sometimes i wonder if my existence made/makes any difference or not. home is nowhere happier with me around, so is it even worth the trouble.
hai it's one of those times when i just sink deeply into my own thoughts.
been lying on my bed the whole morning and afternoon today. woke up at midnight and vomitted. went back to sleep, though i couldn't fall asleep till like two hours later, woke up at 11, had some rounds of diarrhoea, then went back to my bed and slept till 3pm. didn't eat anything all the way till 7 plus when i had my dinner. still feeling weird, but i guess i'm fine lar. felt so weak till i had to cancel driving, and had to pay for 1/2 the lesson.=X money wasted. ah well not like i could drive in my state anw.
supposed to prepare for my pp interview, but did nothing. 1 page resume. hai...
my mum and bro are encouraging me not to go for the pp interview. they feel i wouldn't be able to cope with the workload even if i go through the interview (which i highly doubt so). should i just not go and save all that trouble? or should i just try and get the experience. i have no idea seriously. ahhhh
jaslyn bought a bag for me from japan. oh man so nice of her! to think of me even though she's having holiday. awww... and she's been asking me about uni and stuff. even asked what my mum ate during her pregnancy.=X i was insisting that i'm really not smart enough, but she said it's sufficient.=X ah well. nice knowing that she thinks quite highly of me.=)
really really hope i can stay till end june or something. i'm super getting used to the environment here, and people are all damn nice.
have my own laptop now. free one. not as good as my bro's, but i guess it's sufficient. imagine not having to share comp and wait for one again.=)
ok i better go rest soon. my body is still super weak from having minimal food.=X
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
another interview.
i guess i was too quick to say that today's interview was going to be my first and last one.=X nus called me today and told me to go for an interview next wed for my application to the concurrent degree! omg. i NEVER expected to be shortlisted cos of my results! and somemore it's a MASTERS! well i doubt i'll ever get it, so i guess i just go for the interview for the experience lar.=X
interview was....ok i suppose. all the questions they asked were about myself, so i didn't think i had much trouble answer them. only problem lies in the way i structured my sentences, and repetition of the same points. and i made myself sound like some econs genius, which i'm not.=X BUT if i found it ok, i bet the rest found it easy. how to stand out?! hai...
saw yiming there too!=) had the same interviewers. heh. everytime i think something went quite ok, nothing good will come out of it. so i have no idea if i would even get into the program. better not expect so much.
the public policy one.....oh my. i think i better go read up liao. though i said i'll just go for the experience, it's best i dun malu myself so much. and they said FORMAL WEAR. omg what are they gonna do man.
on my way out while getting directions from my bro on how to get home, i slipped and fell like some idiot. and my slipper strap broke! so what choice do i have but to take cab.=( $15 leh...
ok haven been home so early for a long time. maybe i should go run or sleep. haha.
interview was....ok i suppose. all the questions they asked were about myself, so i didn't think i had much trouble answer them. only problem lies in the way i structured my sentences, and repetition of the same points. and i made myself sound like some econs genius, which i'm not.=X BUT if i found it ok, i bet the rest found it easy. how to stand out?! hai...
saw yiming there too!=) had the same interviewers. heh. everytime i think something went quite ok, nothing good will come out of it. so i have no idea if i would even get into the program. better not expect so much.
the public policy one.....oh my. i think i better go read up liao. though i said i'll just go for the experience, it's best i dun malu myself so much. and they said FORMAL WEAR. omg what are they gonna do man.
on my way out while getting directions from my bro on how to get home, i slipped and fell like some idiot. and my slipper strap broke! so what choice do i have but to take cab.=( $15 leh...
ok haven been home so early for a long time. maybe i should go run or sleep. haha.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
interview.
oh my i'm so unprepared. didn't realise until yowie pointed it out. have been busy reading up on current affairs so much so that i forgot to think about my answers if they were to ask me about myself. i better start thinking about stuff now.
i'll be so relieved after the interview. it's my first and last one anw. after tmr, i'll just be sitting and waiting for results. that doesn't require much effort. oh my, i've become a bum.=X
these few days have been....boring. MG was around in the office but we nv talked again, until i asked him about the sales kit. jaslyn asked me if i needed her to be around tmr. it's so scary. if ANYTHING goes wrong for the sales kit, i'm in deep trouble. cover page is such a tricky issue. and what can i do if i'm totally not a creative person.=X
then again, i'm feeling more and more comfortable at work, prob also more confident. joyce told me today, "i've seen how you've grown this period. very good!" and she actually commended me for my article. heh.
when you have no life, all you talk about is work.
oh rebonded my hair. looks damn funny. cos my face is too long, and the straight hair just makes it worse. didn't imagine it but yeah, still not used to it. i think if my fringe is longer, it'd be better. but other people say it's fine. ah well. maybe i need to colour it.
class dinner on mon. so happy get to meet people! but sorry didn't know ocs people won't be out.=X hai hope most people would go.
jun is away at camp for one whole week! oh my. a really good experience for her i guess. but it's so long....
ok wish me luck for interview! ahhhhhhh no confidence.=X
i'll be so relieved after the interview. it's my first and last one anw. after tmr, i'll just be sitting and waiting for results. that doesn't require much effort. oh my, i've become a bum.=X
these few days have been....boring. MG was around in the office but we nv talked again, until i asked him about the sales kit. jaslyn asked me if i needed her to be around tmr. it's so scary. if ANYTHING goes wrong for the sales kit, i'm in deep trouble. cover page is such a tricky issue. and what can i do if i'm totally not a creative person.=X
then again, i'm feeling more and more comfortable at work, prob also more confident. joyce told me today, "i've seen how you've grown this period. very good!" and she actually commended me for my article. heh.
