a story...

she was standing at the corner, eyes fixed upon him... staring down at him as he leaned upon the side of the balcony... his big eyes, his brows, his nose... anyone can see tat he was nervous, his hands cant stop moving against the side of the wall, he's breathing thru his mouth... his angular jawline, his features... all so tensed up... she's never seened him so frustrated b4... but she made up her mind... its worth a try... why nt? go for it...

hey, erm.. tat day...the question u asked me... did u really mean it?
her mind was racing was racing... wat if it was jus a lie? tat everything was jus so superficial... it happened to be jus bogus?
of course i meant wat i said. i've tot about it since years ago. i din jus wake up one mornin n decided tat i wanna be wit u.
it sounded real enuf...
jus looking at him, as he stares down into the night... he's afraid... so is she.... could this be it?
standing at the corner of the building where they 1st met.... it was years ago... n yet the memories seemed as though it was jus yesterday...
but... wat if it doesnt work out? we've been friends since we were kids... things will get ugly... it will be awkward....
suddenly all her courage jus fled... she started to hesitate... theres too much at risk... he was her best friend... her best pal... he stuck to her when things gt rough... having a fren like him was a blessing... losing a friend like him wouldve crushed her...
i dowanna ruin wat we had... we had smthg...it was gud... i dowanna lose it... i dowanna ruin it... we've known each other for years...y now?
she's hesitating.... he can sense tat.... she feels insecure, unsafe....
still looking at him, hoping tat he would give her the explaination she needed...hoping tat he could say smthg to tell her tat it will work out..no matter wat..this is it... but he din say anything...
he's thinking... he's pondering... she could see the veins at his temple pulsing... his jaw tight...
i use to be a loser. i use to be nthg. everyone gave up on me. u din. i feel for u... both u n i know it. i din have the guts to tell u this b4 bcoz i wasnt ready... i wasnt gud enuf...
i din say tat... we all stood by u...none of us ever pushed u away...
i wasnt gud enuf... i was never gud enuf... not for u...
have i ever told u or showed u tat i mind?
no...but u would've been the laughing stock in town... when we were young, i was flunking from classes while u were topping em... when we were in high school, i was being bashed by gangsters n bashing ppl while u were the school prefect wit the perfect record... after tat, u scored in ur exams... me? i dropped out.
you had ur own probs...we all knew tat, i know tat...
but now it diff. u dun have to worry anymore. i've turn over a new leaf. i'm working now... i'm earning now. 3to4ks... i'll work real hard n the numbers will increase... i'm nt playing a fool... believe me when i tell u tat.
he put his hands on her shoulder n turned her towards him...
she was staring right at his eyes... tears compiling at the edge of his eyes, threatening to flow...
i never doubted u... but... this isnt gonna be easy... nt wit my parents... nor my family... its jus too much to risk.
her heart was aching as she said those words... she could feel her whole world came crumpling down as she uttered those cruel, cold words...
u remembered this corner? we used to meet here so often its almost like "our place". do u remembered when i started smoking in form2? u called me up here n u asked for my fag. i half thought u wanted to throw it away...or burn it..it so like u. instead, u took one out, n u put it into ur mouth... i pulled it immediately away from u... u asked me y. i told u tat its dangerous n it hurts me to see u like this. u looked at me, n u smiled. u hugged me n u said "wat to u tink i feel when i see u like this?"....hehehe...i went home tat night. n i nvr touched a cigarrete since.
she jus stood there awed... he remembered it so clearly... looking at him as he speaks, he smiles abit...its almost like he's envisioning the whole scene once again....
do u remember when u broke up wit x? we were up here the whole night. u were so sad... u were crying the whole night thru... u have no idea how much it hurts me inside.. seeing u cry... as i stood there helpless... i held u in my arms tat night, i held u so tight... wishing tat i could sumhow ease ur pain... i wanted to tell u tat i'm here for u...i wanted to tell u tat i'll always be here for u... i wanted to tell u tat i love u... ... ... ...
but i din...
tears were running down her cheeks...she couldn't hold it in any longer... her fingers trembling... her knees quaking....she could bear it anymore....
wat about tat time i was thinking of dropping out... how the teachers scolded me.. how dad scolded me... telling me tat its wrong...telling me tat its a stupid decision... i half expected u to do so too.... but when we were up here, u came behind me... put ur arms around me, n gave me a big, long hug... u din say a word... u put ur arms on my shoulders n u started to slowly rub em... very slowly, u whispered in my ears... "frustrated huh? dun worry, i'm here"...n tats all i needed to hear...
he turned around n looked at her.... she was crying... her body was shaking... slowly he gathered her into his arms, hugged her n cradled her against his chest... waiting silently for her sobs to ease...
please...dun cry...i din mean to force u... i totally understand watever it is tat u say... u have ur choice n i'll respect u for it...
very slowly, she raised up her hands tat were swinging beside her body. she wrapped herself around him...
u have no idea how much i love to have u in my arms... u have no idea how badly i wanted to hold u tight n tell u i love u...
he tilted her head upwards to check on her as she was so quiet... she was staring into his eyes, his dazzling eyes.... he was searchin, searching for a sign...any sign....
she smiled.... n she burried her face back into his chest...
he chuckled...held her even more tightly in his arms...
i love you...
mmm hmm... u noe i do too...

