因为害怕慰问, 所以偷偷哭泣。
因为害怕嘲笑, 所以拒绝学习。
因为害怕陌生, 所以沦为内向。
因为害怕失败, 所以没法开始。
因为害怕伤害, 所以保持距离。
因为害怕背叛, 所以强调戒心。
因为害怕失去, 所以不曾拥有。
因为害怕透明, 所以戴上面具。
因为害怕追求, 所以导致空窗。
因为害怕虚伪, 所以除掉热情。
因为害怕深渊, 所以宁愿抽离。
这可是我的心情写照啊！说穿了，我就是个懦夫！
Monday, April 27, 2009
four DOWN!
i realised it's been a while since i last posted. i guess it's not that i have been THAT busy mugging, it's just that mugging isn't something really worth updating about huh. heh.
and so...between the last post and today, i'm now four modules down! bizcomm paper was..well..other than not finishing the paper, everything else was ok. i always wonder why i like to spend disproportionate amount of time on each question. i spent like 1hr 20 mins doing the executive summary, but it's only worth 50%. in the end, i only spent 10 mins doing 20% worth for the last question. how dumb can i get.
computing paper was ok. and by ok, it's not that i thought it's easy or difficult, it's just that it's too hard to predict! discussed so many questions with joce, but at the end of the day, we never know whether our answers are correct anw, so why bother thinking too much about it.
i'm just happy that i can finally take a break from mugging, just that this means i'll have intensive tuition until the end of dylan's exams. (i'm glad though, since this means saving up more money for my holidays. =D)
so between my last post till now, it's quite obvious that nothing much happened. didn't go for council camp for the first time since 2005 (still feel slightly guilty for it), then went for karaoke with charles, wesley and chork at changi beach club again, then on the same day was doreen's 21st party! (will post photos later, am a bit lazy at the moment.=X)
then went for my appointment at national skin centre. the doc classified my case as "severe", and said i have to take the strongest medicine for my condition, which i'm gonna start after my exams. my skin problem got worse these few weeks, possibly because of stress from exams, but i never did expect it to become THIS horrible. ah sigh.
i remember being SUPER angry with this female taxi driver. i was late already, so decided to cab to pasir ris for the karaoke with the few 25ths. when i got on the cab, i said, "pasir ris mrt". she gave me a blur face. HELLO it's not like some ulu place can. AND we're in singapore, how can you not know how to get to a mrt station! ok and so, i told her to go into PIE, but i'm uncertain of the exact exit to take. so she switches on her gps, and guess what, she exited at tampines, called her husband to ask for directions! and when we got to tpjc, she actually took a u-turn and kept mumbling to herself about how to get to the mrt, and that the gps always doesn't show anything useful. (mind you, she didn't even attempt to route to the mrt, she just found the location of the mrt on the gps.-_-). and so, she took more unnecessary turns, and FINALLY she turns up at pasir ris, and the fare was a freaking $12. $12 for me to get from my house to pasir ris?!?! that's like from nus to my house can. sigh.
i wasted quite a lot of money these days cos i think i have been spending too many days at home, so quite eager to spend some money, but ah well. intensive tuition these days should help a bit! i didn't even dare to buy some clothes i like while walking around far east today.=X
9 days to apb! persevere!! though i dun think i'll start mugging till next monday. haha!
and so...between the last post and today, i'm now four modules down! bizcomm paper was..well..other than not finishing the paper, everything else was ok. i always wonder why i like to spend disproportionate amount of time on each question. i spent like 1hr 20 mins doing the executive summary, but it's only worth 50%. in the end, i only spent 10 mins doing 20% worth for the last question. how dumb can i get.
computing paper was ok. and by ok, it's not that i thought it's easy or difficult, it's just that it's too hard to predict! discussed so many questions with joce, but at the end of the day, we never know whether our answers are correct anw, so why bother thinking too much about it.
