hana kimi!

omg i'm seriously falling in love with quan. AHHHHH! haha. he's SO DAMN nice, and protective.

"xian zai de ni bu yong zai wei zhuang zi ji, fang xin de yi lai zhe wo ba"

"bu guan zai ren he de shi ke, ni dou ke yi fang xin de ba zi ji jiao gei wo"

"wei le yao yan hu ni, wo yi ding hui bi ni geng lei"

awww...it's so nice having someone protect you in such a way. he's like the dream guy lar. at least for me. haha. i'm SUPER hooked. have been sleeping at 2-5am watching the show.=X but i just wanna see how the show develops, and of cos how quan takes care of ruixi, with his "intense glare" [heh jun] and the worried look on his face whenever ruixi gets into some kind of trouble. perfect guy lar. i realised i always like this kind of guys. like what i told ja a few days ago on msn. the quiet and silently taking care of people type. oh and i got jun hooked too.=P

and zhuan shu tian shi is HOW nice. PERFECT song lar. here are the lyrics:

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会 像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为 生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望

simply touching.

another two names to my thank-you list. haha i wonder why it gets longer after my bday has been over for quite some time. heh. now thank you to chork and daniel lam [though i haven even talked to him before this, and i haven found out how he knew when my bday was.=X]. chork was soo funny. he asked me the bdays of 3 people who msged him cos he said he didn't know when their bdays were but they still msged him! haha.

oh and i got my provisional license.=) haven called the instructor though.=X too lazy to do so. haha.

jun came over to my house ytd. i think she's the 2nd person after my pri sch days who visited my house.=X haha. my house doesnt usually have visitors. anw. it was good looking thru all the photos with her. somehow thought of the memories we've shared together. and of cos watching hana kimi in my room.=P so funny. we were discussing about the characters and all that. though my house has nothing much to do, we kept ourselves entertained by watching the show. hope you like the dinner! and i was SUCH a dian deng pao in the car after you left! hahah. i think they didn't talk much because i was there. OOPS.=P

results will be out on fri. scary. i really dunno what to expect. shud i hope for 4As? i'm really worried that the higher my expectations, the more disappointed i will be if i didn't get. argh.

ok back to hana kimi.=P

sometimes i think too much. i'm living in my own imagination at times.

random post.

i took a few days to post the previous entry, cos my laptop just doesn't want to work.=X

but anw, shall add yowie and hu-lin to my thank-you list! they remembered though they were at camp.=D though they were a few days late.

am currently hunting for a new phone. i want the chio samsung phone, but it's too old a model.=( shall look for the next target. but there's nothing really nice in the market right now, with the right price. haha.

applying for provisional license later too, though i passed my basic theory test a month ago, and my advanced theory test is a month later. haha. i SERIOUSLY hope i wont fail the eyesight test, i'm quite worried actually. sounds not THAT easy to me.=X

been watching hana kimi on youtube.=) it's damn nice and funny lar. and quan is so.....charming. haha! but i think it's damn hard to find someone with his character. silently taking care of people. and caring for others though he doesnt express it out verbally. and when you need someone, he's always there. awww... been a long time since i like a character on tv. no wonder the show is so popular. heh. i slept at 4am watching the show after playing diablo with my bro again.=X

invited jun over to my house tmr. and my bro is bringing jy along. hmm it'll be quite fun i think, though it'll just be a normal dinner. looking forward to it! and it's work again on monday. i think it'll get quite boring AGAIN cos jaslyn is going on business trip.=(

happy birthday.

"last day of being a teen" haha i feel so old now.

i realised how when one grows older, the novelty of a birthday celebration also diminishes, and i've come to accept it. it was a simple birthday - no cake, no song, no surprises, no wishes, no special event, but one with much love. not many remembered, but i guess it's not something that i should be upset about. there wasn't the usual anticipation, the usual excitement, the usual suspense, it's probably only school life that will tend to make such special days even more special. now that we've all graduated, it's nv good to expect too much i suppose.

it was a normal boring day. had wanted to take half-day to rest, but was scolded for it. so i just waited for dinner to come. dinner was spent with jun at sakae.=) we sat there from 7 to around 10pm, and just kept talking. ate till we were so full! but thank you jun for the wondeful wonderful [sorry for the lack of a better word] present! love the photos, the memories, and most of all, the bond and friendship we share. all the special days are spent with you!=D and i forgot to tell you! i still have your rose! 6 days.=P shall post some pictures after jun send them to me.

