i have nothing to say... something which i read juz set me thinking... again.. why am i always thinking abt stuff?? i shd learn to be more CARE FREE la.. aiyoh... i dunno... exams are very very soon... nothing shd be in my way....

nvm... forget it...

hey hey.. ok im taking my time off to update coz its been quite a while since i posted a proper post... so here is the updates for the week.. well the weekend is coming... and hence it would been a week since i started fasting... =)

hahakz.. mondae had eng nite session..dere wasnt any school on tues, so i went to mug at bedok library alone from 12 till 6pm.. i was freezing to death coz i was hungry and the place was like damn cold.. bud i enjoy the peace although there may be random noises made by school kids and inconsiderate library users =x

well wed, went back to sch.. had lessons, suppose to have emaths remedial after tt, bud because i finish the paper before hand, i need not attend... so i went home with pras and eirene, who were going to go MJC for some stuff... and we tok abt where i shd go, and tt i shd made up my mind quickly..

toking abt tt... it really set me thinking of where i would be heading to after my Os... Well the prelims proved enough tt i am not able to produce good results and that if i cant even do the prelims well, what makes you think that i might survive in a JC with a lot of social life to cope with and also... the 10 times heavier of work load... correct.. well lets shift to the poly.. well i get to do wad i wanted to do, that is tourism management and i might as well concentrate on it..

however, not wanting to disappoint my mum and my bro who pin high hopes on me to get into the JC, i juz could not make up my mind... i know at the end of the day it comes to what i want to do... not what they want me to be... bud at the same time... i could not bear to disappoint them.. especially my bro who really wishes to see me getting a degree in 5 yrs time and get into the workforce with no regrets in life... and on top of that, he is willing to sacrifice his savings to pay for my education cost until i get into the Uni, only if i get into the JC la.. if i go poly, i had to pay for my own cost in Uni..

'people who are successful are those who know their goals in life'

what is my goal?
where do i want to go?
what do i wanna be?

ok back to my updates... well so after tt i went home, fell into a deep slumber and woke up to break fast.. then it was studying straight with an hr break of tv... till 1.30am...

woke up at 6 and get to sch... well study straight again, from lessons, till after sch... need to complete bio paper so tt i do not need to go for nite class, and then there was chemisty session with mrs low.. which took around an hr..

head home... and now im basically taking a break from the long long study hrs...
i still have

-compo to hand in by tmr
-cedar girls compre by tmr

ok... ya...
hectic isnt it...

oh by the way.. choir juniors are really really sweet..
i felt so touch to receive a little card of encouragement from them to jia you for o levels =) how sweet rite.. i cant stop smiling when i read it.. =) hahakz.. you guys work hard for the coming exams also =) love ya guyz a lot.. cant wait for o levels to end and can enjoy with ya ppl again =))))

hahakz.. so dere will be nite class again tmr.. and perhaps mugging in the weekends...
till den. see ya..

by the way
HADY RAWKS!!! hahakz

ok ppl.. compare this..



and this



does andre look smaller in the second pic???

Chasing cars - snow patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

lots of things are running in my mind now.. especially when there is a switch from one song to anuder song randomly in my windows media player... the songs juz bring me back to the times when i used to listen to them over and over again. And it also brought back the feelings tt i felt at tt point of time when i listen to them.. hahakz..

playing now is COME WHAT MAY.. one my fav song... ahhh.. so nice.. reminds me of my sec 2.. i always listen to it in sec 2 eversince i saw moulin rouge on tv back den.. hahakz..

well juz lotsa things running through my mind randomly... i had intensive studying todae... so when i got back home i juz on the tv, on the com, and juz peng.. hahakz.. weird.. well accomplised lots of things.. bud still lots more to come...

hmmm... wad else am i thinking of?? well i miss my social life badly... i miss the old times... when life was more than juz ROUTINES...wish to turn back time.. so i can make things better.. i can enjoy again... hahakz... well bud its the last few laps anywayz... life will soon turn around soon...

a 360 degrees turn perhaps?? well primary to secondary was really a one whole round of turn.. and now i think it shd be 2 times of tt... hahakz 720 degress turn.. wow...

okok sorry lame me

ahh.. ALL OR NOTHING.. hahakz.. u either get it all or nothing at all... correct.. tts how i used to feel... well its how i used to feel when im on the verge of losing somethings... although getting something would mean that THERE IT IS SOMETHING... bud sometimes... its better to get nothing at all... okok... lame lame lame.. =_=

'and then there's times u look at me... as though that im all that u can see'

true true... its really true.. trust me =)

hmmm wad else... well fasting tmr!! hahahkz no food in the day for one whole month... objectives of fasting: SLIM DOWN!!! hahhaakz... i really need to...