i'm just happy that i can finally take a break from mugging, just that this means i'll have intensive tuition until the end of dylan's exams. (i'm glad though, since this means saving up more money for my holidays. =D)
so between my last post till now, it's quite obvious that nothing much happened. didn't go for council camp for the first time since 2005 (still feel slightly guilty for it), then went for karaoke with charles, wesley and chork at changi beach club again, then on the same day was doreen's 21st party! (will post photos later, am a bit lazy at the moment.=X)
then went for my appointment at national skin centre. the doc classified my case as "severe", and said i have to take the strongest medicine for my condition, which i'm gonna start after my exams. my skin problem got worse these few weeks, possibly because of stress from exams, but i never did expect it to become THIS horrible. ah sigh.
i remember being SUPER angry with this female taxi driver. i was late already, so decided to cab to pasir ris for the karaoke with the few 25ths. when i got on the cab, i said, "pasir ris mrt". she gave me a blur face. HELLO it's not like some ulu place can. AND we're in singapore, how can you not know how to get to a mrt station! ok and so, i told her to go into PIE, but i'm uncertain of the exact exit to take. so she switches on her gps, and guess what, she exited at tampines, called her husband to ask for directions! and when we got to tpjc, she actually took a u-turn and kept mumbling to herself about how to get to the mrt, and that the gps always doesn't show anything useful. (mind you, she didn't even attempt to route to the mrt, she just found the location of the mrt on the gps.-_-). and so, she took more unnecessary turns, and FINALLY she turns up at pasir ris, and the fare was a freaking $12. $12 for me to get from my house to pasir ris?!?! that's like from nus to my house can. sigh.
i wasted quite a lot of money these days cos i think i have been spending too many days at home, so quite eager to spend some money, but ah well. intensive tuition these days should help a bit! i didn't even dare to buy some clothes i like while walking around far east today.=X
9 days to apb! persevere!! though i dun think i'll start mugging till next monday. haha!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
sverely slacking
phew...pmm report and quiz are over, and so is the entire pmm module. i wouldn't say i did well at all, after all our group did so badly for both our simulation games. and i wouldn't say we did well for presentation too. i'm just hoping for a miracle for pmm i guess.
mugging for pmm was a tall order, and i'm serious. the textbook is the WORST textbook i've come across. it doesnt explain the terms used properly, the grammer and language are sometimes wrong, it's pure black and white, and text takes up 98% of the book. please tell me how to concentrate reading such a textbook. i was literally bored to tears can.
and didn't help that our report was so last minute. didn't help also that i was addicted to this taiwan drama: 敲敲爱上你. i practically was chionging the dvd version of the show in the midst of mugging for pmm. i love how the main girl character in the show, yao ziwang, was portrayed. kinda think i can relate to her. "世界上有一种人是不会被爱, 也不能爱人" such a sad character i must say, having suffered so much in her own family, but yet attaining certain attention for being a successful career woman. yet, she can't even pursue her own happiness, and doesn't dare to, cos of her own inferiority complex after being repressed in the family for so long and the matchmaking practice in the family. and after giving her all to help the person she loves who loves someone else, she doesn't even expect anything back, even when she's at the lowest point of her life. it's like, her life is about wearing a mask everyday, cos wherever she's at, she just has to show the strong side of herself. so sad ain't it. i feel so sad for her (and sometimes myself too cos i see some similarities) everytime i watch the show. and of cos, i only started watching the show cos of 郭品超. haha!
if you didn't already know the extent of my show-watching, i shall type out a list of taiwan variety shows and drama shows (not including s'pore shows) that are keeping me occupied:
- 超级星光大道
- 我猜
- 天才冲冲冲
- 百万大歌星
- 周日大精彩 (used to be 舞林大道)
- 模范棒棒堂
- 爱就宅一起
- 痞子英雄
- 敲敲爱上你
of cos it's not that i finish watching every one of it every week, i do suffer from backlog, and i do download some others to watch if the theme or the artistes are who i like. but sometimes even i myself am amazed at the amount of exposure i have to the entertainment industry in taiwan. i used to just be exposed to the music industry, but doesn't seem so now huh. haha.
