An empty street, An empty house, A hole inside my heart. The rooms are getting smaller, I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are, The songs we sang together.
Mirror mirror on the wall,
You dont have to tell me, whose the biggest fool on the earth.

I feel lousy, very restless, extremely paranoid. The worst feeling to ever feel. Things are getting out of my extreme hands. I can't do a thing. I'm sorry her. I can't do a thing. I don't want to be force, I don't want someone to take control of MY life. I want to take control of everything I do, and not do things I don't want to do. Stubborn-ness isn't what it means, neither does stingy-ness. But, It's My Life, Why does she have to bother? This is crapzxzxz. This is going to last, if someone don't make a stand. And I can't do that, I just can't bring myself to do it. Why am I so coward? Why don't I think about her that is getting hurt and being so small when she isn't. I hate this, I love her. I love her, but I can't do much. This is so total crapness. I want to stand firm and strong, I want to be someone that smiles, though she's hurt beneath.

Know me well, Know me good. I Won't Treat You Like A Queen or Pamper You. Something I won't do, Something I won't let people choose for me. My friend means everything to me. They'll there for me cheering me on, not bringing me down. They'll there to play and chat with and lots more, but not your robot. I choose for myself.

I don't feel love by them, i don't. No I don't. Not a single bit, not even the slightest bit. I feel far apart. Yes I do. Just doesn't seem to care about me. We girls, are so far apart. Everything seems soo crappy, Those girls don't know what's happening. Another girls, just can't seem to handle and know why this is happening. Why is these kinda things happening. I ask myself why, I question myself, I can't answer it. I don't know why! I hate this kinda things, especially when it come to friends. It sucks, it totally sucks way lots.

LIAR LIAR LIAR LIAR, BIG FAT LIAR D: LIAR LIAR LIAR! HUGE GOONDO BELIEVER ):

Why am I feeling all these ridiculous things? I'm loosing faith, I must pray. YES I NEED TO. I need to fast and pray, for a breakthrough in my life. I must TALK to God, for the directions and visions in/for my life. I must love everything he did in my life, and stop agreeing with the devil. PRAY PRAY PRAY, for a mighty revival. FAST FAST FAST, for a breakthrough in my life.

Labels: fast, Straight

Pictures will be uploaded later ):

Now with richelle in her church friend's house. Retarded people, quarreling over crazy stuff. Haha:) Went to westmall after my chinese compo, ate and walk around. :] Took pictures, alot of photos this days, but no USB and bluetooth connection. Grrrr. Must wait for computer to come back. And,
Cheer up my prettaye girls that wis sad over some stufff. I love your.



Boyboyboyboy,

Giving in is not the way, not the way. You must pass this, cause I failed.

Labels: I'll get you that thing you want, I'll try with all my heart.

A heart that struggle's with everything. Yes, so broken still hanging on. I'm breaking, tearing in my naked heart. You're hearing simple lies.

i won't treat you like a queen.
you got to be strong,

Distracted

post later, in class using handphone.

Labels: Heal me, lord

My Best Friend♥

I want to see you smile. I don't want to see you sad. Want ice cream? I buy for you:) Cheer up qinwei, It really hurts to see you sad. You were normally the one being by my side when I'm down, now it's my turn to be by your side. Let me be ok? Tell me things, please boy. I really miss the happy cheerful crazy times together. It was never forgotten. After so long, we'll still close friends. So i don't want to see you sad ok. :) Loves. See you in school! Take care, plenty lots!


I WANT TO SUAN YOU LIKE NEVER BEFORE, SEEING YOU LAUGH AND SMILE LIKE YOU JUST GOT TICKLE. You're someone special to me which I don't want to see you sad.

Labels: Dedicated to specially, you

On thurseday night had cgl class, :) But instead it was leader appreictaion day, so we had steamboat instead!

There were SOOOOO much food, so there were alot of leftovers! During CGL class, The Lord's Presence was so strong. Kneeing down was so hard, It felt so jelly like. The presence so strong, we'll ever so hungry for God. :] It was amazing!

Lord, I'm down infront of you. I'll be your servent, I'll listen and obey you. I Love you too much.

Labels: Superman, take care. :)

Ohmytian:D I love this song, because of. It'll be better if he sings it :)

I want to go shopping at town(far east& wisma) with $500 and bugis with $200!:D
Mami, give me $700 on that day for me to go shopping, can? xP

Labels: despo

Reply Tags:
Joshuah: Sorry, Will change it once I have enough time :)
Ziyang: Ohs, Thanks :)
Ally: :)
Kj: Thank you!:)
Tiffany: Yes yes, can't wait:D
Erickhor: Welcome:) Cheerup!
Amber: Yes yes, ok!:) Love you.
Jinheng: Yes jinheng!:D Haha.

Cheer Up Qinwei!:D

heys, thanks for treating me to lunch and stuff. Thanks for treating me so good all this year:) Thanks for rembering me as a friend,a mei,a sister:) Thanks for everything. And now, I'm here to tell you, Don't worry about that things. Yes, may be wrong, But still, Don't be so disappointed. Everything will be over soon, this will be your stepping stone. It'll make you know what's right and wrong, learn, please. After hearing, I'm utterly sad, even worst, you didn't wanted to tell me. But, I Really Wanted The Best For You, My BestFriend. I'll be here, and so are other's. :) You're not going to go through this alone, Alot of people care for you! You can study, you can be good, if you really want too. You can.