it wasn't the most happening, exciting, surprising, happy birthday in my life - probably one of the simplest ever - but the night was good, cos of great company. thanks also to the following people: kang, joshua, jess, pong, tubby, boon, ja, cherry, cynli, senthil, charles, amy, jocelyn, jian rong, mingjie, cai, xiu wen, denise, xin cai, mel, christie & junghans for remembering 21st feb. and of cos my family. to nadjad, christie & charles, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY! now's your turn.=D

i'm currently still suffering from a sleep debt. throughout the whole day i was feeling SUPER sleepy. dampened my bday spirits. but ah well. shall try hard to remember i'm 19 now. [somehow that fact hasn't sunk in yet.]

some quiz that i did. surprisingly, some of the things they said are damn true. i was even telling jun some of those just now. woah.

How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others:
You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair, always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You very much want to be liked and because of your need for approval and acceptance, you are easily influenced by others' opinions, especially when young. You so much want to please that often you will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as phoniness or wishy-washiness.

The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
At heart you are very gentle, impressionable, and receptive -a dreamer. The world of your imagination, feelings, and intuition is as real to you as anything in the outer world, though you may have trouble verbalizing or interpreting your inner experiences in a way others can understand. Mystical, artistic, musical, emotional and imaginative, you have a rich inner life, though you may seem rather unobtrusive and quiet outwardly. You usually keep to yourself.

i can't believe how true some of these quizzes are.

nice cny break.

last day of being 18, shall blog a bit.=D

last two days were fun. well actually it seems like it's only one day to me cos i only slept for 1 hr last night.=X

played diablo with bro the whole morning and afternoon ytd till i left the house to go bai nian at charles' place. lost $8 playing blackjack with the 25ths cos of the banker job, but in the end jonny returned us his earnings.=X just sat around talking and crapping after that. while celebrating charles' bday, they also sang bday songs for the rest of the feb babies.=) then had pizza for dinner before trooping down to xinyi's house. decided to stayover and play tong xiao mahjong cos they wouldnt have enough people otherwise. so in the end, we played till morning, and i left her place at 7am.

reached home at around 8, washed up, slept for 1 hr, then went down to meet my classmates. as usual, at 12pm, there were only 4 there if i'm not wrong. went to breeks for lunch and just sat there and talked. girl-guy segregation was super obvious cos of the army talks though.=X some of the guys looked farnie without hair, but i think some look better. haha. guys decided to pangseh the girls and play cs, then the girls actually wanted to watch protege, but the cinema was too crowded. so just sat and talked again. then mel and i left early to go tampines for our movie.

i've been wanting to watch protege for super long, at least i got to watch today.=) the show was not bad, with the drug-taking scenes super painful to watch. i dun like the idea of looking at needles poke through your skin.=X the director took 8 years to find out everything about the drug-taking and drug trafficking scene. i guess the movie just exposed us to the horrors of taking drugs. cos usually we just read about the withdrawal symptoms and cold turkey. and the show actually showed how these were like. it's so sad when people actually turn to drugs to escape.

ah well. so that concludes my cny break. short but fulfilling 4 days. i finally feel like i have a life. haha.

happy cny!

it's amazing how people change every year. i only get to see most of my relatives once a year, and i realised that many have changed a lot. all my nieces and nephews [to be frank i can't even recognise the little kids. too many of them seriously], then my aunties and uncles who seem to age super quickly. and of cos many would say my bro changed a lot cos of his (not-so) new look. my cousin's wife even asked me, "so you this year sec four ah?"=X

and something not very good happened. my bro was driving fast as usual, then when he was cutting into a lane, he brushed past a car cos he didnt check his blind spot, so in the end, the other driver and my bro and my mum went to negotiate. in the end paid money to settle the whole issue. BUT it didn't go so smoothly. cos the person was super angry with my bro's attitude and he started f-ing. good thing my bro didnt fight back. or i really think it'd turn SUPER ugly.=X ah well. what a thing to spoil the whole cny mood.

on a side note, the radio KEEPS playing cny songs it's getting on my nerves. at least 1/2 the songs played are cny songs.=X

ytd was reunion lunch with the 25ths. though the girls were quite outnumbered, it was good just meeting up i guess. we chose fish & co after walking around the whole place. and they actually celebrated the bdays of the jan and feb babies. AND knowing fish & co, it was that bday rap again. i remember being very amused by it when we celebrated raisa's bday there. good thing i wasn't standing alone this time.=P then xinyi convinced me to go home with her. so i thought, i shall be a good girl and come home earlier to do more household chores for my mum. met jun at the mrt and ended up walking with her to the arcade where the rest of the 25ths are. haha. but i guess just catching up with each other was quite enjoyable, though there were just too many army stories to listen to.=X

house visiting with 25ths again tmr. haha. i think it'd be quite fun. BUT i think the numbers will be pathetic this time round. but nvm.=)

class gathering on tues. we didnt manage to book any restaurant, though i really wanted to, but i guess everything was settled WAY too late. and knowing my class, i think we might end up walking around town for 1 hr and we won't find a place to settle down. haha. ah well at least our class gets to meet up i guess.