:3niGma:

*kiki*

despite the major drag n let down of tdays so called "scholars luncheon"...my day was guuuuuuuuuud!!!

z came to pick me up this morn...wahahha... he owes me my "birthday package" since forever!!! so went i gt up into his car this morn... *woot!!! me loves me pressies!!! *sorry ya..my psyco camera and its psyco dates!!*



neways...yea...he dropped me off at coll...coz i had the scholars thingy...den he went on to do sum of his "stuff" in sunway... met up at 1smthg...den we're off for lunch!! in the car wit z was pure psyconess lerr!!! listening to him in the car..singing to songs he dun even noe d meaning..jus plain psyco!! *der piao* the fun times... its all like "deja vu" again...akakakka...

we ate at CAFF...

ooo...i went there like only once n the WILD MUSHROOM SOUP gt me hooked on to it!!! mmmmm...simply mouth watering..i stuffed in my lunch till the max!!! it was like waaaaay up to my throat!!! the ambience was great..dimmed lights...oldies... painting everywhere....we sat there till the peeps in the restaurant wanted to close shop n balik d...akakak...we jus sat there n chat...old skool lingo, we use to call it "talk cock"...wahahah... laughing n chuckling away... bout our old frens... bout R n LY...everything... the gud times.. n coll...drawing n figures!!! everything... den history...n our past...hahahah...

we had a thing, it din worked out.
so wat? those r memories tat i'll never forget.
i wouldn't trade anything in my life to have it any other way
my past, made me what i am now.
to tell u d truth....
i'm fucking proud of em!!

it was fun babe...do it more often soon ya?
cheerio!
:strawberry*

*ahem*

interesting day tday....wahahahha....

din noe tat tday gt no dharmma class....so...woke up early n went to temple jus to find it empty...wahahahha.... but the prefects were having their meeting...sooooo...we (tz n me) jus crashed it!! wahahhaha.... CZ said i lost weight!!! wahahahhah....syok-nye~! wahahaahah...muahahahha....couldnt stop smiling thw whole day!!! wahahahha....uahahahha.....CZ...CZ... u really crack me up!!!

gave my girl guide uni away tday...so the emo when i was packing em this mornin....*sob sob* emo!! nomore girl guiding...the "pemimpin muda" oso i no longer hear anything from em d...haih...so the sad...my green shirt...my blue skirt n pants..paling emo was giving away my blue skarf!!! boohoo!!!! went to SK's hse to pass her the uni's n to collect my cd's...woohoo!! lee hom aint tat bad... cute too...*now TAT, ladies n gentleman, is wat i call a WICKED hot hot HOTTIE!!!* ahahaha....*lalalal~

my dinner was.... SUCKY!! yea..u read me...S.U.C.K.Y. dinner...literrally.... akakka... it was sucky gud though...we had "balitong" a.k.a "siputiong"...the hardest seafood available in my vocab to eat!! we had to suck the meat out of the trumpet looking shells!!! mom was eating darn fast...she whacked like 30 in half an hour while i have only 7 on my plate tat was empty... 2nd sis was even hilarious..she only managed 3!!! wahahahah... out of 15 failed attempts... wahahhaha...it was undeniable delicious...but we sucked till my head when "ooozy" n 2nd sis's face went blue...we were like laughing n chuckling all the way!! wahahah....

