've been tagged by Anna Banana to do this quiz, so here it goes.

Questions:
1. What disappoints you the most?
I had did so many mistakes again and again even when I know I'm wrong.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Either Japan or Taiwan.

3. What's your favourite thing to do?
Sleep.

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Obviously can't.

5. If you have one dream to come true, what will it be?
I hope time could turn back to when I was a baby.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, this world is realistic. Without money, you just can't survive.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
When I lose my loved ones.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Half to charity and the rest will give my mom and dad for thanking 'em to bring me up to what I am now.

9. What do you dream of doing in the future?
At first, pianist. But now, Hotel supervisor will do.

10. List out the 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Talkative, not ''gentle'' and Hyperactive.

11. What makes you happy?
When my loved ones are happy.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Kiasu people.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
A businesswoman.

14. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
Save all those innocent victims.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Filial parents and be happy.

16. If it's the end of the world, what will be your last wish?
I will pray that god will protect my loved ones and just let me die will do.

17. If you have the chance to choose, would you want to go back in time?
Definitely. I will cherish my own life.

18. What is the one thing you badly need now?
Respect and love from others.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person you like him/her?
Yes, I guessed.

20. Do you have regret in your life?
Yes. :(

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatter box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Emylia
2. Jasmine
3. Joyce
4. Naqeah
5. Sherlyn
6. Xin Yu
7. Zhong Wen
8. Cai Ling

It's Friday time.

It's finally Friday, the day I'm waiting for. Also, finally I can get plenty of sleep during the weekend but still gotta visit my grandparents tmr and maybe celebrating fathers' day on Sunday. But it's still better than weekdays. A standard routine of 5.30 wake up and bath then head to school for study camp.

Was actually discussing to go singing or not but ended not going. Today lesson was still all right, maths and geography. Geography lesson have been in library for this two days, real enjoying. Okay, I need a break.

Goodbye

Pictures update for yesterday.

I don't know why the picture in such a large scale. What a stupid photobucket. Not planning to blog today. So, catch up for tmr post.(provided if have)

:)

Yay, Botanic Garden.

First learning journey with the class this year and will it be the last one? I hope not because I could say that it's really fun to go learning journey with this lovable classmates. However, the trip was somehow wasted due to the heavy downpour.

We were supposed to walk round the botanic garden to search for some heritage trees and take a picture with home teacher to make as an evidence. Sad to say, we didn't manage to find any trees. We seek for the shelter and took countless pictures. Rain didn't stop till 4pm and it's time for us to head back to school and hence, we didn't explore much at all. It's really saddening and wasted journey. But I do not know why suddenly I'm fond with Botanic Garden. 'm gonna make a trip to there and explore the whole place!

Felt so lethargic during the study camp and it's only the second day. I still have seven days more to go and how am I suppose to stay awake through out? Next Tuesday will be going to the English seminar and 'm seriously praying that I will not fall asleep when the cambridge people is talking. Will be ending at 2.30 tmr and how am I supposed to stay wide awake during lesson? I doubt I can.

Homework, piles of homework, and homework! E.maths homework, English killer homework, Chemistry homework. I bet that Physic will have homework, Geography homework, POA homework, SS homework and piles of homework which will kill me during this pathetic short 2 weeks june hols. But what to do? Taking O's at the end of the year, nothing I can do, but to study till all my white hairs are grown.

Okay, time for Chem homework now. :(

'm better recently, no longer emo, sad, dao.

Feeling the fear of the battle.

Hello everyone.

I'm finally feel stressed up with the O's. Monday will be the day, the day of part of success for my O's? An A's is definitely! B's will be retaking. (I guessed)

All right, it's finally a long break for the Sec1 to 3 and it's the time where the O level candidates are struggling. June holiday will be packed with study camp, excursions and revision. It's really stress till we have no time to even take a breathe. Study camp will start the day after Monday and I wonder how will it goes. Will it be an effective revision to all of us? Everyone is busy having their last revision for their Monday's paper and I'm out there having fun time walking around at the Singapore Expo this afternoon.

I accompanied Zsq to Astons to take his pay slip as well as having a lunch at there. I could say that the food is really heavenly. I ate Teriyaki Chicken with the side dishes of colesaw and french fries. Hey everyone, I recommend you guys to have a try for the colesaw. It is different from the food court western colesaw. Astons's colesaw is real healthy and I think it's non-fattening. I'm not trying to help advertising for them but I'm stating the fact. After having lunch at Astons, we went to M.Parade library to revise for my chinese but couldn't stay long focusing at there. Thus, we decided to go Expo to have a look at the food fair.

