9.50pm
Argh!!! shit...i juz cant get my mind into bio....i can memorise lots of other craps like ss, geog and chem, hahakz...dey are called craps..so sad...bud i juz cant do it for BIO!!! AMI GOIN TO DIE OR STH?? argh!! ok i will revise again tmr....maybe i need e sch environment...hmm...physics wasnt too bad to study...but...i think tmr will be a tough paper..but hey i studied and did my work...so it shouldnt be much of a problem...ITS BIO!! ok now im worried la...juz worried...mr lim is asking me if im okay for e past test coz it was an easy test and i Juz Pass!!! HAHAHKZ...yeah...i dunno why bud i always dun give a damn for bio...i shouldnt have take bio in e first place...but wad else can i take??? hmmm...dunno de la...haiz...hope tmr wun be so tough.....god save me!!

9.54pm

3.51pm
hello...long time no post..is it?? wahahakz...my bloggie has been so lonely lately...no more ppl tagging le.. sianx.. nvm..anyway...this week is common test..had eng and e maths ytd...heard from mrs lin dat we did badly for e maths.... todae had chem and humans....wah so tiring... tmr bio and physics...guess wad, i havent start studying...have to start soon la...after i finish this post...

todae went home straight.... reach home at 3, e earliest ever....hahakz...haiz..nth much to tok abt...this week juz got to worry abt my studies la.. dun tok abt other stuff...

jia you!!!
3.54pm

[[Inside Your Heaven - Carrie Underwood]]

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

9.26pm
hey hey..todae had a normal dae... feeling normal...bud cranky..i think?? dunno why la. mood swings?? maybe... hahahkz.. well came home...studied... think e time is too short from now.. i very scared i cant do well in common test.. so far...i have been constantly maintaining and improving my class tests.. bud common test will be harder.. scared bahx.. haiz... teachers havent complete their teachings yet...especially for bio and chem...argh!!! scared bahx..

anyway...felt wrong todae...especially after sch...juz felt weird.. hmm...dunno why.. so decide to go home...anyway mum will be much happier if im back to study... well i need to study oso... and den... felt weird, sad and confused...its like back like e old times...when i first started my blog... hahakz... really...i juz find this month very very bad...i dunno why...its juz so bad dat i juz dun like it... i juz hate things to be like tt... things are so drifting away... dere is juz too many weird things happening...well maybe its juz happening in me...bud its juz weird, and weird...and hopeless

oh for heaven's sake!!!

9.31pm

12.52am
hey todae went drama nitez.. before tt went to abang's house..for kenduri...it was actually quite fun... den went home at 4 plus...got ready and went off to meet jerome... den we went to eat first...at mac...den after tt walk to vch...sat with jasmine and andy for e first half...den second half inez n sc call us to sit with dem.. den actually we sat beside dan arh... den sc and inez behind...den since beside dem no one, den we sit la... den sekali e yong jian e gang came back arh... den we so paiseh la... bud we didnt move la...so feel so paiseh lor... den anyway after e show, we met up with elroy...bud he got sum problems so he keep on toking to inez, leaving sc me and jerome down dere waiting... den we went down...den he came down asking wad we waiting for....sc was damn pissed bahx... den i a bit pissed oso la... actually i didnt wan to go with dem..bud den i pity sc bahx.. so i was like...staying arh... den after dat me inez sc n jerome walk arh.. den elroy called and he joined us with andre... den he again like walk with inez and juz tok to her when sc was toking to inez la...so it made sc feel more pissed...

so its a bit waddehelll dat kind of thing....and so i told elroy wad it is la....den elroy wan to tok to sc bud sc dun wan so he shouted to elroy la... den dey went sumwhere far...and left e other four of us waiting...den after awhile, oni sc came back..elroy disappeared....den he call me... den say say... den me and andre went to find him and jerome and inez went to look for sc... den find, den tok tok...den found sc, and sc decided to tok, den ok le bahx.... den went to mac....den took mrt home...and den me and jerome drop off at bedok and we took cab home bahx

it was wad a nite la... very bad nite...i dunno how to say bahx... i mean..i dun like this kinda thing to happen bahx...........did i exactly made e wrong decision??

1.02am

[[when september ends]]

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

11.17am

hey...had farewell party ytd... it was really a day... work from morning till nite.. hahakz...quite fun bahx.. first went to sch for practice...den after tt buy food.. took cab back to sch... den did preparations and stuff... e hall was decorated by tsui san, inez and e rest who stayed... den after tt...ran up and down to find e seniors coz we scared dey dun cum and dat we had prepared so much... at last.. dey appeared... and dey ask for an invitation from e whole choir...so e whole choir did sum kallang wave thingy and shouted their names and stuff..and had really to invite dem...it was funny la...den in e hall...we started off with wacko.. okla..not too bad.. e daring part was fun... den got break.. den start e whole thingy la.. me n sc was laming on e stage la... hahahakz... we had e sec 1 with dunmanchoir idol.. lolx.. dey are very funny la... den e sec 2s...as usual..a dance... den for e sec 3s, we sang e prayer... den e seniors sang for us longer... e oni item dat brings e farewell feeling... den me and elroy...singing our song... bud it turn out to be sum comedian thingy coz sheila lost e pages..hahakz..bud it was ok la.. den we gave out e things tt we make... den had jeremy to say a few words...and den we went off to bbq....