when you have no life, all you talk about is work.
oh rebonded my hair. looks damn funny. cos my face is too long, and the straight hair just makes it worse. didn't imagine it but yeah, still not used to it. i think if my fringe is longer, it'd be better. but other people say it's fine. ah well. maybe i need to colour it.
class dinner on mon. so happy get to meet people! but sorry didn't know ocs people won't be out.=X hai hope most people would go.
jun is away at camp for one whole week! oh my. a really good experience for her i guess. but it's so long....
ok wish me luck for interview! ahhhhhhh no confidence.=X
Sunday, April 22, 2007
the only thing.
a week of inactivity, and routine i must say.
except that....my hamster died.=( my last-ever hamster i believe. she was my bday gift to my bro two years ago. ah well. it's always so painful to see the moments before a hamster (or whatever animal for that matter) die - the struggle, the lying there with only the ears moving when noise is detected, the decrease in size...... yet you know that you can't help at all. but i guess it's always the same with any death.
i wonder if my rabbits are really too fat.=X
went jogging on thurs too. good thing whatever happened last time didn't happen again. i shall try to be more consistent.=X oh cherlene and a few others at work asked me to join them for badminton every wed.=X i hope they aren't that powerful, so i won't feel so paiseh.but it'll be good i guess. networking plus exercising at the same time. hah.
i lost my birthday list! ahhhhhh....
been watching lin yu zhong's videos on youtube. oh my i somehow wonder how come he's not gaining popularity in s'pore. i like his personality, and of cos his songs. but everytime i visit youtube, i will not sleep before two.=X i was so sleepy at work the whole week lar.
and driving today was good, despite not driving for two weeks. didn't stall at all, and i feel like i have better control over the car now, esp during turnings. and somemore, i've been chionging roads at 70km/h. less cars are overtaking mine! HAHA!
got a place in ntu. then again, it's prob not where i'm going.
i feel as though i can't see the road ahead. it's so blur now. i've lost my bearings. but more importantly, i've lost my drive, if i even had in the past. for now, there's only one thing that i need/want.
except that....my hamster died.=( my last-ever hamster i believe. she was my bday gift to my bro two years ago. ah well. it's always so painful to see the moments before a hamster (or whatever animal for that matter) die - the struggle, the lying there with only the ears moving when noise is detected, the decrease in size...... yet you know that you can't help at all. but i guess it's always the same with any death.
i wonder if my rabbits are really too fat.=X
went jogging on thurs too. good thing whatever happened last time didn't happen again. i shall try to be more consistent.=X oh cherlene and a few others at work asked me to join them for badminton every wed.=X i hope they aren't that powerful, so i won't feel so paiseh.but it'll be good i guess. networking plus exercising at the same time. hah.
i lost my birthday list! ahhhhhh....
been watching lin yu zhong's videos on youtube. oh my i somehow wonder how come he's not gaining popularity in s'pore. i like his personality, and of cos his songs. but everytime i visit youtube, i will not sleep before two.=X i was so sleepy at work the whole week lar.
and driving today was good, despite not driving for two weeks. didn't stall at all, and i feel like i have better control over the car now, esp during turnings. and somemore, i've been chionging roads at 70km/h. less cars are overtaking mine! HAHA!
got a place in ntu. then again, it's prob not where i'm going.
i feel as though i can't see the road ahead. it's so blur now. i've lost my bearings. but more importantly, i've lost my drive, if i even had in the past. for now, there's only one thing that i need/want.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
nostalgia
one year has passed since we stood at the rooftop. it was an amazing feeling. to have gone through one year, and now, yet another year. it seems like ytd when we stood together, shouting R-A-F-F-L-E-S, giving everyone hugs, notes, encouragement....
council camp always makes me feel overwhelmed with emotions. in 2005, i never felt so accomplished before. it's like going through the whole camp makes you feel that you will be able to achieve anything, just anything. and with everyone else always right behind you, cheering you on. every single person mattered.
one year passed, and when it was time for us 25ths to conduct the camp, i felt like i was on a mission, to pass down nothing but the best to the 26ths. i told myself, i gained so much from the camp, i want the 26ths to gain even more. seeing my buddies did everything i did the previous year, i felt so much in their position, to want to fight in their shoes once again. but all i could do was to give support from the side, and through our actions, let them know the true meaning of a councillor.
as a grandbuddy back in school this year, i felt like reliving the memories again. i almost teared when i heard their cheering, and saw their running around. i was so worried for hy as a ccic, also worried for david as a vice-pres. but glad to see they were both alright on the 2nd night. buddy time was cancelled, and poor jun and kang who bought so much for their grandbuddies, they didn't even manage to see them. talked to david till 1230am before we left school. it was a really good convo.=) then stayed over at jun's house. i nv failed to sleep earlier than her each time i go to her house.=X
met 25ths for breakfast at macs before going to school. cc video was amazing. met up with my grandbuddies justin and vivian! justin is so....a lil boy despite his size. vivian is a really really nice girl.=) derrick came back too! so together with shuyan's tree, there were 9 of us.=D jerik and matthew decided to crash since dani couldn't be around, so our group became 13. afterwards, jason with his and rng's buddies saw us and asked if they could join! so in the end, a group of 16 were sitting in thai express, and making a reasonable amount of noise. heh. but it felt really good to catch up. talking about the good old times, and talking about what we're going to do with our own individual lives. after all, the age range was from 16 to 20. i do hope david sends us the photos soon!