'there's nowhere to fall, its NOW OR NEVER'

still on the same song...
ok yea tmr is the first day of fasting.. tt means hari raya is coming!! yayness... hahahkz

the velocity of love... the best song ever.. =) when ur sad, or when u feel that there is no more hope... or there is still hope... listen to this song.. it juz make u float in yr own magical thoughts, perhaps yr fantasy... or perhaps, it will juz make u tear more when ure really really sadddd.... i used to do tt...

toking abt crying.. well i guess many noe me as the heartless one... yea tts really true.. like u will nv see me cry.. even if hundreds and thousands of ppl cry around me.. i'll juz remain... like dat... hahhakz... bud yea... secret to share.. i cry a lot at home... in my room, even my mom doesnt noe tt im crying.. hahakz.. -_- depends on the situation la... bud i guess wad really makes me cry, is losing my friends, losing dem is like losing my world... losing tt special someone... its like losing hopes and dreams tt u built....

hmmm.. y am i so EMO-ing.. ok something's got into me... well i dunno... ytd i forget to eat, i forget to watch my tv... hahah weird occurences...

i hope im not becoming old... im too young still hahahakz...

ok seriously ppl.. u can stop reading coz its gonna be total crap... its already like crappy at the start of the post... SO JUZ IGNORE THIS POST... hahhaakz

well u can choose to read though... on second tots.. ITS UP TO YOU...

'YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART'

ahhh!!! hahakz... 'juz take my hand, hold it tight' hmmm let me see.. well i listen to this in sec 2 too... why do is it always sec 2 arh? maybe dat's when all the emotions come... and go... ahhhhhh

ahahakz... reminds me of my stupidity back den... hahakz.. yupz.. if u think abt it.. u'll juz laugh!! sometimes i couldnt believe i did certain things which i did back den... only GOD knows...

hmmm... ok dreams.. lets shift to dream... never had a dream come true... well true enough... i had one dream dat didnt come true...bud im glad im not so sore abt it...


OK OK ENOUGH IM CRAPPING.. IM GOING TO PENG

nites!!

ok yay lets update..
new song, new pic on my bloggie =) yay!!

hahakz ok sorry lame me.. well todae was another fridae... nth special, had lessons as usual... hmm its exactly 3 weeks before the study leave and also mean, the end of my secondary school life in dunman... *sobz* ahhakz.. ok... yea.. how time flies...

i guess it was really hard when u dun get wad u wan.. bud lucky for all of us, we still have chances to make things better =) [im juz crapping abt prelims again]

well todae there was this guy, a coach, who came to our sch to give us a motivational talk... and he highlighted tt not all those hu study all day all nite are gonna be very successful in life... well i guess its true... bud why not u try to have both the brain and the personality together? hahakz.. is tt too much to achieve?

and yes, another occurence is tt, someone decided to talk to me out of the blue... i guess things are juz pretty normal between tt person and me, well i regard him as no more than a fren =) 'arent u glad'??

well exams are real real soon... no time to cry. no time to brood... STUDY!! well so i better get off the com..

is a 27 to 21 an improvement made?? well i guess so... lets aim higher... =)

alrite this are some updates... hmmm.. this week has been quite traumatising.. hahakz.. wad a word... well anyway ya.. coz of bad results of course... well for me... each time we go thru papers, i'll be like stoning... thinking and reflecting of the kind of efforts tt i have put it.. well of course.. i dunno wad has gone wrong.. maybe i juz need to put in much much more effort...

at this point of time i manage to pass all except a maths.. well the paper is juz bad... i did fairly well for paper 2, bud totally screwed up for paper 1... same goes for my emaths, something which i really have high hopes on getting a distinction, bud it turned out to be a C5... coz of paper 2... humans has been ok... i think i improved, juz need to put in more effort... bio, i so regret i didnt study enough for it and apparently, im like last in class for tt subject...

well i juz hope i get a 4 for english, and hope my emaths is round up to 60% so i can get a 4 too...

im so working for my first 3 months. =X

hahakz.. hmm... ok i sound so emo, bud actually ya, dere's nth u can do except to work harder...

i guess the most difficult competition is when u have to battle with yr own weaknesses...

anywayz,changed the song on my blog =) this song is damn nice =) a muz to enjoy it.. hahakz

ok the prelims are over.. yayness!! hahahkz.. so now im like sorta taking a break.. went window shopping with ain on thurs at orchard... hahahkz... bought a tshirt.. yay! lol.. den walk walk... and we were juz being high and idiotic... ok den on fridae... had no sch coz no exams.. so met up with jia yu to settle the accappella concert tickets... which was bloody irritating.. coz i bought it two weeks ago and until now i have not received it yet! so the woman told me tt it has been mailed and if i still dun get it den i will get it at the venue itself...