now..i'm sitting topless in front my pc... FYI its freaking hot here, my room feels like an oven! doin my typo assignment till my eyes wanna pop out!!

cheerio!!
:3niGma;

uh huh

feel like crap sumtimes...its like u tink u noe sumone, but u dun...
sum ppl look happy outside, but their cracking n falling apart inside... u wouldn't noe, i envy ppl like those... everything can be bottled up without the whole wide world noeing bout it...
some ppl seem to be really close to u...the so-called "laugh together, cry together" type... but turns out to be jus ur own imagination...it wasnt tat much... mear frens i guess...personal? hmmm...
i wanna be strong too... i wanna be the strong wan...i wanna stand up n stand tall...but i find my knees shaking n my face turning pale...i'm tired, i'm feeling sick...before u noe it..i'm back down on the floor... lying there, lifeless... waiting..waiting... i can see ppl around me...the shame...the embarassment..it feels as though i'm lying naked on the floor... everyone is pointing n staring..i jus wanna run...run away from this place...run as far as my legs could carry me... but i cant hide, no matter how badly i wanted to.... i couldn't....
tears streaming down my cheeks, it feels so empty...inside... theres nthg but a sudden numbness.. perhaps it hurts too much tat it turned numb...perhaps, i'm liberated...perhaps... or mayb its gone worst, i've gone from feeling bad to feeling nthg... sheer emptiness...


on a lighter note...


according to the month tat i was born...
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection.
*wheres my wicked hottie den??*

ppl say i need a guy... why? why do u tink i NEED a guy? its never a NEED, why is it tat no one understands tat?

sweet-nye~!

i read this...n it jus melted me..i noe it cliche n all...BUT, heck i'm a gurl!!


-boy: Hi happy anniservary!...hey remember you wanted to tell me something after
school? sorry i left so early i had to go to work. so what did you want to tell me?

-girl: i wanted to say i love you

-boy: yeah i know everyone does!

-girl: really?

-boy: yeah... everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday

-girl: oh... but am i only your friend?

-boy: no... youre my girlfriend... why?

-girl: so when i say i love you i really do mean it

-boy:yeah i know you do mean it... its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz i know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.

-girl: ......

-boy: so wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th anni?

-girl: yeah... where?

-boy: i dont know... maybe movie then dinner?

-girl: ok

-boy:ill pick you put after i get off and get ready ok?

-girl: ok. what time do you get off?

-boy: in 2 hours and then i gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20
mintues...

-girl: aye... i thought you didnt have work today...

-boy: one of my co-workers called in sick

-girl: oh okay! so ill see you around 7:30 then?

-boy: yeah! and babe?

-girl: yeah?

-boy: i love you

-girl: i love you too!

-boy: ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.

-girl: ok bye

-boy:bye

****************************

2 hours later...

the boy drives to his girlfriends house boy walks up to the door and rings bell

-girl: hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)

-boy:wassup... you ready?

-girl:um... wait... let me get my bag and we can go ok?

-boy:ok

they both watched a movie and ate dinner....
once they were done eating they head back to the car but before she got into the car...

-boy:wait! can i blind fold you?

-girl: why??!

-boy:its a suprise

-girl: what kind of suprise?

-boy: a big one

-girl: okay but only if you promise me that you will hold my hand while we're driving.

-boy: i promise.

-girl: ok blind fold me...

so they drove off........... and then they stoped.

-boy:ok we're here!

