(melvin bag)

I miss the times badly really, crazily.

I miss chatting with till late night. I miss webcam-ing with you. I miss talking to you till we went really crazy. Do you know I'm talking about you, yes you? I totally sank down when I saw your blog and I saw the msn message you send me. I'm not being what, but does it like, refer to me? If it dosen't, still I miss chatting with you alot.

Our smeses seems shorter and shorter, from good friends till super casual friend. Everytime I think about of you(suddenly kind), I remember the times we chat, we "sang" that song. Though we known each other through water bomb, still somehow, sometimes, I really regretted on asking one question. I really blame myself for asking that dumb question till now. It totally broke everything, every friendship, every laughter, every cherish things we did together(as a friend). It totally broke our friendship off. I really want to talk to you like better then before. But can we even start talking normally? I don't know. I'm so afraid of talking to you again, so afraid of hurting you more and more. But, I really want it all back. I wish time would repeat itself, and I wouldn't ask you that question. I..I don't know what has gotten into me, but I finally couldn't take it, and wrote it in here.

I miss you alot.

I can't stop the feeling that something is missing, I feel like I have it all. Thought there is aching in my heart. People says follow your heart, When your heart is saying go for it. Do it. When your head is saying no. That's when you find it so hard. It's so much worst when your head and heart agree. Mind both, Want Both. But that extra person, is that's what's missing? It is possilbe to do the opposite, to both your head and heart? To stop feeling things about people who bring you such joy? It is?
You can miss someone that never been's there or someone that is five feet away. You can miss someone that dosen't care, or someone whom you'll never bother to say. But the feeling itself stays the same. That no one dares to say the name. The feeling that no one wants to claim.
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And at the end, I'm contridicting myself. I thought I could let go, but the fact is I can't. I thought everything was falling in place, when everything was something I just skip across hoping I'll not face it again and not facing reality. When I thought I didn't love, when actually I did, alot. When I knew I finally love somone is when I need to face up to my problem.
Why.


Heard this song from shawn's blog.

Quiz (tagged by richelle)
1) What is the most important thing in your life?
God, Family, Friends.

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
Horfun for dinner!:D

3) Where do you wish to get married?
Paris♥

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
Let's see what's God plan's. Till then, STUDY!

5) Are you in love?
NO.

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Sakae sushi ):

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
HAHA, good question. Starting of the year, My School Books

8) What is your full name?
Ng Su-Wen,Sarah!

9)Do you prefer your mother or father?
I LOVE MY MUM MOREEEEE, :D But My father is still love by me obviously!

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time?
God !:D

11) Christina or Britney?
Not a fan of them, why not Sarah or Sarah(:

12) Do you do your own laundry?
Only when my praents are a way!

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
The highest Rollar Coaster(!!!!!)

14) Hugs or kisses?
HUGS.

15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you
(Richelle)
1. She's super hyper!
2. She loves to make people smile.
3. She's someone you would love to hang out with.
4. She is someone you would never miss out.
5. Her laughter is just a good sense of presence.

16) 8 things I am passionate about:
1. God.
2. Family
3. Friends
4. Shopping/Blogshopping.
5. Blog
6. Fashion
7. Volleyball
8. Soft-toys

17) 8 things I say often:
1. Haha.
2. LOLS
3. Jesus love you and I love you tooo!
4. Takecare
5. Ok
6. Dumbo!
7. Chicken nehneh
8. Misses.

18) books I've read recently:
My science textbook

19) 8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1. Take a Bow
2. Through the Rain
3. Follow you(seowshi's song)
4. Heart of a servent
5. One way
6. Yue Ai Yue Nan Guo
7. Tonight
8. Wo Wei She Me Hai Ai Ni

20) 8 things I learned last year:
1. To love people more
2. To treasure the time given to you.
3. To stay happy no matter what happens.
4. Manage time.
5. That the olympic only last one month.
6. That love hurts.
7. I love my dad actually.
8. My relatives seees my blog

People to tag: Seowting, Jonathan, Joyce, Christine, Bryan(:

"Boyf isn't everything."
Qinwei came to my house to swim for a short while today!(: But after awhile he left, didn't join us for cellgroup ):



Ohwells. (: Cellgroup celebrated seowshi's birthday! I think she really recieve alot of present(!!!) I also want, (hint hint) HAHA!


Me and seowting stayed at my house to study while others went downstair for basketball. Around 8+? We went downstair and we came across a vintage car!



Haha, Ate dinner with cellgroup people at my house downstair:D

A Delightful day keeps a beautiful memory!

Went to town with Seowshi to celebrate her birthday with Joshua:D Walk around Raffles and Suntec!:D Pictures tooken! Walk to the Fountain Of Wealth, Wisphers to everyone "Seowshi makes her wish there!" Haha:D It's a fun dayy today(: Hope you love the dress I bought for you!






