these few days will be quite packed with fun. but everything just have to end on tues.=X i wanna have leave on wed! nvm i shan't keep whining about it.

heavenly food.

i wonder if it's just a normal sore throat, throat infection, or like what jun said, the doc accidentally cut my throat when she was extracting my wisdom teeth. or it was simply due to the effects of the anaesthetic. in any case, my throat was SOOO painful for the past few days that eating porridge was hell for me [ok i am exaggerating.=X i think my pain threshold is not very high.]. in the mornings, even swallowing my saliva was ultra painful. not only that, the saliva i spit out would often consist of blood, and it's quite a scary sight, plus knowing that my throat is just filled with a whole lot of blood.=X

i think i've eaten more medicine the past few days as compared to 5 years of my life.=X i was taking 10 pills after meals at one point of time. but i'm glad it's all over. my throat is not completely healed, but i can at least force down a bowl of noodles, and a plate of hor fun ytd. it's so stupid that the pain i've been going through for the past few days is not even due to the surgery itself, it's due to a damn sore throat that i'm not even sure how it came about. maybe this experience will make me have a phobia of GA from now on.=X

the only scars left after the surgery now are the blue-blacks on my left chin and on my left hand. i wonder why there is even a blue-black on my chin.=X

nvm shall talk about happier stuff! vday was spent with jun!=D we wanted to go to some jap buffet restaurant, but cos of my throat, i thought we shouldn't waste the money. so after much thinking about which places sell good porridge, we booked crystal jade. we were actually a lil worried at first when we found out it was crystal jade PALACE that we booked, but in the end, we ate the cheaper range of food there. so it wasn't THAT bad.

i guess it was good that my vday was spent with such a special friend. makes me cherish the day even though i'm still single. jun, thanks for dating me and keeping me company!=P if not i'll feel SOO lonely on a day like this. haha and it was definitely good talking, and just walking around.

i was pleasantly surprised to receive an sms from an old friend. no matter what we are doing in our own lives now, i guess at least at some points of time, we still remember each other, and to me, that's important. to be remembered by a friend in years to come, knowing that he or she has never forgotten this friendship. i guess the pain from failed friendships has made me even more determined to treasure the ones that i have now.

and... my new wardrobe is here! [i sound like a little kid looking forward to the small little changes that she experiences in her life every now and then] but yes, my room looks MUCH neater, with more space for my garments, and more space for the things in my room. everything is kept behind the closed doors [yes literally], and i finally get to categorize all my belongings properly. it's not such a good thing for my parents though. they are complaining about space contraints. but then again, my dad always complains without making the effort to try and change things.

i like my room a lot more now.=D

cny is here! but that means i have to clear up everything, and tolerate the scoldings again. i wanna go out on cny eve, and on my bday.=( poor me still have to return to work. hai...

wisdom tooth.

past few days have been horrible.=( not emotionally, but physically. after the op to extract my wisdom teeth on fri, i have been feeling super weak, with a VERY sore throat, runny nose that refuses to clear, plus a lot of restrictions on the food i eat. i have been relying on porridge for the last few days, and i think i'll have to for the next few days as well. argh.

experience on the operating table is quite new though. when the surgeon injected the anaesthetic into my body, she went, "good night", and then gave me an oxygen mask to breathe into. once i did that, i immediately went unconscious. i was dreaming during the whole op lar. when i woke up, i was still having the oxygen mask on my face, and somehow i didnt know what i went through. then, i dunno why, i started tearing and tearing [i think there's something wrong with my tear gland.=X] and the nurse asked me, "why are you crying? pain is it?" i shook my head. "then why are you so upset?" i just shrugged my shoulders, cos i really didnt know what was wrong with me too.

when i was back at my ward, the nurse asked me to sleep, but i just couldn't go back to sleep. so i was in a very horrible state, with two huge gauze in my mouth, with a damn sore throat cos i wasn't supposed to drink or eat from the midnight before, and i couldn't even do anything. so i just laid there. for a few hours i think, before my mum came.

came home and couldn't even go back to sleep. in the end, was helping to clear the house though i wasn't supposed to do so. did that for the past few days at home, and i think my condition worsened. came down with a horrible headache, and i couldn't even sleep at night, with a throat that couldnt even swallow water. hai now i only wish that all these would be over soon, or at least resume my normal eating.

