The hardest thing...

The hardest thing I have ever done in my life is to become a mother. Yes. Having children is hard! I didn't know it would take years of losses and 6 pregnancies to have my first child. That was hard. She needed surgeries. That was hard. 6 more pregnancies to get my second child. That was hard. Making decisions you thought you never would have to make is hard. Being in charge of those precious spirits entrusted to you by God is hard.

It also is worth it.

Dorian has never been a good sleeper. He also has been a major breastfeeding addict. When he hit 18 months all Hell broke loose with those 2 things. Waking up at all hours of the night wanting to breastfeed back to sleep. I told myself, "babyhood doesn't last b long. Just give him what he wants." Then behaviors got worse. My sleep got worse. My depression got much worse. I needed to make a decision. So, we are sleep training. And we are weaning. I can't sleep train if he falls asleep nursing so I needed to break him of that habit. It isn't as bad as I thought it would be. But it is still hard to know that we both are going through a difficult time.

Long time no write

Life has been crazy here lately.  We bought a house and moved (about 3 miles down the road). Dorian is now 17 months old (tomorrow!).  We have started homeschooling Marsi with preschool.  She is super excited to start reading.  She can sound out a few words which has been so much fun to see her learn.  She turns 4 years old in 2 months!  She is a crazy spitfire who has an amazing love of life. I am not sure how often I will update here.  But, I update all the time on Instagram.  If you don't mind an average of 3 pictures a day of my life, you can request to follow me.  geogeek1