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Gabriel.
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Pioneer Junior College | 08S32

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there is hope in Jesus!

Sunday, 25 November 2007, 3:41 pm

when the world seems to press i hard on you..when everything seems to fail you...when your heart and your strength gives way and when all hope is lost..it's painful...yes after exams and this feelings just overwhelmed me unexpectedly it's the worse I've ever felt..and when all hope is loss, my first reaction was to turn to myself forgetting abt God! man how dumb could i get? one word from Him and everything changes! yes the hope He gives would be able to sustain you which He did for me...
so anw i talked to yl last night till 3 and then went to sleep..prayed abt it and well i fell better :) and there are 3 songs that has really encouraged me which talks about the goodness of the Lord and His mercies that w/o i wouldn't be standing where I am.
THANKS YL FOR HEARING ME! and THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME THIS OPPORTUNITY TO LIVE FOR YOU!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!
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new york new york

Saturday, 24 November 2007, 1:09 am

ok so i went to new york new york for dinner..it was nice...went with carol, hui min and wei qian..charlene came late..carol wq and i shared food we cut each dish of ribs chicken and pork into one third each and shared! quite fun...and carol really doesn't know how to cut ribs...tsk tsk! so yup it was fun! anw after that was contemplating whether should i go overnight but i decided not...i could drink my problems away but i decided not..cos i have my morals to live up to. until i have the right reason, doing smth and not facing the reality is real stupid..ahh so anw...
today was suppose to be the prom ... but as the rebel i am, i decided to skip it! why waste $$$70 on eating buffet stuff and take photos? new york new york's food cost ard 20+++ and no where near SEVENTY! so yup not going was the right choice :) but if there was prom for JC , then i would go..that would be the highlight of my life man! its gonna be the real deal i hope :P
so anw that's all that happened today...stoned in front of my com for the whole day till i went out

there is hope in JESUS for a better future !
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obsession (part 3)

Friday, 23 November 2007, 12:32 pm

congrats!...here's my third instalment of my serious obsession...ytd cell group announced the cell group ministries...and i'm the Secretariat(Secretary),Creative Department(making cards) Event Planners(plan birthday)and VOCALS DEPARTMENT(singing) and here I'm the vocals supervisor!!! wahaha i couldn't sleep last night i tell you....ahhha seriously if you know where i'm getting to...vocals SUPERVISOR!!! whahahahahah so funny ....the should say we have annabelic(angelic) voices! wahaha I'm really going crazy again! ahha alright....so this post is dedicated to a great example in my life...she became cgl at 15! wow!ahha alright...shall stop now...well I'm too happy le! yes

no more obsessions for now... i guess :P
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tired (of living)

12:28 pm

I'm giving up le.. it's killing me really...it's so cold the north and south poles can be considered warm ! what the it's so irritating it's so frustrating its killing me....i give up.
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God of my forever - His supreme love

Monday, 19 November 2007, 12:22 am

ONE LOVE THAT SUPREME...this love has helped me to overcome my jealousy and well human beings do disappoint and well I can feel disappointed too but yup I'm learning day by day to overcome it..well the love human beings give is like God's love with human skin on. And really i believe God uses pple to be in His place to give a personal touch..But nth compares to the warmth of His presence that makes you weep for no reason. I want that presence ! and I feel that yup this is the only jealousy i can have...jealous for more of Him! seriously one touch and it causes you to feel over-satisfied..like a cup with water running over. oh well I shall renew once again my commitment..also I've changed my song to this as it to me has a lot of meaning..the part that it says my greatest honour...and really it is my greatest honour to serve my Lord and King. He's the God of my forever!

God of my forever
music and words - kcgan
vocal- Annabel

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this alter I've written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I've surrendered
My heart finds it's rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say 'well done'
Bowing before your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way
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discussion of the future...

Sunday, 18 November 2007, 9:57 pm

well i was about to talk to carol..who wants to be a flight stewardess ...when my parents came up to me and say "so you going mi har?" I was like duh... it was like i told them time and time again and they were rather supportive until today.. and it's so like them ... hais then they were like so you wanna go jc after O's har? then they start listing the bad stuff abt jc lie cannot play in j1 reach j2 A's will come quickly ...blah blah..then they think i look down on poly thinking that i feel that poly's a low class institution etc.. i was like ..i don't know what i wanna study in poly anw... and chances of going Uni is so difficult with better pple going to poly also... the after that i told them if i can't go JC or MI i would go lasalle..you sould see my mum's face...immediately...what's wrong..yes Singapore's arts market is small and no qian tu but if JC fails then i would rather chase smth that is my passion..forcing me to go poly and study engineering is like asking me to jump of the building! I HAVE NO INTREST!..hais...i feel that they're unsupportive of me going to JC ... it's like ..i don't know le lah..i should just start working at macs for the rest of my life hor?
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insecurity

Friday, 16 November 2007, 11:15 pm

disclaimer : this is the edited version of my previous post. and has by no means have any intention to harm anyone whosoever.