After everything, please change for the better. Mean what you say. Don't make us worry about you already. Can't you feel that alot of people are worried about you? Especially that someone in your house. Don't be a disapontment, but be the one that stands out, for good. :) You can be good,qinwei. You can! I believe in you, alright? Love you! And please, tell me your stuff, I want to hear it from you, and not from other's.

If you know i'll be sad, please, don't do it. It isn't cool or artistic. Wo Shi Wei Ni hao:D
Qinwei, Take care!

Labels: WAKE UP ):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMiHER6T284

You held my hand and walked me home I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away

[Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

What do guys want in the end?

God of my youth I remember
Your call of my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all of days
I stand here by your grace

On this alter I've written my life
Tells of the story I have with you my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I'm with you
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifise redeem my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honnour will always be
To serve my Lord and king

God of my all I've surrended
My heart find its rest in your world
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love has grown for you

Nothing matter's when you're here with me
In the end just to hear you say "Well Done"
Bowing before you throne

Forever and ever
Jesus you alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With you I walk this narrow way

God told me, He has a plan. You just have to listen. If you listen, we can hear God's plan.

Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.

Lord tell me your plan for me, and i'll work towards it. I don't want to disappoint you anymore. Give me stength and faith. Give me knowledge to overcome what i'm going through now. Answer to my prayer. I submit my life to you, My love Life, My whole Life. I want to know you more, I want to love you more. I want to grow stronger in you. Lord, I Love you with all of my heart.

Labels: I sink down into your prensence O'lord

Word are cheap
You can't fool me
Compliments are easy
Give me some space
So i can breathe
Tell me the truth
So I can improve
Flattery so fickle
It'll come back to you

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Got nothing much to post, Anyways,

Cheer up ErichKhor !:)

&

Cheer up Amber!♥

Take Care Emeline!♥

I miss you luh! You're fever seems so serious! ): Take good good super good care of yourself ok! Or i take care of you?:P haha. I MISS YOU EMEEEEE! D: Really misss! Hope 5th june come quickly!:DDD Love the sun on the beach, Love you!

Combine Cellgroup yesterday:D Had the drama and dance, it was finally the day although wasen't so intresting(from the audience look), We really tried our best! We only had 1 week to pratsice and coming home late at night! Looking so restless in the morning, All We Did Is For God:)

















We fellowship at riverwalk there after cellgroup, :) I'm going to seat the bungee jumo with tiffany and the singapore flyer with tiffany and jonathan!:D Really can't wait, it'll be so exictingzxzxzx!:D Around evening time, went to Hermen's birthday chalet!:D

Happy Birthday Hermen!:D

Chat awhile, play awhile, went to the beach with torance,terecia,seowting,leon,kanghao,darren,tiffany and jonathan!:D Then stayed there for almost an hour, then rush back to cut cake! Hermen's sabo was OHMYTIANNNN!

I WAS BLESS WITH A LAPTOP:D

By my aunt. :)

Praise the Lord! I'm seriously happy, after so long, after many years, A laptop of my own:D! Haha, quite tired this days, always coming home late cause of drama and dance. ): Really Tired! Will upload picture when I'm free and have enough time! Later still meetung jonathan at my house downstair at 8am! Tomorrow's gonna be very tiring and lets hope we'll impact the new friends:)

Labels: Tired.

Best friend, I miss you around, I miss your cherrful presence. It just ain't suppose to be this way, at all. We'll suppose to be living a carefree life, and not tied down by what people say. I want to stick with you. You're like my happy machine gun. But now, have it's all gone too? Seating together also not able to talk much? ): I really miss it all,girl. Can't she understand?
Exploded.

So much to think, so little time to do. So unwillingly, but you don't understand. So, Angry. Not gonna say anymore.


BYE.

Did you see me at midnight?
Crying from my soul
Feeling fooled and stupid
That I don't have a hope

Did you steal my future?
Or take me for a ride
I feel like such a loser
That I believed all your lies.


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Day ahead are suppose to be exciting for me, But it dosen't seem so to me. Worrying evryday. It dosen't make me happy at all. Calm me down, boy. hias.

Well, everyday having to head to cityhall and pratcise is really tiring, Dead tired ): And i don't know what to say already, feeling so down.

Jinheng!:D

You can do it, don't be so stress up and relax. Take time to think how to cope!:D You're a good good guy, :) Haha, We'll jiayou together! Pick up each other when we fall! And ultimate, Shine for god:D Jesus love you and I love you too!

After faith and Respect cellgroup, did some card making till 6+. Then faith and respect went downstair to fellowship and took pictures:D

Respect girls just rock my asssss:D! I love my laogong,dear,dearest,love:)I know you're will be here when i need you, without fail! Thanks for accompanying me these pass few days, I LOVE YOU!

This video is taken from City Harvest church, The children church performing in the youth service, it's really sweet and touching:D

Amber stayed over last night:) And she bought me a nice nightgown! Haha:D

Thanks Amber♥

&&with a wide smile on my face :)

Last night, jinheng,joshuah and jiawei came over for some stuffs. Then while we had nothing to do, we camwhore! It was really funny, haha:)

Will upload more photos, Then later amber came. Skipskipskip~ They stayed till 1+ and finally they went home. Haha, so me and amber had a little girl to girl chat x) Chat till, 4+, If i'm not wrong, Haha:D Then we slept. :) Now waiting for people to come, to have cellgroup!:)

Labels: Amber, I love you:D

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I'm so in love with it:D! But i'm proclaim broke, for finally once. Really broke, No more Atm in my house, ): Must wait for like, super long! Geeeezxzxzxz, super sad.