw a boy was so cute. I was totally felt blessed. Those innocent faces and looks give by children can really cheer you up.





Can you see that the boy was really adorable? But he seems to like Rachel more than me! :(

The homework given to us to complete by Tuesday can seriously kills me. 3 sets of Maths Paper 2 and 1 set of POA.

Will be replying to tags at here and I suddenly feel that I'm so famous. Haha.

Stephanie: You have to admit the fact that I'm so artistic. And your game have bring fun to the class, tomorrow continue the ''bloob bloob game''. I will tag you more so that your blog won't look as dead as mine. Haha.

HJ: Haha. You just wait and see. Don't be too surprise if I'm left with so much capital :/ Or.. we play other games la?

Huimin: Haha. Yes, it's sweet. You and HJ more sweet la. :)

Benjamin: Of course I have talent in drawing. Banding without you is really quite terrible. 3 of us don't know how to solve vector questions. And what a friend you are for laughing at me today. Instead is more than 5 people laughing at me for burping nonstop! :( Haha.

Naqeah: Oh man Naqueh. Just stop it, stop it for praising yourself time and again. The truth is that you are not unique. Have you asked Mr Chew about the CCA point?

Jie Rui: Hello. I don't know why I couldn't tag in your blog. I only comment it, hope you saw it. Haha. How's life?

Sherlyn: How's life? :)

Philson: HAHA. Happy Birthday though it's belated. Cheer up, all right! :)

Jueying: You are my best friend in school, of course I must support you. Good luck in tomorrow POA competition. Even if you guys can't enter final 4, I believe you guys have done your best in it. Most importantly is to gain experience in the competition. Message me the result, all right.

Friends, tag me more to make me feel loved. Haha.

Haha. Here's the second time of dinner by zsq but it's not cooked by him okay. It's still sweet though.
Haven't try eating but it's definitely tastes appetizing.

I didn't go to the banding after school as was not feeling well, so went to polyclinic to see doctor. And I should say that the doctor in the polyclinic is somehow sucks. I don't know but I guessed they think that teenagers come to see doctor because they want to skip school. But hey, that doesn't apply to me, all right?

Physic homework can simply kills me today but it's all right. Practice more in order to make it more perfect.

Next Fri will be going to the Viva La Musica concert at VicHall, hope it's nice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PHILSON POON.
You are older now, so you must grow up by not being so kaypo. HAHA.