i really do want the family tree to last much longer than it did last time. and since i work so near school, there isn't a reason for me not to go back to school and talk to my buddies and grandbuddies. my line is ever so powerful. HAHA.
and i must say, alex and alvin and lincoln are really funny but damn nice guys! when i was back on the second night, they came up to me and asked me how i was etc. and i felt quite touched. like i nv did get a very good chance to talk to them, but they were still concerned about how i was doing and all. oh man. nice juniors i have rite. awww....
a 24th is getting married. ?!?!?!?!
ah well. it always felt good going back to rj, despite how awkward i sometimes feel.
hmm ravenscoft on saturday. sat right in front so my neck was aching like mad. play was.....alright. but i guess sometimes it's all in the name of charity. i really hope they can achieve their target.
received a letter from usp about an interview. i'd really have preferred gms to usp, but i guess at least i know that something good seems to be emerging. but then again, interview has always been my greatest obstacle. it's not easy for me not to screw up my interview. but at least i know at least SOME organisation doesn't just look at results. i have to go look up on game theory, and read up on current affairs.
gms is confirmed gone. and any nus scholarships for that matter. hai.....
jaslyn whispered to me saying that i might be able to stay till june. i want to.... but i dun want to keep my expectations high too.=X
fri's tuition was good. partly because it was chem, and also cos it was a good session as i finally got to know him better! talked to dylan quite a lot about his family and stuff. glad i didn't choose to postpone it.=)
on an ending note, to jun, thanks for always understanding. nv could imagine life without you in jc, and until now.=)
council camp always makes me feel overwhelmed with emotions. in 2005, i never felt so accomplished before. it's like going through the whole camp makes you feel that you will be able to achieve anything, just anything. and with everyone else always right behind you, cheering you on. every single person mattered.
one year passed, and when it was time for us 25ths to conduct the camp, i felt like i was on a mission, to pass down nothing but the best to the 26ths. i told myself, i gained so much from the camp, i want the 26ths to gain even more. seeing my buddies did everything i did the previous year, i felt so much in their position, to want to fight in their shoes once again. but all i could do was to give support from the side, and through our actions, let them know the true meaning of a councillor.
as a grandbuddy back in school this year, i felt like reliving the memories again. i almost teared when i heard their cheering, and saw their running around. i was so worried for hy as a ccic, also worried for david as a vice-pres. but glad to see they were both alright on the 2nd night. buddy time was cancelled, and poor jun and kang who bought so much for their grandbuddies, they didn't even manage to see them. talked to david till 1230am before we left school. it was a really good convo.=) then stayed over at jun's house. i nv failed to sleep earlier than her each time i go to her house.=X
met 25ths for breakfast at macs before going to school. cc video was amazing. met up with my grandbuddies justin and vivian! justin is so....a lil boy despite his size. vivian is a really really nice girl.=) derrick came back too! so together with shuyan's tree, there were 9 of us.=D jerik and matthew decided to crash since dani couldn't be around, so our group became 13. afterwards, jason with his and rng's buddies saw us and asked if they could join! so in the end, a group of 16 were sitting in thai express, and making a reasonable amount of noise. heh. but it felt really good to catch up. talking about the good old times, and talking about what we're going to do with our own individual lives. after all, the age range was from 16 to 20. i do hope david sends us the photos soon!
i really do want the family tree to last much longer than it did last time. and since i work so near school, there isn't a reason for me not to go back to school and talk to my buddies and grandbuddies. my line is ever so powerful. HAHA.
and i must say, alex and alvin and lincoln are really funny but damn nice guys! when i was back on the second night, they came up to me and asked me how i was etc. and i felt quite touched. like i nv did get a very good chance to talk to them, but they were still concerned about how i was doing and all. oh man. nice juniors i have rite. awww....
a 24th is getting married. ?!?!?!?!
ah well. it always felt good going back to rj, despite how awkward i sometimes feel.
hmm ravenscoft on saturday. sat right in front so my neck was aching like mad. play was.....alright. but i guess sometimes it's all in the name of charity. i really hope they can achieve their target.
received a letter from usp about an interview. i'd really have preferred gms to usp, but i guess at least i know that something good seems to be emerging. but then again, interview has always been my greatest obstacle. it's not easy for me not to screw up my interview. but at least i know at least SOME organisation doesn't just look at results. i have to go look up on game theory, and read up on current affairs.
gms is confirmed gone. and any nus scholarships for that matter. hai.....
jaslyn whispered to me saying that i might be able to stay till june. i want to.... but i dun want to keep my expectations high too.=X
fri's tuition was good. partly because it was chem, and also cos it was a good session as i finally got to know him better! talked to dylan quite a lot about his family and stuff. glad i didn't choose to postpone it.=)
on an ending note, to jun, thanks for always understanding. nv could imagine life without you in jc, and until now.=)
Friday, April 13, 2007
more quizzes!
ja..your fault again! heh.
haha probably.
therapist..have you ever heard of therapist who can't express themselves well?=X
a lil true.
heh ja. you shud do this!=P
hai all the temp staff are leaving soon. zester's last day tmr, steven's next week. not that i talk to them, but sometimes seeing people of relatively the same age as you makes you feel a lot more comfortable, and what's more they are quite good-looking. HAHA.
i dun wanna be the next to leave after them.=(
just watched phantom of the opera at the esplanade. free ticket, courtesy of jun's dad, courtesy of jpmorgan. thought i wore a lil too formal though.=X the cocktail reception was a lil scary, with all the socialising going on, but the people were generally nice. the show itself was an eye-opener. the whole stage arrangement was damn good, plus all the effects, and the props. and the singing, though i didn't really understand some parts. after that another cocktail with nice jap food, then the cast came! took photographs and autographs, and they were all so friendly.=)
why do i have to bump into people i do not wish to meet? it's such a familiar face, but i chose to turn away still. it's like, finally you're feeling better, and then you just sink into another xuan wo.