-girl: where?

-boy:wait let me walk you to the place!

-girl: what place?

-boy: somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips)

-girl: babe!...

the boy walks her to the place

-boy: ok.... let me take the blind fold off

-girl: where are we?

he takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at that same spot... thats where he first asked her to be his girlfriend...

-girl: omg.... (tears come down)

-boy: why are you crying?

-girl: this is where you first asked me out...

-boy: what are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him... in the air it says "will you marry me?" in firworks)

-girl: (tears come down faster)

-boy: i wasnt at work when you called me... i was planning this whole thing!

-girl: get up!

-boy: yeah?

-girl: (kisses him)

-boy: is that a yes or a no?

-girl: yes

*boohoo~!! sobs!

:random:

this is a random post...theres a phrase or a word *at least* dedicated to every one around me... try to find em!

:emo!!:i'm here for you!:muaxie!:i'm sorry!:cant keep being there for u:siao char bo:teddy:get up n get out!:jerk:i miss you!:bear hug:oooo...free lunch nex week!:aiks... finals!!!:mengada:cartoonz:water bed!:after all this time:i love u:woot!:rest of my life:mixed up:complicated:random:trying to push the past away:stay strong:olive:learning to barely feel d pain:emo-fied:i aint gonna break here!:u brighten up my life:thanks:indifferent:nothing is blue when ur around:coke!!:powerade:nike sports bra:galnexdor:thank you!:funk-ay!!:i-nnoy!:fugly:pringles!!:baskin robbins!:swatch buttons babe!:hatred:mushroom soup from CAFF:anyhooo:lebih!:2kg!:amazed lonestar:moulin rouge:wonka bars!:roar!:doraemon:scouts:puik!:

you changed me.
in so many ways.
every little thing means smthg.
u've made a difference in me.


:3niGma:

emo

feel the world upon my shoulders.
i'm standing on the edge.
my hopes has all deserted me.
its hurting me inside.
trying to survive. i'm callin out.
give me sum love n affection. if u see me falling down.
lift me up from the shadows.
take me away. bring me to a better place.
be by my side.
close to defeat. keep my head above water.
the game is getting harder. help me... i need u.
i'm searching. tell me. tell me tat my life is gonna change.
tell me its gonna b alright. i jus wanna live. dont wanna die.
fight thru the lows. i can either sink or swim.

weekends and today

din have time to blog during the weekends...so here i am... cramming four days worth of posts into one...

friday 18/08/2006

happy birthday BT!

how was my day?

ad principles was a drag coz i din noe wat artist to do upon..i dun listen to local music thus felt so jakun coz i din noe any local groups!! everyone went up to ms A for consultations! aM3 even had her tv advertisement storyboard sketch done!! felt sooooo behind... sat thru her class doin nthg! bored.... akakka...but ET n aM3 n BT was messing around the back of the class! ET tried to teach dem to be more flexible, nt felxible like gymnast, flexible like a dancer... the curves n the moves... the term ofthe day : FACE THE WALL! where we are suppose to face the wall n do a wave where the forehead touches the wall, den the nose, mouth den the chest, the stomach, den ur legs...its suppose to be a sexy wave like move... unfortunately, we ended up looking as though we were either kissing the wall or banging the wall... from far it even looked like we were making out wit the wall!!! akakakka....

dance club was a bang! akakka...i found out tat "face the wall" was actually a dance training moves.....gosh! like kena detention liddat... SH keeps asking me to face the wall coz i was soft enuf! *sob* after 1 hour plus of wall-facing! I CAN FINALLY DO THE WAVE THINGY! *woot!! wahahhaha...bangganye~! i finished all three sets of dance steps d! wahahaha...although i abit slow on the beats la....still working on it la!! amateur ma!!!!

voice chatting!!!! that night i finally tried the voice chatting thingy wit MP!! woot! jakun-nye~ aku!! but syoknye...its like free phone call!!! talked to her till aorund 2am!! siao liao!! but it was fun... although the "drama" kinda killed the fun in the end (shall nt mention to much)... it was still fun!! made apack wit sk to visit mp later on sun!! woot!!! high skool bestie!!! rindu-nye~!!

