yoz...had school todae... and the weather is very cold.. everyone is basically freezing during lessons.. hahakz.. anywayz... pretty normal dae except i feel really sleepy.. and still do now.. well bio test was postponed coz many of us went out of the class when mr lim told those hu didnt study to study outside.. only 2 or 3 ppl went to take the test instead and e rest of us will have it on thurs... seriously the notice was too short... and if we did take the test...we will all do badly and defeats the purpose of the whole test.. make sense??

well after sch i went home with sc.. we walked to 201 and den i took 17 from dere... reached home pretty early... yea.. have to rush homework and study later....

so ytd we went to celebrate jia yu's 16th birthdae!!! hahahkz... dat aunty is 16 already.. lol.. well in the morn, me and andre went to esplanade to study.. we reached dere at ten.. and the library wasnt opened... so we walked to marina sq and decided to have breakfast at mac... actually we wanted to juz settle dere.. bud it was noisy... so we went back to esplanade library..

well we managed to complete a few stuff... within like 2hrs or so? yah.. after which we went to meet inez and sc... first thing we saw when we reached marina sq was sc rolling against the wall.. like some idiot..hahakz.. den after meeting dem.... we realised how dumb inez was.. hahakz.. sc really had a hard time MEETING HER.. Lol... cant blame her la huh... *oopz*

well so we try to make up our minds of wad to eat and wad to do... before jia yu come... ok wait... on the other hand... jia yu was bluffed totally... i told her i went to study with ain.. and made her came to marina sq on her own.. it was pretty sad for her la.. bud no choice.... ahahhakz.. and den she was quite disappointed when she saw me alone... as she tot that i will have company... hahahkz...

so den after deciding to buy the cake and stuff... i went to meet jia yu alone... we decided on the place to eat... and went to jack's place... and jia yu was toking abt... banana when suddenly...

a big fat ugly hand covered her eyes...

it was sc... with inez and andre... hahahkz... surprised..

ok after lunch... we basically lame around and went to take neoprints... den walked around bugis and den went home..

ahahakz...i really hope she enjoyed it.. and that her wish is fulfilled... =) yea

ok so check out pics at my multiply

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night
Every change, life has thrown me
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart
I'm grateful, for every scar
Some pages turned
Some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned

wah its been quite a day todae.. i went for chem peer tutoring and completed my 2005 and 2004 paper... and den 11 went to eat... den after dat... me ain fad nadiah and matiin went to do our malay project thingy... it was quite fun la.. bud im tired now.. and i dun feel like doing hmwk...

hmmm feeling quite sian now.. oh well actually ive been feeling sian like from the start of this week.. haiz... better complete my homework.. oh ya peepz.. dere's bio test on mond chp 7 to 15...

i juz wanna kill myself..

chiaoz...

woohhoo!!! changed blogskin le.. ok im feeling quite OK todae.. so yea... i wanna blog

todae nth much happen in sch bahx... we had physics... den chem prac... man... i really dunno wad e hell we testing for la... cant drive to conclusions =( well den recess... den eng... and den assembly.. oh yea.. we had the wuhan ppl peformed for us... dey are students from china, wu han... on an exchange program with our sch.. their performances were fairly ok.. and cute too... bud seriously... i dunno wad dey were trying to say up dere.. coz their english articulation is juz simply too weird...

lol.. assembly ended and we had chem test... well i think im gonna do badly this week coz i totally had no confidence for the test... although i was driven to do better... bud i wasnt confident in my answers.. nvm.. it's juz a test... well i hope i keep on improving though

mt o level results will be tentatively next week... and next tues, have eng prelims oral... and u noe wad... july is ending... how time flies...before u noe it, its juz another month over...

