孤单

extracted from rene liu ruo ying's song, 一辈子的孤单, which i only really paid attention to it today cos of its lyrics.

当孤单已经变成一种习惯　
习惯到我已经不再去想该怎么办
就算心烦意乱　就算没有人作伴
自由和落寞之间怎么换算　
我独自走在街上看着天空
找不到答案　我没有答案

and i hate cors bidding. i hate it how biz doesn't plan their numbers properly. we had a module indication exercise but yet so many of us are stranded with fewer than 3 mods. what's the point of a bidding system if it cannot allocate the mods properly!

my statuses on fb have all revolved around bidding for the last few days. quite sure people are sick of looking at my rants by now. but still, i'm REALLY frustrated!!

and bkk just got a bomb blast again?!?! wth. and now my travel plans may eventually be changed also. woah why is my life sooo damn exciting.

gastric.

my gastric is coming back again. and it loves to come when i'm having tuition, have to endure the pain for the entire lesson. sighhhh i kinda think my stomach will sooner or later have a hole. and it comes back even when i'm having VERY regular meals. i really have no explanation for all the pain. or maybe it's not gastric even. i dunno what it is then...

my memory is failing...

oh my i feel so bad now! a few weeks back i bumped into one of my super enthu buckle sec 1s, she asked me if i recognise her and i really couldn't! (after that i did recall who she is, but at that point of time i really couldn't!) and she just talked to me on msn and she said she was very sad i couldn't recognise her...=(((((

am never proud of my face-recognising skills, but yes i should try to remember people more readily.. esp when they were sooooo enthu about buckle and i was their captain!! sighhh what happened to my 22-year old brain....

kinda struck me during the council 30th anniversary dinner on sat too...i dun rmb a lot of people!! esp the juniors...look familiar but seriously i dun rmb a lot of them! (one of them i even asked to help me take photo without knowing she's my junior...) omg!!!

2 more weeks of internship left.... finally no more squeezing on the crowded train every morning. i seriously almost kissed the train door this morning. i'll prob miss the place actually. my dept people are soooo nice..

this is a weird post. i think i'm going cranky from being tired so i shall continue another time.

freaking pissed

i freaking hate my life.

maybe jess and cynli are really right about life - it seriously sucks. there's no damn good reason AT ALL for me to love my life. what a tragedy isn't it.

happy graduation bro!

you.

i'm getting tired and sick of everything.

i dun understand you anymore.

perhaps it is wiser to keep a distance from everyone. in this way, i will never be upset over the smallest of things.

you can call me an escapist. but if escaping can make me feel better, why not?

i want to be nonchalent.