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Gabriel.
September 11
W466 | City Harvest
Pioneer Junior College | 08S32

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Quotes

Monday, 30 November 2009, 12:57 am

I think i twitted and FB-ed at least 1o quotes today. Feel pretty wise. Haha. Realised there's so much to learn from the power of testimony. Rather than just listen to others, i guess having my own testimony's greater! Oh he's online. In any case sorry for the digression, I guess i'm going to live a "chosen" life where i make the right decisions in life and not the wrong ones. I happy when i realise i'm not living in a life of sin. A lil empty but that's ok. It's for God to fill it. So i lack a physical human partner but God completes me right? So i learn to lean on Him and allow him to fill me. Yes i believe! Call this self psyching but it keeps me going! hah. Ok this blog post is making no sense. I'm going to sleep. And you should too if you're reading!

//I do the all things, He does the STRENGTHENING!

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Mess of me

Thursday, 26 November 2009, 1:25 am

I made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me

I´ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive

I´ve made a mess of me I wanna reverse this tragedy

I´ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my live alive

The rest of my life alive!

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I Thought this song was and is pretty apt to represent my life currently. It's so easy to blame others for my current situation that i forget, well most of the sucky problems are caused by well, me! And so even as i made my life a huge mess by becoming lesser, like this song says, i wanna spend my life alive! and so, knowing it has got to be a consistent decision to make sure that i'm not my own sickness, i've got to start doing right things and build core strength. Btw, this song's pretty rock i guess , with hints of metal but it's a pretty good song. It's by switchfoot in their latest album, Hello Hurricane. Pretty good album. go check it out.

Anyway, i just decided to write down my thoughts because i find no meaning in trying to attain something or to communicate with something that is obviously uninterested and very much oblivious. And so, i shall focus on what else i can do and move on. Though it's hard and my heart will be torn, i'll just trust in the eternal saviour to make me whole once again.

// I wanna live the rest of my life ALIVE!

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Holidays!

Wednesday, 25 November 2009, 11:03 pm

I'm starting to feel the festive mood somewhat especially after watching Christmas Carol. Though i didn't like the part where the ghost of Christmas which is to come was around. SO creepy lah. Can't stand it! Oh well i kept my eyes close especially at certain scenes. The 3D thing was pretty over rated and i would so just watch a normal movie in future. In anycase, i had the worse soup spoon soup today. Chicken cassarol. Totally sucked. Thank God it was free. Anw i think I'm having a bad stomach flu. Started ytd and it's not at it's peak and I'm feeling more than uncomfortable.

So, i have one last paper to go next tues but I'm pretty festive right now. Haha. I'm sure going to study for it cos I NEED THAT A. So pray for me and I'll do my best! haha! Talk to you soon! Oh and I'm trying to cram as much fun time as possible before my enlistment! haha! serving the nation sounds cool but when i heard Kenn complaining about it, my heart sank. Well the future awaits me. Hardship or not, I'm going to become a better person! woohoo!

//for all that is to come

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Glory Forever

10:26 am

Lift up your eyes, and see the Christ, He is higher, He is high above all things
GLORY FOREVER

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the beautiful thing is...

Monday, 23 November 2009, 12:23 am

It's that He is gracious. To hold our hands when we fall and to pick us up when we break. Times when we are faithless, His unending hope and trust in us spurs us on to move ahead. When we fail, He, time and time again gives us that new beginning to start over and fight that good fight. Though we keep on failing, His faithfulness endures forever. And though my heart rebels against His word, when i repent, he's always present. The world seeks material things to fill that void, other's seek wrongful intimacy. His love, however abundantly fills that emptiness and brings new meaning to love. Unending, unmatchless and unfailing, that's how awesome His love is. Just like the rising of the sun, so are His mercies, new everyday.
Today, I learn to lean on him . Tomorrow, I learn to lean on him. My meditation is to Him alone. To Him alone, i offer my utmost devotion. So with every single breath I make, and every step that I take, I will learn to choose to remember He created my very existence. For all the honour, power and glory belongs to Him. With that, I stand humbled and in awe of what He has done and will do. So for every sin He came, to give liberty to the captives, to give vision to the blind, to give wisdom to those who lack it. Seeing through the eyes of grace and to be a light in a broken humanity.
The beauty of it all is... my life is more than the wallowing in self-pity. It is what i choose to do after the fall that determines my character. And even more so, i pray this," Please still my urge towards rebellion for my rebellious nature has hindered me. Let me learn to lean on you in everything, and let me worship at your feet."