MG came down ytd and today. nv dared to say hi. thought it'd be good, but he's not that friendly, so i guess it'd be weird for me to take the initiative. just avoid lor.
ok i shud sleep.
| You Are 9: The Peacemaker |
You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others. Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict. You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come. Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm. |
haha probably.
| You Have Your Emotions in Check |
 You are an incredibly stable and happy person. Ever consider being a therapist? You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what. You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more. |
therapist..have you ever heard of therapist who can't express themselves well?=X
| What Your Face Says |
 At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable. Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress. |
a lil true.
| You Are 56% Shy |
 Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person. Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life. |
heh ja. you shud do this!=P
hai all the temp staff are leaving soon. zester's last day tmr, steven's next week. not that i talk to them, but sometimes seeing people of relatively the same age as you makes you feel a lot more comfortable, and what's more they are quite good-looking. HAHA.
i dun wanna be the next to leave after them.=(
just watched phantom of the opera at the esplanade. free ticket, courtesy of jun's dad, courtesy of jpmorgan. thought i wore a lil too formal though.=X the cocktail reception was a lil scary, with all the socialising going on, but the people were generally nice. the show itself was an eye-opener. the whole stage arrangement was damn good, plus all the effects, and the props. and the singing, though i didn't really understand some parts. after that another cocktail with nice jap food, then the cast came! took photographs and autographs, and they were all so friendly.=)
why do i have to bump into people i do not wish to meet? it's such a familiar face, but i chose to turn away still. it's like, finally you're feeling better, and then you just sink into another xuan wo.
MG came down ytd and today. nv dared to say hi. thought it'd be good, but he's not that friendly, so i guess it'd be weird for me to take the initiative. just avoid lor.
ok i shud sleep.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
status quo
i think i have been eating double my normal portion these few days lar. my goodness. suddenly feel like eating a lot. hai. and what mel and siew KINDLY reminded me just now, i'm not even exercising.=X maybe i shud try forgetting the bad experience the last time i jogged. should get down to some real exercising, though time is always a problem.
mahjong was quite fun. omg godiva chocolates! we ate like they were free lar. yummy! =P
work these days have been super xiong. cos having meetings, then having to rush so many deadlines. and jaslyn told me the perm staff can start work anytime now. so once she comes, i'll have to leave. AHHH. i dun want to go look for another job!!!! but anw, these days have been ot-ing until almost 7pm. and i was soo late for tuition last night, which was another vomit-blood session. =X
but good thing i knocked off from work late today, if not i'll have to wait an even longer time for mel siew boon pong. it was good to be sitting down, talking and eating at east coast. all spicy food lar, and my throat feels damn funny now. hai ah well.
sometimes i wonder if we should question status quo. things are not at their best state, but i have no idea how to change them. hai.
and on another note, vivian lee and justin wong [this rugger] are my grandbuddies! and i heard both of them are very nice.=D can't wait to meet them on sat/sun!=)david and hongyi were so funny. they msged me together at the same time telling me their buddies, and saying that they were next to each other on the bus! haha. oh and derrick's joining us too.=D been a LOOOOONG time since i met him. wow.
argh. tiredness. really wonder how much commitment i can give to whatever i'm doing right now. been reaching home at midnight these days. and whenever i sit down in front of my comp, i'd tend not to concentrate. hai.
good night.=)
mahjong was quite fun. omg godiva chocolates! we ate like they were free lar. yummy! =P
work these days have been super xiong. cos having meetings, then having to rush so many deadlines. and jaslyn told me the perm staff can start work anytime now. so once she comes, i'll have to leave. AHHH. i dun want to go look for another job!!!! but anw, these days have been ot-ing until almost 7pm. and i was soo late for tuition last night, which was another vomit-blood session. =X
but good thing i knocked off from work late today, if not i'll have to wait an even longer time for mel siew boon pong. it was good to be sitting down, talking and eating at east coast. all spicy food lar, and my throat feels damn funny now. hai ah well.
sometimes i wonder if we should question status quo. things are not at their best state, but i have no idea how to change them. hai.
and on another note, vivian lee and justin wong [this rugger] are my grandbuddies! and i heard both of them are very nice.=D can't wait to meet them on sat/sun!=)david and hongyi were so funny. they msged me together at the same time telling me their buddies, and saying that they were next to each other on the bus! haha. oh and derrick's joining us too.=D been a LOOOOONG time since i met him. wow.
argh. tiredness. really wonder how much commitment i can give to whatever i'm doing right now. been reaching home at midnight these days. and whenever i sit down in front of my comp, i'd tend not to concentrate. hai.
good night.=)
Monday, April 9, 2007
quizzes
haha courtesy of ja. heh.
quite true. except the second part of the second sentence.