The food fair was real packed. Everyone was having some bites of the sample here and there. But the food at there was mostly like milo, sauces and frozen foods. Nothing really caught my eye except the City satay. Unfortunately, couldn't have a try at it because there's no more empty seats and was not hungry at that time. So, it's quite wasted to make a trip to there.

I have to stop here already, need to rest soon.

It's so different.

I'm a obedient girl. Intensive ended around 1.45pm and was actually decided to go home and have a nap which I did not have it since few months back. But went to meet my friend for a lunch before he goes off for his lecture at 4. Today intensive lesson was rather bored, sitting in the ava room and listen the lecture of mt from 8 to 1030. Goodness, I was nearly dozed off. But was really disappointed with my mock exam result. I only got 39 out of 70 and that's the paper of Y2007 O's may paper and I'm about to fail it. How am I going to score well in four days time with this kind of result. Real feel so let down.

Okay, feel so relaxed when at home. :)
Have to try to study the through train maggg.
Tomorrow will be food fair expo day and going to SimLim sq to check out mp3 for my beloved Mom.

Time when others give me a special looks.

It's already Wednesday and five more days to my upcoming O's. Am I well prepared for the battle or am I still wondering in my own world? Today is the second day for the intensive Mother Tongue lesson. To be honest, I don't think it's really effective for me at all. However, today is also the day when others give me a special glance. The feeling is really distasteful.

I was actually chatting with friends during our break. By chance, my friends overheard about the secret between me and Bk. I do not know why are they so sensitive about it. Don't everyone has a secret? Or maybe on the contrary, I am the one who is more sensitive about how others look at me. Sometimes I ever wonder, am I too difficult to mix with others? Everything has a reason behind it. Is it because I have a different concept of thinking and hence, when friends talk to me, I will feel the gap between us. I did tried ways to make myself to be involve in their conversation, but it seems hard. Sometimes, I seriously feel like giving up everything. My effort, my presence and my contribution, no one seems to acknowledge it. Adding on to it, not to be offenced, I always feel that friends will make a joke of you. Maybe using a hurtful words to call you and being outraged are merely a joke to them, but rather sad to say that I do take those words seriously at times. I tried to be strong whenever I can, but when I can't, I really couldn't take it anymore.

On the way home after the dismissal of school, I shed my tears. Everyone who walked pass me will take a special glance at me. I know that it's really embarrassed to tears at the public but I really couldn't control my emotion at that time. Whenever I think of those incidents, my tears just couldn't control and it will just flow down my cheeks. Well for now, I hope to focus on my upcoming O's and let those unhappy matters rest aside first.

Be strong, Meiyan.

(Mr Said, please correct my mistakes and I will hand written the essay and hand in to you nextweek, TQ)

Maybe that's the way to move on.

I did it! I did it by not getting upset and face the reality. I finally understand that that's the reality that I'm facing. Be patience, learn to control, I did it a little bit. Ok, didn't went for the chinese remedial on Sat because I know that I can't wake up on times and I won't listen in class. Thus, I'd rather stay at home and revise on my own. I guessed I did the right choice. And, didn't go for the remedial doesn't mean didn't study at home all right. I did 3 report writing and 1 letter writing so far. Will continue later on after my blogging.

I know it's time for me to change my way of studying and kick the habit of slacking. It's enough. One more week to chinese O's. An aiming for distinction is definitely for me. I don't want to retake my chinese O's in Oct, so please let me do well this time round. During these few days of getting back result, I learn something. Only you put in effort and hard work, you will get that result you want. Ya, true enough. I didn't put in the effort which I should put in during mid yr and that's the result I've got now. I can blame no one but myself.

All right, back to study. Oh ya, have to submit my essay to Mr Said nextwk.

I'm learning to be strong.

It's real tough to be a strong person. I admit that I ain't at all. I tears easily, even because of small little thing. Like getting a horrible results, couldn't get what I want and stuffs like that. No one knows my characters well because it's just hard to do so.

Got back all my mid yr results and I could say, it's seriously ridiculously sucks to the core. Failed my English and Combined Humanities badly and the rest was just a borderline pass. What is this man? My L1R4 gets higher than my previous exam. Everyone improved at least six grades, and what about me? I always try to focus on studies and pay attention in class but I just can't. I fall asleep easily, I don't know why. I always tell myself to buck up on my english but I don't have the stamina at all.

Chinese O's is just 10 days away. Seriously, I gotta sit down and revise on my chinese, especially my letter writing. It's a stink result I've got. All right, going to take a break and watch CJ7 dvd.

One word describe it, SUCKS.