saturday 19/08/2006

bridge!!! went over to aM3's hse at 10am this mornin...ED ask us to wait there at 10...he came around 11!!haih...tat guy a!! lazed around...went to buy materials..they went for lunch...we ended up only starting work at 2pm! haih....ED's dad actually has a lot of ideas to re-enforce (NOT REDO!!!) our brige...he bought plywood, sticks! thick sticks.... it was like form3 kerja kayu!!! irronically bout working wit guys... we -the gurls actually do harder jobs den dem!! we cut the wood, saw the sticks n even chipped out the interlocking part of the bridge!! FUUHHHH!!!! no play play wit us k? even aM3, the so-called "tao foo fah" din whine...(mayb we did whine abit) but we did it wert!! aM3 is now officially promoted to "tao gua" aka beancurd!!! wahahahah....

sunday 20/08/2006

breakfast wit family was uber fun..haven't done it for quite sumtime coz i've been goin to the temple for dharma class... was suppose to meet TZ for lunch but couldn't coz he gotta rush to work...hmmmm....anywhooo....

cartoons!!!! went to pick up sk and we went to giant to stock up on junk food! ahahha... haven't seen sk in months!! missed her soooooo much! she's gone chubbier too!! akakak..cute!!! and we were wearing the same Body Glove shirt!!! akakak...so the ngam!! we were laughing all the way from her place to giant due to my idiotic sense of directions...sesat in Southern Park! how is tat possible? i've been studying there for 5 years!!! akakkak...went to giant...bought a get well card for mp's mom....stocked up on chocolates, potato chips, lolipops!!! and we r off to mp's hse!!! mp was usual...chubby n cute!! akakak... saw her mom, talked abit n we went upstairs, dowanna kacau her rest... it was uber fun catching up wit the gurls!! talking bout guys, the gud looking ones, the not-so cute wans, the annoying wans, the sweet wans, the ones we used to be in the same class wit...how they changed!! n movies....so many movies!!!!! korean n jap soaps! listening to songs...singing off key!! everything...we whacked the melting chocolate n sk whacked 3/4 of the bottle of Pringles!! laughed n rolled all over the bed!!

X n A... they were uber sweet! chatting wit dem all night! akakak uber cute!! made me laughed till i wantedto cry! akakka...uber bz wit work...it wasnt till really late at night when they came on.... X, havent seen him since the midnight horror movie we went together!! akakak...usual...potential hottie, despite the height.... akakak...we talk crap! talked bout gurls, n chicks... hugs n kisses...*ewwww* ...girlfriends n ex-es... making out n lots more of late night crap! felt like i was a guys...it was typical guy talk...usual of me...i'm always being treated as one of the dudes...but heck, i dun mind...coz tat is how i usually act around em.... i dun go all girlish or anything!! wahahah... A...this bugger is the uber cute wan la.... ever so self contious bout his bod... pretty buffed up now... i was being all "guy-ish" .... telling him to work on his shoulders n waist n crap... being all "objective" about it....my sis freaked when she saw me analyzing his old photos n new ones... she was like "aiiiyooooh!!! so nig size wan a ur fren? squish ppl flat oooo!!! but quite macho oso la!!wahahaha" ...i actually think the old ones look better...hes abit the toooo buffed now..scary!! wahahah...but he's still uber sweet!!! ekekekek...massive bear hugs!!! ever popular!!

monday 21/08/2006

work late till around 4am this mornin to finish up my work so tat i can show ms A my progress tday... i reached here at 10am...she isn't in yet...went again at 12 smthg she still isnt here....haihh....
ED says tat mayb he'll call a last minute touch up on the bridge project tday...but still no show...haih...freaking bored!!!

had lunch alone tday.... never liked lunching alone...pathetic... felt as though everyones looking at me...i chosed a table right at the corner so that no one would notice me sulking there...