everyone was grouped... den cleaned up e hall...put back all the chairs and tables... den went down...feeling exhausted...i sat down at e canteen for awhile...lazy to join dem... den all e sec 3s had our own pit... i realised we are becoming antisocial oso...hahakz..nvm...den after all those...we bbq....from 7.30 rite up to 9.30...den cleaned up, and realised tt all e shutters are locked so we cant put all e things back in e choir room... den nvm la... so... in e end....we hide it in e newspaper cupboards..hahakz... den went off to 201 mac..

den sat dere for awhile...feeling really really tired... den me, sc and maisie took cab home... yeah... den i reached home at 11.30... den bathed and slept...

overall i think this time it was better than e camp...mrs chan complimented us..coz she saw it as a wonderful job... hahakz...it wasnt too bad la..

todae..i have to study physics..and u noe wad... haiz...common test is in two weeks time!!!!! argh!!! shit..how.....got to study from now... haiz... choir is getting really tough as we are preparing for tour...and i dunno wad to say la... i mean mr toh is really mean...and me standing infront dere...feel so scared...coz i was so near...haiz..bud nvm...this yr, is e oni yr dat i can make e best out of it... i dun have any other chances next yr....or e yr after...hahakz..this yr is like e final yr for me and e other sec 3 express to fulfill our commitments to choir... we had syf this yr, tour this yr... and i dun think dere wud be any of this nx yr... all this will oni repeat e yr after...which most of us are not around...

11.28am

][ stay the same][
joey mcIntyre

Chorus
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Verse
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Chorus

Bridge
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Chorus

8.33pm
Hey hey...todae was speech day..had a wonderful time todae... this morning...around 12 midnight...elroy called....tok to him on e phone for 4 hrs straight lor!! slept at 4am...woke up at 6.30 am den... den took bus 17, meetin inez n sc at esso... den late bahx...suppose to meet at 7.20, everyone late and we left esso at 7.40...imagine how rushed me n inez were....coz we hadnt put make up or anything and we are gonna be so late...lucky not so la... den rushed to sch...changed, make up, rushed to avt... den around 8 plus plus...mr toh came... so we did warm upz... and sang christus for so many times... sing until like 11 plus i think...yeah... bud it was really great...

so we went to the hall den we sang christus, and it wasnt so bad la... altho it can be better...den when you believe... my voice was okay...bud i think thumbs up is much better.... thumbs up hor...e feeling is much more...den sing sing sing, e damn bloody mike doesnt seem to be working bud actually its on, oni dat its soft...well despite so, last line always gives me e satisfaction and tt we always get great response from e audience....yeah... was so happy....e feeling was fantastic la... not bad...

den went back to avt, did e pupil dvp handbook, den went off for farewell practice... did e prayer, it was pretty well done, oni dat e tone and dynamics is not dere at all...den like dat lorr...hahakz... den sing sing, den after tt around 2 plus, dismiss...me, inez, jerome, davin, yp and elroy stayed...coz nth to do and so we discussed abt tshirt design... den after tt andre and jia yu came back from their council meeting, so by e time dey came back, elroy started this lame game which i am slow at...hahakz...yeah he was playing it with inez, and it was damn funny la... hahakz...had lotsa luff, budden jia yu went off first, she didnt even joined in e fun..heard she has pms...

so after so much laughter, went to tm, to have LUNCH!! which is like 4 plus plus... ate mac, den went walk walk....davin wan to get a new shirt mah... so we follow him la... along the way, we met zerlina and iffah coz dey juz finish their I & E day.... so dey joined us, after tt, they went off first... so we went isetan, davin got shirt, and all of us went home.....

reach home at 7.45... tired....exhausted...had 4hrs of sleep oni ytd... so think later gonna sleep until tmr afternoon or like dat la... tmr evening maybe going e national day carnival thingy with e rest... excited...

yeah...so had a great day...think choir is goin to concentrate on the tour pieces... yeah...

8.44pm

9.13pm
hey hey...long time no post...haiz...complicated week...hmm...miss e relaxation...and work is piling up....speech day this sat...national day nx wk!!! looking forward to the holiday..haiz...3 more weeks common test...omg...i havent study la...tmr got amaths test....3 chapters in line...hmmm...i hop functions and circular measure is easy...coz i understand...and hope there will be enuff time for me to complete stuff...

maybe i shd really learn to stand by myself...and not to think too much abt others.. bud...how?? im so used to put others first den me.... in frenships la... haiz... i dunno....did i neglect my own feelings??? do i?? haiz...

shd i really start a new?? and juz reach out for my goals...shd i really start thinking of my future, and do sth abt it? shd i set more goals for myself...and not juz short term goals?? shd i restrain myself from relationship? shd i juz have a companion who will juz stand by me and juz dun be too socialised...and waste time... on problems which are not tt importanT? wad shd i do???

turning 360 degrees back its not simple...i need time...maybe i shd take a break... i shd...juz think of myself now....for e time being... i need a break...i need a break...i realised tt....

haiz...think hidayah, think....think carefully...dun be indecisive...cmon...decide... decide wad u wan..in everything...in yr life..........
wad do u wan to achieve?? wad??

9.19pm