1 more month to prelims...
3 more months to o levels...

no nite class todae... its made optional.. i think better start going for this optional classes coz i really need the help.. bud being a lazy bum of course... im now rite here... sitting down after a meal of mac donalds, typing away... i changed my multiply skin and of course my blogskin... hahaha.. and u noe wad... i have not touched my HOMEWORK yet...

so i betta start soon... tmr still got sch... haiz.. sianz...
oohh here's some pic of racial harmony last fri...

alright... i need to blog... hahakz... ok lets do summary of this week...
well... this week was a terrible week... especially the start of the week... its super terrible... i have constant mood swings... bud my period has not come yet... and it has been a pretty long time... since the last one... hmmm ... abnormal me.. ok and i have been going crazy in class and laming around... coz im juz pretty frustrated with wads going in my head...

ive been complaining a lot.. to two ppl... well u guyz shd noe wad its abt... coz i was seriously not stable la... im like MAD!!! totally insane... and when im alone... i will feel really really sad...

hmmm its really a terrible mood fluctuation... well so i cant really concentrate in class... didnt put in much attention in class... was in my own world basically...

well bud as the dayz past... i began to stabilize... and i hope i am pretty normal now....

am i? am i not??

well... yea.. ive been frustrated over someone... coz tt someone is juz simply INSENSITIVE TO A LARGE EXTENT....

bud nvm...

so yea.. im still frustrated actually.... i juz dunno why.. maybe wad u said... its juz too much for me to take...

and some more... facing with the feelings of guilt... with the most respected person... is juz simply.... URGH!!!!

and ya... jia yu is rite... I AM STRESS!!! SERIOUSLY....

no wonder ive been eating quite a lot lately...

ok seriously... u... yes u... need to clear up with me...

U EITHER DO STH ABT IT... OR FORGET IT!!!

Bad day -Daniel Powter

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out
Wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that
Strong
Well I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel, one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day



[[i seriously had a bad day... thanks to u]]

hey hey... some updates for this week..

mondae: didnt do much... they was LC after sch... mine started at 4.30pm...oh and everyone else get to get out of the school at 1pm la... so gd... ok nvm... anyway... i find the LC difficult and confusing... before tt they made us listen to live RIA radio station.. which was super crappy.... hahakz

tuesdae... stayed in sch to accompany aunty in detention.. she came late to sch.. hahakz... and den went home around 5 plus... got ready to meet andre after tt coz we were going to attend elroy's grandma the funeral.. it was quite sad... well we went dere...sat dere and we watched all their rituals and stuff like dat.. and all the sad things came to our mind and we talked abt how we felt and stuff like dat..

well life is juz short.. so make sure u live life to the fullest... and appreciate yr loved ones.. coz u will nv noe when it will be yr time to leave den... and u will nv noe when yr loved ones are gonna leave u...

reached home at 11.30 pm... and peng

wednesdae: was a pretty normal day... had emaths remedial... well finished the paper and i went off i think... ok i cant remember wad i did dat dae exactly...

hahahaha

thurdae: had physics after sch... most of the ppl stayed until 4.. coz we had to finish the paper before we can go... so yea... finished it... and went off.. gonna meet andre again that nite... going to esplanade to support elroy in this national acapella championship thingy... so yea... we went dere and all the competitors were equally gd and fantastic... except for the sec sch category i guess.. well maybe coz they were new of course... the thing lasted until like 9.30, after which we headed to tm mac to had dinner and den took cab home

again.. tired.. bud had fun!

fridae: well it was a day to enjoy.. morning we had racial harmony...everyone wore their ethnic costume for my class... and we all look nice and wow... hahaakz.. yea.. class spirit... den had assembly... after sch got chem test... den went home... and at 5 plus went out again to watch the teachers concert... i so regretted taking a cab there cox i kena 2 dollar extra fare!!!!!!! ahhh!!! ok anyways the concert was superb... our teachers really put in lotsa of efforts and its worth the ten bucks... u can see all the other side of the teachers...

went dinner after tt at mac... had sum crappy moments... den went home and reached at 11.50

todae: supposedly to be in sch bud sarah couldnt make it and im juz too lazy to get my butt of the bed... so i didnt go for bio lesson.. and i slept like a pig until 12.45 pm.. ahhahkz... woke up, eat and now blogging.. have to get my head into books and homework later...hahakz...