wats worst than lunching in the corner of the cafeteria alone? it's lunching in the corner of the cafeteria when everyones having fun wit their frens and urs jus sitting there nibbling on ur sandwich u brought from home....alone...

in the 3rd floor aquarium com room now.... blogging away...
:3niGma:

bad day

unfinished work
it jus hit me tday...my bridge assignment isnt gonna b done on time...!! ppl aren't cooperating...ass time isn't as easy n simple as they use to be wit the gurls anymore... i dunno y..its frustrating...i hate it... i hate being the incompetent one... i hate being left out...everyone's finish wit their bridges.... jus us...we din do it... failed...

peeps
people n their annoying mouths... irresponsible ppl... i dun like ppl tat point fingers at the very moment things screw up... its against everything i learnt in life... if u screwed up..own up! feel wronged? Defend urself... pampered n over protected ppl...they're annoying me... ...badly....

i noe i'm also wrong... but y is it tat i have to be the one bending down to apologize? nt like the other part has no part of it? jus by acting like the childish one, by acting like the whole freaking world owes him...i need to put myself below the ground n say "hey, u still angry a?" even when i initiated the apology, ppl still act like their beyond our standards...they act like the superior... "nt my fault k? u all la... fucking accuse me"....

why is it tat when ppl talk bad behind our backs...it called back stabbing..but when ppl express their unsatisfaction behind ppl's back without the person knowing it..its called "NOT HURTING HIS FEELINGS"? all i did was said wat i thought... yea a lil over the line..but still? all i did was doing wat i thought was right... i dun like this at all... i dun like being a hypocrite at all...

headache
my head was ringing the whole day tday...i thought it was work n all the drama in class..apparently not.... i reached home...i lay in bed... when i gt up, theres sum blood on my pillow...i dunno y... den my dad came up..din tell him bout the blood though...he felt my forehead n told me tat i have a fever...shit! final assignment time n i'm sick??!! this is not happening to me!



everything i tot was right all the while turn out to be wrong... i use to think tat being myself is enuf..tat if ppl dun like me, so be it..i cant please everyone... apparently not... i dun like this..i dun like lying...i dun like lying to myself n i dun like lying to ppl... it jus doeant work tat way... i'm the type of person tat gives my heart out to the ppl i noe... i would go thru hell for a friend... but i came to find tat friendship now seem so vain n vague... u wouldn't know which is true...nor would i noe wats goin on behind my back..it sickens me so...this is nt the way i was brought up... i grew up in a place tat when theres misunderstanding n anger...we put it all out on the table... nthg underneath... sio wat if i dun like you? i'll tell u wat i dun like... if u dun like anything bout me... tell me to my face nt to my butt... i rather noe wats wrong wit me than to find out later from someone else... i grew up in a place where i tot trusting a friends is good... i grew up thinking tat friends help me grow up.. they help me learn more about myself...

wat the fuck have i been learning all this while if it isnt real at all?

:3niGma:

emo

locked up within my four walls...
staring at the outside world with envy...
felt left out tday...
so left out...
alone...
dissapointed...

and...

my moto E398 gave up on me...
she died tday...

life gets tough when when dun happen the way u wan it. when u have your own expectations and you EXPECT ppl to live up to dem. and the more it doesn't work THAT way, the more tougher our lifes gonna b. we tend to blame n pout at other ppl, but in the end, who's hurting now? ourselves. we'll mopped n get frustrated..fact is... THEY dun give a damn if we burst into flames!!

why?
why dun they care?
why is it always like tat?
why does this happen to us?

we're humans too yunno...
we fall down too..
dissappointment....
doesn't taste good at all...
infact it eats at our stomach....
we feel bad, we breakdown....
we cry... we get hurt....

tired...
tired of incompetant ppl...
tired of being strong...
jus tired..

sometimes, even ppl like us need to be manjafied...
sometimes, even ppl like us wanna be pampered...
sometimes, WE wanna be the weak wan...
WE too need someone to lean upon...

emofied tday...
loads of frustrating incidences...
there's TAT THING in the mornin...
den the group work was a total bummer... *sowee to aM3...drove her up the wall coz i was late*
really sowee babe..i noe ur frustrated..i came as fast as i could.... *hugs*

A sent me some songs tat day coz i was emo...(like tday)
but this songs jus keep ringing in my ear...
and i jus started to cry...
BUT, i actually felt better....
thanx A!
muacks!!

