Hi

I need somewhere to shout!

Just feeling lousy and yes,  I'm just being very anal and sensitive because I am very tired.

But I don't understand why the bf just don't show understanding. Like why is there no mutual respect. He knows well I'm exhausted and hungry yet still check with his parents for dinner. Knowing him, he wants me to go over. But I've already say I am tired and hungry.  Why isn't any caring aspect shown here? Sigh.

Den, I initiated and ask him if he wanna meet me because I want to see him.  He asks me to rest and stay at home. Is it showing attitude? Dafug. Maybe I'm being sensitive but I just don't like this at all. Fml

1/30/2016 07:52:00 PM

Hello.

Just done washing up and lying on bed. Currently, I'm waiting for the boy to reach home.

Overwhelmed emotions with a pinch of sadness of the heart. Times like this makes me feel damn real. And the heart just reminds me I'm really just a human - someone who falls so weak when an emotions decides to strikes and hit you unknowingly.

I don't know why am I feeling this way. But tonight,  there's so much misses for the boy. Unbearable misses when we have to part. Just want him by my side so badly and hoping time with him can just pause  for the longest time (and maybe forever?). Tears just rolled down the cheeks and I'm reacting like a spoilt kid.

As much as I always try to manage my expressions when people asked about the bf, I guess overtime I'm just managing my expectation. Sucks to be me. Because I know clearer I fell way deeper than I think I didn't. I don't know since when, he has already become a part of me. As though, it's like a flesh of some part of my body.

Really love the boy a lot. And timely, I've always wished we can speed up time so that I can see what kind of family and life I would be able to build with him. Then again, I know I should just enjoy every single bits of precious moments now. Lesser stress and responsibility both of us will face.

To the lil angels around, thankful for giving me him. Please continue the shine and bless upon us. One of the best someone I could ever ask for. Come think about it, I'm thankful I have been single for the past 4 years odd just to be able to give my everything to Mr kor. Love you to the moon and back Dar, I really do.


Xoxo

1/17/2016 12:16:00 AM

Hello.

Yesterday was kind of the first official day the boy and I had a cold war/quarrelled. Unexpectedly, the quarrel kinds of different - we didn't exchanged any nasty words or ignored one another much. Just wondering, does the way of quarrel changes as we aged as well?

Anyway, to me, it's kind of a situational problem. I don't feel it's his or my fault, it's just a matter of giving time, time. I know clearly that he has been putting effort. In fact as compared to A, I'm truly blessed to have wai chien. Thankful for putting the ego down for me. And really thankful for him to apologise. Hmm... with A, he makes me appreciate the beauty of apologising. It's not about that ego that matters, rather,  it just shows how much you treasure the relationship.

I know clearly, I am a difficult girlfriend. Just hope that the boy knows, I love him a lot. And like I once told him, as long as it's within my means, I will give him my all.

I just hope that as time passes, both of us can grow and improve together. Really hope to have a future with this darling boy here.  Afterall, it has been a long hiatus before I truly opened my door again to accept someone.

Darling boy, pls trust me, for all that you know, you matters a lot to me. Thankful for you and thankful for appearing in my life. As much as I am not good with words, your lil effort and all, I felt it deeply with my heart. Appreciating it to every bits. I hope the next time I visited this space, I could really pin down how much we have improve as a whole and how happy I am still be with you. And if angels do really exists, give us your blessings :')

Love,
Me

1/11/2016 08:07:00 PM

HELLO!

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