im unhappy. yes, there i said it. maybe, i dont show it thaaaaat much. but yup, im really upset that i dont think there's a slightest happiness in me left. upset with so many things in this world right now that i dont really know what they are anymore. and it just gets worse each day. there'll always be smth to add on to my unhappiness. it's a bottomless pit.

anyway, my bro was real sweet just now cos i think he realised that i've been pretty down for the past few days. maybe cos i didnt want to say much to him. and he surprised me with a kinderjoy! how sweet right? haha it did cheer me up for awhile :) but soon after, it was me, alone with my thoughts again. well, happiness--it's only temporary.

sigh, i need more happy food.



boy was i wrong.

save me, im lost.