But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad
you're feeling lonely

And no one seems to care
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go thru

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more

Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

ARGH!!!

ish!!!
there's nthg nice or sweet bout thr freaking FRUITY LOOPS sound editing software!!! freaking complicated!! feel like freaking studio work!! anyone tat noes the daymn software!!! help needed BADLY!!! REALLLLL badly!!

ad principle was draggy as usual...dunno how ms A can do it..she yap NOTHING for 2 hours plus...ironically...it actually sounds like she yapping bout SOMETHING..turns out to be jus empty crap! haih... cekap-nye~~... cant blame her oso la..we din come prepared wit our stuff...ngeh ngeh ngeh...

had tepanyaki wit aM3 tday...BT went to see her couzzie from kelantan..akaka...oooo...i like jap food!!! wanted to eat pizza wan..but the promotion no more liao..potong steam betul!! ish...kakakka...

i bought the mic n headphones tday...woohoo!! anyone wanna buy me a webcam?? wahahahha...gatal tangan la... haih...tired day... looooong day....

reached home..had goreng cempedak AGAIN!!! oooo i like...i whacked like 10 or eleven of em!! YuMMmMM!!!! i like...but gonna no voice d..haih... quote TZ "when will you learn!!??" unquote...wahahaahah...

its friday!!! its week 9 already.... the GOOD part? we've survived 9 NINE weeks already in sem 2!! we din even noticed...aM3 n i were like "whoa...betul ke?" akakkaka.... the BAD part?
finals is nearing!! ad principles final ass datang BERLAMBAK!!! its like doin the old 5 ppl group ass... jus tat now its individual..all the work..ONE man power!! boohoo!!!

i'm tired, i'm stressed, fruity loops jus killed my brain n ear!

where are you?
i miss you...

:enigma:

*hugs!

so sweet of you!! L2 dedicated a whole post for yours truly!! so nice... kor kor, dun so sad la... u nt fann jin ok? jus do watever tat u feel is right... theres no harm in wanting to protect someone, to be there when she's hurt, to support her when she's down..eventhough she's not urs...cheers kor...mei mei always here!!

Buddy... i wrote a short story about it for our Random college mag... buddy love... although its fiction...and its only BASED on certain ppl... even so...is it even possible? should i? ahahah.... L2 say i need a bf to pamper me..akakak... its not as simple as that la... its jus.... complicated!!

i went to check out our galleries tday!! waah...my colour n form work is up there!! my flip flops are there too!! bangga-nye!!! syok-nye!!! passed up my A2 size self portrait tday...rubbed the painting till my finger oso ber getar getar d!!! scary... it actually looked not tat bad la..nt exactly accurate la..but at least it looks like sumone i'm related to la!! wahahaha...

i think i'll join the dance club... i noe..i'm nt exactly dancing material..plus i have so much work... so what if i have two left feet? i wanna de-stress la!! bengang-ed!!! akakakka....

had dinner wit BT tday...oooo...nice... steamboat!! yumMmMm...wahahaha....TZ say i'm getting rounder n rounder...like doreamon's sis!! watthecrap? y must b the pink wan? i kenot look like doraemon wan izzit? hhmmpphh!!