8 days mc. woah. but i think i wont go back to work so soon. though it means no income. but with my face so horribly swollen, i wouldnt dare to go out and scare people. removal of stitches on fri. i seriously hope it wont hurt so much.=X

crossing invisible barriers.

no matter how it turned out, i already tried. and i think it was good that i got over my psychological barrier. i have no idea what made me do it, but i just had a strong feeling that i should, and i did. though it was really weird and awkward, i guess at least i showed that i care, and never forgotten this friendship of mine. i should be happy for that.=)

met rj pe teachers during lunch at clover today. i was walking with my mum, then suddenly i thought i saw mr seah, then i looked closer and i saw mr low, xu hui, ms pang and some other pe teachers! i was super shocked. then mr seah looked at me and "commanded" me to go over. i still think mr seah is damn funny. haha! but anw mr seah and xu hui said, "eh you look very different." i was staring at them and giving a very blank look. then mr seah went, "in a good way of cos!" haha! i never fail to be amused whenever i talk to him.

i so miss rj. and though i can see the school from my work desk everyday, i still miss the people, the life, even the mugging. how i wish i could still wear the white and green uniform, hang around council room, play some games at the bball court or field, camp at A61, mug at the canteen, etc etc. nothing's gonna be the same anymore.

there's always this barrier that i can never seem to cross. i think i need to think less and be more natural.

much better.

i think listening to chinese songs is therapeutic. i felt a lot better after watching superstar, in which daren won! yay! haha.

and felt better while talking to people online too. thanks yowie for this:

"all i can say is.... from my personal experience lar.... when u feel that pple dont understand u.....
yea ure damn right. they dont....
but the impt thing is... they dont really intend to
and they definitely would if given the option
the way the world works.... and they way the world should work really is quite unrelated.. after all... the world doesnt have a collective conscience and hence u cant really blame it. thats how i come to terms with my problems anw
so... *patpat* dont worry theres always a whole new world of opportunity waiting every second that ure still breathing"

i wouldn't say i was very much enlightened, cos i was still very negative then, but at least, i really felt a lot better after this. really appreciated that.=D

sometimes i think it's easier to mask your true feelings than to attempt to explain to people. or maybe that's cos i'm not an expressive person.

what my name means (rather interesting):
You entered: Wang Yuyou, Amelia

There are 15 letters in your name.Those 15 letters total to 67
There are 8 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 11
A Soul Urge number of 11 means: With the 11 Soul Urge, much of your thinking and interests relate to the abstract, the spiritual, and utopian dreams. You are motivated toward idealistic concepts, and the sharing of your ideas and concepts with humanity. This number is not one that is giving in a material or a practical sense, but rather one who desires to help mankind with a more abstract commodity such as religion, spiritualism, occult studies, or even psychic abilities.

If you possess the positive 11 Soul Urge traits, you have a dream of the perfect world; you are highly idealistic and inspirational. Your inner strength and devotion to your beliefs are extremely strong. You have a very good mind that is especially well equipped to handle the higher, more abstract forms of thought.

If there is an excess of 11 energy in your makeup, you may possess some the negative 11 traits. There is a tendency for the 11 to produce considerable amounts of nervous tension which is bought on by a very high level of awareness. You may be too sensitive and overly emotional. In some cases, these sensitivities and emotions are quite repressed, and this tends to add even more to the sense of nervousness in the makeup.

The strong 11 is not a very practical person because of the extreme idealism; often, there is a degree of self-deception present. There is usually a rather fixed idea of right and wrong held by those showing strong 11 traits, and with this very often is a resulting attitude of inflexibility.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11
An Inner Dream number of 11 means: You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

some parts aren't that true, but the rest are actually quite accurate. though what i dun like about quizzes is that they over-generalise people. but i guess you can't have a too accurate quiz result too, or else that would be DAMN scary. imagine computer knowing more about you than yourself.=X

joshua asked me what i wanted for my bday. haven't thought of it yet actually. i dun even know what i wanna achieve or get for myself this year, how do i tell others? i think i just need small surprises for my life to be a lil more exciting these days. heh.

results out on 15th? i really hope not. after cny would be good. so i dun have to entertain that many questions on results. and after cny would mean it'll be after my bday, so i can enjoy my bday first.=D

i hate my life.

wo men ke bu ke yi bu yong gan?