I love seowshi&seowting Big Time!:D

Last night, I went mad. (!!!!!) A few of my friend send me diff sms,
(1)
S- Senseless
A- Attention Seeker
R-Reading Insulator
A- Abnormal
H- Happy over dumbo things
(LOLOLOLOL :D)

(2)
S- Special
A- Attractive
R- Responsible?
A- Amazing
H- Hahahaahaha!
( LOLS, Look at the "H"!!!!!!)

(3)
S- Special
A- Admirable
R- Ravishing
A- Adroable
H- Holy
(?!?! Look at the H, Hahah!)

Last night was a happy night:D (Giggles super hard) maybe cause it's seowshi birthday!
Love your mannymannyzxzxz (x

Happy Birthday Seowshi!:D

(girl in the middle!)

Hellos pretty gorgeous lady!:D It's finally your B I R T H D A Y! :D Aren't you happy! Or are you sad? Cause getting older and older, hahaha!(: It's such a blessing to have you in cellgroup and being my so-called- leader. (: You're always so hype out no matter what happens. You never let your emotions be shown(Bad or Good?) and you take your life in hand very welll. You're such a good role moder luhzxzx.
When my day goes bad bad bad, everytime I hear your very crazy voice, my heart feels so much better! I remember during my funfair(school), you were trying so hard to cheer me up though you yourself was feeling so down. I'm sorry and you're much appreciated(!!!):D Thanks for taking your time to "disiciple" me, thanks for caring for me, thanks for sharing things with me, thanks for smiling at me, thanks for sharing wilde crazy shopping spree with me, thanks for sharing God's gosspel to me.. etc.
and last but not least,
Thanks for being such a cheerful and good leader to follow(:

I pray to God you'll rise up soon to become a cellgroup leader of your own cell!(: Don't give up and jiayous jiayous! You impacted my life manymany!
Jesus Love You and I love You toooooozxz!:DDDDDD

Gen,Christine,Bryan & SKKKKYYYYYYY!:D

I LOVE YOUR!:D

You rock my world so hard, it turn upside down, left and right, horizontal and vertical too!

"You are my geeky boyfriend!♥"
HAHAHA! :D
*I don't have a boyf, i'm just putting that for fun, because..(read post)

After school went for extra classses with lydia,richelle&delia:D After it, waited for mum at carpark area then head to bukit panjang:D I Bought My Black Specs(!!!!!) ((((((: I'm like a super happy girl(!!!) It's super geeky super kawai-naeee!:D HAHAHA!

This specs is like my don't know how many pair already, and my mum is still willingly to buy for me :P HAHA, I'm a spoilt brat manzxzx. :x HAHA:D

Tomorrow is Teacher Day celebration, I haven't got any present for them(!!!) GOSH.

I want a new big pencil case and more grey/plain/complicated design of pullovers or hoodies! :D

I hope I can dream of me having all this tonight, haha.
Goodnight peeps:D

I'm really sick! ):

Edited @ 1:36pm
I just got back from seeing the doc's. My mum told me "The doctor very sissy" HAHA, ccute luhs. :D I was shock she said that! Anyways, got to rest now(: Sayo!

"You don't know how it feels."
(random)
Sometimes, I feel like giving you a big tight slap across your face because everything wasen't Love. I detest you, I really do. You're unforgiven, I'm unforgiven too. It's not that wether I choose a not, but the image still stays in me. Yes, you played but not me. You're out and gone, I've got one last thing to say, thanks for breaking my heart, THANKS ALOT.

During lite, took picture with dawn(:




After school, went to Jurong East to meet seowting to study. She came first, then came Joyce then Kaixiang. Terecia didn't come:O Stayed there till 5.30+, then head towards the neoprint shop! :D Love it totallyzxzx!



After which, went to IMM for meeting with Hope people :D Well, they came late so seowting,me and Joyce went to the toilet!




We compared our skirt length! HAHA. :x



I was ahh-choo-ing throughout the whole meeting ): I'm sick sick sick!

Photos from yesterdayy :D







End of day. (: Still feeling unwell. D:

I want a newurbanmale bag D:
My another bag spoilt. ):

Intense studying starts from today!

After school, went to jurongeast to meet joyce;aiai to study! The world is so small, her friend is my primary school friend,xinyi! :D Haha, study till 3+ then xinyi left and seowting came. We chatted alot at first, but later, we study!:D I completed my homework and some revision. Hahah(: Took pictures, but pictures with joyce. Take from her later!

Then went to meet richelle for dinner at long john sliver! Afte eating we both felt like taking neo-prints! So we went :D Haha, it's been ages since I last took neo!





Some other neo picture is with richelle:D

Dedication to richelle some other time as laptop keyboard is currently in mad mood(-.-)