slacking has been my middle name for a long time i guess, and even more so after the pmm paper. went for dinner with johnson and luther at suntec (ate at aston's!) after such a long time of not meeting up with the black rose people (though it was just the three of us last night lar). it feels good to be chatting about anything at all, suaning people and getting suaned. after a while, i somehow forgot the time and ended up reaching home past midnight. but yes, it was a good night spent. and today, my parents and i decided to visit the new mall called tampines 1. i quite love that place. we didn't manage to walk the entire place cos of the crowd (the queue outside uniqlo is CRAZY), but i like the shops that are there. seems like a good variety of apparel and food. bought two tops from one of the shops.=X i think i haven't bought clothes for a few months now, ever since taiwan. haha. quite worth the hype i suppose.
on a sidenote, i just received a conditional acceptance email from cbs. if nothing goes wrong, i should be heading to denmark in june!=) (i dun even know what i'm doing in my summer holidays other than cbs, spring stuff for prof sum and tuition. maybe i should go look for a temp job, but one month a bit hard to find ah.)
anyhow, with the end of week 13, i've officially completed my 2 years of being an nus bizad undergrad. the journey has been amazing, many ups and downs, many acquaintances made, many friends made, many lessons learnt, a lot of reality checks. i wouldn't say it has been well-spent, for i think i hadnt put in enough effort into really beefing up my resume.
sometimes i wish i could have kept up with the steps of others in the realm of biz. i guess i've had a good start, but slowly, i'm finding it hard to keep in line with many others. going for internships, going for exchange, going for all the career talks, going for case competitions are all experiences i haven't been going through in my 2 years. sometimes i wonder if biz is really where i want to go 2 years later. i do love the modules and the things i learn, but i wonder if this is going to continue into the future. right now, i guess i'm facing a crisis in the direction i'm taking. somehow, the road ahead doesnt seem so clear and straight anymore.
mugging for pmm was a tall order, and i'm serious. the textbook is the WORST textbook i've come across. it doesnt explain the terms used properly, the grammer and language are sometimes wrong, it's pure black and white, and text takes up 98% of the book. please tell me how to concentrate reading such a textbook. i was literally bored to tears can.
and didn't help that our report was so last minute. didn't help also that i was addicted to this taiwan drama: 敲敲爱上你. i practically was chionging the dvd version of the show in the midst of mugging for pmm. i love how the main girl character in the show, yao ziwang, was portrayed. kinda think i can relate to her. "世界上有一种人是不会被爱, 也不能爱人" such a sad character i must say, having suffered so much in her own family, but yet attaining certain attention for being a successful career woman. yet, she can't even pursue her own happiness, and doesn't dare to, cos of her own inferiority complex after being repressed in the family for so long and the matchmaking practice in the family. and after giving her all to help the person she loves who loves someone else, she doesn't even expect anything back, even when she's at the lowest point of her life. it's like, her life is about wearing a mask everyday, cos wherever she's at, she just has to show the strong side of herself. so sad ain't it. i feel so sad for her (and sometimes myself too cos i see some similarities) everytime i watch the show. and of cos, i only started watching the show cos of 郭品超. haha!
if you didn't already know the extent of my show-watching, i shall type out a list of taiwan variety shows and drama shows (not including s'pore shows) that are keeping me occupied:
- 超级星光大道
- 我猜
- 天才冲冲冲
- 百万大歌星
- 周日大精彩 (used to be 舞林大道)
- 模范棒棒堂
- 爱就宅一起
- 痞子英雄
- 敲敲爱上你
of cos it's not that i finish watching every one of it every week, i do suffer from backlog, and i do download some others to watch if the theme or the artistes are who i like. but sometimes even i myself am amazed at the amount of exposure i have to the entertainment industry in taiwan. i used to just be exposed to the music industry, but doesn't seem so now huh. haha.
