Dissonance in my soul - of many reasons why I felt like I never be able to fit in
There's a great sense of dissonance, disturbance of not being understood within me that frustrates me - from a conversation with my group of colleagues about the concept of "principles" that were largely misunderstood or oversimplified. I often felt alone with all these feelings because in general social settings, everyone tend to be able to "read" and naturally come to the consensus of a general depth any conversations can go wherelse it often makes me so uncomfortable to not pick out the nuances of topics and going in depth with conversations. It frustrates me how everyone are not bothered by how much untruth or contradiction is in shallow conversations. It frustrates me that no one ever catches that it's comfortable for them but not for me. I'm also upset at myself because the feeling that something is off and being able to link what exactly made me feel this way to how I feel often has a large delay gap that made it impossible for me to speak what is...