It's stressful, very stressful.
Can someone please remind me, Why am I here again?? I suck at studying. Totally nit my up of tea. ARGHHH!!! T.T but I gotta try and keep on trying. Can't give up, razz!! You can do this! Focus focus and just focus. Put everything that is distracting you aside. 8hrs every day can make a miricle in your result later on! You can do thus!! Just keep on fighting!!! xD

OH -AM-GEE.

I am so busy that I don't have extra time to spare to blog. Sorry guys. and no, I'm NOT DELETING MY BLOG. after SOOO many hardworks I've put on to create this blog. hahah!

Well, NGEE ANN POLY has been treating me very well so far. Like I told some of my secondary friends before, is really a welcoming school with plenty of absolutely awesome schoolmates! (: Maybe thats where awesome people comes from anyway.. hahaha! (:

Oh well, not gonna T-Up my school anyway. Im here today cause IM FINALLY HERE. hahah! Been busy with school's assignments, true sometimes I forget theres Class Quiz and other assignments, but Im trying my best to cope with the modules Im having now. Health Science (Nursing) has been an eye-opening for me for the past few weeks. I've learn all kinds of infection, diseases, how our body actually works even small bones plays apart in your body but not only that, listening to my lecture talking abt their experiences as Nurse(s) really touches me.

I really looking forward to go for my clinical attachment this coming June/July (cnt rmbr). So that to experience myself like how my lecturers had experienced before. And hopefully from there, I'm able to help people from all kinds of race/religion they come from.

Nevertheless, Im still at the right pathway towards my dreams and goals. One of that, is to help people in their health needs and ensure that they're in good health always, specially my love ones! Furthermore, Im still working in the business (which some of you may know) and I dare to say that Im doing fine! I even able to control my timing for school and work at the same time, thanks to VE. Not only that, I am totally committed in wanting to be a Nutritionist one day! (its not really a dream but its something which I don't mind to pursue when I have the free time to learn more!)

OH OH and ofcourse, I MISS MY SEC 5/2'09 SPECIALLY MY LOVELY 7+1 WONDERS: FATIN, ATIQAH, JOLENE, VALERIE, ZUHAILI, ALVIN, REBECCA. (: really looking forward to meet up to catch up with you guys!! SO BEEB ME (and i'll see if i can or not. TEEHEE.)
(: (:

OH WELL, OF TO VISUALISE MY DREAM NOW.

GOOD NIGHTS, SWEET DREAMS.

SLURRRPSSS~!!!

SEXY.RAWRR~!! (:

honestly speaking, the feelings is still there and it can't be erase. Sorry to fall in love with you.

i hope good news comes every TMRW.

Well, been lazy to blog for past few decades. Reason being, got nth much to blog except my emotinal stories which I dont wanna flood this town by all of your tears. I'll be fine, thats what I've been telling myself. Just gotta keep my head held high and fight all the way~ (:


sexy.rawrrzz (:

First love is hard to control. First love is like testing a guinea pig. but First Love is precious. That why I wanna be the guy that makes u hard to control, being your Guinea pig, and wanna be your precious. Basically, I wanted to be your first, to let you test about love. Not saying that Im good in love but I Willing to sacrifice my love for you.. Cause you know, I still love you in the end..

hahs. seriously, love can be sucky sometimes but sometimes, they aren't. I dont wanna talk about love again cause once I start, I cant eat, I cant tell if I bathe already, I basically can't do anything. To sum up, I don't wanna get infected my love sickness again. cause I know, I can't cure it with anything but just got to live with it by just letting all my tears out as your images showed vividly in my head...

I think I love you, again..

LOVES, RAZZ. (:

WHAHAHAH!! Im bored at night. T.T
Feel like going out, just walking alone at the road side..
But then, I felt lazy! hahah!

Anyway, my work has been awesome every each day. Seriously enjoyed working there so much! :D Specially the AWESOME RED BISON!! xD hahahah!! Oh yeah, CONGRATS to MR QIUHANG for getting B.M!! CAVELL AND CHRISTY for Hitting M.E!!! xD Really VERY HAPPY for you guys!! xD Just that I felt that I didnt contribute enough, but I'll try my best again okays!! :D AND IMMA HIT MANAGER VERY SOON!! really excited!! hahaha!! ((;

So yeah, overall i manage to control my emotional breakdown today. But hopefully it gets better tmrw or smtg~ Anyway, I MISS REBECCA HOE SO MUCH that its SSOOOOO HARD to meet her this few days! TSK rebec!! =*( SO buddy!! please meet up someday okay!! WE GOT SOOOO MANY THINGS TO CATCH UP! xD

Oh well, feel like getting ice scream at mac now. See ya!! May God Bless everyone and the day after today! :D

SLURRPPPSSS~!!

sexy.rawrr~!!

p.s I'll always be by your side, I promise. But at least share your problems with me, so I know when I can be there for you. (: nights M. Unpredictable. ((:

Today was awesome;
Went out with my colleague to Mustafa Centre in the morning to get some stuffs. Then to Plenin to buy some books that he recommend and yeah, they're useful books. (:

Thenafter, went to meet up with SWOLF. BUT they're late. Suppose to meet me by 2pm and ended up meeting me at 4pm. I was stuck in the Orchard thinking what the hell to do there. So yeah, we just round about after lunch at Long John Silver. We from Somerset 313, to Cine to Orchard Ion, Wheelock then to Tampines mall and Century Sq.