i'm tired of being strong. but is there any alternative? no. cos at this time and age, you can't afford not to be strong. it's not in school, when you're still so sheltered. now, we're judged by everything we do.

i thought i was a strong person, but no, i just realised i'm not. i may be smiling all the time, but somehow, my heart is screaming for attention. today, i have no idea what came over me, but i just started crying and crying. i just feel that i'm such a failure. i feel that i've failed in every single aspect of my life, for both tangible and intangible stuff. i can't even think of anything that i'm proud of that i've done for the past 18 years. i dun even possess anything that i can feel happy about. i just feel like giving up everything, and lead a happier life and not caring about anything. but yet, i can't do that. it's irresponsible.

and it just didn't help that despite everything i've done at home, it seems like it's never enough. i'm expected to do so much. i'm expected to listen to them. i'm expected to do well. the pressure on me is overwhelming, and yet, they give my bro so much leeway to do whatever he wants to do. even when i was having Os or As, i was helping out with housework and all. now, he's having a SMALL test, and he's excused from doing anything. he doesn't have time to do housework, but he has tons of time to go out and have fun. and for me, when i said i wanted to go out, she just stared at me, and said, "so you expecting me to do everything lar." and the fact is, i've been staying at home on weekends for the whole of last month, doing EVERYTHING, and yet they still take it for granted that i'm supposed to do everything. talk about equal roles in the family. sometimes i just feel like walking out.

sometimes i wonder how it all turned out this way. even the closest person in my life is slowly drifting away from me. i can't stand it when you preach to me about one thing, and on the next day, you dun follow what you said. i can't stand it when you give so many excuses about being busy, and commanding me to do everything, when you can spend your days going out and having fun. so what if you have a gf? does that mean you can just throw everything else to people around you and make them clean up all your shit for you? does that mean that people around you have to give in to you all the time, and revolve everything they do around your schedule? all the relatives still think you're an angel. and me, just a load of rubbish hiding behind you who's getting all the attention.

yes i can complain all i want here, but nothing's in my control. the next moment i know, i'm being asked to do something else, and getting scolded for sitting in front of my comp not doing anything. i know my parents are probably wondering why i was pulling a long face just now. they prob thought that i was being angry at them for making me do everything. but i seriously dun care. they prob didn't even know i was tearing. they nv seem to understand what i feel anw. not that anybody truly does.

i wonder what will make me happy again.

what a wonderful day..

today was the best day for the whole of 2007 for me so far.

work was good. nowadays, people just come to me whenever they have some saigang to do. but i would rather be busy than to be free actually. and sometimes some of them would make some funny comments and all of us would just burst out laughing. i realised kian ngee is kenny, and he's a really DAMN funny person. somehow whenever i hear him talk, i'd feel like laughing. and today they were stereotyping against rj students, kept saying, "eh you rj student, should be ok for you wat.". and they were suaning kian ngee cos he's a uni graduate but he also couldn't figure out how to form a box using some cardboard. i'm beginning to like my workplace and the people a lot more.=)

and something SUPER weird happened at work. i was supposed to get some information from this person, who's the general manager working in bosch malaysia. so i emailed him, and he replied with a "hope you're enjoying your stay here with us while waiting for uni". i was wondering how he knew i was waiting for my results. in subsequent emails, he was telling me about nus business school, and he even said, "heard you were from rj?" i was super shocked. how did a person from MALAYSIA even knew that i was from rj? general manager somemore! then he said he was from acjc. haha. until now, i still havent figured out how he knew where i was from.=X

met up with buddies after work today! went back to rj for a while to wait for them, and talked to the canteen auntie, jason, and marcus goh. buddy dinner was really good. really did a lot of catching up, and talked about a lot other things. really felt very relaxed, and at some points thought of my own council term. though short, it was a very good session. told them that every fri is buddy dinner! and i hope they'd be able to meet up on future fridays.=)

Oh and did I mention? I’m gonna have a custom-made wardrobe which acts like a walk-in wardrobe! This is quite exciting. It’s a whole new look for my bedroom. After the refurnishing, and the re-painting. My brother and parents are having new custom-made wardrobes too, just that theirs can’t be walk-in wardrobes. heh. i'm lucky enough.=)

i think when you least expect something, the more it'll appear. received an sms from a friend today, and suddenly felt so happy. dunno why also. i guess sometimes, the anticipation spoils the emotions. whenever you hope that something will happen, it doesn't. but when you dun think about it at all, that event will happen.

i wonder why i'm getting increasingly pissed at him. now, i dun even feel like telling him anything.