slacking has been my middle name for a long time i guess, and even more so after the pmm paper. went for dinner with johnson and luther at suntec (ate at aston's!) after such a long time of not meeting up with the black rose people (though it was just the three of us last night lar). it feels good to be chatting about anything at all, suaning people and getting suaned. after a while, i somehow forgot the time and ended up reaching home past midnight. but yes, it was a good night spent. and today, my parents and i decided to visit the new mall called tampines 1. i quite love that place. we didn't manage to walk the entire place cos of the crowd (the queue outside uniqlo is CRAZY), but i like the shops that are there. seems like a good variety of apparel and food. bought two tops from one of the shops.=X i think i haven't bought clothes for a few months now, ever since taiwan. haha. quite worth the hype i suppose.
on a sidenote, i just received a conditional acceptance email from cbs. if nothing goes wrong, i should be heading to denmark in june!=) (i dun even know what i'm doing in my summer holidays other than cbs, spring stuff for prof sum and tuition. maybe i should go look for a temp job, but one month a bit hard to find ah.)
anyhow, with the end of week 13, i've officially completed my 2 years of being an nus bizad undergrad. the journey has been amazing, many ups and downs, many acquaintances made, many friends made, many lessons learnt, a lot of reality checks. i wouldn't say it has been well-spent, for i think i hadnt put in enough effort into really beefing up my resume.
sometimes i wish i could have kept up with the steps of others in the realm of biz. i guess i've had a good start, but slowly, i'm finding it hard to keep in line with many others. going for internships, going for exchange, going for all the career talks, going for case competitions are all experiences i haven't been going through in my 2 years. sometimes i wonder if biz is really where i want to go 2 years later. i do love the modules and the things i learn, but i wonder if this is going to continue into the future. right now, i guess i'm facing a crisis in the direction i'm taking. somehow, the road ahead doesnt seem so clear and straight anymore.
Monday, April 13, 2009
two more down...
and finally...my last presentation and first quiz of the sem are over. it's a rather huge sigh of relief on my part, but it's definitely worth sighing seeing the way things are turning out this semester. i think i score a lot better in mid-terms than all my projects, and sadly, all my modules this sem are dependent on projects and finals.
it was pure madness mugging for fm. just because i wasn't listening to the lecturer throughout the sem. or maybe i shud say...i was listening but i never once understood what he was saying. mugging for it was quite enjoyable though cos it's like reading a book you never read before, except for the chionging part. i rushed through 8 chapters on sunday alone, waking up at 8am plus, and sleeping at 2am. then went to school at 7.30am to mug all the way till the paper. and for once, on sat i actually cabbed back from my apb group meeting JUST to mug for fm. wow.
good thing the paper turned out ok. made a few mistakes here and there, and a handful of ambiguous answers after our discussion, but overall, it was ok i guess.
then apb presentation. i dunno why i was in a state of blankness during the presentation. good thing my lack of thinking didnt exactly show during our presentation, if not i'd hate myself for it. a bit 舍不得 cos i think apb meetings are always hilarious and quite enjoyable, but i guess i also can't wait for a good 3 months off school to recharge myself.
(on a sidenote, cbs hasnt even replied to say whether my application for the summer school is approved. can't buy air tickets, can't plan for travelling, everything still feels so uncertain. sigh.)
i took time off mugging last night to watch campus superstar finals! especially like jarod's performances for the first song(s) - 千言万语 and 小微 with diya cos i think it's really very creative! love the part when the two songs were mixed. really sounded like it was the same song. then i was rather touched by his version of 下一个天亮. i never imagined a guy would attempt to sing this song, but i think he sang it well, and sang it like his own too. especially all the high notes. even though he mixed up the lyrics.=X
i think he totally deserved to win last night (ok lar i'm a bit biased. but he's such a cute boy don't you think.) but true enough, it really seems quite a repeat of shawn's victory. but anyhow, i thought the quality of performances last night was quite good, so i suppose it was worth the 3 hours that i spent watching instead of mugging for fm. heh.
it was pure madness mugging for fm. just because i wasn't listening to the lecturer throughout the sem. or maybe i shud say...i was listening but i never once understood what he was saying. mugging for it was quite enjoyable though cos it's like reading a book you never read before, except for the chionging part. i rushed through 8 chapters on sunday alone, waking up at 8am plus, and sleeping at 2am. then went to school at 7.30am to mug all the way till the paper. and for once, on sat i actually cabbed back from my apb group meeting JUST to mug for fm. wow.
good thing the paper turned out ok. made a few mistakes here and there, and a handful of ambiguous answers after our discussion, but overall, it was ok i guess.
then apb presentation. i dunno why i was in a state of blankness during the presentation. good thing my lack of thinking didnt exactly show during our presentation, if not i'd hate myself for it. a bit 舍不得 cos i think apb meetings are always hilarious and quite enjoyable, but i guess i also can't wait for a good 3 months off school to recharge myself.