Looking back at my midyr papers, there's really one stupid word to describe it, sucks. My chinese just need one pathetic mark to get an A2 but despite of irritating teacher and begging for marks, teacher still couldn't give. So, I'm admit to fate for that B3. Maths also score a real pathetic B3. Ya ya, I know plenty of you did pretty well. All right? Combined humanities was a real disaster in my life. Getting back Social.stud, I was quite glad that I could actually pass it but my stupid hopeless geography just pull me down till the bottom. And, I failed.

Tmr will be getting back Chemistry, P.O.A and English. The papers which I don't wish to get back the most. Think I will get lower L1R4 compared to Common Test.

God, trust me that I really have a lot of courage to pull it thru my sadness and try not to get affected by it. Times and again, I told myself that I'm strong in others, but it seems like I don't. I really don't. I hate the feeling that people will say, "Why she can, but you can't?". Tears shed, emotionally hurt.
Save me?

It's finally over? Not yet!

Mid yr exam is finally over and I won't be taking anymore mid year exam in my life. But, 2 more weeks from now, I'll be most probably sitting in the hall taking my O's chinese. And I really hate newspaper report writing. It's sucks when you gotta rush to think and write. I don't know why teacher keeps on focusing on that. It's v boring.

Waited for lc for 1 and half hour. Then, headed home to change and down for singing at Bedok. Today was a real crowd at there. Opened 3 rooms and everyone was running to each other's room to sing. And I think I really quite enjoyed, especially in the biggest party room. It's the first time I heard zsq sings, thou not that loud but not bad. :)

I just don't feel like going to school on Wed. Getting back all those flunk papers? It's not a happy thing afterall. Take note, Comparison will begins on Wed. Trust me. My own unhappiness moment will begins.

Bless me.

Maybe a disaster? Who knows.

It's pretty obvious that I ain't studying whereby tmr will be having science mid yr. Well, 'm so gonna flunk my mid year this time round.

Zsq, I bet this time we really can't meet up as much like the past. You're stuck in working and studying. Three days a week? All right then. I just can't be that selfish. I'd remain silence.

It sounds so true.

Basically, there's nothing much about my life to blog about because I have a boring life. But there's something which make me realised and change the view of it. Well, was thinking of deleting blog and get nothing to do with it but Joe objects with it.

Joe, real thanks that you still read my blog all these while. Changing my blog yesterday midnight and I thought no one will notices but Joe did messaged me around 1am, telling me that he's still there for me, as my friend and he consoled me. At first, I thought that there's no true friend in this world. There's no true friend who cares for me. There's no one, except zsq. But now, there's one more nice pal of mine who will messaged me at late night, comforting me. Hey Joe, if you read this, real thanks for everything. Your gift, your wishes, your support and etc. Yea, Hope we both will have good luck falls on us. :)

But not that bad. Naqueh babi hutan and Benj also realised about my changed blog just now. Thanks too! :) I hope you guys won't ask me what happened to me. I'm all right, perfectly all right. Thanks Naq babihutan.

And hey hutan, I do miss the past eh. When we went to Plaza Sing to shop, Junction 8 to have Swensen, Bugis street to walk around, Laughing, KFC-ing, LongJohnSilver-ing. Ahh, everything just flashed back my mind. It's so fun with you around.(Don't be that happy, it's merely consoling) Anw, lets work hard for our O's and strive for the best all right. And, we'll enter the same poly okay?

Zsq, take care of yourself all right if you read my blog okay.

Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible. - Jane Rubietta

Getting sick of it

Being able to know that not everything I want, I will be able to get it. It's the fact that I bet no one will disagree with me. And it's true that there's no real true friends in this world. Okay, I do not feel like talking about friends. It's a waste of time. Because I'm sick of it. So, I shall get on with my own life.

've slowly lose interest in blogging and online chatting but I will still try to blog whenever I'm free. All right, I know there's not much people reading my blog so it's all right. O's is just 17 days away and I'm not even prepared or revising for my chinese. I'll bet that when school mid yr is over, mothertongue remedial will be starting and I'll be dead by the pile of papers! And 26May will be the dead/heaven moment for me. Well, hopefully I will score a distinction and focus on my bloody english.

Still has my last paper on Monday and I'm out to play today. Running from bedok to katong then to bugis and back to bedok -.- Just because all the ktv lounge was fully booked. What a damn day. All right, going back to room to have a rest.

Sorry zz, wasn't in the mood these few days. Hope you will understand. Many things have been flashing thru my mind. I'm real sorry. And after june hol ends, we might not be able to meet up often. Then, you will be able to focus on your studies and working. So, take care all right? :)