well in all i think i didnt do much revision this week... bud i certainly able to keep myself occupy so tt i dun feel like having the 'mood swings' thingy... i learn how not to care abt certain things yea...

so toodles

wk 4 is approaching....
and 3 weeks have passed...

i feel really down and low this week... apparently due to the work... and something else i guess which really affected my mood to study and focus... damn it...

well i got thru the week though....

remedials,tests, homework....
and of course my non stop complains of the amount of work i had to do... cmon hidayah... ur not the only one who is doing this... there are millions of other ppl facing the same shit as u... so stop thinking tt ur the only bloody person having to face all this shit....

ok... sorry im juz scolding myself...

i think i complained too much


and also think too much...
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bro came over... mum told him i went choir ytd...
and he sorta lecture me...
told me not to go choir.. and spend my time wisely...

ok.... fine..

i only went like ytd...coz there wasnt nite class

and i juz freaking wanna take my mind off the hectic life....

so decided to slack in choir....

is tt wrong??

haizzzz

i dunno i juz feel so unfairly treated...
by lots of things....

my god... im really tired...ive been studying from the time i came back and only had a half an hr break... it was really a gd start... bud dun think i can last... hahakz..

so decided to take a break now... nth much happen in sch todae... nth interesting i guess... hahakz..

a maths test tmr..
geog test on wed..
bio test in week 5
every mondae... english mock exam
every fridae....chem test

okay...

ya...

nth to say...

slacked todae.... hmm shd i say so??
slept at 3 ytd... coz was on the phone conference... funny isnt it.. choir juniors have been so addicted to conferencing... together with choir president... well.. they juz have so much to gossip... i was in the conversation too.. accept that i didnt say anything at all when i called... so they were pretty shock to hear me when i suddenly say... REALLY ARH?? hahahkz..

well.. den as usual, conferencing is equal to... listening to surrounding sound on the other side of the line... well when i came in there were oni 3 ppl left... apparently everyone is asleep.. so dere were davin, riffin and jerome on the line... waiting for soccer match to start...

hahahkz... there was nth much to tok abt la.. maybe coz i really dunno a lot of things... i realised they really have lots of new gossips.... new love triangles and so on.. hahakz... new issues, new things to tok abt... yea.. hahakz.. juz so much to tok abt... when i had nth to say.. lol.. i really do miss out a lot....

hmm so den when the match started, i put down.. coz i really wanna sleep... slept till 11.. so its around 9 hr sleep

woke up.. did amaths.. wow.. hahakz.. well practiced my integration.... lunch, back to amaths den got stucked online... was searching for songs.... and found the COME GO WITH ME song.. which was so cool!!! hahakz... nice acapella songs.. yea.. so put it up in my blog...

so i was on the com for like 2 hrs... den went back to amaths.. and den started on compo... got two sets to be done by next fri.. well knowing that much more homework will come.. its better to clear those... well i didnt manage to complete them both... bud at least i started..

i realised how much i have not studied... i practically neglected bio ever since the hols and social studies too.. and plus my physics.. i have not been practicing and has forgotten much of the concepts learned... and its like now fong wants us to do the pure paper...and i will juz stare at the questions... hahahhakz.. i really dunno how to do... ahh!!! im so dead

haiz..i juz wonder when things will be over and that everything will juz fall back into place... its like now u got to chiong like mad for the next two months... and i juz have not gotten into the chiong mood... when everyone else has... im so worried... hmmm... maybe i juz dun have the sense of urgency...

ok im in need of sum long tern motivation that could last till o level... well... im missing of tt...

there is juz so much to do... so much to study... so much to think about...

alrights... after a series of blog hopping... i didnt managed to find anything interesting to read.. so decided to update my own blog...

hmmm.. the blogging issue has became an issue in our sch... thanks to ppl hu blogged abt their much hatred for the ppl around dem... especially teachers... and the type of language they used in their blog... i have no comments la.. coz i blog to.. bud not to such an extent...

sum unpleasant news that has been disturbing my mind... i was totally disappointed when i heard abt it.. shall not say wad it is.. [dun wan to offend or coz trouble]
bud i totally had nth to say each time i heard abt how he is... wad he has been doing and stuff like dat.. and the sad part is.. many had tried to help.. bud he is not helping himself...

