Three simple words but SO life changing for me. I've been on a new piece of the journey recently, and the other night during a worship time at a local church, I was catapulted from the midst of the struggles and issues, right into the arms of God and overwhelmed by His three simple words to me ... "I've got you." And I trust and understand Him and His love for me in a totally new way.
I just love it when stuff like that happens and the crossroads is now behind me and I'm moving forward in a new direction with renewed hope for the days ahead.
Last week I was listening to a CD from Ransomed Heart Ministries about finding your calling, and I heard something new ... or at least new for me. I now understand that my calling is different from my role and my assignment. My calling is that thing that makes me come alive and gives me LIFE and desire to do more. For me, that calling employs the gift of administration and I just light up when I can help others bring their vision to life. THAT jazzes me completely.
Interestingly though, for years I have been waiting for my healing to be complete so God can finally move me into my calling, and here I've been living it all along, in all my various roles and assignments. My calling transcends my role which currently is Sister, Aunt, Leader, Friend ... and is completely fulfilled in my current assignment as Administrative and Meetings Manager. I am free from the belief that I held for many years that my calling would not be fulfilled until I was in that place of freedom that God has been moving me toward. Growing up in a pastor's home, I saw my mom's role/assignment as a pastor's wife and adopted that as the ideal "calling" for my life ... and although I am very content in my singleness, have held this deep fear that I may never walk in my calling, so you can imagine how overwhelmed I am to realize I AM LIVING in my calling and SO fulfilled in that calling with my current assignment.
What a different way to think about who I am and what God is calling me into! I am free ... completely ... and can't wait to see what's next, but content with today in a whole new way! AND ... He's got me!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Impact
Okay, so here is something that’s been bothering me lately … the portrayal of “impact” and who does or doesn’t qualify to make an impact. Why is it that we are consumed by this desire to make an impact? I’ll confess, I’m guilty of it too, but have a hard time talking about it because something feels not quite right … like I’m wanting more than I should … and then it hit me just a moment ago while reading “Words to Grow On” in the bi-weekly newsletter from my work: It’s because we ALL already make an impact that it bothers me so much when we talk about how badly we want to have an impact and make a difference in the world … why do I strive? Why do you?
There is nothing wrong, or “less than”, or not enough about the person who fixes my car or waits on me at CPK or orders the office supplies. And there is nothing wrong or “less” or not enough about me in the role that I play now or those that I played in the past. We are all in this same “space” and we were created by the same God and are fulfilling our role TODAY as we surrender ourselves to this process.
We all desire to make a difference … and the really cool thing is that we all do – right where we are … in this moment. I impact my assistant when I treat her with respect and honesty; I impact my family when I call them or email them; I impact my neighbor when I smile at them or say hello … and I never know how big or small that impact is. I am also aware that I can have a negative impact if I’m not careful with my words or my actions.
What I do know, is that this LIFE thing is about the process. It is about being present to the moment I am in right now, facing my realities and shortcomings and living in my strengths as the Lord brings me to new ventures, jobs, relationships, etc. I am a work in progress and I embrace that and welcome the impact I have in my small (very small) circle of influence today. And I am a better person for being in your circle of influence. Thank you for the impact you are having on my life … even in this moment!
There is nothing wrong, or “less than”, or not enough about the person who fixes my car or waits on me at CPK or orders the office supplies. And there is nothing wrong or “less” or not enough about me in the role that I play now or those that I played in the past. We are all in this same “space” and we were created by the same God and are fulfilling our role TODAY as we surrender ourselves to this process.
We all desire to make a difference … and the really cool thing is that we all do – right where we are … in this moment. I impact my assistant when I treat her with respect and honesty; I impact my family when I call them or email them; I impact my neighbor when I smile at them or say hello … and I never know how big or small that impact is. I am also aware that I can have a negative impact if I’m not careful with my words or my actions.
What I do know, is that this LIFE thing is about the process. It is about being present to the moment I am in right now, facing my realities and shortcomings and living in my strengths as the Lord brings me to new ventures, jobs, relationships, etc. I am a work in progress and I embrace that and welcome the impact I have in my small (very small) circle of influence today. And I am a better person for being in your circle of influence. Thank you for the impact you are having on my life … even in this moment!
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