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Gabriel.
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W466 | City Harvest
Pioneer Junior College | 08S32

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What's a day!

Sunday, 31 January 2010, 1:36 am

Honestly, i'm not going to blog about what happened or anything but i need an avenue to pour my emotions and thus, i've found solitude in the click and clacks of the keyboard.

I'm sad and afraid and in pain, physically and emotionally. I was dumb enough to say yes to smth i know was absolutely wrong , yet the carnality of human nature pushed forward this ugly notion. This i became a victim of the 21st century lawless world. In this, i lost the sense of emotions and feelings. My body now in severe pain, almost having a severe flu, my emotions run wild cos i don't know who or what to turn to, though i do know the one who can really help. But i sought for him and i felt unworthy and i feared more than anything, that He didn't love me anymore. I don't know why but i think i've pushed the limit too far. I fear i've lost it.Such conflicting emotions of anguish and fear makes it even harder to pull myself together. Don't worry, this ain't a suicide note. It's more of desperate plea for help and hope. I need to run, run from my mistakes, run to the place where i know i can't sin, run to where i know i can hide, where he can shelter me. Run for my life, run for my eternity, run from my past. run...

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evermore

Friday, 29 January 2010, 8:16 pm

Lost for words, with all to say, Lord you take my breath away, still my soul,my soul cries out, for You are holy. As I look upon your name, circumstances fade away, now your glory steals my heart, for you are Holy.
Evermore my heart, my heart will sing, above all, i live for your glory, even if my world falls i will sing, above all, i live for your glory.
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TwentyTen

Friday, 1 January 2010, 11:17 am

I realised i haven't blogged for a month, and since it's the new year, i think it's a good time to pen (or should i say type) out my thoughts here. My desires and goals as well as reflections from '09. I've always thought that odd numbered years would be my best year but apparently this ain't true. 2009 started with much disappointment as i wished myself bolder. I guess I was dissatisfied with the fact that i didn't manage to obtain certain standards that i have place before myself. April was the beginning of a life of sin. Shalln't mention why but i guess i started rolling down from there. Bad results, other commitments, led to me being less involved in and around church. I guess as the months progressed, i have allowed myself to compromise way too many times.

I found out my friend is and that's when i let my guard down.

2009 would end with the end of A level's and a new journey, NS. I guess it's been a good time and being in there = LESS temptation to sin. But some how, something find's it's way creeping into my heart. I guess all these while as i let my guard down, that wall of discipline has crumbled. I have succumb many times to the call of the unalmighty and i have been slave to it. I guess it's time i turned back and look towards the cross.

DEC 31, 2009. Esplanade was filled with people. I was so anticipating the fireworks and all. Excited as i was, due to the long waiting time i sort of lost track of time. When it was countdown, i wasn't ready. Ready to say i would leave my past behind me. Then the fireworks came and my mind raced to imagine the life that i could be living.

2010. A year untouched, unlived, unconquered. It lays ahead of me with gleaming hope...



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