HAHA. my vocab. dun expect any better.
hmm......a lil controversial.
no no. boring jobs.
hahah it MIGHT be true.=P
damn true.
hmm..half true?
amazingly true.
i dun think "many" people do actually. haha.
do i really want to?
haha ok.
heh not bad at all.
i think that's enough for now. haha.
| You Communicate With Your Ears |
 You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod. |
quite true. except the second part of the second sentence.
| Your Vocabulary Score: C- |
 Your vocabulary is average. You're not exactly a literature major, but no one's going to accuse you of being illiterate! |
HAHA. my vocab. dun expect any better.
| Your Brain's Pattern |
 You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. |
hmm......a lil controversial.
| Your Career Type: Conventional |
 You are orderly and good at following a set plan. Your talents lie in working with written records and numbers in a systematic, orderly way. You would make an excellent: Bank Teller - Bookkeeper - Court Clerk Mail Carrier - Post Office Clerk - Secretary Timekeeper - Title Examiner - Typist The worst career options for your are artistic careers, like comedian or dancer. |
no no. boring jobs.
| Never Date an Aquarius |
 Freaky, unconventional, and downright strange - it's likely that any Aquarius will weird you out. And if you do happen to fall for an Aquarius, you'll probably find them too emotionally distant to connect with. Instead try dating: Cancer, Pisces, Capricorn, or Virgo |
hahah it MIGHT be true.=P
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them. |
damn true.
| You Are 68% Peaceful |
 You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on. Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat. Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize. |
hmm..half true?
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust. |
amazingly true.
| You Are A Good Friend |
 You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"! |
i dun think "many" people do actually. haha.
| You Can Change Your Life, But It Won't Be Easy |
 You really, truly want to change. You're just not sure that you can do it. You need a solid plan, supportive friends, and a strong will. Think about times you've made hard changes, and what you did to get through them. A change is in your future - you just need a little help getting started. |
do i really want to?
| You Are 73% Grown Up, 27% Kid |
 Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed. |
haha ok.
| You Are a Peacemaker Soul |
 You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can. War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace. You are a good mediator and a true negotiator. Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental. You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take. On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit. You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul |
heh not bad at all.
i think that's enough for now. haha.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
nice weekend.=)
long weekend is ending soon.=(
but nevertheless, it was quite good, and relaxing. could at least sleep till 11am for the past 3 days. which is quite a rarity these days. it's like when you wake up at 8am then falling asleep till 11am again.
tuition on fri was cancelled cos dylan was sick. so basically i didn't have tuition for the whole week. no cash lar.=X had to borrow money from mum, and used up everything too. sad. but lets hope dylan recovers soon. everyone's falling sick!
so went out with parents. shopped alone. first time i'm actually doing so. cos i never liked walking around alone. but i guess it's not so bad after all. retail therapy! but spent quite a lot. feels so good to have my own money to spend actually. unlike previously, when i was so desperate. but i guess i still prefer going out with people. haha.
ytd...driving was ok. though still stalled a few times, and kanna scolded a few times. heh cos i was super forgetful lar. there was once i actually wanted to stop but forgot to step on the clutch.=X so the engine just stalled.=X and i think one "immediate failure" offence. haha but generally, my instructor's comments were still quite good. he asked me who recommended me, and i said alvin. then he said alvin can't drive.-_- haha. but it was really quite funny lar, the way he said it. told my bro immediately, and he was laughing like mad.
then went to meet ja cynli jess pong. pool was fun! ja and i won pong and jess!=P but two times it was cos they hit in the black ball. HAHA. been a long time since i really played pool [excluding the time at shuxian's place cos there were just too many people playing then.]. and with good company somemore. then went to have dinner. sat from 730 to 11? haha from dinner to supper lar basically. had fun too! sit talk gossip and had some serious discussion. heh. but it was really good to catch up.=D
waiting to go clar's house for a mahjong session. though it's quite sad cos we're meeting at 6pm.=X a lil late huh. play for a few hours then have to zao liao. ah well. nvm at least we get to play.=)
week ahead will be quite xiong again. work esp. but i'm looking forward to council camp! can't wait to see who my grandbuddies are! this david ah, nv tell me who they are. want to kill him liao. haha. but feel so old! nv imagined myself going back to council camp as a GRANDBUDDY. gosh.
ok shall go do some housework. hai...which is why i hate to stay home on weekends. ARGH.
but nevertheless, it was quite good, and relaxing. could at least sleep till 11am for the past 3 days. which is quite a rarity these days. it's like when you wake up at 8am then falling asleep till 11am again.
tuition on fri was cancelled cos dylan was sick. so basically i didn't have tuition for the whole week. no cash lar.=X had to borrow money from mum, and used up everything too. sad. but lets hope dylan recovers soon. everyone's falling sick!
so went out with parents. shopped alone. first time i'm actually doing so. cos i never liked walking around alone. but i guess it's not so bad after all. retail therapy! but spent quite a lot. feels so good to have my own money to spend actually. unlike previously, when i was so desperate. but i guess i still prefer going out with people. haha.
ytd...driving was ok. though still stalled a few times, and kanna scolded a few times. heh cos i was super forgetful lar. there was once i actually wanted to stop but forgot to step on the clutch.=X so the engine just stalled.=X and i think one "immediate failure" offence. haha but generally, my instructor's comments were still quite good. he asked me who recommended me, and i said alvin. then he said alvin can't drive.-_- haha. but it was really quite funny lar, the way he said it. told my bro immediately, and he was laughing like mad.
then went to meet ja cynli jess pong. pool was fun! ja and i won pong and jess!=P but two times it was cos they hit in the black ball. HAHA. been a long time since i really played pool [excluding the time at shuxian's place cos there were just too many people playing then.]. and with good company somemore. then went to have dinner. sat from 730 to 11? haha from dinner to supper lar basically. had fun too! sit talk gossip and had some serious discussion. heh. but it was really good to catch up.=D
waiting to go clar's house for a mahjong session. though it's quite sad cos we're meeting at 6pm.=X a lil late huh. play for a few hours then have to zao liao. ah well. nvm at least we get to play.=)
week ahead will be quite xiong again. work esp. but i'm looking forward to council camp! can't wait to see who my grandbuddies are! this david ah, nv tell me who they are. want to kill him liao. haha. but feel so old! nv imagined myself going back to council camp as a GRANDBUDDY. gosh.
ok shall go do some housework. hai...which is why i hate to stay home on weekends. ARGH.
