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September 11
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sorry
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'Forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore
You're not half the man you think you are
Save your words because you've gone too far
I've listened to your lies and all your stories (Listened to your stories)
You're not half the man you'd like to be
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'Forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore
Don't explain yourself 'cause talk is cheap
There's more important things than hearing you speak
You stayed because I made it so convenient (made it so convenient)
Don't explain yourself, you'll never see
// I'll move on from here.
Gone
I want to attend the Man's meeting on fri but i have band. What luck. I pray he'll still love me when I run back into his arms. How I wish I could turn back time and make better decisions, how I wish he'll lift me up once again, how I wish i can fall in love with HIM all over again.
// how i wish life was straighter.
Silence
//Walking down a road less traveled.
life's overture
Drained
But I'm tired. I want to pon school tmr to recuperate and have a good rest.
I think it's cause I haven't been very faithful in my giving that's why I'm so lethargic. No open heaven, no zoe life of God.
// the bible says the joy of the Lord is my STRENGTH!
Come take control
We're letting go
Come and take control
You are God and we know
That You hold our world.
How awesome it is to know that as we let go of all that we have, our inhibitions, desires, dreams and aspirations, and give God control over our lives, how our lives have thus become even more significant. Indeed life begins when you know Him. I guess being so absorbed with everything around us has left us panting and longing for more when the source of our strength is so close to us. Relying on God to live life everyday imo should be a lifestyle. Our heartbeat should be with His, our vision should be His, our life should be His. But how we as selfish creatures try to take control of seemingly everything does leave much room for God to take control. How then can we be more like Him? WE LET GO!
This week has indeed been tiring. I'm kind of in the non-studying mood, being busy with all the peripherals. Doing barely the bare minimum has made me feel very angsty. Ever wondered why even though knowing the decision that is about to be made could be fatal is being made? Pure stupidity. I guess that's all I could say of the decisions I've made in my JC life. The beauty of it i guess is that if I work hard, I can still get in to my desired course. But is mugging really hard for Chemistry really worth it? For that A grade? Yes. If only they had H6 for Econs, I WOULD SO TAKE IT! But NO....I've got to practice what i preach.
"Don't let your circumstances pull you down. Work around it and do your best!" I think Candice and Sam has heard me say this like gazillion times!
I'm going to take offering this week again. Lord reveal to me something that can encourage and motivate people to tithe and give their offering faithfully.
// Abandon all I am to have You capture me again
Psalm 145:14
gives a fresh start to those ready to quit.
For FREEDOM!
We see the lost in this world
Wounded and broken hearts
We hear creation groan
For the love that we know
PC1.
We Your church will arise
To be Your hands and feet
For humanity
We will fight
CHORUS
To this call You've declared
Called Your people
As we come we will be
Hope to nations
The King of all You Reign
Love poured out
FOR FREEDOM!
V2.
For every soul You gave
Grace that never fails
Sent Your Son to save
Salvation's drawing near
PC2.
As we stretch our hands
Spirit poured on us
For humanity
We will rise
My first PRAISE SONG! PTL! Finally broke through!
It's SUNDAY!
For the brokenhearted
For the poor, the weak
For the blind and searching
He sent His son for you and me.
This is your Saviour
Pure love from heaven
Sent to die on calvary
To bear the sins of all
Rejected cursed to die
Love silently endured
His blood poured out and offering
At the foot of the cross
- Mere Christianity.
Good Friday!
Went for service today and the drama was really unexpected. No funny parts. Just real drama that would touch your heart. Quite interestingly put as it isn't actually from the bible per se, but it was still fantastic. Kudos to the team! Nearly cried but had to hold it back. Don't want some pity party. Maybe when I go for sun service I'll let my hearts out.
These few days has been really busy ones. Quite tiring. Waking up today at 9 took lots of effort! Worse thing it, there's band tmr + china studies lecture. How lame is that? Talking about results, I got a C for PW. I'm very disappointed but apparently I'm not depressed or anything close to it. I'm pretty cool with it overall other than the fact that 20% of the school got an A, nearly half my class got an A, my whole group got a C and much more. It's such a screwed subject. SERIOUSLY. But I guess a C is sufficient for me. Now focus has to be placed on my OTHER subjects. Need to get good results! That said. I need to start working NOW!!!!
-他已经回应了，我读了，很开心！
6 weeks!
Common test results have slowly trickled in and well, I didn't do well to say the least. Math was a bare pass, econs was better with a borderline C grade(owing to the fact that I didn't study my J1 topics thoroughly resulting in the pulling down of grades. I got 18/25 for the Macro essay though. PTL!). And i failed the rest-CSE,GP,CHEM. I did poorly for CSE owing to the fact that I didn't know how to do case study! Seriously. I was only awarded 6 out of 30 marks. What is this? Can't believe it. And I failed GP by 1 mark! Just one mark! My class didn't do well either. My GP grades allowed me to be the 5th in class! LOL! That's how badly my class did. Let's not even talk about CHEM. I haven't gotten it back and I definitely know that I've failed.
I need to study hard! I need to get into the faculty that allows me to enjoy my studies! ECONOMICS! I must DO WELL to get into it!
Back to the books!
-NO PM!
Commitment
I guess commitment comes with a price. When rui called me just now, I know she wants to tell me things, but as i told her that for the following weeks i won't be able to attend sat service, i could literally feel her heart sink. How to rise up like that? I really don't know. I guess in trying to hide my fears I've placed many activities ahead of myself so that I do not need to face the hard facts of reality and all that it encompasses. Commitment comes with a price, and that price has to be duly paid before commitment is birthed. The sleepless nights, the willingness to love people even more, to be a helping hand and to be a light and still loving God even more. and yet, still juggling between School, work and God.
Giving up all to follow Him. Such a statement has resonated through Church. But how many are going to actually live up to this? All my worldly commitments, band and what not, am I willing to give it all up and just focus on my studies and God and the people He's called me to be of help too? I really don't know. I hope when He calls, I'm willing. For now, as i learn to juggle, I guess I'll have to live up and fulfil what I've promised and have been put accountable of.
Had a short but great time with Kenn today. So much procrastination to call and meet him has finally been put to action. I feel satisfied. Thank God for Kenn. Really missed him. Now that he's going to the army, the impending thought of me going into army is even more daunting.
Just some updates about common test, I barely passed math. Borderline pass. Not very fantastic but I've got to thanks God at least I passed.
-YAO YAO! (摇腰）*deng deng*!