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September 11
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The good fight of faith. There's reason behind it. It's not just having people praying about me, it's about me with the word of God, proclaiming His promises, wielding the sword of the spirit, and fighting the devil! And as I take the first step in praying God will be my helper. I have to fight the battle. Not ask others to fight for me. And this struck me deeply. Indeed, in my Christian walk I've asked people to pray for me, pray for me, but the fact is the battle against the devil over my life is mine not their. As much as they can pray for me, God will still let me face problems, because He wants ME to fight the battle not others. I'm not saying that praying with others is not good. We've got to marry this truth that as we fight this battle, through our prayers TOGETHER with people agreeing with us in prayer, the power against the devil is SO MUCH GREATER! Indeed bringing it all back, I now realised why I'm still stuck in PM. BECAUSE I've never started consistently pray against it. Today is a turning point. I'm going to start praying AGAINST my problem CONSISTENTLY! Indeed as i begin to fight this battle, GOD will be my shield and strength! AMEN!
I guess this meeting was a life changing one. So much packed in a short period of time. I believe God has called me to be a mighty MAN!
-Male by birth, MAN by CHOICE!
Common Test
It's really easy to say Chem was too difficult, Math was a total killer, CSE's lecturers and tutors are bad, Econs was unexpected, GP was atrocious(what teachers have commented on essays). It's so easy to blame it on our circumstance, but truth is, not much effort was put into chem (explaining the about of blanks in the paper I left), I only memorised one essay which came out which I'm really confident of scoring, unlike the case study where crap was the basis of my writing. I was too over confident for math. Seriously, I expected it to be a breeze. But it was no walk in the park. 2hrs30mins of torture. Econs is the only subject that I'm confident of even passing, let alone scoring? Well I guess one take away is, it's time to get serious and start mugging. The 'A's are 8 mths away so what's that to securing my future? Easier said then done though.
Anyway, common test aside, today's the last day of my papers. Indeed very happy. Was suppose to meet Kenn but... So anw, I had a great time with my school mates. It's been awhile. Tmr's going to be my recuperating day before I once again embark on hardcore studying. Go to education system.
-ever wondered why it's called common test?
Oratorical.
Service yesterday was good. Some how as Pastor preached about married couples, I can relate to it. Especially the love busters. I realised how selfish I was and if I wanted lasting relationships with my friends, I've got to learn to be a lot more selfless. The cell group this weeks seems to have improve. People are staying for fellowship, attendance during meetings have now been less volatile. I'm really excited to see what God can do in each and every member. Honestly, yesterday was quite a fun one. Something I haven't experienced in a long long time.
Ok back to mugging now. Toodles.
-everything has been figured out except how to live. How cliche can this get?
FOCUS
Never really thought about focusing on a subject while mugging. But today, i realised the importance of focused study. The fact that i had 3 subjects on the desk meant i kept on switching subjects that i didn't get into the flow of accomplishing major stuff. Just random questions here and there. Nonetheless, it's better than yesterday. Way better.
Was studying with ling today. She commented that i was a bad friend. That set me thinking. Why am i a bad friend? I've concluded that I'm a very selfish person. Seriously, i guess everyone knows that. I expect people to share things with me while i won't share things with others(only the leftovers are being shared). That's bad. And i really ai mian zi, so i will never take the blame for something that goes wrong and try to find people or reasons to hide my fault. Indeed i love to cover my weakness, yet much of it has been exposed. Time to be a real person my man. Be a giving person and learn to appreciate the presence of others rather than thinking what you can leach out of them.
Had breakfast today at LJS and it was a bomb!( EXPENSIVE!!!) My wallet cracked. Hais. I'm trying my very best to be faithful in my building fund. Note to self: eat cheaper!
Apparently, when you mug, life seems utmost boring and a lil tickle will make you smile. But nothing of any sort happened to me.Dang my life is boring... Talk about boredom leading to violence and war... ROAR!
A little extra here. I went jogging just now. Another legacy project in trying to keep fit. Running alongside the canal reminded me of the days of cross country. In trying to save face, i tried to run in sec 3 and 4 since all of my male classmates then were athletic and all. So i managed to run within the time limit and helped my house gain a point. Apparently, my house was so lousy it was always last in anything. GO CHEETAH! Moving along to JC, i pon-ed JC1's cross country. It was a bad day. Wrong combi and all...and then JC2, in trying to keep up with innovation, the pe department came up with this cross campus relay. Where initially 20 students had ran around the school each. But realising that the smallest class had only 16 people (which was mine, ZESTT!) they reduced the number to 15. And you may wonder why 15? Cos i guess we have a LT MC girl. Thus making 15 er.. i mean 14 fit people to run. But guess what? due to POOR planning and not using their brains, this cross campus thing clashed with the A level results and thus is being postponed till 3rd Term. Sound darn looser right now. haha Go PJC. It's celebrating it's 10th year this year. How interesting eh? Hope they kick our butts to push us for another value added GOLD. Seriously, the environment's quite slack, and the only stress factor is the fact that i stress myself out and that the J1s are MUGGIN! ARGH! FREAK ME OUT!