Thursday, April 5, 2007
我要的靠岸
歌曲：对调
歌手：林宇中 专辑：淋雨中
疲倦划不过桌前一座山
鼠标滑不出我困扰
爱不是档案一按就删掉
苦着对空气瞎微笑
每天来报到灵魂却闪掉
一颗空荡荡的大脑
难过就涂鸦流泪就睡觉
打卡就打掉分手那一秒
na～
烦恼下了班 薪水也泡汤
na～
又痛又快的爱一场
过热的电脑就得关掉
记忆会跟着糊掉
把自已剪下贴对方身上
交换身体看是否会疯掉
越吵问题越大
聪明的懂得装傻
偶尔把心情对调
把烦恼都放掉
因为能体谅所以能原谅
无奈 笑过就好
i like the attitude in this song.
__________________________________________________
歌曲：靠岸
歌手：林宇中 专辑：个人首张专辑
作词:林秋离 张丽念 作曲:李志清 编曲:吴庆隆
你坐花我身边
可是表情很不自然
聊的话很半凡却很悲伤
你说你不相信
活着就足为了梦想
甚至你更怀疑
什么是地久天长
咖啡麻醉不了孤单
只会让心更烫
哦都一样 所谓梦想
终究飘飘荡荡
在迷乱的台北流浪
寻找一个幻想
突然很渴望 在我身上
找到你要的靠岸
这一刻
当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿
爱情早已经开始始
思念早己经蔓延
咖啡麻醉不了孤单
只会让夜更长
我也一样飘飘荡荡
眼神交换迷惘
在冷漠的台北流浪
找一个避风港
突然很渴望 在你身上
也找到我要的靠岸
a song from his previous album. but it's really damn nice. again, i love the lyrics. can somehow relate to it.
overdose of chinese songs huh. heh.
歌手：林宇中 专辑：淋雨中
疲倦划不过桌前一座山
鼠标滑不出我困扰
爱不是档案一按就删掉
苦着对空气瞎微笑
每天来报到灵魂却闪掉
一颗空荡荡的大脑
难过就涂鸦流泪就睡觉
打卡就打掉分手那一秒
na～
烦恼下了班 薪水也泡汤
na～
又痛又快的爱一场
过热的电脑就得关掉
记忆会跟着糊掉
把自已剪下贴对方身上
交换身体看是否会疯掉
越吵问题越大
聪明的懂得装傻
偶尔把心情对调
把烦恼都放掉
因为能体谅所以能原谅
无奈 笑过就好
i like the attitude in this song.
__________________________________________________
歌曲：靠岸
歌手：林宇中 专辑：个人首张专辑
作词:林秋离 张丽念 作曲:李志清 编曲:吴庆隆
你坐花我身边
可是表情很不自然
聊的话很半凡却很悲伤
你说你不相信
活着就足为了梦想
甚至你更怀疑
什么是地久天长
咖啡麻醉不了孤单
只会让心更烫
哦都一样 所谓梦想
终究飘飘荡荡
在迷乱的台北流浪
寻找一个幻想
突然很渴望 在我身上
找到你要的靠岸
这一刻
当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿
爱情早已经开始始
思念早己经蔓延
咖啡麻醉不了孤单
只会让夜更长
我也一样飘飘荡荡
眼神交换迷惘
在冷漠的台北流浪
找一个避风港
突然很渴望 在你身上
也找到我要的靠岸
a song from his previous album. but it's really damn nice. again, i love the lyrics. can somehow relate to it.
overdose of chinese songs huh. heh.
捉迷藏
life can be utterly unfair, but we just got to accept it.
but it's never easy to accept. which is why i want to avoid being at home as much as possible. it's escapism, but i really can't think of anything better that i could do. i dun bother to argue anymore. i dun bother to even defend myself. there's no use anw.
went out for dinner with mel last night. talked really a lot, and noticed actually we do have many similarities in terms of our thinking. sometimes it's good to find someone who faces the same problems, so that at least that someone knows exactly how it feels like to be in your position.
