A new old home

Since my move I have a room with a view. Between a tree and the rest of the houses on the street, I see a glimpse of the city. Its twinkling lights and, high above, the bright round moon. I look at this view and can't believe my luck. To be in this wonderful place. And finally to enjoy it! How did I not see it quite like this before?

January 15th 2010

Many days behind.
Now I'm being a liar, the title says it all, but mostly it say nothing at all. None of the things I say has relevance to the day, everything is outdated and old. That's how I create meaning; through time's wear and tear. All things new are temporary, all things old are lasting.

January 14th 2010

January 13th 2010

January 12th 2010

"Att accepteras.
Och varför? Han visste inte svaret själv. Inte för att han inte reflekterade - han förstod att det var bekräftelsejakt, en metod för att känna sig speciell. Men han fattade inte varför han valt just detta sätt, som var lättaste vägen till förnedring."

- Jens Lapidus "Snabba Cash"

January 11th 2010

"Perhaps the most elementary addiction is Procrastination - simply postponing the relatively unrewarding part of an activity."

- Ainslie & Haslam, in Choice over time


"To expend any joy down to the point of full exhaustion is down right BAD pleasure economy."

- Lorenz (1970)

January 10th 2010

"Love, she believed, had to come, suddenly, with a great clap of thunder and a lightning flash, a tempest from heaven that falls upon your life, like a devastation, scatters your ideals like leaves and hurls your very soul into the abyss. Little did she know that up on the roof of the house, the rain will form a pool if the gutters are blocked, and there she would have stayed feeling safe inside, until one day she suddenly discovered the crack right down the wall.

- Gustave Flaubert "Madame Bovary"

January 9th 2010

"Look. You don't know about me. You think it is all right. You kiss a girl in a car, it does not mean anything to you. Just a kiss. But it is not so with me. I feel sick. I've got nausea, physically. I cannot tell you why it is so, because I do not know. It is like being on a boat that is capsizing. And it does mean something, because even in your world such things begin love affairs."

- Han Suyin "A many-splendored thing"

January 8th 2010

January 7th 2010

The simple things;
them I embrace.
'I love you'
'I miss you'

No excuses, no explanations.
All alone they stand tall,
the strongest and the most unshakable.

The simple truths.