DUMb

OK den went to eat at food court... den we were toking and toking... den walk-walk to find my mum's present... den we met the band ppl, karilynn, adeline and jasmin... dey searching for presents for their conductor.. coz she is leaving.. hmm..

den me and jia yu had a hard time deciding whether a not to go choir.. since i am in slippers and she is not wearing shorts [ok i shall not elaborate on tt.. its pretty obscence] hahakz.. yea.. and we decided tt...

we will take a cab to sch since its raining and also to save me from the security guard =) yea.. hahhakz.. so we went to choir... pretty normal.. went early at around 3 plus.. coz i was getting sianned... sorry jia yu... she wanted to stay one.. hahakz.. bud stay and watch oso got no point de la.. its like everytime we come back like as if we got nth better to do like dat... hahakz.. well bud to her she juz loves to go back to choir...

so den went home in the rain... and jia yu was very very high... hahakz.. she was simply mad...

went home.. i had to put up with my mother's crappiness... as in really crappy... not the scolding crap.. its the lame crap... ahahakz.. i cant even watch tv in peace!!

ok looking forward to tonight and tmr coz tmr is my mum's birthdae!!! yay!

and of course... not looking forward to sch... hahahkz..

chiaoz

hey.. okay...prelims are officially over tmr... well the past three days has been quite terrible... especially emaths paper 2 and a maths paper 1... combined sc.. quite ok.... so counting down to combined science paper 1 and amaths paper 2 tmr...counting down to THE END of the day tmr... hahakz...

well ive not been studying well for this week... maybe because of the weather.. ya.. that's why i kinda screwed up the maths subjects plus dey are freaking diffiuclt... i think my first three months in jc gone already =(

hmm.. nvm abt tt.. o level will be much much easier... at least... so juz work hard towards tt =)

so ppl enjoy life while u can =)

[[ive been wanting to blog so much bud now i cant find anything to write abt]]

ooh mummy's birthdae cuming and i have not gotten her anything... how arh?
fasting in a week's time... hari raya is in a month's time ... woohhoo =)
and left less than two months to o levels...

ok im really bored... suppose to study for chem tmr... bud i cant juz get enuf of the com and the tv... coz todae im at home... when most of my daes were spent outside mugging... hahakz.. so this is wad i did...



my celebrity look alike faces!!! hahakz..

i tried a few times and brenda song is nv out of the list... lol..

try it myheritage.com

=)

jia you ppl for exams!!!

something interesting tt a fren send me...

[why women cry]

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?
"Because I'm a woman,"
she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom
just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God,why do women cry so easily?"
God said:
"When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the
rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness
and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under anyand all circumstances,even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths
and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway
to her heart - the place where love resides."

been studying... well kkx.. sorry ppl my blog is like abt studying... well sth interesting todae.. i get off my bed juz to go to sch.. for choir!! wooohoo.. hahakz.. miss choir.. at last.. mr toh was dere and many of the ppl were dere like yk, andre, sc, jia yu, tsui san!! i was actually very very glad dat almost all of us are dere.. coz i really miss their crap and stuff.. hahahkz.. so we sat at the back and was juz enjoying the music and the scoldings and the jokes...

really miss choir...

well after tt went for lunch and went to mug at medium mac with andre, jia yu and tsui san till 6.. went home..

well todae.. besides feeling happy, crappy and stuff... tired... i feel a certain kind of disappointment, anger and overall DOWN... [u noe like the song on my blog]

hahakz.. i am feeling down.. somehow.. i juz could not figure out why... well maybe i could figure out the reason.. bud somehow im trying my very best to put up the bravest front ever... im trying to appear happy.. well i am la.. especially with my frens around me.. i can juz be happy and have no worries...

bud still the feeling keeps haunting me.. i dunno.. maybe i shouldnt have gone to choir todae...

