Stop holding on to the past...

2011 was rewarding in some ways, but frustrating in others. i'm definitely glad it is over and hoping that 2012 will be a much better year for me!

most of my running goals were met this year. finally broke the 1h 50min barrier for the half marathon with a timing of 1h:43m:31s (net) during the Army Half Marathon and then broke the 4h barrier for the full marathon with a timing of 3h:56m:53s (net)for the Standard Chartered Marathon. I also attempted my first trail race with my running buddy during The North Face 100 race. it was a challenging 25km, but a great experience!

career wise, i've finally completed the two-year program and looking forward to a permanent role and adding more value in whatever way i can. deep inside, i feel that the corporate world is really not for me. i can never be as good as my peers in knowing the right things to say to the big shots to give the impression that i am smart and brilliant.

on the psychological front, things aren't going straight. sometimes, my mood swings really go wild and i just sink into this depression mode when i think that the coming 'end-of-the-world' in 2012 is actually a great escape for me. the lack of self-esteem isn't improving... i've been struggling with this for years, and i really wonder whether i am really going to be able to get rid of this problem! :( BIG SIGH! i truly hope 2012 will be a better year and i will be able to stay happy for longer periods of time without feeling worthless and sad. will also need to learn how to stop hanging on to the past and stop worrying about the future...

may 2012 be yet another fruitful year - hope to achieve some PBs in my races and start to make my money work harder to accumulate some wealth... :) also to do well in my job and progress faster! :)of course, i hope to keep my close friends close to my heart in 2012 and be a better communicator in the family as well.