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*sigh*

i give up

hello!!

sorry ya...too caught up with work to entertaine my dear blog... ekekek..peeps complaining tat i neglected my bloggie!!!

haha... jus gonna b random updates lo..coz i cant remember properly EVERYTHING in order lo.... aakakka...

went to the field trip tday!!! wooo...started okay...i was late btw...aM3 was like "faster looo!!! goin up bus d!!!" fuuh...paniked!!! anyways...we went n see all the paintings in the gallery...i dun like surrealism...scary.... all freaky eeerie.....*chills*... Mr A was rite...it aint tat good compared to the "ang mo"'s work....but there r certain wans which are guud la...we (aM3, me, CN, SR,IZ) were all to hyped!! scary...cant keep our hands of them..!!! we were like "whoa!!! tengok!!! chunted wey!!" den there was..."eh? macan ni pun boleh ka? YOU SEE!! color nt even oso!!! stroke so rough!" wahahah... we finished early... so we gotta wait around 2 hours for the nex event...whoa...so the lama n boring!!! i cant practically see aM3 growing algae n moss n mushrooms on her head wey!!!! akakaka...we ended our trip by goin to the workshop....wooo..i sooooo wanted to go to the ceramic workshop...the one with the spinning wheel n the clay...akakka... keeps reminding me of the old movie "Ghost"... hmmpphh!!! but too many ppl...so we went to the Ukiran Kayu" thingy... akakkaa...cant stop laughing coz all of us tao foo fah gurls were like struggling to crave the wood....all bergetar bergetar all!! wahahaha...but in the end it wan done la..with loads of help for the ppl over at the stall!!! wahahah....

went to secret recipe TWICE yesterday...first wan with aM3, we wanted to pamper ourself with gud food after passing up advertising principles ass!!! mana tau...go there...apa pun takde!! wanted the cordon bleu chicken in the afternoon..takde....pepper steak...takbe,,,bangenged!!! so ate speggeti pulak!!!! at night it was D's bday!! wooo.... the 1st thing i did when i reached there was "cordon bleu ada takl?" the waitress nodded...oooo i like!!!! it was nice!!! melted cheese!!! yum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! akakak...had a blast last night...so relaxing...joined the guy gang as usual..hilarious lo!!! A is getting more n more buffed up!! oooo.... shhwweeet!!! i like !! so nice to whack!!! B...akakka....scratching post as usual....wahahhaha...pity him sometimes...but heck!! he's such a gooood bully subject!!! i din even wanna fetch him back when i could've coz it was on the way!! wahahah...i'm EVIL!!!! LR, 3K,KJ...all so funny..we were prctically laughing from 8.00pm till the shop closed its dorrs n shoooed us out!!WF,J...wahahah..all sooooo funny..i miss the good old days la!! where we can all jus chill n yap... we yap bout ANYTHING... from the traffic to our parents..even porn...akakka...

color n form class was okay..i came like 1 hour late thanks to wonderful KTM!! "minta maaf tuan tuan dan puan puan, tren ini mengalami kerosakan. kami sedang menunggu bantuan dari tren yang akan datang dari arah padang jawa" GGGrRGgrGrrRrRRRR...geram!!! tat night MU,BT,aM3 n me were at BT's place doin our radio ad...fun-nye...we were at BT's hse all night... laughing like hooligans n psyco whacks!! screaming n shouting all night...BT was the coolest!!! "PEPSI IT ROCKS!!!" wahahahha..... laugh till our tummies cracked!!!!

2 &3D...oooo....my flip flop!!! ooooo i love em!!!! so proud of em!!!typical of my style...my flip flops are BLACK!!! akakka...i like the bottom...sooo it almost killed me!!! when rabun with UHU glue all over my hands!!!! my dad was like "waaahh...so much glue?? build house oso can la stewpid!!! ur flip flop must carry a pregnant lady with triplet izzit???" wahahhahah.....

haih...
more work to come....
more stressed!!!
but all n all...
its stil okay...

*i survived yet another week!!*

:3niGma:

you brightened up my life...
nothing is ever blue with u here...

stressed out!!!

is being independant a crime???

being helpful n protective is taking toll on me mentally... i aint ur nanny...nor ur boyfriend...also not a source for free homework to impress gurls!! haih...i'm starting to hate my brain..

dun like long draggy emo days...

*quando by micheal b n nelly f has been ringing in my ears* *melts* should i? should i not?
i wanna but....

Tired....

Pengsans!!

missing ya loads...



jus random posts peeps!! looooong day.... *sigh*

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