// the beautiful thing is... He is God.

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A beautiful song!

Friday, 20 November 2009, 12:30 am

May my prayer like incense rise before You, The lifting of my hands a sacrifice of Lord Jesus
Turn Your eyes upon me, for I know there is mercy in Your light
Your statutes are my heritage forever, my heart is set on keeping Your decrees
Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion, let love keep my will upon it's knees

To all perfection, I can see a limit, but Your commands are boundless and have none
So Your word is my joy and meditation, from the rising to the setting of the sun
All Your ways are loving and are faithful, your road is narrow but Your burden light
Because You gladly learn to lead the humble, I shall gladly kneel to leave my pride

I will seek You in the morning, I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You'll lead me, And I will follow You all of my days

Oh God You are my God, and I will ever praise You

// What a beautiful song. Still my anxious urge toward rebellion

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Exam Stress!

Thursday, 19 November 2009, 12:40 am

I'm down with most of it. Left three more papers. One on Fri, next Mon and the final one the following Tuesday! I can already smell freedom! How exciting eh? I have so much activities planned out from 1st Dec till the 10th of DEC! I'm going to live my last few days of hair-ful days fully and fruitfully. Since I'm pretty much not in a mood to talk about my papers, I'll rant about a dilemma I'm facing. It goes like this. I don't wanna offend someone, yet i know that I'm about to do will make me regret for life. I'm stuck. I don't know what to do? Why are there so many beast out there who wants only what people have rather than accepting people for who they are? Oh well.

Just a lil side track, one of my friend's attached! Congrats! I haven't met the partner but from what i currently know, it's a good catch! Hah, does this make my heart sick? No. I'm pretty thankful i don't have a certain person I'm deeply in to. Just the lil whee i make when certain key words are mention but that's all. No deep longing kind of feeling. Which i think is good. No need to feel weighed down by anything. Just a carefree soul living a purposeful life! Ok i won't try to sound this cheesy anymore.

In my ultimate efforts to make this blog livelier, I've begin to realise that I'm typing this post like an essay. PEEL! haha. Oh gosh, the exams are taking a toll on me. It's 1250 am already. I think it's time i hit the sacks. Tmr's CG's going to be great. I think I'll muster enough courage to say no. Pray for my remaining papers too! Toodles!

//I don't need to be anyone's idea of a human being. I need to know who i am in Him.

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Like a fire

Thursday, 12 November 2009, 4:37 pm

Like a fire shut up in my bones, I want the world to know that you are God
With a passion burning deep within, I want the world to know that You live
Let Your presence come and saturate every part of me, make me new
Let Your spirit come and move within, fill me once again cause i need more

Jesus I'm desperate, hungry and longing for You
Cause Lord You are all I want

Come like a fire and saturate me now You're all I want
Come like a wind and sweep throughout this place You're all we want

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Happiness

Friday, 6 November 2009, 10:11 pm

To say I love you without expectation, condition, term limit or obligation, that makes me happy. What makes me happiest is when someone says I love you to me meaning it as unconditionally as it can be and me simply accepting it. When I love without goal and accept without doubt, I am happy. In this, I am not pursuing happiness, I becoming happiness.

// happiness should be our way of life
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Human

3:50 pm

I'm breaking down, I wanna give up, I'm broken, I feel pain in every sense, I don't wanna carry on anymore, I don't wanna be wrong all the time, I'm frustrated, I'm tired, I'm hungry, I feel weak, I'm feeling love sick, I wanna not be alive. I'm only human, so whyyawannabringmedown??

//you were as I.
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Your promises

Wednesday, 4 November 2009, 9:53 pm

You promise me, You'll never leave me
You promise me, I'm never forsaken
And I believe that goodness and mercy
WILL follow me and surround me EVERYWHERE that I go

// Amen to this!

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If i wrote a note to God

Tuesday, 3 November 2009, 12:55 am

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on


// We can't do this on our own.


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