possibility of extension of my stay in bosch. i really do hope i can stay till uni starts, so i dun have to listen to naggings about looking for another job. *crosses my fingers* jaslyn was being very nice about it. she told me that if she extends my contract, i can take leave anytime i want to, since it's during my break period anw. and she and kian ngee actually gave me this very big packet of haribo from germany! wow. actually they treat me really very well. gloria's coffee every morning, plus ang ku kuehs at times. oh man. though i wish i could be closer to the temp staff who are almost the same age as me. cos i only know all the oldies in there now.=X
oh and jasmine (kang's fren) worked as a stand-in receptionist ytd! i was so shocked when i saw her. we went back to rj together to have our lunch. oh man. damn huai nian. josie and marcus goh were there too. and of cos my dear buddy david! my gosh. you seldom see him being free man. oh and list of 27ths is out! quite a weird combination it seems. nvm i hope i get nice grandbuddies.=D
oh i bought lin yu zhong's album! it's such an ulu album, but i love it! esp zhuo mi cang (hide and seek). the tune is so catchy, plus the rest of his songs really brought back a lil of my childhood memories. i dunno why, just love his voice and his songs.=)
歌曲：捉迷藏
歌手：林宇中 专辑：淋雨中
亮发妆 行李箱
你先暂时不要管
机车引擎发动等你跳上来
风很凉 路很宽
甩掉穷追的烦恼
沙滩海洋铺好我们去赖床
脚步太快
太吵闹太污染太乱
喔 带着你落跑
跟城市躲猫猫
盖着蓝天窝窝让压迫感找不到
海风吻吻肩膀摇一摇就不痛了
不想要焦躁失眠忧郁血糖高
更不要车多人多钱多楼多爱太少
亲爱的别为了柴米油盐穷慌张
天塌下来有我在第一线为你扛
让轻松从紧蹦的世界活过来
像玩捉迷藏一样
躲着让现实生活
捉不到
捉不到
不安在云中央
在飞鸟的口中叼
你眼神笑开来
满格的讯号
快乐的回家
omg i bolded the whole chorus. that's how much i like the lyrics. i just love the rhythm of his songs. shall post more of his lyrics soon. somemore he wrote all his songs!
ok tuition tmr. driving on sat. meeting ja they all too. sunday playing mahjong at clar's house. but only night time.-_-
i love my life now.
[not when i'm at home though.]
but it's never easy to accept. which is why i want to avoid being at home as much as possible. it's escapism, but i really can't think of anything better that i could do. i dun bother to argue anymore. i dun bother to even defend myself. there's no use anw.
went out for dinner with mel last night. talked really a lot, and noticed actually we do have many similarities in terms of our thinking. sometimes it's good to find someone who faces the same problems, so that at least that someone knows exactly how it feels like to be in your position.
possibility of extension of my stay in bosch. i really do hope i can stay till uni starts, so i dun have to listen to naggings about looking for another job. *crosses my fingers* jaslyn was being very nice about it. she told me that if she extends my contract, i can take leave anytime i want to, since it's during my break period anw. and she and kian ngee actually gave me this very big packet of haribo from germany! wow. actually they treat me really very well. gloria's coffee every morning, plus ang ku kuehs at times. oh man. though i wish i could be closer to the temp staff who are almost the same age as me. cos i only know all the oldies in there now.=X
oh and jasmine (kang's fren) worked as a stand-in receptionist ytd! i was so shocked when i saw her. we went back to rj together to have our lunch. oh man. damn huai nian. josie and marcus goh were there too. and of cos my dear buddy david! my gosh. you seldom see him being free man. oh and list of 27ths is out! quite a weird combination it seems. nvm i hope i get nice grandbuddies.=D
oh i bought lin yu zhong's album! it's such an ulu album, but i love it! esp zhuo mi cang (hide and seek). the tune is so catchy, plus the rest of his songs really brought back a lil of my childhood memories. i dunno why, just love his voice and his songs.=)
歌曲：捉迷藏
歌手：林宇中 专辑：淋雨中
亮发妆 行李箱
你先暂时不要管
机车引擎发动等你跳上来
风很凉 路很宽
甩掉穷追的烦恼
沙滩海洋铺好我们去赖床
脚步太快
太吵闹太污染太乱
喔 带着你落跑
跟城市躲猫猫
盖着蓝天窝窝让压迫感找不到
海风吻吻肩膀摇一摇就不痛了
不想要焦躁失眠忧郁血糖高
更不要车多人多钱多楼多爱太少
亲爱的别为了柴米油盐穷慌张
天塌下来有我在第一线为你扛
让轻松从紧蹦的世界活过来
像玩捉迷藏一样
躲着让现实生活
捉不到
捉不到
不安在云中央
在飞鸟的口中叼
你眼神笑开来
满格的讯号
快乐的回家
omg i bolded the whole chorus. that's how much i like the lyrics. i just love the rhythm of his songs. shall post more of his lyrics soon. somemore he wrote all his songs!
ok tuition tmr. driving on sat. meeting ja they all too. sunday playing mahjong at clar's house. but only night time.-_-
i love my life now.
[not when i'm at home though.]
Monday, April 2, 2007
what's the meaning of understanding someone?
life's jokes on people can be very frustrating sometimes. i really hope you won't be beaten, but rather grow stronger cos of that. but i guess it takes time, lots of it. just dun ever lose the belief in yourself. jiayou ba! you'll always have a friend in me, though maybe sometimes i just won't ever understand.=X
the feeling of helplessness.
softball gathering ytd was rather fun. just hung around, played a few games, drank a lil and had good food. didn't talk much, but just sitting around and listening to the rest talk was amusing and entertaining enough.=P the ride home was long and lonely though. 61... reached home at around 1am? died at work today.=X and had to postponed tuition. yet, waited for mum in the car for 1 plus hr. damn hot and humid, and was feeding mosquitoes throughout. what's the difference between this and tuition lar.
quarrelled with my mum till i almost teared in the car over many things this morning. first it was the issue about the khao lak trip, then it led to dad, then led to how i dun understand what they are thinking. have they ever tried understanding me? they THINK they know me. well, felt a lil guilty over some stuff that i said, but i hope i did establish some point. the fact that i've been quiet thus far doesn't mean that i'm happy with everything. i just chose to keep quiet. i guess that's not good in the long run, like now.
do you know that it's not that i want to go out, it's just that i dun want to stay at home? there's a big difference.
