Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops,
High above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
i sat for chem paper 1 without any sleep for 46 hours straight. i kinda regret giving up on the paper halfway but then, i couldn't care. my brain just could not focus and nothing went through as i read the questions. even if it did go through, there was this mental block and i couldn't remember anything that i've studied. i felt so damn tired and breathless that i just gave up doing it. when i got home, i think i experienced a mini panic attack. i still could not fall asleep even though i was just so damn exhausted, my heart was racing like nobody's business till i got all sorts of dizzy spells. my hands started trembling whenever i picked up notes to study to put myself to sleep. and i just could not remember anything at all. i was all breathless and restless and could not stop crying for a solid 3.5 hours and i thought i was going mad. i was so close to giving up battling it with myself and i was going to open the door of my room to call for any help that i could get, when i slowly just cooled down. the whole thing was just so damn scary i swear i never ever ever want to experience it again. right now, i have had barely 5 hours of sleep in 3 days and my brothers think i look like shit. and i totally agree with them. how am i gonna get through with A levels? how am i even gonna get through the week? i think i'm suffering from some sort of burnout, but i don't wanna die just yet... :(
Thursday, June 10, 2010.
> 8:55 PM.
OMG MY CAMERA IS MIRACULOUSLY WORKING AGAIN!!!!! OMG I'M SO HAPPY! :D:D:D