hmm.. i still think of certain things which are so unforgettable.. u noe when everything is gone, u juz remember all those small little little things and realise how much it actually means to u... especially when EVERYTHING IS GONE.... dats when all of it matter....

and when u think again... u will juz sigh... coz u didnt take care of the most precious thing tt u cud ever had... that u could ever imagine of... the dreams tt was gonna become reality... bud now.. all u have are memories =(

and den u asked yrself.. why did it even happen in the first place? waddehell was going on tt moment when it happen? wad was out of your control...? and den u will search helplessly for the answer... and make yrself so depressed and so angry and juz

disappointed

in the end.. u had no choice bud juz had to wait till the answer come... bud u juz dunno when that will be... and if it will ever happen... or it might juz be too late then.. or u juz wan to noe it so badly now... u juz wanna noe it...

BUD U CANT....

do u realise how sucky tt feeling is...
how irritating it is..??

bud again...
u juz got to look on the bright side of life
and hence

its best to juz

MOVE ON...

well been mugging...
mondae went to mug at esplanade... stayed dere for 4 hrs?? yea.. den went to continue to mug at bedok BK.. and left after after 2 hrs...
went home
more mugging

tuesdae
take a day off.. went to watch lovewrecked with ain.. the movie was so sweet and so cute.. hahakz.. took neoprints... window shopping.. borrowed books to read.. hahakz..

todae
went to mug again with andre... went to esplanade... sat at the cafe for like 6 hrs or so... till we kena chased coz dey having performance... so went back to tm BK had dinner and mug till 9.30



TIRED...

tmr.. got physics.. have not decide where to mug... hahakz... maybe tmr will be mugging at HOME
going choir weex =) miss choir!!

hhakzkz... ok den.. im off to mug.. chiaoz

ok... im such a pig... i slept at 1.30 am ytd.. aiming to wake up at 10.30 am and ended waking up at 1.58pm!!! how pig can i get..?

well did study ytd.. i woke up early hoping to get a place in the lib... bud i guess singaporeans are juz purely kiasu den i am... so dere wasnt any place available... at all.... so nvm.. i decided to settle in the nearest fastfood.. which was the burger king.. well dere wasnt many ppl at all.. so i bought something and took out my work.. did a bit..and i started sneezing away like nobody's business... guess it was too cold... haahkz.. i finished two packs of tissue.. before andre came at three plus...

lol... so he came.. we changed place.. [i have changed place like in a total of 4 times... by myself!!] hahakz.. and we did our work.. before we decided to eat and leave to century sq... hahahkz...

and so we took train and there were so many ppl... ok myabe coz its saturday ... haiz... so den went to CS and we joined the queue at the information service counter... dere were lotsa ppl... dunno why.. and when my turn came.. the lady ask me to go to the other side... to purchase ticks...

so i waited for quite some time... till she attend to ask.. and she's quite blur... well i guess its ok for her age.. hahaakz... and finally and we were abt to pay... she say its 110 bucks not 100.. due to booking fees... rite... both of us did not bring any extra cash.. so we walked all the way to swensens dere to draw money....

dumb...

we came back... and it was abt to be settle when the printing machine spoiled... so the lady was frantically calling and trying to get solutions to the prob... hahahkz.. and in the end...

they will mail the ticks...

-_-

so den we decide to go for a walk... looking at all the stuff around... and make a move around seven plus... and i reached home at 8.30pm

hmmm... not bad la.. at least i did study..

well todae.. im gonna throw anuder day.. coz later i have to accompany mum visit a relative at NUH... haiz..

guess tmr will be studying day =)

ahaha... for the last two days.. ever since i came back ytd... till now... i have not touched on any papers or books yet... ive juz slacked through the days... with the cold weather.. and the million of home movies to watch from star world and HBO.. its like holidayz... its like O levels have ended...

reality check

IM IN THE WRONG TIME

hahakz.. gal.. there are still exams.. prelims are not over... o levels are approaching soon... very very soon... hahahkz.. and im still slacking... WOW

so since the home has too much distraction...im gonna get out of the house early tmr... hahahkz... going to go to library or juz any fastfood restaurant... where i can juz concentrate on my work.. although the ppl around may be kinda distracting.. and if im in the library, my hungry stomach will force me to go home... aahahahkz.. so yea... I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!

lol.. so from tmr.. no more slacking... hahakz.. [hopefully i can do tt]

ok so chiaoz ppl