at least some stuff are settled now. confirmed my cip trip to khao lak, but have to forego my vietnam trip. i've been wanting to do something meaningful, esp during this long break. i guess this is my chance. and with jun around, i'll definitely feel more comfortable. hope it'll be a good experience for all of us going. =)
it'll be 8 days in thailand for the whole june, plus 2 days in july. heh. 14-19june in khao lak, and 29jun to 2 july in bangkok. lets hope the situation in thailand stabilises soon enough.
ok sleep!
the feeling of helplessness.
softball gathering ytd was rather fun. just hung around, played a few games, drank a lil and had good food. didn't talk much, but just sitting around and listening to the rest talk was amusing and entertaining enough.=P the ride home was long and lonely though. 61... reached home at around 1am? died at work today.=X and had to postponed tuition. yet, waited for mum in the car for 1 plus hr. damn hot and humid, and was feeding mosquitoes throughout. what's the difference between this and tuition lar.
quarrelled with my mum till i almost teared in the car over many things this morning. first it was the issue about the khao lak trip, then it led to dad, then led to how i dun understand what they are thinking. have they ever tried understanding me? they THINK they know me. well, felt a lil guilty over some stuff that i said, but i hope i did establish some point. the fact that i've been quiet thus far doesn't mean that i'm happy with everything. i just chose to keep quiet. i guess that's not good in the long run, like now.
do you know that it's not that i want to go out, it's just that i dun want to stay at home? there's a big difference.
at least some stuff are settled now. confirmed my cip trip to khao lak, but have to forego my vietnam trip. i've been wanting to do something meaningful, esp during this long break. i guess this is my chance. and with jun around, i'll definitely feel more comfortable. hope it'll be a good experience for all of us going. =)
it'll be 8 days in thailand for the whole june, plus 2 days in july. heh. 14-19june in khao lak, and 29jun to 2 july in bangkok. lets hope the situation in thailand stabilises soon enough.
ok sleep!
Sunday, April 1, 2007
a trying period
maybe sometimes people just need to seek comfort, in people close to them, in doing things that they normally won't do, and to seek some sort of assurance that things will always be fine. it's never easy to give that sort of assurance though, esp when you yourself are facing a similar situation. or sometimes it just happens that the same thing you tell the other person, you can't even seek comfort in the same words.
lets hope everyone will feel better soon. this is indeed a trying period.
met up with kang on thurs!=) busy girl. for a very short period of time only though. but glad we still managed to catch up. hopefully there'll be more to come! though my contract with bosch is ending in end april.=X
oops my attempt was too blur.=X
much better in kang's hand.=P
work on fri was super busy, cos jaslyn just came back from germany. it's super scary how much she's relying on me though. cos i can't afford to make any mistake. ah well i shall learn to take on more responsibilities with more confidence, and belief that i can do them well.=)
tuition...wanted to vomit blood lar. got dylan to read through some physics chapter, he read through, and when i quizzed him, he can't even remember most of what the chapter was talking about! physical quantities and measurements leh! can't figure out why someone would rather IMAGINE how areas and volumes are calculated rather than using a formula itself.=X and he refuses to use a calculator. what a stubborn kid.
sat driving. it was actually quite fun. my instructor allowed me to try one-hand driving and use the 4th gear! heh i chionged 75km/h.=P getting a bit more of the steering and braking and all those liao. but still stalled engine twice cos of unfamiliar grounds.=X ah well. and my instructor said i was "above average".=D lets hope i keep up with my "standard".
after driving was 405 gathering at clar's house. it was quite fun i guess. 20 people became 12 people.=X food was quite good, and we just talked about a lot of things. cliques were very obvious though. but nvm at least we got to meet up. stayed at her house till 11pm with mel.
waiting for softball gathering next. wonder why i still can't talk to the guys at all after two years. guess it'll be quite weird again later. ah well nvm. it'll be fun.=D
oh and i MIGHT be able to get my own laptop next mth. i shall cross my fingers.=)
ahhh why does the weekend have to pass SOOOO quickly?!
lets hope everyone will feel better soon. this is indeed a trying period.
met up with kang on thurs!=) busy girl. for a very short period of time only though. but glad we still managed to catch up. hopefully there'll be more to come! though my contract with bosch is ending in end april.=X
oops my attempt was too blur.=X
much better in kang's hand.=P
work on fri was super busy, cos jaslyn just came back from germany. it's super scary how much she's relying on me though. cos i can't afford to make any mistake. ah well i shall learn to take on more responsibilities with more confidence, and belief that i can do them well.=)
tuition...wanted to vomit blood lar. got dylan to read through some physics chapter, he read through, and when i quizzed him, he can't even remember most of what the chapter was talking about! physical quantities and measurements leh! can't figure out why someone would rather IMAGINE how areas and volumes are calculated rather than using a formula itself.=X and he refuses to use a calculator. what a stubborn kid.
sat driving. it was actually quite fun. my instructor allowed me to try one-hand driving and use the 4th gear! heh i chionged 75km/h.=P getting a bit more of the steering and braking and all those liao. but still stalled engine twice cos of unfamiliar grounds.=X ah well. and my instructor said i was "above average".=D lets hope i keep up with my "standard".
after driving was 405 gathering at clar's house. it was quite fun i guess. 20 people became 12 people.=X food was quite good, and we just talked about a lot of things. cliques were very obvious though. but nvm at least we got to meet up. stayed at her house till 11pm with mel.
waiting for softball gathering next. wonder why i still can't talk to the guys at all after two years. guess it'll be quite weird again later. ah well nvm. it'll be fun.=D
oh and i MIGHT be able to get my own laptop next mth. i shall cross my fingers.=)
ahhh why does the weekend have to pass SOOOO quickly?!
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