(on a sidenote, cbs hasnt even replied to say whether my application for the summer school is approved. can't buy air tickets, can't plan for travelling, everything still feels so uncertain. sigh.)
i took time off mugging last night to watch campus superstar finals! especially like jarod's performances for the first song(s) - 千言万语 and 小微 with diya cos i think it's really very creative! love the part when the two songs were mixed. really sounded like it was the same song. then i was rather touched by his version of 下一个天亮. i never imagined a guy would attempt to sing this song, but i think he sang it well, and sang it like his own too. especially all the high notes. even though he mixed up the lyrics.=X
i think he totally deserved to win last night (ok lar i'm a bit biased. but he's such a cute boy don't you think.) but true enough, it really seems quite a repeat of shawn's victory. but anyhow, i thought the quality of performances last night was quite good, so i suppose it was worth the 3 hours that i spent watching instead of mugging for fm. heh.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
finally some photos...
with vivien in copenhagen, there's simply no one to cam-whore with. so decided to bring my camera to school this week to capture some of the actions this semester. heh.
today was the last lesson for bizcomm, so decided to take a photo with our dearest tutor, waheeda.=)
joce, xuhan and vincent (the famous soccer star=P) with ms waheeda! the scores behind are so depressing...
haha i deliberately dun want to rotate it. quite cool huh.=)
a full group shot! shud have taken during the presentation. sigh...
amelia and amelia.=)
farah val mel!=)
i love this photo!=)
attempted group shot though my face too huge. haha.
joce!!
this sem has been crazy, and results are so chui, but it feels like a fulfilling sem. learnt a lot, emoed a lot, broke down a lot, but at the same time, got to know a lot more friends. we might not stay in contact after this sem, but at least the company was good for as long as it lasted.=)
i foresee my cap dropping below first class border. sigh...
today was the last lesson for bizcomm, so decided to take a photo with our dearest tutor, waheeda.=)
joce, xuhan and vincent (the famous soccer star=P) with ms waheeda! the scores behind are so depressing...
haha i deliberately dun want to rotate it. quite cool huh.=)
a full group shot! shud have taken during the presentation. sigh...
amelia and amelia.=)
farah val mel!=)
i love this photo!=)
attempted group shot though my face too huge. haha.
joce!!
this sem has been crazy, and results are so chui, but it feels like a fulfilling sem. learnt a lot, emoed a lot, broke down a lot, but at the same time, got to know a lot more friends. we might not stay in contact after this sem, but at least the company was good for as long as it lasted.=)
i foresee my cap dropping below first class border. sigh...
i miss such humour...
ben cai sent me an email in response to my depressing nick:
Creative Puns for "Educated Minds"
1. The roundest knight at King Arthur's round table was Sir Cumference. He acquired his size from too much pi.
2. I thought I saw an eye doctor on an Alaskan island, but it turned out to be an optical Aleutian.
3. She was only a whiskey maker, but he loved her still.
4. A rubber band pistol was confiscated from algebra class because it was a weapon of math disruption.
5. The butcher backed into the meat grinder and got a little behind in his work.
6. No matter how much you push the envelope, it'll still be stationery.
7. A dog gave birth to puppies near the road and was cited for littering.
8. A grenade thrown into a kitchen in France would result in Linoleum Blownapart.
9. Two silk worms had a race. They ended up in a tie.
10. Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.
