Decision, decision, decision....sometimes it can be hard to make...but if given more thought it might not be that hard after all. And so I have decided.

I have decided to continue my career with my present company. I had done my research if I were to become an agent with 2 other different companies against becoming one for my own company. Weighing out the pros and cons, I picked my company for so many reasons.

One advantage is that, my product for my company, being an underwriter, I know the product inside and out. I know where to get leads and generate them...and I somehow have a teeny little client base..based on my servicing jobs to our customers, namely the embassies.

My boss was pleasantly surprised of my intention. Cos he has never seen me sell. I knew that would be the first thing he would say to me. But he says that I know my stuff very well to pass the chance. Look...who would want to pass earning at least $100k a year? If I can be an average performing agent, thats how much I will be earning. But he is willing to let me try. I will enter the position without having to go for interview (he already plucked my brains) and IF I decided to not be an agent again, I shall get my job back with the company.

**My co workers who are reading this, please do not break the news till the boss decides to OKAY?????**

So I will not start selling til January. Prior to that, I shall attend the sales class again, while looking for a person to fill up my current position. I am now keeping my eyes and ears open, watching the agents' every move...as tips.

I am doing all this for my family, my kids. I know that my kids deserve better. I know that I have made the right decision, insyaAllah, it will stay that way.

Its been a while again since the last one. Been busy...but now I am bored...why???

Cos I went for my state exam and I passed!!!!!!! I am a licensed insurance agent now!!!!

If only you know how nervous gila I was on the day of the exam (Monday). I had to breathee and breath and had to take a break to the bathroom before I could truly concentrate. Why was I nervous? Cos I don't like to fail and I promised myself to NOT fail. How did I do it? Hmmm... as you have read my previous postings, late weekend nights to study and last weekend, I had Suraya crawling all over me while I was practicing the quizes for the exam.

When I proceeded to the proctor's room to get my results, I was sooooooo ecstatic whem she said that I passed. I had to say,'Oh my GOD!!!! OK, don't talk to me, I need to sit down'...hahahahaha...come to think of it again, it was funny. Mak gave me a big kiss when I got home. Anak mak pandai kan....hehehe. Surely was nice to have mak at home.

So now...I have another decision to make. To make money with the present company or move on????? Will update you on my decision. This will be the time where I can triple my yearly income...for my family.

Anyway...here's Suraya & Mas looking at ya!!!

Its been a while since the last one. I am busy studying and trying to be a mommy at the same time. Its hard to study when you have a baby pelted on you all the time and then bring the big one shopping for her school clothes, shoes and stuff. And then you have mak trying to strike a long chat while you have your head squared in front of the computer screen trying to do some practice quiz. Not that I mind mak coming for chats, I surely don't as most times, we ended up in the kitchen eating her epok2. In short, I CANNOT study at home.

I will be back in a few days. I know, no point updating yeah? At least you know that I am still alive and am still blogging!

I cried
I dreamed of my son one night,
I cried
Never knew that I would do that after my tears have dried up for so long...
But I cried.

I miss him
I long for him
I wish he was here with the rest of his siblings...

I cried
I coud not stop
At the end of the day...I cried again
I don't know why

It hurts to cry
It hurts to miss my son
And I do still long for him

I cried and I cried