-live to mug for a better life
the good fight of faith
I've been reading and my passion to grow has become even stronger. No more will i be an immature freak. No more will i take useless offense against me as stumbling blocks. Indeed God will give me the strength to overcome it all. even in my studies.
Was studying at the library wif candice, sam and njh(x). Was very hard to focus but at least i got things done. Better than yesterday. Tmr will be better i guess. I spent quite sometime reading on some stuff and really feel that i should write down even the most mundane of stuff here, so that when i look back, i would realise life wasn't that much of a bore. Indeed, my decisions today determines what my future holds.
Had thoughts of quiting JC today. All the mugging and stress is it worth it at the end of the day? This question kept bugging me. But i guess what ling said is true. Thru this experience i would learn to lean and trust in God even more. I would learn to find my strength and wisdom in Him. Something that i'm in extreme need of.
Back to the library, i reminisce the days of O level mugging and how i felt helpless than. haha.Thank God for ling and rui to help me thru it in the library. Now i have my peers with me. To teach me and help me understand. And maybe a lasting friendship after that. That's my hope.
Now before i forget, i shall address my title. The good fight of faith. Indeed, it's a good fight, a fight worth giving my life too. I guess it's easier said than done, but if everyone heeded the call, the world would definitely be a different place. A place full of faith hope and love? maybe. But since we've all fallen, it's quite hard to live life to our utmost potential. Thus the good fight of faith. To have faith to stand above our circumstances and say God with You, All things are possible. It is the proclamation that resonates thru our kosmos living lives righteous worthy of His Call. Indeed many are called, few are chosen, even fewer have been found faithful. I guess every believer's dream of wanting to reach their destiny has been marred by various events that make or break their conviction in seeing their destiny become reality. Many would be broken and give up totally. We thus need to be in line with God's purpose for us and to everyday lift our burdens to Him and trust Him a lil more. Indeed, this fight is a tough one, no matter how you see it, anyone who completes it would definitely come out shining like gold. Thru the flames of life, our lives would be purified. All that ego and self-glorification stripped down to nothing so that OUR GOD can be glorified. And in trying to make sense, i shall conclude. The good fight of faith, a battle worth fighting, but we must always ensure that our lives are right with God. The importance of FAT comes in play and our LOVE for GOD and PEOPLE has to be our primary reason to live vicariously, putting others ahead of ourselves.
I need to OVERCOME!
Hebrews twoverseseventeenandeighteen
YES it's me again because you know why. Seems like my blog posts have now become event based.
I guess i needed a reminder and thus i watched the Passion. Cried bucketful of tears. 2 scenes that really moved me, the scene where Mary ran out to help her son as He fell and the scene where one of the thief defended Jesus saying though he did not sin has been condemn, and Jesus even on the cross showed in my opinion compassion to this guy. And it literally broke my heart. To realise that Jesus died so that i could live righteously yet now, how i live my life is not even a close to my purpose in Him.
Indeed, by his stripes we are healed.
This sat is the oratorical competition. I'm not prepared and NOT WILLING TO GO! I really feel like backing out. I totally wasted the whole day practically doing ... and slacking and watching TV. I should have done a lil research. I suddenly feel like Samuel. No offense but i say i want to do things yet i don't even have the discipline to do it or not to do it.
Male by Birth, MAN by choice.
This statement is indeed true. What's my decision? I truly don't know.
another sad post.
Selah
A shout out to Samuel who's celebrating his eighteenth. Getting older eh?
Life's really short. March just came by so quickly. Time's running out. I need discipline!
A verse to that takes away some guilt
Psalm 139
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.
Verse
discipline
These are the few areas i need to seriously get working on, especially PM. Apparently, i'm guilty twice today. In the area of my conduct, i need to discipline myself from acting gay and all. I need to tone myself down and to start being a true example. Not being a bitch. In the area of my relationship with God which encompasses word and prayer, i need to develop a more disciplined quiet time. In terms of my physical body, i need to exercise to pass my napfa. Which includes pull ups, standing broad jump and sit and reach. Please keep me accountable in these areas.
You Are Here ( Hillsong London)
There is a love that I know
Strength for the weak and the broken-heart
My Shepard and King, I find you within me
For You Are Here
Carried the cross for the world
Gathered the lost and the fatherless
My Shepard and King, I find you within me
For You Are Here, my Lord forever You Are Here
Chorus:
In this place, You Are Here
By Your mercy, I draw near
In my heart, take Your place
You Are Here
Verse 2:
Your word is the light of the Earth
Your glory resounds in the universe
My Shepard and King, I find You within me
For You Are Here, my Lord forever, You Are Here
Bridge:
The same power that conquered the grave lives in me, lives in me!
Your love that rescued the Earth lives in me, lives in me!