11. A hole has been found in the nudist camp wall. The police are looking into it.
12. Atheism is a non-prophet organization.
13. Two hats were hanging on a hat rack in the hallway. One hat said to the other, "You stay here; I'll go on a head."
14. I wondered why the baseball kept getting bigger. Then it hit me. (my fave!)
15. A sign on the lawn at a drug rehab center said: "Keep off the Grass."
16. A small boy swallowed some coins and was taken to a hospital. When his grandmother telephoned to ask how he was, a nurse said, "No change yet."
17. A chicken crossing the road is poultry in motion.
19. The short fortuneteller who escaped from prison was a small medium at large.
20. The man who survived mustard gas and pepper spray is now a seasoned veteran.
21. A backward poet writes inverse.
22. In democracy it's your vote that counts. In feudalism it's your count that votes.
23. She was only the meteorologist's daughter, but you could look in her eyes and tell weather........!
24. Don't join dangerous cults: Practise safe sects
Creative Puns for "Educated Minds"
1. The roundest knight at King Arthur's round table was Sir Cumference. He acquired his size from too much pi.
2. I thought I saw an eye doctor on an Alaskan island, but it turned out to be an optical Aleutian.
3. She was only a whiskey maker, but he loved her still.
4. A rubber band pistol was confiscated from algebra class because it was a weapon of math disruption.
5. The butcher backed into the meat grinder and got a little behind in his work.
6. No matter how much you push the envelope, it'll still be stationery.
7. A dog gave birth to puppies near the road and was cited for littering.
8. A grenade thrown into a kitchen in France would result in Linoleum Blownapart.
9. Two silk worms had a race. They ended up in a tie.
10. Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.
11. A hole has been found in the nudist camp wall. The police are looking into it.
12. Atheism is a non-prophet organization.
13. Two hats were hanging on a hat rack in the hallway. One hat said to the other, "You stay here; I'll go on a head."
14. I wondered why the baseball kept getting bigger. Then it hit me. (my fave!)
15. A sign on the lawn at a drug rehab center said: "Keep off the Grass."
16. A small boy swallowed some coins and was taken to a hospital. When his grandmother telephoned to ask how he was, a nurse said, "No change yet."
17. A chicken crossing the road is poultry in motion.
19. The short fortuneteller who escaped from prison was a small medium at large.
20. The man who survived mustard gas and pepper spray is now a seasoned veteran.
21. A backward poet writes inverse.
22. In democracy it's your vote that counts. In feudalism it's your count that votes.
23. She was only the meteorologist's daughter, but you could look in her eyes and tell weather........!
24. Don't join dangerous cults: Practise safe sects
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
暗恋
好久没听新歌了. 以前并不这么喜欢张智成, 因为觉得他r&b的技巧有点太刻意了. 反而从<快乐>之后,似乎减少了, 所以我也许就这样比较喜欢他的歌了.
暗恋 - 张智成
作词/作曲：彭学斌
四目交接的时候 不要停留太久
适可而止的问候 关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索 妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说
啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默 不能让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
什么会多一些 什么会少一些
就让别人去猜测 我们清白的很
就让自己去承受 那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友 能不能有要求
如果你发生什么 也是我想太多
啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原
那是我的底线 继续将你暗恋
暗恋的痛楚, 不是每个人都了解, 但我非常明白. 真的有点唱到心坎里了.
暗恋 - 张智成
作词/作曲：彭学斌
四目交接的时候 不要停留太久
适可而止的问候 关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索 妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说
啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默 不能让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
什么会多一些 什么会少一些
就让别人去猜测 我们清白的很
就让自己去承受 那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友 能不能有要求
如果你发生什么 也是我想太多
啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原
那是我的底线 继续将你暗恋
暗恋的痛楚, 不是每个人都了解, 但我非常明白. 真的有点唱到心坎里了.
叶子
还记得阿桑吗?
那 <叶子>呢?
叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
好可惜啊! 这么好的一把声音就这样销声匿迹了.
那 <叶子>呢?
叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
好可惜啊! 这么好的一把声音就这样销声匿迹了.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
i seriously dun understand
sometimes i think no matter how much effort i put into my studies, i will never ever please my parents.
i can't believe that at this time and age, they are still so engrossed in results. for goodness sake, i'm an undergrad!!!! and i know what i'm doing. there's REALLY no need to keep reminding me that i need to study blah blah.
i really am very angry. just because whatever i do, whether i study or not, they also won't think i'm hardworking. so what's the point may i ask?
sometimes i really dun see any point in studying so hard. i study when they're out, and i slack when they're at home. so MY FAULT?!?!?
if it wasn't for the fact that school is seriously too far away and that i can't find people to study out with, i would have love to stay out all day. rather than stay at home and be criticised for not studying. even if i was, you all never EVER think it's sufficient anyway.
thanks for making me feel so inferior ah. i really dun understand. why must everything be about results. or about money. why can't they see that their child is actually good for something and not someone lazy as they always make me out to be?
i can't believe that at this time and age, they are still so engrossed in results. for goodness sake, i'm an undergrad!!!! and i know what i'm doing. there's REALLY no need to keep reminding me that i need to study blah blah.
i really am very angry. just because whatever i do, whether i study or not, they also won't think i'm hardworking. so what's the point may i ask?
sometimes i really dun see any point in studying so hard. i study when they're out, and i slack when they're at home. so MY FAULT?!?!?
if it wasn't for the fact that school is seriously too far away and that i can't find people to study out with, i would have love to stay out all day. rather than stay at home and be criticised for not studying. even if i was, you all never EVER think it's sufficient anyway.
thanks for making me feel so inferior ah. i really dun understand. why must everything be about results. or about money. why can't they see that their child is actually good for something and not someone lazy as they always make me out to be?
what type of person am i
Observer
Observers want knowledge and they're introverted, inquisitive, understandable and analytical. It's hard for them to handle their feelings, they rather use their head than their heart. Other people can find them cool, distant, bussinesslike and non-emotional. Actually they are very sensitive, but it's just difficult to express it. They like to be alone to process their emotions. Observers don't like it when others dominate them. RELATIONSHIPS: You know you cover yourself from the world and you long for contact. You're afraid to open up. You feel attracted to people who give you space, then you can give and take. You choose friends with the same interests. FIXATION: stinginess VICE: greed VIRTUE: detachment PROFESSIONS: scientist, investigator, inspector, librarian, monk, ...
i somehow think it's rather accurate, other than the stinginess and greed part. and of cos the professions too. HAHA.=)
i somehow think it's rather accurate, other than the stinginess and greed part. and of cos the professions too. HAHA.=)
Saturday, April 4, 2009
classic comments
just thought i should post this...
jocelin and i were so amused by royston our apb group mate.
me: how long more will you take to edit the report?
him: 1 1/2 pages lor
(we had a page limit for our report)
-_-
me: how can you multi-task so well ah? talking and editing at the same time.
him: i'm cutting as i'm crapping. in short, i'm cutting the crap.
-_-'
(we were discussing if we should wear sari and put the red dot on our foreheads for our apb presentation since we're doing on india)
him: just buy the red dot for them lar. if not what, ask someone in the audience to point a laser pointer at their foreheads ah?
-_-"
may not sound very funny here, but it kept jocelin and i laughing for a super long time. i think we go high very easily these days.
then of cos there's bizcomm presentation that we kept laughing about.
when vincent was presenting, he suddenly had a mind block and couldn't continue his sentence. when our tutor asked him why, he answered:
"to be perfectly honest, i was looking at ____ then she gave me the *blank* face, i got scared and i couldn't think after that."
what a thing to say. but the whole class laughed like mad.
that's why i said i quite enjoy doing projects with all my group members this sem. projects drove me crazy, but on hindsight, it was good to know so many new friends. though i doubt these friendships will last long. that's a problem with uni life i guess. sigh.
jocelin and i were so amused by royston our apb group mate.
me: how long more will you take to edit the report?
him: 1 1/2 pages lor
(we had a page limit for our report)
-_-
me: how can you multi-task so well ah? talking and editing at the same time.
him: i'm cutting as i'm crapping. in short, i'm cutting the crap.
