project woes

seriously, i dun understand how some people can be SOOO DAMN IRRITATING.

i can easily list 10 reasons why:

1) LOVE to make comments that totally have NO VALUE ADD to our project discussions

2) DAMN ACT CUTE but seriously, i dunno why you have that much confidence (i'm sorry i know i'm mean)

3) do your individual part DURING our discussion, taking up everybody's time, when it's supposed to be done BEFORE the meeting

4) makes it damn obvious that you are doing your research only during the meeting. why did we have to waste our time just because of you.

5) doesn't even care to apologise that she's taking up people's time, making the meeting so unproductive

6) TOTALLY have no sense that people are already pissed off and still continue making dumb comments

7) keeps adding new (and most likely unnecessary) points to our report when we are already reaching the word limit

8) comes unprepared for meetings and talks as if she knows everything but actually got no substance

9) the latest one that TOTALLY made me write this post was cos of this, "i have replied to amelia tt wed i can, but frm e email it seems like wed she cannot, so i oso dunno y she asked me" firstly, i didn't ask her ANYTHING cos i was and still am damn pissed with her so there's no way i'm gonna talk to her, and secondly, how can anyone be so damn rude to say "i also dunno why she asked me". HELLO WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU.

ok that's enough. omg i can't understand how someone can live in her own world and totally dun bother about others. seriously. i just want to get this project over and done with so i dun have to see you again.

WHAT?!

i really dun understand why i have to pay for even my own insurance when firstly, it wasn't bought with my knowledge, and secondly, i haven't even started work yet.

seriously, i'm already paying for most of my other personal expenses, travel, phone bills, transport, phone, laptop, meals, etc SINCE YOUNG. and you stopped giving me allowance since like one year back. so what, i'm supposed to survive on my own when i havent even graduated?!

WTF am i working so hard during my uni years to earn more money?! just to know that i have to use the money i earn to pay for everything that you said you all will pay until we start working?

i REALLY dun understand. seriously, it's not that i dun have the money to pay, i just DUN WANT to pay cos i know you'll take advantage and ask for more in future. and i really dun see this as a matter of fillial piety. you see, you jeopardized your own chances of me giving you all extra money WILLINGLY.

record.

i spent a record 6+ hours in my tutees' place last night, from 5pm to 1130pm.

i actually like going down for tuition nowadays. maybe it's cos i know that tuition with dylan is gonna stop soon (which means one less source of income), and that i have been spending too much, so i need more money to compensate for the amount i've been spending.

ah well. tuition for chelsea has stopped for the moment, i seriously hope she scores well, after spending 4 hours with her last night. and i've set tons of tuition with dylan before his O levels. well, i can only hope i wont be THAT busy with my school workload so that i can seriously bring him through to the end of his O levels. after all, the last paper he's gonna take is a bio paper.

and well, i do hope i can teach chelsea math next year cos it's after all my favourite subject in school! and i'm so much more confident in math than in any of the sciences.

i think i sound like a desperate money-grubber here...

the unnoticed...

cai sent me a link to this poem:

The Man In The Bowler Hat by A. S. J. Tessimond

I am the unnoticed, the unnoticable man:
The man who sat on your right in the morning train:
The man who looked through like a windowpane:
The man who was the colour of the carriage,
the colour of the mounting morning pipe smoke.
I am the man too busy with a living to live,
Too hurried and worried to see and smell and touch:
The man who is patient too long and obeys too much
And wishes too softly and seldom.

I am the man they call the nation's backbone,
Who am boneless - playable castgut, pliable clay:
The Man they label Little lest one day I dare to grow.
I am the rails on which the moment passes,
The megaphone for many words and voices:
I am the graph diagram,Composite face.
I am the led, the easily-fed,
The tool, the not-quite-fool,
The would-be-safe-and-sound,
The uncomplaining, bound,
The dust fine-ground,
Stone-for-a-statue waveworn pebble-round


so true isn't it. we're all so insignificant in this world, wanting to make a difference but end up disillusioned and jaded with everything in the world. sigh...

do i want to be just an ordinary person in this world? i really have no idea. i want to excel, but the drive and motivation is just not strong enough.

iphone4!!

i just got my iphone!!!=) with a rather huge price tag though, but still, i love it! have been playing with it ever since i got it. the battery life really sucks, but i dunno whether it's because i've been using the data too much. i just spammed whatsapp msges last night. hahha!

the photography apps are damn cool too. i shall try when i go out. =D

lets see if being so well-connected is a good or a bad thing. but the best thing of all, i have unlimited data to spare!!=))))