What I do know is that HE is the one in control of my life, and my job is to keep letting go as He takes me through this process called "life." This is what He is saying to me (Jer. 29:10-14):
10 This is what the Lord says: “You will be in Babylon for seventy years. But then I will come and do for you all the good things I have promised, and I will bring you home again. 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. 14 I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again to your own land.” (NLT)
And this is what He is saying to you too. You WILL have your time in your own Babylon, but He WILL bring you home again. He does have GOOD plans for you, full of hope ... and you WILL have a future. He IS in control and we can choose to let Him be in control for us. Will you give up your "right" to defend yourself ... your "right" for vindication ... and let the Lord be that for you ... let HIM do that for you? It may not look like you expect it to, or want it to, but he LOVES you and will be your defender. He WILL bring you a hope and a future, but you have to seek Him ... and here is the best promise of all, in verse 14, "I will be found by you." My captivity will end and I will be restored ... YAY!
Its not easy - you have to go through the pain to experience the freedom, but I am confident that these glimpses I see of where He is taking me are His way of keeping hope alive ... for HIM and His plan for my life. There is something just around the corner and I can't WAIT to see what it is!