I feel insecure almost everyday of my life. I wish to hold on to my friendships dearly and i think I'm as good as a dictator in a relationship. I believe it's my fear that controls my emotion. This feelings resurfaced when smth recent events happen where a friend starts to ...yah long story.. so yah i felt like i was being distant... yes i understand the whole pict and everything... but the problem lies with my selfishness..i just can't...hais..so yah im just struggling to comprehend. Many times this thought will come to my mind...if i'm afraid of losing friendships isn't it better to not make friends? hais then there won't be any need for separation! oh my...this anyway if you're wondering is not the main problem...many things are happening and well this thing makes it's toll on me...

I'M STILL STRUGGLING... I THOUGHT I HAD BEEN SET FREE? well i don't know...i wanna just give up ... I'm so tired...need to tell someone about it...

I'm sorry

[Courage is not the absence of fear, it is the unrelenting desire to proceed inspite of it]-tim harding

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obsession(part 2) the art of stalking

Monday, 12 November 2007, 9:48 pm

I think my obsession has gone from bad to worse...it is currently Lee Hom (homeboy) and was and still is and getting worse for ...yes you guessed it right Annabel! (yes chc's vocals supervisor/worship leader!) Argh!! she's so cool ! oh man it's like i'm in choir but i don't know her personally and also i don't think she knows me! I'm like always during practice secretly hoping she'll come up to me and ask for my name! oh man ...anw she givea private coaching for vocals at like 50/hr...hmmm I WOULDN'T mind! ahha but to set the record straight she's married and i'm like almost half her age! so no that kind of feelings...just true admiration of her voice and of her faith! ahha...seriously I'm going nuts soon... ! I'm a stalker!!! I'm like trying to find out her chinese name ! i know it's su smth smth just lazy to chck it out ahha...oh man! i'm such a stalker..hais.... anw I"M STILL AS CRAZY FOR LEE HOM! He's so shuai! oh man! ahhha so shuai! so shuai! i wanna be like him too! oh man so shuai!
The art of stalking....hmmm i'm not so sure about it.ahha i think the internet is really good for stalking a famous person but if it's like someone who isn't actually a public figure or keep a public internet profile then it can be quite hard! that's if unless you have resources at hand! ahha stalking is so fun but it might actually invade the private life of a person..hmmm it could be good or bad ...yah this is my standpoint ahha alright crazy me talking...now normal me!....

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! WOOTS! THE SMELL OF FREEDOM IS IN THE AIR! oh man! so HAPPY !! woots i hope to get 9 pts! woots i want to get 9 points! ahha anw going to be boring this week though...band band band so boring...i don't wanna go dunearnite...can't believe got ppl wanna go...hmmm next year the band having concert at a concert hall lehs...why don't save that 2 dollars and go for that next year? argh right...dunearn's hall is stuffy and hot and TWO DOLLARS to me means the concert's gonna be terrible! oh man! lousy school!.ahha and anw my sec school education is OVER! though i have to go back to school...I DON"T NEED TO STUDY THERE ANYMORE!! WOOTS! so happy! ahha alright that's all

will there be a part 3 to my obsession? we'll see about it.
till next time...
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obsession (part 1)

Thursday, 8 November 2007, 3:40 pm

yup that's the topic ( in case you can't see it's on the top right corner)
Recently I've been going Lee Hom's so shuai..and he really is ahhah...i want to be as shuai as him...hmmm and I'll start patronizing stuff that he promotes like heads and shoulders shampoo which i totally love! argh! he's so shuai...anw I'm not being GAY or anythin so yup :)
so yup gonna start buying his albums! wahaha...anw he's not the only one I'm obsessed...
If you know me , you'll know who's next....I think her voice is like great! and she's married so yup can't have any further rumors of me liking her...I just like her voice ! oh man and Darlene too ...her voice is great too and she's married too ahhha
and the list will go on ....Katherine McPhee's hot! Carrie Underwood's voice rocks and Kelly Clarkson's VOICE BLOWS YOU AWAY lalala...and then there's Rihanna...lala
ANW I've gotta confess that i really support Sun (Sun Ho/Yeow Sun) and her work musically..I've been extremely afraid cos many s'poreans just can't accept her success due to her background...but who cares? my support doesn't mean my church force me to like her...the church didn't force me to buy her album...so yup it's out .. I think Sun's great...on the other hand i like Sun too...as in Yanzi...she's great too.. I think She's Singapore's gift to hua ren shi jie! ahha

anw about obsession... I NEED TO EXERCISE...tell you smth...i envy guys with great bodies...hmmm a little sick but isn't it a good driving force to stay healthy? AND I WANT SMOOTH SKIN TOO like w/o blemish or pimples ... hmmm well

alrighty... exams are sort of over and now i need to work work go for band and play! building fund's here so yup...need to shen qian! yup .. tmr there's cg ..yup see you soon!

to be continued.....


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