It was a great day cause I manage to relax my mind a lil. thanks to my great friends for cheering me ups. I knew I can always count on them. ((: Anyway, was still looking to get a new mobile phone for myself. they say I should get Sony Erricson AINO instead of Vivaz. Seriously, I suck at choosing my own mobile phone..... (DONT LAUGH!) :P

SO yeah, ended up thinking whetehr to get it today or not. Atiqah was right, not in a hurry mah. So maybe I save up first a little bit more. Then hope can settle everything by the end of this month. ((:

I felt there was a need for me to apologise to you. Maybe I didnt make it clear that I like you before or even till now. I was being foolish I guess. Besides, thanks for the bonding session that night. I really felt emotionally breakdown though. But hey, I just gotta move on with my life again. 3 Years I keep waiting, I keep looking for others and at same time keep thinking if you know that I like you. 3 Years since my eyes have set on you and it was locked ever since then. 3 years; and I guess I just gotta unlock it back and return to the truthful owner. Im glad you finally found your real guy. I am happy as long you're too. Sure, we can be friends but honestly, it will be akward. Give me time but im just hoping to get the lock back. Cause yeah, I was dumb for not waiting a lil longer, I was dumb for not making it clear, I was just being dumb. I hope you understand what I mean. Enjoy your life always! Just ring me if you have ANY problems; im sure I'll always be there by your side.. (:

So yeah, got home and had my supper then now updating my blog and songs. The new list of songs that I have is what I hope to send out a deep massage to that someone I admire the most till today. Whatever it is, wish you all the best of lucks!

SLURRRPPSS~!!

give me the sexy rawr. (:

Someone asked me that night, is Love Fair?
I answered, "what you know about love in the first place? and does it matter if its fair or not?"

Well, i am still only 18 and in the first place if you ask me about Love, to be honest, I'll just say its COMPLICATED.

But what I know SO FAR is that yeah, love can be equally fair and unfair. Reason is simple, is just which angle you wanna look at the word LOVE. How about take a look at the word its sel:

" LOVE "

Bring a mirror close to it and read it from the word that is being reflected. What you get? EVOL. Am i right? then what happen if your eyes play tricks on you (and you know, they always do.) & then the word you'll see is EVIL. Sure, you'll rub your eyes again then you can see back to its original is EVOL.

But what happen when your eyes play tricks on you and true you see it as EVIL, BUT you turn those words around. What will you get? LIVE. Am I right?

Ok,ok maybe you're abit confusing here. But let me rephrase all of this into a one simple sentence.
LOVE can be EVIL but you still got to LIVE with it. and thats LIFE! So did i answer your question whether love is fair or not? its up for you to see for yourself. No one has the right to judge about your love.

When your love comes, they do comes and when it get evil, let it be. go for the fights. cause those fights help to build up a stronger relationship for you guys to LIVE in, in times to come. (:

so right now my question to you, where you wanna see Love from? the Side? Back? or Front? If Side, which side? Right Or Left? If back/front which angel? See? told you love is complicated. but if you see the word LOVE itself and heart-shapes coloured in red start flying around your head, i gotta be honest with you, thats when you should get worried for yourself. Cause LOVE doesnt only comes in that shape. It can be in TRIANGLE, SQUARE or EVEN CIRCLE etc. SEE, again emphasize that love, IS complicated.

What i am trying to say is.... there are MANY WAYS you can judge about love so just be careful with it. Whatever decisions you make, think twice, thrice or even hundred times. Cause who knows, you regret after making that decision. But let me contradicts by saying that that doesnt mean whatever decicions you make are wrong. Just to ensure you make the right choice for yourself and people around you. Reason is simple; people around you still care for you. If not, they wont wait for you to have supper with you, they wont bother replying your msgs, they give you calls after calls asking" WHERE ARE YOU?" despite that they are in hunger or rushing for times. I mean, its a natural human behaviour in the sense that if people dont care about you, will they reply your text? will they wait patiently? (:

So yeah, I HOPE i get to answer your question clearly now. And true that Im very upset no matter who what when how why people try to comfort me, I will still be it. Reason is simple, I accidentally see the word LOVE as EVIL today. and ya, i deserve to get this feeling. Cause of the misconcept that I've longed imagine or seen.

Okay. I've read and re-read this post and if it somehow offended anyone, much sincere apologies from me. Is not that I am being mean or what, its what comes from my own point of view itself. Anyway, its my blog. I have the right to post whatever I want, not only for you guys to read but for me to share and for MYSELF to reflect so that I wont make the same mistake again by falling in LOVE. (:

Good NIGHTS sexy people!

p.s Observe the way the cat crawl; seriously, they're the most sexiest pets in the world. :D

SLURRPPSS~!! :D

sexy.rawrr!