so shd he learnt the hard way and jolt back to reality himself??

thats e question... as a fren.. i juz dun wan to see him fail... coz we all know he can do it.. he is not stupid... juz lazy... and now??? causing problems for himself??
i juz cant stand seeing my fren.. not caring for HIMSELF!!! when others are like cracking their heads to make him realised how important to have goals and be on the right path??

wad has gone wrong??

i really wish to know... bud i dun think he will tell to anyone wad his problem is... knowing he is the kind of person who likes to bottle up... only to the closest ppl i guess...

sigh....

he shd realised tt ppl are actually worrying for him... for his future.... he really shd....

i juz hope that he will turn over a new leaf... seriously...

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alright back to me... well this week has been rather hectic... well i think every week is gonna be so... a maths tests have been discouraging.. i dunno why... well bud lucky i passed todae... so i was actually quite happy... till i received my macromolecules test..which i juz passed by a mark.. and my fellow sub science ppl scored like twenty and above... ok nvm... buck up the next test....

chem test tmr on organic chem, acid bases and salts and identification of ions... well quite prepared... i juz hope i dun forget my stuff tmr...

had oral practice juz now with mrs toh and jia yi.. i was quite surprised that my score for conversation wasnt too bad at all... well bud still band 2.. my reading sucks... well my second attempt was much better... bud my picture is the worst la... well... overall i scored an A2... hopefully i will be able to maintain it...

hmmm wad else... prelims is in late august... how time flies... its a few more months till i officially leave dunman... hmmm.. around... 3 more months?? that's pretty fast... and moving on to the next phase in life.... well there are also certain things that i have to accomplish... which i hope that will happen.... hmmm. still thinking though....

okayz.. i guess i better get back to work... seriously sometimes i juz feel like killing myself... having to face the work load and the amount of stuff to STUDY!!!! hahahkz... how arh?? o level is supposed to be something 'easy' ?? isnt it.. coz when u go to a higher level... it will be much worst than this.. well...i dunno... ok muz get through this first.. =)

till then....
chiaoz

yoz.... sum updates.. hahakz.. hmmm.. sch started this week... and it means there are more tests tests tests tests.. hmmm ok.. hahakz..

well lunchtime was good... i had fun and im sure everyone else did.. it wud have been better if mr toh is dere.. bud he's not dere... the grps did a pretty gd job... and e sec 4s did a better job.. and through this kind of thing i can see how we sec 4s are willing to sacrifice our time juz to bring our passion together again once more... really love u guyz and i hope this is juz the beginning.. =)

well after lunchtime headed for chem test... hmm i think sum questions i totally got it wrong.. after checking the TYS for answers... haiz.. bud nvm.. its juz a test.. and den head for choir.. well they had sectionals.. so me andre jia yu and yanni juz slacked in the avt.. and den we crapped with ms yeo till six plus.. and dere is juz so many things to share among us all.. and of course, brought back all the hard times dat we had faced together

after which, me and jia yu head to tm for dinner... had kfc and continued our conversation till 8.30... den went home.. reached home at 9.30... wow.. quite late bahx..

next day was cross country.. most of the sec4s decided to walk as no one has the mood to run... sec 1s and 2s are still very enthu abt it.. lolx... so me and yanni plus a bunch of choir ppl walked the whole way.. and we realised tt we were the last... and like the very last.. so nearing the finishing line.. we decided to juz cut across to where everyone was gathering.. hahaz.. we were too paiseh to end up at the finishing line...

and dere was prize presentation... after tt.. we walked out of pasir ris park.. and went for lunch together with jia yu, iffah and nicholas... hahahz.. we were like guessing hu nicholas like.. and until now i still cannot think of anyone.. hmmm... any help??

lol.. so i went home and took a 3 hr nap... and den watched tv, did a bit of work and of to sleep again... todae i better finish my homework.. so dat at least tmr i can enjoy abit..hahakz

so see ya soon