-_-'
(we were discussing if we should wear sari and put the red dot on our foreheads for our apb presentation since we're doing on india)
him: just buy the red dot for them lar. if not what, ask someone in the audience to point a laser pointer at their foreheads ah?
-_-"
may not sound very funny here, but it kept jocelin and i laughing for a super long time. i think we go high very easily these days.
then of cos there's bizcomm presentation that we kept laughing about.
when vincent was presenting, he suddenly had a mind block and couldn't continue his sentence. when our tutor asked him why, he answered:
"to be perfectly honest, i was looking at ____ then she gave me the *blank* face, i got scared and i couldn't think after that."
what a thing to say. but the whole class laughed like mad.
that's why i said i quite enjoy doing projects with all my group members this sem. projects drove me crazy, but on hindsight, it was good to know so many new friends. though i doubt these friendships will last long. that's a problem with uni life i guess. sigh.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel
oh my i haven't been so at ease for sooooo long. at least i'm not worrying about any presentation slides or report submission anytime soon. it's such a great feeling, it's like being released from jail. haha ok i'm exaggerating. but it just feels good.
it's actually nothing much to be happy about. but at least 3 major presentations are over in the last 7 days. nothing to worry about for intro to computing, bizcomm until exams. of cos there's still report submission for pmm and fm, and presentation for apb, but ah well, we're almost there.
and somehow, i feel we did rather well for the 3 major presentations. at least there weren't major screw-ups. other than the embarrassing moments at fm, everything else turned out fine, even bizcomm! i was so damn scared of bizcomm presentation right from the start of the module, but somehow it turned out better than i thought. didn't really refer to notes as well. i think it helps that i knew the content quite well.
in any case, i feel like a big load's off my mind. mel val joce and i even went to 'celebrate' at sushi tei before our apb lecture today. heh. anyhow, i should start shifting my focus to exams and final quizzes already.
i should really thank all my project group members this semester, though i doubt any of them actually do come here. for all the laughter, the arguments, the sending home (whether on car or by bike), the crazy stressful moments, the undecisive moments, etc etc. at least i was able to maintain sanity, even though i really broke down a lot of times this semester (as evident by the last few posts). nevertheless, i'm glad i got to know a lot more people this time round.
i dun suppose i can ever maintain my cap from last sem onwards, but at least i should enjoy my semesters rite.
and i really miss a lot of people. amidst the craziness of projects, i havent even been talking to people other than my group members. haven't even been seeing the black rose people around. how tragic can things get.
i haven't shopped, chatted, played, watched movie for a damn long time. anyone interested in anything mentioned, please contact me at my handphone. HAHA.=D
it's actually nothing much to be happy about. but at least 3 major presentations are over in the last 7 days. nothing to worry about for intro to computing, bizcomm until exams. of cos there's still report submission for pmm and fm, and presentation for apb, but ah well, we're almost there.
and somehow, i feel we did rather well for the 3 major presentations. at least there weren't major screw-ups. other than the embarrassing moments at fm, everything else turned out fine, even bizcomm! i was so damn scared of bizcomm presentation right from the start of the module, but somehow it turned out better than i thought. didn't really refer to notes as well. i think it helps that i knew the content quite well.
in any case, i feel like a big load's off my mind. mel val joce and i even went to 'celebrate' at sushi tei before our apb lecture today. heh. anyhow, i should start shifting my focus to exams and final quizzes already.
i should really thank all my project group members this semester, though i doubt any of them actually do come here. for all the laughter, the arguments, the sending home (whether on car or by bike), the crazy stressful moments, the undecisive moments, etc etc. at least i was able to maintain sanity, even though i really broke down a lot of times this semester (as evident by the last few posts). nevertheless, i'm glad i got to know a lot more people this time round.
i dun suppose i can ever maintain my cap from last sem onwards, but at least i should enjoy my semesters rite.
and i really miss a lot of people. amidst the craziness of projects, i havent even been talking to people other than my group members. haven't even been seeing the black rose people around. how tragic can things get.
i haven't shopped, chatted, played, watched movie for a damn long time. anyone interested in anything mentioned, please contact me at my handphone. HAHA.=D
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